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Wow... if'n I'd've knowed bein' single was so much freakin' fun I'd've done it years ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A bit over 30 years ago I left the deserts of my childhood and ventured forth to pay my dues to my family heritage, now I am home again; the Ancient Spirits have bid me make myself welcome among them... all these long years later my spirit is again at peace.
And... I'm back in 34"w x 36"l jeans.
Okay folkses and folkslettes, I'm a retired Navy Destroyerman aka Tin Can sailor (nope, no ubiquitous "hey lookit me girls, I'm a soldier too!" pics).
Stop... reg'lar ord'n'ry Fleet here.
Not a SEAL. Didn't drive SWCCs... or hydrofoils. Didn't fly airplanes. Nor drive submarines either (or any other hunky character from the latest big budget hollywood summer action flick...), in short: I's jes plain ol' me.
I served proudly on 5 ships and was a ships Amorer at one point... and I can bore you to tears with tales of bravery and valor and daring deeds by Destroyermen on the high seas in years gone by.
The real me?
Eh, day to day I'm Just your garden variety used up wore out beat to hell old man, starting over... again... in life: a Happily Homeless Disabled Veteran out here on the highways and byways of America in a camper truck enjoying life to the fullest and like so many of my Veteran brethren whom have cast aside the burdens of societally imposed norms... I am very happy with my lot in life. There's a bit of baggage attached that I'm working to resolve, so if I go quiet on you don't be straight away thinking you scared me off.
Could be I'm simply overwhelmed by memories.
I'll tell you up front I'm a jaded and cynical ol Cayuse and not easy to get to know until I know you (then you can't shut me up!). Overall I hold a pretty dim view of 'people' as a collective entity, recognizing of course that there are some truly remarkable individuals grazing sporadically in the herd.
Had I not created my own world, I would most assuredly have died in someone elses!
I am basically a Dominant personality (either that or just pigheaded and want things my way), again recognizing (of course) that 'Dominant' is an enigmatic mark on a sliding scale of persona and relative to the persons involved and the circumstances. I may be Dominant in terms of my personal interactions with one person in one setting and completely UN-Dominant with someone else in another setting. And I know the difference between Dominant, dominate and abuse (a greviously overused word and far too oft applied out of anger as a vicious and indefensible weapon of character assassination rather than out of any semblance of valid applicability to a person or situation) although some might argue this in their quest to propagate (perpetuate?) their personal agendas.
I'm an 'Erotic Bondager', a rope artist if you will. Meaning I enjoy classic 'Detective'/'Damsel in Distress' type erotic bondage and I thoroughly enjoy tying pretty girls up; and if they're having half as much fun as I am weaving rope onto their willing bodies so much the better (if not, say so and I'll stop). This is about the 'Art of Erotic Restraint' and the 'Spirit of the Rope', and perhaps more importantly about our spirits blending seamlessly together for a brief moment in time... exploring each others sensual Auras through the rope.
Be forewarned though: if I don't know you well you will be asked to provide a spotter who does, ask any skilled rope artist: even practiced and skilled bondagettes generally do not arrive with an operators manual (complete with diagrams and pictures) in hand... and I'm not a mind reader'
This is about having fun and mutually expressing erotic desires. This is not about scaring or hurting anyone. You have a mouth, use it... if you aren't having fun then say so dammit
As an artist using rope and a lovely bondagette as a medium, I greatly prefer natural fibre ropes of course (esp a nice sensual well conditioned hemp rope) and I'm mindful of skin issues, neurological issues and ortho/physiology issues BUT the onus is on you to make me aware and instruct me how to work with you to give you the best possible bondage experience... meaning we will talk first and discuss many things before I open the rope kit.
And no I'm not afraid to tie Dommes/Mistresses/BBWs/etc or anyone else and I'll work with girls with physical challenges, I have in the past suspended a wheelie... > IN < her chair.
I do enjoy bottoming (as opposed to submitting) and I quite assure you I am a far more depraved/demented/etc subject... when I am 'getting it'... than when I am 'giving it'; and know it now: I'm a liberated maso and I don't hesitate to ask (relax, I'll teach you if you aren't experienced in things) for what I enjoy, nor will I hesitate to steer a Top in the direction I want to go.
