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Well Used...
This week has been a combination of failure and success.
Not much to do when on your cycle, but did still plug a couple of days during that. Open to possible options in how to be of showing submission during that time. Of course bj's are in the table. Sometimes, however, that's not desired by my owner.
On the upside, there was being fucked senseless while plugged. And the last 24 hours has been very good. One round if being eaten out and fingered. Three rounds of being woken up for sex. He seems pleased that I always seem ready to go even being woken up in the middle of the night.
On to week three!
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Reflection: Week 1
Well I would say that the first week has gone pretty well. I have worn my collar daily. I have used a plug all but one day. I will find some additional attire for around the house that will be acceptable.
I have shared all of the messages with him that I have received since the beginning of the new year.
It may be a small step but I feel like these things help maintain a good headspace for us bith and encourages intimacy on various levels.
I will try to keep an ongoung update as time permits. Through reflection comes the opportunity for growth.
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New Year
After a brief discussion this morning we have agreed on a few things to try and get the most out of 2023.
- wearing my daily collar more often (as permitted by job, etc)
- more butt plugs
- less underwear
- more outfits with access when home
- more use of the belt
- more opportunities for us to explore with others
Happy New Year!
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Starting the New Year Off Right!
We had a lovely, laid back New Year's Eve. I was all ready to snuggle in and fall asleep on Master's chest.
He had other plans!
Just as I got close he sprang his trap. I quickly found his belt looped around my neck. I was completely at his mercy. He would constrict and loosen it as he played with my clit. I quickly became drenched. However, this did not deter him. He continued on increasing my state of arousal as he choked me. This continued for what seemed like forever, but really was more like a half hour.
Finally, he pulled me to my knees and sunk his delicious cock all the way into me from behind. Pulling back on the belt still around my neck he forced me into him as he fucked me.
Then he changed positions with him on top and he tightened the belt around my throat as he stroked in and out. The choking intesified my own orgasm as we came together.
It was a very Happy New Year!
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Though I love anal sex my Master does not always care for it. He is rather large and he has not often had good experiences with it in the past. I prepared myself as requested and he did not disappoint. We messed around for a while and he got me soaking wet. He fucked my cunt and I was so full it was delightful. He flipped me where I was on my knees and my ass was in the air. He removed the plug and replaced it with his cock. He fucked me for a good 30 minutes and I came multiple times. Finally I was rewarded with a nice cream pie. There is something about being filled with nice hot cum that makes me so sleepy. Needless to say, I slept very well. |
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I am not sure what he has planned for the night. But, as requested I gave myself an enema and plugged my ass. Looking forward to the evening. |
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I am so excited to see this feature back up. I'll have to do a proper update soon. |
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Work has been super stressful for the past couple of months. I’ve been working long hours with An extreme amount of stress. Friday we went out for dinner and split a couple of bottles of wine. We came home and continued to relax into the weekend.
I hit a point where my libido switched back on. I cannot complain at all about that. Sex and pain both relax me me overall. It was a nice reset, which I desperately needed.
Important things of note...
I do, indeed, love giving head.
I tend to always ask to be fisted when tipsy.
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Every so often there comes a point where everyone needs to re-evaluate where they are, where they want to be, and how to get there. That's kind of where we are at the moment.
I haven't been as devoted to the process of being a slave to my Master as we would both like. We both agree that it is something we still desire and need. It's just sometimes life gets in the way. Sometimes it's difficult to shift from being a dominant figure in the work place to being at my Master's feet.
So, we've taken a look at where we'd like to be and made a plan on how to get there. There have to be daily components to our life that clearly delineate our roles in the relationship. We'll add these so as not to be overwhelming.
The first of which is to wake him each morning at 5am by sucking his cock. I don't usually get up this early so this will be a challenge. Though one I'm looking forward to because I do love to do it.
Other daily activities will follow. I'll also be looking into getting my nipples and clit hood pierced in the near future as it is something he would like to see me get done and I want to please him. So, I'll be researching piercing places in the St. Louis area. |
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Our work week started out a bit rough on Monday. We decided to grab a quick drink at the local pub and then head to dinner. The evening was winding down, kids are in bed, and the weather was pleasantly warm for an early summer evening.
We popped open a bottle of wine and sat outside under the stars enjoying some time together . One of our neighbors strolled over and we had a pleasant time. The conversation turned, as they sometimes do, to breasts. I was wearing a particularly tight t-shirt with no bra. Eventually, I showed him my breasts. I distinctly remember thinking, 'What am I doing?' Since it was starting to get late he eventually returned home and we went inside.
