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LittleEmily

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Well... Here's me trying this out. I'm just a girl looking for a manly man who likes a woman with a 1950's household fetish. I love cooking and baking and cleaning, and if I could afford to I would dress like Bette Paige all the time. I'm a university student at the moment, hopefully going to teachers college next year. School keeps me pretty occupied but I try to find time for the people I care about. I really am looking for a lovingly dominant, somewhat sadistic man. I like funishment instead of punishment. I identify as a babygirl at times who needs a Daddy. I'm also terrible at filling these things out :P. the short of it is, I'm a smart, silly, caring person looking for the same. New friends are also welcome :)

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2/18/2013 9:07:00 PM
All moved in. A relief to be out of the shit hole, also weird to be in a new place. I love my new roommates, but I'm feeling oddly lonely, and a bit like an interloper. It's weird. I think maybe I'm just in shock. The big move, the exams, the essays... I'm overwhelmed, and I really just want someone to come hold me and tell me it'll be ok and help me organize my life so that it's not so daunting.

2/16/2013 2:04:41 PM
OH MY GOD MOVING AHHHHHHHHJHJHHHJ

2/15/2013 10:05:45 PM
Oh my god. So much packing, so little time :'( But my two friends are helping me pack tomorrow and they're bringing wine! WOOT!

2/14/2013 7:49:22 AM
I feel terrible, I haven't posted every day like I should be, but I've been so caught up in school work! Wish me luck, I'm writing a midterm that's worth 40% of my final mark. YIPE!

2/11/2013 10:44:26 PM
Exam 1 of 2 done. Essay 1 of 2 done. Now it's time for Harry Potter. What a friggin' week. On the other hand... I've made a ton of new friends lately. I feel pretty positive, which is a nice change. :) I also had a dream I got a scholarship to teachers college, here's hopin it comes true?

2/10/2013 6:59:55 AM
So I have been lax in posting here... The last few days have been full of studying and assignments. Midterms next week, plus workin every day. It's fucking insane. Last night I partied with my soon to be new roommates and had a wonderful time!

2/7/2013 9:24:46 AM
I hun out with an old friend last night. She reminded me of how real friends treat each other and how they're supposed to make you feel. I realized I've kept a lot of toxic people in my life, so all these changes that are taking me away from them is for the best. I can be happy without them :)

2/5/2013 8:56:06 PM
Good gracious, people are so wishy washy. Make up your mind and stick to your decisions. Goddamnit, must I be surrounded by these snivelling turds?!

2/4/2013 7:25:32 PM
So people are dicks. Apparently I'm an intense person. Well ok. So I feel emotions intensely. If I like you, then I like you a lot. If I love you, I love you a lot. If I hate you, I will shit in your breakfast milk. I'm sorry that as a friend, you cant handle this. I'm sorry that as someone who promised me I was ok to open up about my shit, my shit turned out to be too much for you. Why is losing my friend feeling more and more like a breakup?

2/3/2013 5:05:56 PM
Oh god, so full of meat. Delicious meat sweats ensue.

2/1/2013 6:44:43 PM
SWEET MERCIFUL CHRIST!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!! Goddamnit. My ex and my last relationship are like fucking Frankenstein or a mummy - haunting me from beyond the grave. WHY ARE YOU STILL MAKING MY LIFE SUCK?!?! God just leave me alone. You keep ruining my life. It'll just start to get back on track and then you come along and derail my life again. FUCK YOU.

1/31/2013 11:09:51 AM
Sometimes the distance really fucking gets to me. Hello trust problems. Hello self esteem issues. Hello gullibility.

1/30/2013 7:32:01 AM
A ten hour sleep isn't long enough. I haven't had a day off in 3 weeks.

1/29/2013 6:03:30 AM
Well... No field school in Japan for me. :( great sadness.

1/28/2013 12:40:09 PM
Yesterday I was a slave to the word processor. Today you get a new poem: When I break upon the shore, I will break you with me. I will crash you upon the boulders and cliffs, launch you high into the air to be scattered salt spray, heave and pull and trap you in my undertow, i will pull you down with me. ?And you will break, as I am broken, have been broken countless times in innumerable tempests. behold my glorious terror, my beautiful maelstrom, my crushing caress. When I break upon the shore, I will break you with me.

1/26/2013 8:33:58 PM
This is what I do when I'm waiting for my laptop to stop sucking: I write fake Transformers lyrics. Honestly, I'd rather believe in robot Jesus over a magic man floating in the sky somewhere, taking notes on all the times I've beat off so my eternal punishment will reflect the greivous acts of my life. Some believe he's watching over youuuu When satans works at haaaand And there's nothing you can doooo betray him for energon cuuuubes Hell die for your siiiiins And forgive all of youuuuuu Robot Jesus More than meets the eye Robot Jesus Blessings in disguise...

