Wow... Been a long time since I've even really been on this site.  Going back and reading old journal entries from a couple years ago makes me feel quite silly.  Was that really me?  Did I say such drivel? Looks like I really have come a long way.  I am not that confused woman without a clue or goal anymore.

Well here we go again.  I thought I had found once and for all what I had needed.  Why is life so cruel sometimes, why is it that it brings two people together that fit so well, and then rips them apart?  Is there a lesson to be learned from it?  It doesn't seem fair. 

Well..  here we are again.  I thought I knew where things were headed with Master from NC but he has decided that he is leaving the lifestyle.  Seems an odd thing to happen and I imagine he'll change his mind again.  But I will not be here waiting when he returns.  My life moves onward.  I have learned much of myself from our relationship, and I will carry this knowledge with me into the next. 

Life moves ever onward.  And even when it seems there is none, there is always hope.  I've learned much of myself and this path that I am on in such a short time.  I look forward to where it may bring me.I am glad that those that I would have called friend are so happy in their lives. 

Got to talk to Master today, even if rather briefly, it always makes me feel better.  :)Went back to work today and was quite productive, got lots done.  Everything seems to have settled back to normal.  The only issue I seem to have had is that someone misunderstood what I said in yesterday's journal.  I would never try to get her to question how her Master feels for her, or that he is a good force in her life.  Perhaps the wording was wrong... I dunno.   It doesn't really matter at this point.  I wish her the best and will be here if and when she forgives me.