And above all else PLEASE adjust your schedule to allow an hour or so afterwards to snuggle/cuddle... I LOVE to snuggle and cuddle!!!
Speaking strictly for myself I firmly believe romance IS a legitimate fetish.
I'm US Navy retired so I have an income w/ decent medical and prescription coverage (ie I pull my own weight) and my own van, and I'm a former FF/EMT-Rescue Weenie (think Roy and Johnny from Emergency 51).
I'm 6'1" with 36" waist (ie no obtrusive beer gut) and losing weight, HWP/DDF/non-tobacco user, I DO NOT gamble (including the lotto), I don't chase stray skirts, I don't drink to speak of, I open doors for ladies and I more often than not say "please" and "thank you". I use proper grammar to the degree that I can, I try to spell everything correctly and I put forth the effort to type out whole complete three letter words when writing to someone (I despise text abbreviations).
I'm an amateur book hunter buying and selling HC/DJ 1st-1st's (virtually exclusively) and the occasional Limited/Collectors Editions (if you're looking for something in particular for a gift or to fill out a collection maybe I can help?) where I find them. I like camping, hiking, exploring old mines and caves, technical climbing and rappelling (I won’t free climb and I won’t lead). I enjoy canoe sailing, I’m an open water SCUBA diver and I like to travel… I go wherever the wind blows me (in my lil ol' Van).
I'm a decent cook in the kitchen and at the campsite, I'm not afraid to roll up my sleeves and go after a sink full of dishes, dishwashers, washing machines and vacuums are not alien technology to me.
No... as in NEWPERZZZZZZZ... I'm not in a functioning intimate relationship of any sort with anyone just now and do not expect to enter into one anytime soon (see above), the best you can call it is I'm talking with a few girls about playtime when I get north (that'll wait til after Winter!).
I am however open to discussing a rider/co-driver/partner/etc. In the Nav we called it 'Steaming Partner'; someone to share this grand adventure down the road with who I can trust with my camper to get us to the next grassy lakeside spot in one piece.
This girl is to also be My personal lap pet/play toy/dress up dollie for such occasions as the mood fits… and as such it would be prudent she be exceptionally open minded and equally non-judgmental, uninhibited and exhibitionistic. A switch is preferred, however a submissive (NOTE: this is crucial) capable of, willing to and enthusiastic about Topping is equally attractive to me.
Preferably she is 29~50ish in age and 14-16+/- in size but this is not obligatory- FAR MORE IMPORTANTLY she must be scrupulously honest above all else, forthright, trustworthy, personable, discreet, be able to laugh at silly chyt and emotionally available to participate (and reciprocate) in the fetishes I enjoy.
Call me picky, I seek mature, intelligent, reasonably charming and witty, and can hold up her end of a wide-ranging conversation over coffee at sunrise. I'd prefer a reasonably attractive HWP (I have a soft spot for petite women) non-smoker with her own income (I have an income, so should she) to approxiguestimately match mine... I'm not GoodWill or the Salvation Army. She doesn't have to be a Jewel Staite lookalike, but if she is... well... NUMMY!
Retired military gets special consideration, attractive an fully passable CD/TGs prepared to commit to living 24/7 as a female (with liberal leeway to dress casual as I deem appropriate) will also be considered.
And be very aware: I expect... lo I DEMAND... utter and absolute honesty at all times (preferably politely), and I fully expect a girl to have a functioning intellect and to use it when it’s appropriate for her to do so. I will fully support your crafts and hobby interests within the agreed upon parameters of our relationship and I’ve been told I’m good medicine for a girls 'sense of self'.
I will try to not humiliate her in front of her parents, siblings and friends, etc; and I'll be the first to admit I'm a rough cut sort and perhaps even a bit Barbaric in some aspects (proceed accordingly), similarly I won’t interfere with her professional life excepting as it becomes detrimental to our relationship.
