I am really trying my best to better myself, to be a better me :) I'm discovring and experiencing new things. Learning a lot about myself. I thought I knew myself very well but there seems to be much more to discover! lol.    I often find CM to be a joke. All these 'Doms' & 'Subs' just looking for wank fodder or a quick fuck. Good luck with that. I'm not playing that game. 

I think I may add this in some variation to my profile. I have had it, I'm fed up with this shit. H## DISCLAIMER## I'm going to say this because of MY experience: I am not into random booty calls, casual sex, fwb etc. ## If I offend you with my statement, my bad. blame the retards, not me. I need to make this as clear as the English language allows. Before I give out my number, Yahoo, Skype etc. to see if we are even on the same page. Dear Random Stranger, If you want to insinuate sexual acts, then I will insinuate my own Motherfucking demands. I don't know you and don't give a shit. I'm too old for the games, too experienced for the 'tricks'. I won't fall for your lies. I'm done playing nice and polite. Fuck you, *Sweettea*

New journal/blog entry on FL @ callmesweettea

It's not just about whether I will ever find someone who thinks I am worth something. it's also about if I think I am worth it. Whether someone somewhere someday be able to see the value in me? Hope is a bitch. Often leaving you with despair instead.

*And it's peaceful in the deep*and it's breaking over me. A thousand miles down to the sea bed. *Never let me go, never let me go. It's over! I'm not giving up, I'm just giving in! * So cold & so sweet, in the arms of the ocean! * Deliver me! And it's overrrrr! I'm not giving up! I'm just giving in! Never let me go! (Florence + the Machine)