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	No CDs please. No piss. No animals. No toilet slaves. No diapers. I like foot attention but probably not worship. I love queening, oral service, and personal/household slavery. I am here seeking the love of my life, who happens to be a cuckold. Marriage/Fulltime/Collaring is my ultimate goal. I am willing to relocate to either of the coasts. I really do not want to live in middle of the country. California, Florida, Belize, heh. Someplace warm and beautiful. Or you could come here. Portland Oregon has the most accepting alt sexual lifestyle community. You would really love it here. I have decided that I would really love a poly household. Two men, probably. Or a lesbian and a man. Three to a bed. Shared labors. This would meet my needs more than just about any domestic situation I can envision. I do not smoke. I quit in June of lasr year. I drink very seldom. I am 5'7" or so and weigh 350 luscious pounds. Not here looking for playmates. I have plenty of those. Interested in men that are local or are soon to be visiting the Portland/Vancouver area. Children are grown and gone. But they do rear their little heads every once in a while. Now, about my cuck. I prefer a manly man. I would like a traditional cuckold relationship like those you see in the porn movies...fully functional man who likes to see his wife serviced by bulls. But I will perform SPH if that is central to my cuck's identity. I am into forced bi, anal training, milking, ruined or broken orgasms and other forms of punishment rather than actual beatings. I adore a very mild form of CBT. If you have any questions, just shout out! Turn Me On by Norah Jones Like a flower waiting to bloom Like a lightbulb in a dark room I'm just sitting here waiting for you To come home and turn me on Like the desert waiting for the rain Like a school kid waiting for the spring I'm just sitting here waiting for you To come on home and turn me on My poor heart, it's been so dark since you been gone After all, you're the one who turns me off You're the only one who can turn me back on My hi-fi's waiting for a new tune The glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes I'm just sitting here waiting for you To come on home and turn me on Turn me on

6/12/2011 2:26:33 PM

6/12/2011 2:26:23 PM

I think I may back off for a while. I am so busy and so broke. Well, listen to my audio journal for the latest.

6/10/2011 10:02:53 PM

6/10/2011 10:00:05 PM

It has been brought to my attention by more than one of my listeners that I seemed to be getting more and more....sour? jaded? impatient?

I rather was and I absolutely have no right to be. No one is guaranteed a fairy tale love life and the universe does not owe me a cuck. That I choose to, against all odds, stick my bare face out there and demand what I want...well heck, that is just asking to be slapped.

Taking my wobbly charms out and putting them on display is risky. And worth it. So I will approach this journey with joy, fair readers and listeners. I will quit bouncing around in the back seat saying "are we there yet?" and I will just enjoy the ride!

Well, I have appended another audio journal to this. Please enjoy. The subject is rules and protocol and roles.

5/25/2011 10:41:52 AM

The audio journals have not been working that well for me. But I want to share something with you all. This song is sad and sweet and makes me yearn for my very own cucky. Gosh I wish I knew where he was. I would go and get him.

http://youtu.be/4QFGqTfcG4g

5/19/2011 2:44:48 PM

I am going to a munch. Will you meet me there? Listen to my audio journal for details. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

Oh my good lord. I don't know if this is ever going to work. So I will just tell you where the munch is. Fridays at 6-9p in Vancouver Washington at The Lair on Fourth Plain. I will be there. Hope to see some collarme peeps there, as well.

4/29/2011 4:29:42 PM

4/29/2011 4:29:11 PM

I don't want to believe that everyone on here are liars and losers. Please listen to this audio journal to hear my latest disappointments meeting, or rather, trying to meet subs. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

4/23/2011 3:51:59 AM

Here is a favorite movie of mine. This is a handjob/blowjob that I love to give. Although I don't use saran wrap. This is what I consider brinking, forced and ruined orgasms.

http://xhamster.com/movies/250582/amber_rayne_psycho_handjob.html

4/19/2011 11:08:42 PM

4/19/2011 8:33:27 AM

Oh my, dear listeners. I have been so remiss. I have had houseguests this week, including the love of my life, a five year old boy who keeps me from being able to spend quite as much time examining my own belly button. So, here is my latest journal...about my dream wedding. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

4/11/2011 11:29:15 PM

4/11/2011 11:27:22 PM

Boy howdy, I sure do appreciate you guys that write me and tell me I am hitting your cuck spots. I enjoy sharing my thoughts and desires and secrets in this way..this safe way. I have been thinking about the BBC fetish so my newest journal is about diversity and acceptance in the kink community. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

4/10/2011 10:33:54 PM

4/10/2011 10:33:49 PM

When should you tell your deepest, darkest secrets? Here is my experience, in my latest audio journal. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