And she d*mn well better know the difference between misogymy and Anti-Misandry (if anyone knows a source for a bumper sticker that reads [MY EX-WIFE IS A DEADBEAT MOM!!!] I'll take 2). Simply put I'm a M&FRA (Mens & Fathers Rights Activist), PEPA (Presumptive Equal Parenting Advocate) and MVDV/MVSV (Male Victims of Domestic Violence/Male Victims of Sexual Violence) Activist.
I will not engage in discussion with a Feminist/Mangina or a Male Basher... PERIOD.
Let's go with that for now, k?
If I've tapped your profile but not messaged, maybe I'm browsing to see who's about... or maybe I'm just letting you know I'm here and something about you caught My eye.
And if in the course of conversation something I say leaves you thinking "dood, take a chill" and you find yourself wondering if I'm angry about something...
*DOH!*
I am and I offer NO apologies for it.
I will however ask that you afford me time to come to terms with being ejected from the house I called Home Sweet Home for 11 years to appease the whimsies of a self-serving snake in the grass LIAR whose schemes and manipulations, distortions of half truths and outright LIES (to preserve a roof over her head)... which my former beloved bride of 8 years so earnestly believed to the exclusion of all else.
Hither come the scads of self-righteous *ENABLING* White Knights in Shining Armor to heroically defend the woman I was wed to, effectively cutting her off from truth and reason and reinforcing said LIES despite the utter absence of any corroborating witness testimony or substantiating evidence of the content of the aforementioned LIES and devoid any corroborating witness affirmation.
And thus on NOTHING BUT THE WORD OF A LIAR... a beautiful and loving marriage, MY marriage, was cashiered.
Why some feel compelled to follow me 2/3 the way across the country and insert derisive inferences in their commentary (maybe there's not enough DRAMA in their lives, they have to create it?) just seems a bit hypocritical to me... but that's merely my opinion (which is of course inconsequential to those who know me not, yet would judge me by merit of nothing more than slanderous lies from a snake who has her own agenda)...
Let's cover this SS&C briefly: SS&C has its place in the world. In all walks of life, not just BDSM.
* Ask the arborist if climbing 100' up into a wind blown tree swaying 20' per arc to clip a few limbs is SS&C.
* Ask the RedBull series Air Racer or stunt pilot at an air show if the loops and rolls and swoops are SS&C... or at least ... SANE!!!
* Ask the policeman in the night if stopping a swerving car is SS&C.
* Ask the FDNY if entering a burning structure that just got hit by a commercial airliner is SS&C.
I promise you what I did in Gulf I wasn't overly SS&C either. There comes a point where it loses its 'Oh Holiest of Holies ' mantra appeal, as well as perhaps much of its application. If I simply MUST repeat the same question to the same person everyday for five years, even after receiving the same answer to the same question from the same person everyday for five years... then would you not think that perhaps there is a relationship problem even more fundamental than the basic premise of TPE, yes?
What about basic consent: I didn't always consent to wash dishes every night, I did it because it needed doing to keep clean dishes in the cupboards to eat on, and contributed to keeping the home harmonious (and because hiring someone to come in and wash them for Me is expensive). Nor did I always consent to doing laundry, cooking 3 meals a day plus preparing snacks, vacuuming, dusting, washing windows, tuning up the cars, changing the oil, rotating the tires, mowing the yard (MUST I ask that grass really need to consent? It IS after all a living growing thing); feeding the animals or cleaning up after them, changing the bed sheets or the myriad other mundane taskings that make the House more than merely 4 walls and a roof. Those things were called 'Duties', Duties that when properly fulfilled made My House a harmonious home, My consent was therefore a non-issue ... I did them because the alternative, called a 'Consequence', was undesirable.
To understand the connotations of language, you must first be ->capable
It is one's inability to grasp the intricacies of language which lead to misunderstanding and misinterpretation. Learn to read the intent of what is actually written (before trying to impose your opinion on what you think was said).
I am what I am, like it or don't I could care less... deal with it. I calls it likes I sees it an I sez it likes I calls it.
This is Me... deal with it, or don’t.
Das es machts nichts, ja?
