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Please read all of my profile. It is sincere and from the heart.
A
woman without a man is like a goldfish on the pavement. Nobody notices
you; you are no use; you can't do anything; and sooner or later you
will dry up and die.
I married at 18 and my husband and I ran a
pub. he liked me to wear very low cut tops and I enjoyed the attention
from the male customers. By 40 I had started to believe my own
publicity and had had a few quiet flings with customers. I mistakenly
thought I was too good for my older husband.
Then I thought I
had found The One. I let my husband and my children for a supposed better
life with a man 18 years my junior. It lasted a month before he was
over the novelty.
I crawled back to my husband and family. From
that day until he left me last year, not a day went by without him
spitting in my face or giving me a punch or several.
He
humiliated me by having me (with the other barstaff) go topless for the
weekly 'after hours' sessions. The other barmaids were 19 and 21. I was
40+. The girls just giggled, the men smirked.
But he didn't just
want to show his mates my bare breasts, he really wanted to show off
all my bruises to them. Show them how I was being punished. And in the days leading to that even he made
sure I would have plenty of bruises to show. I am not sure which the 'viewers' enjoyed
seeing most.
Well now I have no man in my life. I have a routine
office job and I have learned my lesson. To get anywhere in this world
you have to give yourself unconditionally to a man. You have to give
him what he wants whenever he wants it; you have to accept anything he
wants to do to you; and endure any humiliations.
I will because now I know it's a man's world.
My msn is: MonicaD@live.co.uk. Just add me ok? Or send number I can call.
PS. IF this profile reads like I am depressed, dispirited, pessimistic and fearful of the future, its because I am. Ideally I seek a LTR but I am open to all possibilities.
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