4/10/2011 4:17:19 PM

4/10/2011 4:15:30 PM

Well, I asked this question in the Collarme forums. Whoa. Won't be going back there. Here is the question. Is being a cuck a way for some men to express their homosexual desires/bisexual side without having to take responsibility for it? Please listen to my newest audio journal and let me know what you think. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

4/6/2011 3:56:15 PM

4/6/2011 3:55:42 PM

A little cyber cucking last night. So good, so satisfactory. Hear all about it in my newest audio journal. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

4/3/2011 11:38:52 PM

4/3/2011 11:01:16 PM

I have met someone very promising. Here, online at CM. We will see how it goes. Tune in for the UP part of the "Internet Dating Ups and Downs Show" Hosted my Yours Truly. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

4/2/2011 10:14:55 AM

4/2/2011 10:13:57 AM

You guys are literally breaking my heart. You want to know how? I have a new audio journal entry out, detailing how you are disappointing me. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/30/2011 8:12:32 AM

3/30/2011 8:12:03 AM

Sharpen your pencils, dear listeners. Or at least your minds. I am asking some tough questions in this audio journal and hoping that some of you will give me some insight into the mind of a sub. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/29/2011 9:06:35 PM

3/29/2011 9:06:31 PM

This newest audio entry is about the day to day issues of being my cuck. I hope that those of you who are considering making a match with me will pay close attention to this entry. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/27/2011 8:56:41 AM

3/27/2011 8:56:36 AM

This next audio journal entry is about my cucks wants and needs and how I will meet them. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/25/2011 7:31:31 PM

3/25/2011 7:31:23 PM

Here's another XXX rated journal entry. This one is a fantasy that I have played out a few times, mostly with vanilla men. But it is one I really get off on, too. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/25/2011 12:42:26 AM

3/24/2011 6:23:23 PM

Well, I am afraid I have to get firm with all of these so-called subs. Please listen to my newest audio journal for how to approach me. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/24/2011 7:56:47 AM

Good morning. My latest audio journal installment is entitled "Am I a Domme?" It is a clumsy, meandering attempt to define how I look at the Domme/sub dynamic. I hope you enjoy. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/24/2011 7:33:25 AM

3/23/2011 1:58:28 PM

Hi all. Had my first true cuck sub experience and it is everything I have been searching for in other mens' eyes. He is a true sub. A true cuck. I am thrilled to have met him and hope we can work this into a little somethin somethin.

A new Rated X audio journal is attached. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/23/2011 1:49:24 PM

3/22/2011 12:01:07 AM

3/22/2011 12:00:37 AM

So many men ask me to explain my idea of what a cuck relationship consists of. I am posting an audio journal which is Rated X for strong language and imagery. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/21/2011 5:03:54 PM

3/21/2011 5:03:23 PM

Good evening. Today has been a busy day, so there is a new audio journal entry. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/21/2011 4:44:02 AM

Good morning! I am going to start doing audio journal entries. There is a new one posted now. You access it by clicking below on "View Journal."

3/21/2011 4:37:23 AM

3/20/2011 2:44:32 PM

Good gracious. Show a tiny bit of human weakness and the sharks start circling. Well, that's not MY blood you see in the water, boys. That is from the last fake sub who tried to take me in. So, back the fuck off.

3/19/2011 8:49:24 PM

I want to thank the lovely people who have offered support and compliments. I will not lie, even as a Domme, I am not made of stone and I am just a woman. And my lips are getting mighty tired from kissing all these frogs.

3/18/2011 11:01:20 PM

Well, the moment I signed up on collarme.com I was targeted by schemers. I do not for the life me understand what they thought to gain, but it was a short but painful lesson in the fact that my chances of getting robbed and murdered on the internet is MUCH greater than the chances of finding true love. Heh.

Oh, and while coming to this disheartening conclusion, I also received this cowardly missive in my inbox:

You cannot be serious. Lets tell you how it is. there is nothing beautiful about a fat obese woman. Also there is nothing dominant about a woman who cannot take care of her own body. It is a shame and it is pathetic. Further this idea that you fatties all of a sudden become dommes thinking some delusional thought that men who are subs are not supposed to have a choice in who they serve is BULLSHIT and a lie. GROW UP. WAKE UP and do you really think I would and should take care of some fatty who cannot take care of herself? I am sick of it and sorry if you are getting the brunt end of this, but seriously do shape up and more honestly what you need is someone to cane your ass when you are stuffing your face due to emotional isssues and problems...no different than an alcoholic or drug addict....getting gratification from food. BBW is so sickening and you can hate me and tell yourself I am shallow, but then I guess I am joining most men who are of the opinion that why should they serve a fatty when they can have someone who is healthy. Thyroid and other issues are just excuses. A Fact for you a Big Bone skeleton only weights 3 more pounds that someone normal.