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Gunna work this into my prof in some fashion, so it's a bit raw... if accurate... just now: Tags and titlery- I'm not M/s-D/s, I'm not looking to support anyone or be supported by them and the LAST thing I want is another marriage or even S/SI aka Spiritual and Sexual Intimacy just yet... the best term I can think of would be 'Steaming Partners' (somewhat akin to FWB but without the built in inference to sex) if you know it. Add (front, middle and ending): Majorly critical to a healthy relationship with me- honesty... as in be HONEST... I mean come the frak on here, stop with the word games and tell me the (censored) truth without I hafta play 20 questions to drag it out of you, k??? Also required: liberal doses of 'mature', 'responsible', 'functionally intelligent', 'expansive sense of humor' and 'the ability to hold up your own end of a conversation'.Somewhere in the mix would be "employed/pensioned" (I have a reliable income, you should too), 'moderately physically and mentally/emotionally healthy with any afflictions/infirmities/disabilities/disorders well managed', 'have your own car', 'DDF' (ie Drug and Disease Free) and (MANDATORY) "Not Afraid Of Poggies". Hey, our tags change as we grow into (or out of) our living ideologies and our sense of self and personal self identity evolves in relation to the world around us. But can you still associate 'liberated-maso' with "I'm just in it for the fun just now, and if I meet someone who appeals to me on an intellectual and spiritual basis, cool! If I don't then I'm still going to play and have fun and in the doing know I'm not blowing smoke up anyone's ass about who or what I am"... yet in the same thought maintain the difference between dom/sub/slave/master/mistress/switch/etc/whatever terms have evolved and inserted themselves into wiitwd... For alla youse dommie types... goddesses, ladyships and other allegedly supreme fems learn this here and now and save your speeches: I DO NOT KNEEL TO YOU OR ANY-FRAKKIN-BODY ELSE (nor do I seek anyone to kneel to me... k?). If yer gotsta know whyfor a mere male GASP dares spaketh thusly, tell ya what sparklette- struggle through 5 world class Typhoon/Super Typhoon(s), 3 magnitude 7+ quakes 2 weeks apart and a firestorm 18 ft out yer babys bedroom window, all in a 3 year span AND somewhere in there spend every 3rd weekend on a leisurely hike around a 8,840 acre double canopy jungle game preserve with a rucksack and a rifle minding after a brainless albeit endangered bird roughly the size of a small chicken, oncet or twicet a month go baby sit 5 to 10 million lbs of DOT-Class 1D (think REALLY BIG KABOOM!!!) High Explosives, spend 3 weeks engaged in 'Humanitarian Assistance' to hundreds of displaced Khurds and then go slog through the debris field of a really big aeroplane that fell from grace with the sky, digging in the baked mud to recover the charred remains of what's left 228 dead crew and pax of a Boeing 747-300 (KAL 801 6 Aug 1997) all the while coaching your eldest kids Little League ball team(s) and playing Scout Master to his Troop ... then come tell me how fucking superior you are. Mostly y'all're a whomp o' damn decent gals doing something you love and having a hell of a good time doing it... but please... spare me the "Master and Commander" Dommie drill... k? I'm a liberated masochist, what the frak is so hard about that, eh? I just wanna have some fun and I'll maybe teach you a trick or three for the time you spend on me... k? An' I know y'all're in it for a livelihood often as not but dagnabbit I have issue with paying someone to do something I gotta teach them what/when/how to do it, and guide them along the way. And do I really have to frakkin say it: *I don't play that moronic S/split C/caps G/game* Yes of course, send picture of boat with sails rigged!!! And an accurate (not to scale of course) depiction of Po atom including electrons, protons, neutrons, quarks, photons and neutrinos.
Your mileage may vary!!!
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So here I am about to embark on a walkabout***, tent hiking across Europe with every intention of making MFVF IX then hitting the 'off the tour guide' sites to the greatest degree possible and of course taking in as much of the scenery as I can along the way. Not quite a pilgrimage but I have Uncles who fought over there in WW II and I'd would like to visit some of the places they spoke of when I was a wee lad bumming sips of beer at their knees.
There are a few people I hope to see along the way and oh hell yeah meet as many new faces as I can, if only to pester with an endless litany of "ok so what's good to see locally?" and "where can I grab a beer and a bite to eat nearby?" type questions.
