I've been involved with BDSM for nearly 20 years now and seen and done a lot, no problem. But I went to Dukes Brewhouse tonight for the first time not knowing what it was about, and now I feel dirty.

Another act of stupidity by my insurance company with my heart medication means I haven't slept for a couple days and have no idea when I will be able to again. Is it really so wrong of me to wish I had a powerful woman in my life who could take my fears and anxieties away?

I'm so enraged and stressed right now after dealing with doctors, pharmacy, and insurance stupidity all day, five days a week, for a month now, and now I'm stuck waiting all weekend again with nothing resolved. Makes me wish I had a special someone in my life who could help take my mind off it.

I love it when my meds give me wild and kinky dreams, just a shame I have to wake up from them and get back to my boring and lonely life. I'd sleep more if they were consistent, but the meds give me both good and bad. Ordered to suck my neighbor's toes last night, but survived a plane crash and was coughing up glass and metal the night before.

Why in the world would anyone in their right mind make an appointment this early on a Saturday???