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perhaps if I had a good distraction reality wouldn't be quite so real. I know I will go and watch CSPAN and see what those people in Congress are supposed to be doing. Nothing like a little fantasy to make reality more appealing |
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maybe a little afternoon delight would help keep the doldrums away |
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this year seems a bit more chaotic than the last. Perhaps cause things are more stable at home and less around the world. Who knows... just know that I need to be a bit more active in this area of my life |
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I don't diet cause its not healthy, I don't follow trends cause they are usually pretty dumb, and I don't follow convention, cause convention was a trend that everybody followed and it became tradition. I am my own person and like to do my own thing. |
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this is a generalized thank you for all those who have shown me appreciation. A gal like me always appreciates a good compliment. If I don't reply, don't be insulted. I don't often answer since it leads to unwanted drama. But again thanx for compliments |
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So everyone sits here and says what they are looking for, no matter what side of the coin they are on... shouldn't it be what one can offer? Cause it seems awfully selfish to just try and please ones self |
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time to make Him satisfied and content... hmmmmm, now what the heck does he need? |
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YES I AM
just to save time and responses to all those repetitive questions |
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with a change of schedule means a change in sleep... I feel like I have turned into a night creature. When I was a 20 something I would have loved this. Now it is interfering with the whole Mommy, Sub thingy. Whats a girl to do when she is trying to provide for those she cares for/serves? |
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and Fate is playing another hand, lets see where she has me landing this time eh? Will I end up in St Louis, or maybe Ann Arbor, or will I remain right where I am? She is in control of all right now. |
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well made a decision this weekend. I am not gonna pursue or start anything until I am able to be settled and not needing help. Its the wanting not the needing that makes for a more stable situation with a sub and her Dom. |
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just wondering why I bother to try and change things when it all doesn't matter in the end anyways |
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choosing to make a change is a hard decision. Even harder is when that decision is a tougher course than the one originally on. Now that the decision has changed once again, is the path the original, the new, or something else entirely. |
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sometimes the a simple conversation can mean a lot, others not a thing. When does it signal that it times for the conversation to end? |
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of all the difficult things in life I think waiting is the hardest. Waiting for things to happen, waiting for the arrival of special people, or even waiting for the water to boil... |
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knowing I have someone to help me, someone who cares, makes this move so much easier. Although a little more physical help would be nice. |
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getting packed and set, will be on my way soon, so long Boise, hello Columbus. What new adventures in our new life is going to be for us? |
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if things go well, and places are set, I will want to spend time with a nice gal, who knows that I am just a pet |
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change comes fast and swift. Seems my changes are happening before I am quite ready, but that just seems to make one stronger eh? |
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for those that read my entries and wonder what I am searching for, it isn't companionship, it is completion and perhaps even financial security. By my own hand and not anothers |
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still looking, still hunting, perhaps I am just looking for the right things in the wrong places |
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time for a change of pace and location. Job hunting now, where will fate lead me to? |
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after a nice day and several great conversations I am putting myself off the list. I am only going to be with the one I am hoping will want me, and me him. |
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a nice day with some follow up chatting, who knows will this be the one? or am I still looking for what might never come? |
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yes the profile says slutty, and guess what its true |
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A special someone who has always been there for me, is the special one I shall always be there for. |
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So its almost Christmas, having a litle time with someone special then no sight no see for a few months. But possibly someone new on the horizon? At least home with my boy and of course the pets. And if I am lucky my friendships will increase... and again, maybe someone new on the horizon? |
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its my birthday and once again seem to be spending it alone. Although I have many "friends" none stick around. Although I have given myself to one, he is never here. well almost never. I seem to be destined for a lonely place and wonder if I shouldn't just accept and stop trying to leave myself open for someone to decide that I am who they want. this town seems to have looked at me and decided I wasn't what it wants |
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So I thought I would offer a warning to those who think I am enjoying their conversation. If I tell you I am feisty and probably would not fit into your ideal, I am telling you that I am not interested and to GET LOST
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I made it home alive, but poor. Fortunately I didn't lose it all at the tables... just the bar
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Well Vegas here I am... whatcha gonna do with me?
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So its off to California tomorrow morn, then I get to go to Vegas. Maybe if I am lucky I will meet someone for some fun times while I am there.
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And there it is... such is the life of a free wheeling, independent type, submissive. Must be my lot in life to find peoples who want a adventurous gal like me but either won't keep her, or as is the case this time, simply can't fit me into life. My luck is that of road kill
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Am not sure if I am still going to be property or not, but at least there is some basis for friendship there... but hard when a girl is always wanting to be property and not having any takers that actually live in this darn town.
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And I guess thats that. I never seem to be able to keep anyone for very long. Don't know why. Good thing I still have someone who cares for me. And he knows precisely who he is and that I will always be his no matter what
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Well another enjoyable evening with the gentleman of my choice. (or was I his?) I think I am gonna enjoy his company more, perhaps even allow him the privelege of being able to control and own me. Assuming things work the way I hope they do that is. Sometimes I am a little overly optimistic... and others just a complete cynic.
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Had a wonderful day today, met with someone I had been chatting with and I think I might finally be considering allowing someone to take control of me. It is a big step as it involves so much trust and vulnerability on my part. Not big on the whole trust issue doncha know
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So I have a question for anyone who wants to answer... why would you assume that someone would completely commit to you after a few notes and letters? One day does not a relationship make.
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well finally made it home... boy was that a waste of time. Lonely but awfully vanilla in my activities. Maybe I should look for a part time playmate that is a girl?
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am currently in St Louis for a little fun... so why can't I find anything other than a little vanilla flavoring?
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Although it seems as times as though I search without purpose, there is something that I seek, but only if one is open enough to experience it will you understand it fully
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without a reason there is no need, but is everything about need alone?
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ever wonder how one gets where one is in life? I find myself with these thoughts as I have a master but am still alone.
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Am not playing for a while... need to get my health in order. But hopefully will be able to be available soon.
Bella
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Ya know if ya want someone to be interested in you a little more than your stats would be greatly appreciated. Hard to tell what a person is about when he doesn't tell me anything
Bella
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The longer I speak with people in this lifestyle the more it appeals to me. Not everything mind you, but the sheer trust factor it takes to build a relationship of this magnitude. Everyone here strikes me as people who know themselves and know how to achieve their goals. Even if the goals are simple like finding a partner for the evening. Also I have found people here to be less judgmental and more open. This has got to be the best thing I have ever chosen for myself.
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A quick note to add, I am not the type to want to move to a new town. But am the type that would love to be a toy and a pleasure item for all that you deem worthy of my services
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