Let it be said here and now I'm not out to leave skidmarks on a fillies panties.
The truth is I'm still dealing with some very painful trust/betrayal issues (regarding women) and quite frankly I'm just not interested in going there with anyone at the moment... after my last encounter it may very well be a long time before I can relax with a girl and be able to enjoy any intimacy.
HOWEVER... if we mesh as people and you somehow impress upon me I'll leave with the same ten lil piggies I came with then maybe we can discuss some playtime (ie if I seem to relax in your company), but understand if I do not respond favorably please let it drop and we'll go back to discussing what's about to visit before I hike my ass on down the motorway.
As I said I'm dealing with issues so if you're of a mind to talk ropes don't be shy or subtle or I'll stay on the creek bed in the shade... meaning unless you somehow manage to REALLY grab my attention I won't bring it up.
Perhaps in a few years I'll ease up and be a bit more adventurous about playing or opening up to a girl.
K?
*** Minor delay resolving Passport issues... stay tuned for updates! |
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A quick note for the younger set, call it 24.9 or younger. That would be approxiguestimately how long I've been doing this BDSM thing.
I remember when SSC wasn't even part of a slaves sweetest dreams on a Sunday morning.
This road that is largely ahead of a lot of you, is ancient history for Me.
Mebbe I even paid some attention and learned a few things during those long years you were still toddling around in diapers, playing in rain puddles, discovering the opposite sex and phones, learning to drive, etc.
I've seen a bit eh? Sometimes I even paid attention (it's called 'experience') and learned to thrive in a loving D/s relationship on fundamentally equal and reciprocal terms... may I share it with you?
There are predators in cyberland, I've had run ins with some of them. I like to think oneday I can prevent a girl from being the next victim of such killers as David Parker Ray and John E Robinson Sr. I'm astounded at the reactions I get from some of the chatroom monitors who prohibit such cautionary information from being discussed in their rooms.
I keep running into that 'popularity' wall, well liked by the room and the room monitors; yet John E Robinson Sr aka ‘ slavemaster ‘ was a very popular cyber BDSM chatter, right up to the day he was arrested for serial murder. He now sits on death row, popular with his fellow death row inmates I presume.
And last but certainly not LEAST: the inglorius ''Cyber Rule of Halves': Half the ‘Dom/mes’,‘Tops’,’sub/slave/bottom’, ‘S/switches’, etc . . . in cyberland are clueless. Half the rest are just your garden grade run of the mill stupid. Half the remainder is nefarious sorts with their own agendas having nothing to do with your better interest you're better off not getting involved with. Half of what's left is cheating on or lying about someone they're already involved with.
Of the ‘Dom/mes’, ‘Tops’,’sub/slave/bottom’, ‘S/switches’, etc . . nicks left, half of them are gay or they've been burned already by a immature fetish poodle and they're just not interested. The very few ‘Dom/mes’, ‘Tops’,’sub/slave/bottom’, ‘S/switches’, etc . . .nicks still listed (not excluded by the previous) and worth perhaps investing a bit of interest are very often already involved in a relationship and are typically quite happy (and they’ll readily admit this). |
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Due to circumstances which will be elaborated on soon... TimberBeast is available. But unless you're someone really unique I doubt I'll look at you as with any notable interest.
My profile explains what I seek but let there be NO doubt: you better have your head on straight and your heart in the right place. I've been jacked up too many times and am leery of going through another round of that I just came out of (and 3 before that), I'm getting too old for this shit.
Methinks a walkabout is in order. MFVF in Europe first, then who knows where I'll end up. |
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To the Atlanta BDSM community, from the House of TimberBeast:
Last night it was quite our greatest pleasure, and privilege, to attend the 5 year reunion of the closing of PEP. From the moment we walked through the door until we closed the building (*flashback* ) at 0230 it was a rolling sea of memories. Some of the finest people life has given us the privilege of knowing assembled in one building (THANK YOU MsWhip!!!) to pay tribute to one of the finest people the Atlanta Kink Community has known… or will ever know- our very own Lady Delicious (and She was yummy last night!!!)
To one and all who were able to attend last night Thank You all!
