AlphaBitch6547

You move forward. You find the light of day again and the ability to heal the wounds instead of looking for something else to heal them. You are the only one that can heal the pain you feel. Then you move forward and let paths cross your life and see what it is that those paths bring to you. If you open yourself up you will find some very perfect hidden gems; gems others tripped on and kicked aside. Those gems you find and pick up give you greater rewards than anything else you think you may find. Why? because you took the time to look really look deep inside to see what was really there that everyone else ignored or were to blind to see the little glimmer of beauty that is wanting to be given to the light of day.

Being a slave or a submissive one is just a greater degree of the other. How deep do you want to go with your ability and desire to serve. In a great many aspects I have been a slave, a submissive, a switch and now a Domme... I have been all of them in a span of just a matter of months. It was a hard road but one that had to be traveled. I met my second husband, the other half of my soul the other half of my heart I was finally complete. But I knew going into this relationship that our time was going to be very limited due to his health. I just didn't know it was going to be so limited. He was a very dynamic man very much an Alpha in ever respect we were a perfect couple for this part of his life's journey. 

As I said I have been everything from a slave to a domme in a matter of months I discovered that even though the dominant side of me had to take care of business he also needed the very much softer side of me to care for him, love him and give him compassion and caring when others had walked away ours was but a very short season. I know the highest of highs in love I know the lowest of lows in loss and sorrow. I was his wife, his partner, his lover, his confidant, his servant, his slave, his care giver and his protector. He was my everything and so I willingly and lovingly gave him my everything till his very last breath and beyond.

Gone is my Master, my Alpha, my Mate, left is a hole where his measure had been placed when we were united.

Now I search for the balm and the bandage to heal that wound.

From sweatin yer ass off to sweats n flannel and a cup of coffee on the front steps those cool temps are heaven to me.... I love getting to drink my coffee in the mornings outside and smell the clean of the morning dew filled air.

Ya, I know I can be a hard ass but I am actually a very nice person. I will give you the proverbial shirt off my back if you needed it. I would give you anything I had that I don't need if it helped to better your situation.

If I have it and your family needs it they are going to get everything I can give you and them to help you past the rough patch you may be facing even if that's fully supporting the family while the problems get sorted out and never expect or ask for anything in return because that act of giving and how it makes me feel is my payment, my reward. I always get blessed in the long run for the things I do to help people....

So look around you; is there something you can do to help someone that needs that helping hand? They don't even have to know who it was that gave them the hand up. Try it sometime and see how it makes you feel... But really look for the person or family that really needs it and would appreciate it the most.

Well I was told today that it is going to be in the mid 90's for the rest of the week before there is a cool down.............. Gawd would someone please remind me of why I moved to Texas? Oh ya, winters in Wyoming were to damn cold for me......... still wondering if the trade off is worth it *LOL* ....

Yep... yesterdays appointment was an altogether no show... so went to be at 7 pm which I never do *L* and woke up at 4 this morning when it was just too damn hot to sleep even with the ac going....
now it's cold enough in my room to sleep and I have to be up to take care of business.... Note to self: get a personal secretary.... oh ya and a maid.

*chuckling* ... Hmmmm today was almost an interesting day. I wonder why it is that when you give someone a prime chance to learn as well as have fun and you set a time for them to arrive, they don't?

No skin off of my nose obviously people like this aren't serious and are only toying with the idea of meeting a dominant woman. 

Ladies: Do not waist my time with your games and fantasies. If you want to learn then you have to take the first step and with me that first step is to stop being a damn chicken shit and show up when you were intended.

HOT HOT EFFIN Deep east Texas.... another month before this crap cools off any... we seriously need an Alberta Clipper to roll in down here and blow this hot muggy air away and give us some serious rain in the process.

So what's up with everyone else out there in CM land?

Are you having as many issues as I am with the players on this site?

Why is it that so many girls don't really understand the mechanics of their bodies? The reason things are made the way they are? I guess I get to teach sex education to a few and more.......

Why is it there are so many Dom/mes out there that feel the gift given by a sub can be taken for granted?

Sure I'm an Alpha and a Bitch; there has to be give as well... So why is it so many Dom/mes out there intentionally hurt the subs that have gifted them with their services regardless of what type they are? A sub deserves an equal portion of pleasure as what the Dom/me gets from what they are doing to and for the sub. Just saying... That's my opinion.... whether the pleasure is in the form of pain or not.... and by the way I get a great deal of pleasure from the pleasure I give to my sub or slave when the gift is earned.
When they do wrong their punishment is exceedingly harsh almost brutal.

I will be off site for most of this week as I am leaving for Washington state to attend my dad's funeral. Don't be upset if I don't answer your emails. My blood family comes first and foremost.

July 3rd, 2012.....

New to the site... got some interesting emails... some interesting people checking out my profile......... grabbing the jake break.....  IF YOU ARE INTO PANTIES AND YOU AREN'T A GIRL STEP THE F OFF I'm not into potty training anymore "kids" read my profile, My parenting days are done now I get to enjoy my grandkids and I don't have to do the duties so why would I want to do those same duties on a grown adult....... I am here for my wants and needs. If yours happen to match that's great, fantastic. whatever but every single pantyassed adult will be deleted and blocked.