The two of us were far from tired and had been lamenting about needing some playtime. So, we took the opportunity. It wasn't long before he was having me sick his cock hard. Then my ass was in the air and I heard the belt slice through the air. I know he laid into my pretty hard. He coached me through a few particularly difficult swats and then told me how many more I had to take. When he was done I was in tears.
I don't cry easily, so it was cathartic to lay in his arms after ward. He told me how he was proud I had shown off my tits to our neighbor. He was proud of everything I had taken for him.
We played a bit more through the night. He fisted me and I drank all the piss like a good girl and I kept it down this time. By the time we fell into bed during the wee morning hours we were both satisfied and equally exhausted.
If only the next day hadn't been a work day! |
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Well I'm another year older. I'm looking forward to Champagne and chocolates on Saturday! |
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It's been a while since my last post. My Master and I hald a good close to 2016. We both got promotions and we focused on our family. We didn't have much time for anything else.
Our connection is as strong as ever. He makes sure that I get the pain and humiliation that I need. The other night he took me to bed and asked if I wanted teeth or needles. I chose needles. He decided to pierce my nipples and clit. Then I became a pin fission from there. It was excruciating and delightful. I begged him to stop only when he began to pierce my pussy lips. I asked him to take a picture. (Which I never do. I may share that later.)
He choked me and slapped me, bringing me closer to orgasm until I exloded with him.
I hope that we continue our journey in 2017. I hope we find someone willing to expand my training and will exploit my masochistic side along with my inner slut. |
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Last night I thought we had tucked in to snuggle. Instead he decided to wrap himself around me and hold me open for his hands to explore. He worked my clit, edging me closer and closer to orgasm. When I was about to cum he dug his nail under the hood and lifted. I had no choice but to lift my hips in response to his movements.
He let go and I thanked him. It was a delightful pain that radiated but cut off my orgasm. He grabbed my face from behind, covering mouth and nose. He cut off the air thill I thought my lungs would burst. All the while bringing me closer to climax.
As I began to go over the edge, he sank his teeth into my shoulder. I shuddered and came. There's something primal in feeling teeth on skin. I sank into it, relished it. |
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So, I've had several people ask if I had a wish list. I didn't, but I have since created one.
This gives me an opportunity to serve others that may not be in my immediate area. I'll be happy to take pictures or video of me using or wearing anything purchased from the list.
I certainly don't expect anyone to buy anything, but if you're so inclined please let me know when something is purchased and we can discuss what you'd like to see.
https://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/2KK5JCPS48OF/ref=cm_sw_r_em_ip_wl_o_LpvNxb38K5KQW |
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It's been a bit since my last post. I've been trying to sort it out and piece it together. I was in and out of it. I think I may have achieved subspace on occasion.
A lot happened in what turned into a three hour session with my Master.
We returned after a lovely evening surrounded by friends.
Things started out with a little light bondage. I was stuffed with my large dildo. I took a full body beating with the belt. It went from shoulders to feet. I hate having my feet touched, let alone beaten. He asked me to take several to the feet and I did.
It seemed to go on and in. But in the pain there is release.
I don't have many hard limits with Master. So, he decided to push me a bit past my comfort zone and had me drink his piss. I didn't spill a drop, though it didn't settle well. After a brief break I returned in hands and knees and begged for more. He felt I'd had enough, but was happy I'd begged for more.
He then decided to break out the needles. He put several through the tops of each breast. The pain brief, but delightful. It's been years since I'd last experienced the fascination of having them just below the skin. He also pierced each nipple which was a bit harder to take. He took it one step further and took a razor blade out. One thin cut on the underside of each breast. I wasn't sure what to make of it at first, but the more that I contemplate it the more I realize I liked it.
There isn't much I wouldn't do or take for my Master if he asked it if me. I love to serve. The pain and humiliation bring me to a new places,, but doing things for him makes me truly happy. |
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Between job, kids, and illnesses we haven't had much time for anything else. Thankfully things have started to slow down a bit.
Last night we managed to get the kids to bed in fairly quick order. We shared a bottle of wine and relaxed. Climbing into bed I realized he had other thoughts in his mind when he kicked the bedroom door shut. (It's almost never closed.)
He kissed me. It's something I love and miss because we don't get to do it often enough. He jammed his fingers into my cunt. I instantly started to get wet. As he went to plunge into me he wrapped his hand around my throat. It's one of my favorite things, couple that with him shoving himself all the way in at the same time and I was feeling delightful.