Special mention to some especially wonderful people upon whose work and dedication the Atlanta BDSM Community is built:
Duchess- thank You dear. It is ALWAYS a privilege to be in Your presence, but last night You most assuredly outdid Yourself!!! In the 9 years I have known Lady D, last night was perhaps the 3rd and 4th times (in ONE NIGHT!!!) we’ve seen Her overwhelmed and speechless (as those of us who know Lady D will attest… ‘speechless’ is not something She’s famous for!). We consider ourselves blessed for knowing You, and are honored to call You our friend. You were, as always, graceful and elegant, and quite lovely indeed! We bow to You Ma’am, and thank You.
Mistress Panther and MsSusan- it is always a privilege to be in Your presence, but both in one night? Our privilege and pleasure indeed!!!
The House of TimberBeast thanks You Ladies, each and every one of You, for bringing such richness and depth of joy to one of our very finest Friends, and for bestowing upon Her the tribute and recognition She so richly deserves (shush Lady D, You've earned it and You deserve it!).
To gypsy, scooter and vim (please forgive Me if I misspelled that) thank you also for coming together for Lady D last night (although we know so very well you would no more have missed last night than would we).
To everybody who came together last night to make Lady Ds reunion a night She will forever look upon with warmth and pride, thank you all so very much. It was a pleasure indeed to see so many familiar and warmly welcomed faces, amongst whom I count some of our most respected friends, under one roof together.
For each of you who went the furlong to accommodate us and assist mousey and Myself with tending to our darling angel and for making her feel welcomed (we are humbled that so many amongst you think so highly of her) and assisting in her so many ways, thank you so very much. The night would not have been the same without your kindness. Thank you!
And speaking for Myself, I am deeply Honored, and humbled (not something I’m known for), that I was chosen to be your DM last night; and I thank you for the privilege.
TimberBeast O/o House of TimberBeast angeleyes and mousey |
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I was discussing this with angel recently and it was brought to My attention there's a point that could do with the some clarification. Let Me try to elaborate on this.
There is a need here in the House for a girl to fill a role, but whomever comes into our lives to fill this role needs to be very crystal clear about her station, she's Mine... but there's more to her role with us: 1) In the real world side of life in the day to day to day etc 'mundane world' with us as 'people' her role is that of a friend/companion/partner. 2) On the D/s side of life she is in service to Me as My 'pet'/dress up doll/play toy/bondagette/etc when and as I desire to indulge... this will include Topping on occasion. 3) She better understand that after this she is conterminously in service to the House and is subordinate to angel and mousey (it's called Hierarchy), and as such can expect to be tasked with assisting the girls in their day to day responsibilities to the House. Read that to mean angel runs this House, so don't be affronted if I say "get with angel and set something up/make it happen".
What we offer in exchange is 'family'. Good times and not so good times. Busy days and lazy days. The whole schmoo of life with the cuddle pile on the couch after the food is put up and the dishes are done or Saturday at the lake picnicking and sailing or chasing across the state to pick up/deliver a rescued animal.
In her 'free time' (which I like to think we're pretty generous with) she can look forward to our emotional and spiritual support and our fullest encouragement to pursue her desires so long as these pursuits do not unreasonably impede her service to Me and to the House.
If you will, think of it as the mob of us tossing our lots in together to make this insane world a tolerable, if not enjoyable, ride around the sun every year.
My beloved angel knows of My quest for a girl and supports it enthusiastically. It could be said she looks forward to Me having someone to play with so I quit pestering her with ropes day in and day out!
If you have questions please do ask. |
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Yanno, My profile doesn't leave a lot to the imagination, yet I keep getting asked am I a switch. The answer there is an unabridged " NO, I am not a switch ". I do not nor will I > submit < to anyone I know or am looking to know anytime soon. My personal reality and intimate responsbilities take even the possibility of My submitting to anyone utterly and completely out of the realm of 'open for discussion'. I do however > bottom < (so sue Me, I'm a bit of a maso) on occasion to those I feel confident bottoming to, and will continue to do so as I deem appropriate. There is a very real and definable difference between bottoming and submitting... learn it. |
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Age: 20 |
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