i think the unbelievable has happened! i have met a Sir through here that is intelligent, insightful and incredibly fun to talk to! While i thank any who have taken the time to send me a message, this seems SO different. So much so i feel compelled to write about it.    i have to admit that i had pretty much gven up hope of meeting anyone to talk about life, the lifestyle and just fun and interesting things. That isnt to say i have not met some special people in my life but none recently that reassured me that this part of me IS real and not just steeped in fantasy.   i have never journaled here but wanted to share this experience with submissives, Masters, Tops/bottoms and inbetweens still learning who they are. i know how frustrating it is to want to meet people. It can be so tough  that we may be tempted to settle for just any kind of attention we can attract.    i don't know if i will ever meet this Sir in real life but i DO feel very grateful to find someone offering friendship and One who seems more interested in who i am as a person than just what i can do to give him a stiffy! i swear he makes me feel taller, more beautiful and more secure in who and what i am.    We talk about 101 topics (including the  Lifesytle but also other interesting things as well!). He pulls out the thougts and ideas that i never seem to share any more. He doesn't make me feel silly, needy or ashamed of them. In fact we often laugh about the dychotomy of it all! He doesn't seem to expect to speak to a sex kitten every time we talk. i mean in the real world some days are awesome and some are awful. Who knew i could find someone on CollarMe that seems to understand that (i know wow huh?) .   i have been in the club scene, i have had some absolutely wonderful experiences with Masters in rt and online. i have had some not so great experiences too. i just want to share and encourage folks to NOT give up, to NOT settle and most of all to BELIEVE in themselves and what they have to offer!   As i said, we may never meet. We may meet and not 'connect'. i don't have the benefit of knowing where things will go. But i feel like i found a friend and a kindred spirt and how awesome is THAT? i am enjoying getting to know someone who is helping me remember why i love this part of myself.   If noone ever reads this, i am cool with that too! i love the thought that i am sending this into cyber space instead of holding it inside. i wish i could tell him thank you for making me laugh at the world and myself again. And thank you for helping me feel i am a normal girl with normal needs and that is just fine.    So i will content myself with hoping each of can surround ourselves with friends like this! No matter where this friendship goes i know i am going to try harder to be a better submissive, a better friend, lover and person. i wish i were brave enough to put his name in this entry but he would probably shoot me! All my best to each of us struggling to find and make connections that matter!trubba