The following is a report I was asked to write
about my experience on the night of Wednesday January 9, 2008 by the
person with whom I was engaged that evening.
It in no way does the
experience justice, nor is it a complete summary-I couldn't recall it
all if i tried-but I know that I probably will not get a chance to blog
about it anytime soon....so with the permission of the person for whom
this report was written, I am posting it here...slightly edited to
remove intimate details not for public consumption.
I may or may not post a couple of said pictures up on here.
First
off, I have to say, I’ve never worn red lipstick in my entire
life…EVER. It’s so….trashy. Plums, berries, pinks-yes; Cocksucker red-
no. I went shopping earlier that day to acquire some…and I felt
extremely self conscious wearing it. The make-up, slutty skirt, and
stockings only added to that feeling. As I touched up the red lipstick
on my way out of the car, I couldn’t help but wonder what I was getting
myself into. I was filled with
nervous anticipation, I didn’t know what to expect. I felt like a tramp
walking into the nice restaurant dressed and made up that way. I felt
the penetrating stares of crowd as I made my way to the bar. There, I
waited for you, praying that you would get there soon, since I’m fairly
certain the man next to me thought I was a hooker.
Our talk at the bar did nothing for my nerves, nor did the
elevator ride up to the room, where things got hot and heavy rather
quickly. I walked into the bathroom of our room, took a deep breath,
and wondered whether or not I was in over my head. All of that changed
when I got down on the floor in front of you and the collar was placed
around my neck. For reasons unknown to me, I
felt instantly more at ease. I’m not sure that I can describe the exact
feeling, nor can I explain why. I was yours for the taking.
I
was shaking in my boots when you pushed me up against the wall and
patted me down, frisked me, probed and invaded me with your big strong
hands. But slowly the nerves faded away. I think that having the chain
around my neck was one of the hottest things ever. The feeling of the
heavy, cold metal around my neck clanking as you mercilessly raped me
was incredible.
…oh, and the idea of fisting
is really hot-since you brought it up- though I know you didn’t even
get close, the idea intrigues me…this coming from the girl who screamed
when you slipped in a third finger.
The
hood, too, was an experience! Like I had mentioned, I had recently had
my first encounter with one and enjoyed it very much. What it allowed
me to do was block out a lot and focus on the experience at hand…and
absorb the pain that was being given to me. I have decided that I do,
in fact, thoroughly enjoy hoods :)
“You’re
fucked” that simple little phrase that you said a couple of times
throughout the night…scared the shit out of me, because it really made
me think, “yeah, I am fucked. I’m tied to a bed, in a strange hotel
room, with a man I hardly know, and nobody knows where I am.” And while
in the back of my mind I knew I was safe, the bit of fear it evoked in
me was very, very hot. ..specially in retrospect.
The
pain was just that…pain. Some call me a painslut, maybe I am. Sometimes
I get off on it at the time, flying high on the endorphine rush;
sometimes I want to see how far I can go, dancing on the line that is
my pain limit; other times, it’s hindsight that really gets me off.
‘Look at what I took, look at what a good girl I was for him.’ Either
way, it’s almost always something that I enjoy, and Wednesday night was
no exception.
The
marks are beautiful! I’m a ‘mark slut’. I honestly love the way that
they feel and look, and they’re wonderful, lasting little reminders of
the fun that I’ve had. This is the reason why when you expressed
concern over the fact that I may have bruising on my thigh, I shrugged
it off. That is hardly ever a concern with me. Also, playing at the
level and intensity that I do/want to, most of the time it cannot be
avoided.
There is some deep bruising on my inner and
upper thighs, and there are still raised up welts. My pussy is swollen
and there are gorgeous black and blue lines across my outer lips. My
ass looks untouched, though we both know that was not the case. There
is also significant bruising on my upper, inner arms as well as around
my neck from your hands. It makes me wet just thinking about them.
My
favorite part of the night? Well, I’m sure you can guess. The leash.
I’m not sure what it is that you saw in my eyes that made you react the
way that you did to me, but it was certainly one of the hottest of the
night’s activities. There’s something deliciously humiliating about
being put on the same level of a dog….being so inferior to someone.
Being made to crawl on the floor, eat out of bowls, and being treated
like a pet is one of the hottest things I can imagine and definitely
one my fantasies.
Surprisingly,
I also REALLY enjoyed worshipping your boots. I can imagine for similar
reasons as stated above. It was degrading. At the same time, it’s a
symbolic act of devotion, and the mix is incredibly sensual. The sight
of my smeared slutty lipstick on them was thrilling.
The
interrogation was certainly a grand way to end the evening. I really
can’t believe I remembered that damn code well enough to repeat it back
to you as many times as I did, between the beating and nipple torture.
You slapped me so hard across the fact that I may have forgotten my
name momentarily. The nipple play got intense, and there were moments
where I didn’t think I could take any more of it. It
certainly was a challenge. At first I felt silly with the ‘role play’
scenario. I always think that I won’t have anything to say, or that it
won’t be genuine. Believe me, my fear was genuine, especially when it
came to tipping my chair back over the 11th story window with the knife to my throat.
One
of the most vivid memories I have of the other night is of your hands
around my throat. There was a smidge of panic that ran through my body
as I convulsed under yours. Panic, until it faded away into nothing and
I went limp. The drowning that concluded our
interrogation was intense. I could have never anticipated our night
ending with “you lying, worthless cunt I don’t give a shit if you live
or die” and having my head forced into a tub of water in a dark room,
not knowing if or when my next breath would come. If I held the secrets
of the universe that night, you would be one enlightened individual.
Oh,
and as for the pictures- WOW. They certainly captured some great
moments. While my general feeling regarding pictures of myself is “ick,
how unflattering” remembering the night’s activities makes it worth it.
…and the picture of my makeup stains on the wall? They certainly painted a vivid picture of sensual distress. Thank you for sharing them with me.
If I didn’t touch on a particular topic, or if you have any further questions, please let me know :)
-RM