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This slave was told that her journal entry from last night was not sufficient. This slave has found it hard to accept all of her new life. she loves it though. Emotionally she is still having problems and still gets herself into ruts of punishment and trouble that she can't get out of easily.
The ruts that she has are always the worst. She fears that she will be let go as a slave, and that is what she fears most of all.
The very hardest punishment this slave has gotten was to pick her own punishment. she has never been told to do such a thing and was very confused as to how to start and where to end. she ended up doing more than she thinks her Master would have put her through...but she is not sure.
Talking in third person is not easy for her or making sure to capitalize and lower case everything assigned, personally she is proud of herself to getting to the point that she is at and hopes dearly that her Master thinks the same.
Details and remembering are also hard and emotionally this slave thinks that she will mentally block out things that she does not want to do...but not on propose! she tries hard she really does. Again this slave thinks that the worst thing that could happen would be if her Master left her.
He had to talk to her about it when she was doing poorly, and to have that talk again would just break her heart. she really hopes that she is a good slave... |
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It has now been about a month of being owned. It has not been terribly difficult, but there were ups and downs emotionally so far. Struggling to remember rules and assignments has probably been the hardest part to do, while punishment seems to be uncomfortable it seems to be less bad than knowing a rule has been broken.
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Has now been owned two days. Is still having trouble following rules, but is getting there. Gets very nervous, very easily, but loves being owned. Especially by Someone so experienced. Can't think of anything that could be better. |
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Realized quite how shy I am. Found who I think I was looking for, all in one day. Never thought there were so many people on this site, much less people that would message me.. |
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