As I was losing myself in the moment he brought me quickly back by slapping my face.
He alternated between slapping and crushing my breasts and slapping my face. I know I was greedily convulsing around his cock with my twat, waiting for it to fill me. When he pulled out I was still wanting and unfilled as he had not cum.
He began edging me back to the brink hey massaging my clit, when he dug his nail in under my clit hood and pulled back. The pain was exquisite and I thanked him for it. He then started slapping my cunt. I was rolling between the pleasure and the pain, asking for more and thanking him too.
I was more than ready when he mounted me again and filled me with his cum. |
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The last couple of months have been mostly work with very little time for anything else. I'm starting to itch for some serious play. Now that I've got some down time maybe that's a possibility! |
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I have decided that stairs are a hard limit! I fell down my stairs on the way out the door to a conference for work. Ended up twisting my ankle, jammed my shoulder, and probably cracked a rib. I'm feeling much better, but next time I think I'd much rather just ask Master to beat me instead of going it on my own! LOL |
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Rope. We went from having too much to not enough to do what he wanted. So he ends up wrapping the small piece around my tits. It hurt when it pulled tight against my flesh, but then they started to ache in a good way. Then he stated to beat them with his hands and torquing my nipples. Milking me and wiping it on my skin.
When the rope came off it got doubled over and he used it to beat my nipples. They hurt so bad. Just when I thought I couldn't take more he started beating my body with it. I started to move till his hand found my pussy.
I was wet of course and in it went. He started fisting me. The beating intensified allowing him further into my cunt. I begged him not to stop, thanking him for the blows. When I couldn't continue he pulled it out with a pop.
He motions for me to come to the edge of the bed. I put my ass up so he could take it. It hurt at first. But, he kept pounding in and out. I relaxed and it was so good to be stuffed full of his cock. He even came in my ass.
He went to cleanup and I played with my clit a little longer, still on my knees with my ass hanging off the bed. I was still horny then and still am now. |
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Last night...
The last few days I've been working to get my home back to where I think it should be. I've packed up boxes and decliners the family spaces so we're all more comfortable. I do that so He will know that I want to take care of Him and make Him happy.
The flip side of that coin is taking whatever he dishes out when we play. I can take a bit of pain and I like it. I've even begged for it which is outside of my comfort zone as I feel rather silly when I do. But, on some level I need it.
Last night there was no begging for Him to hurt me, He just did. It was delightful.
I knew I'd be in for it when He grabbed my hair and shoved my face into the bed. I knew it when He grabbed my be the throat. I knew He was going to give me what I needed.
I can't help but get excited when I hear Him get the belt. He whipped my ass, but didn't stop there. He also took it to my thighs and back. It made me warm and wet all at once.
He also took it to my breasts between nibbling and squeezing them so tightly I thought they might pop.
He forced his cock down my throat and both ends of my double header into my cunt. I was more than happy to comply. Not that I really had the choice.
He fucked me from behind (my favorite), all the while using the belt for leverage either wrapped around my neck or breasts.
He shoved his cock in my ass and I loved it. I would have happily taken his load there, but that position doesn't always allow him completion. I was disappointed I didn't get to wear it at least, but I am an cum slut after all.
Unfortunately, the more I get the more I want.
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Looking forward to a trip to StL 18th through 20th! |
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Purchased a couple of new toys today. I can't wait till they come in! |
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My picture is of the collar I received for Christmas. I love it! |
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Ok, so here's a bit of a rant. Read it or not as you like.
I do understand that there are a lot of people on here that have no true concept of what the bdsm lifestyle is all about. In my personal experience it's about a connection that two individuals have and trust. A slave/submissive needs to be able to trust that the person they are relinquishing control to is going to be responsible and respect limits.
It has already been stated that I have a Master. You will be able to use me but not own me because he already does. He has to approve of any pictures I send to you. He is a photographer and as such often likes to take new pictures. That is in his time table, not yours.
So, if you can not accept simple things like this and be respectful of boundaries why do you think I would allow you to tie me up and fuck me? (Yes, I'm a slave and he had the ultimate say, but if I'm uncomfortable he's probably not going to feel amiable toward you.)
For me this is more than helping someone get their dick wet. In truth more times than not I have been a part of a scene where no sexual contact was ever made. We had mutual interests and we helped one another express them. There was respect and trust given on both sides.
That is what I want and need. |
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I am looking forward to being off for a couple of weeks! |
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