yesterday was a beautiful day, i thank God for CM .... for allowing one of my best friends to find me here, I thank God for bringing my friend home safe......

True dominance shouldnt be about disciplining your sub, it's about earning the trust and respect of your sub so that you are the only one she wants disciplined by, that your orders are what she craves to obey, and that in your presence she feels safe and scared, proud and humbled, totally free and completely owned, Hearing the words " I am disappointed in you" should be a subs only fear.

Many of you have chatted with me since i joined this site, some fake, some real, some i have even spent time with me and gotten to know me. They would say a true submissive, but only truely ever submissive to one! I was given my freedom, not by choice but need. I tried to submit to another, even flew across country to spend a few months with one. But true submission heart, body, and mind totally can only be owned by one!! This week my former owner sought me out, because he needed his best friend to help him thru some horrible medical news, we cringe first then seek, strength from within, when we hear the "c" word! The man that owns my soul is scared, crying in his best friends arms, his slave, his sub, his lover, his muse, his best friend!

I FOUND A POEM, AUTHOR IS UNKNOWN, TO ME IT DESCRIBES A SUB WITH NO DOM, A SLAVE WITH NO MASTER

 i am lost alone confused and hurt. It cant be fixed with words, my pain wont stop. I pray for sleep to rest my brain but the images there are just as dark as the night sky, so i awake to my life of pain. Im like an orphan with no daddy to love me and guide me. The days drag on and i find no solace anywhere, thoughts of making my pain end permanantly have again entered my head, just when i thought i was going to be alive again i pray for death.
 

a simple request, " tell me about yourself  pick a point from tame and work up to what you want" and i found myself writing what i wanted to say on my profile and just was inspired to do it differently ... thank you LC

i don't think tame or wild is an issue lol, nothing is taboo if two are in agreement, i have only a few dislikes as far as sex, kids, scat, pets and pee in my face humiliation or extreme pain,  as far as the lifestyle part not the sexual part i am a 1950s style woman i love taking care of my man/dom/master i don't care if its cooking for him or cleaning up after him, ironing his boxers if that is how he likes to get down i want to take care of him and please him and be a joy to his life. i think a relationship is based on trust, honesty, common courtesy, and loyalty. i desire an alpha male in all ways, if you can only be superior in the bedroom then you are not for me!

My submissiveness should come as easy as breathing when i think of your name, whether he is near or far away, admiring the man that your dom is in his everyday life is as important to me as being able to bow down to him when he has a paddle in hand. if you cant respect that i love myself and have to humiliate me to get my respect, well in my opinion you do not deserve it! i want to submit to a man that is wise, and a good teacher, and good hearted and true to me and to himself at all times!