1/25/2013 7:53:57 PM
Man... I'm really REALLY tired of homework. And my shoulder really hurts. And now for something completely different... I think owning guns is fine... As long as you follow the letter of the law, with regards to storage, carry, use, amount of ammunition/magazine size, etc. instead of freaking out about kids shooting other kids, why not ask WHY THE FUCK THEY ARE SHOOTING. Maybe if you poured more money into helping the psychologically fragile, put more focus into making an accepting and tolerant society instead of having a society that focuses on exclusion, then kids wouldn't feel the need to shoot up their peers. Just cuz you put a crazy person in a padded cell doesn't mean they're not crazy anymore, or not a potential threat. Stop worrying about the symptoms and focus on the cause. Get people acting and thinking about living life instead of toiling or surviving it. Create a world where the kid isn't so socially mal-adjusted, so angry, whatever, that they need to shoot someone. If you take away guns, it'll be just as easy to grab a kitchen knife. Those are never under lock and key. Now shut up and be a good parent and talk to your fucking kid and really listen to them and love them unconditionally. Stop worrying about whether your Dr. Ho physio belt is actually loosening up your gunt fat, and worry about your kid. You're a parent. That's your fucking job.

1/24/2013 11:23:43 PM
I don't care what anyone says, I love the twilight saga. It's so bad it's good! I have a hypertensive shoulder cuff. It hurts like a bitch. Feeling maudlin.

1/23/2013 10:51:48 PM
Is it possible to be madly In love with the written word? If so, Anthony bourdain has wooed me quite successfully. I rarely chuckle out loud when I read, but he's got me LOL'ing on public transportation, which is earnin me some righteously funny looks from strangers.

1/22/2013 6:32:15 PM
Weet merciful Odin... It's do cold there ice INSIDE my window. GAH! In other news I've had a headache for 3 weeks now. Not sure if stress/tension induced or what, but my Advil supply is running dangerously low.

1/21/2013 9:11:59 PM
Do I care about the osteological paradox? No. No I don't.

1/20/2013 10:54:41 PM
Oh hi there panic attack. How ya been? Me, I was having a good night, saw a movie, got a lot of homework done. And then you showed up and usurped my time. Thanks, you fucking interloper.

1/19/2013 10:18:22 PM
Oh drunk people at clubs, why are you always such dongles? Saying "fuckfuckfuck" in my face is not a great way to get on my good side...

1/18/2013 7:23:39 PM
Oh GOD my roommates are such cocksuckers. We got in a yelling match about why I packed up my kitchen stuff and now they're inconvenienced because they can't cook anything... Why not go out and buy a fucking pot, you morons?! It's not my fault you inconvenienced yourselves by kicking me out. Bunch of idiots. In other news the new place should be awesome. Bigger room, a dog to play with.... Fuck these jerks. Also my desire to read 40 page articles is losing to my desire to watch the extended edition of Return of the King...

1/16/2013 10:21:15 PM
For the big girls I recommend EVERYONE reads the essay titled "How do you fuck a fat woman". It did me wonders. I don't consider myself obese but I'm no Skinny Minnie. I've got love handles, curves all over the place, a belly that jiggles, stretch marks from gaining and losing weight, cellulite, jiggly arms... And I don't care anymore. I mean, I care on some level but... It no longer affects how sexy I feel. I AM sexy. I AM beautiful. I love my tits. I think I have a nice ass. I think I have amazing lips. ?My friends think I'm sexy, but more importantly I think I'm sexy.? Reading about how some people think bigger girls should be thankful to get raped because it's the only sex they'll get really REALLY pissed me off. No one ever deserves rape. No one should ever be thankful for it. Big girls can get all the love they deserve simply because of who they are.? By men and women not appreciating themselves, we become prone to settling because that's all we think we'll ever get. We should be happy that someone, ANYONE, is attracted enough to show us attention. Right? Wrong. I've been down that road. It led to 3.5 years of dating a man who could NEVER give me what I wanted, and who made me feel like shit most of the time. If someone doesn't like you for your size, fuck 'em. If someone does like you, regardless of size, but they're an ass? Fuck 'em. We have all of us a right to be happy. Don't waste time with a loser when you could be our finding someone perfect for you. We may never be a size 2. We may never get to our goal weight. But that doesn't make us failures, it doesn't make us ugly.

1/15/2013 8:28:24 AM
I found a place to live! So THERE!

1/13/2013 9:34:49 PM
And then my cocksmoke roommates kicked me out. AWESOME.

1/12/2013 8:28:01 AM
Oh my god. You know you're sick when you have fever dreams and orange juice tastes like water u_u I need Advil cold and sinus and ginger tea, STAT. Also the thought of doing homework = cause for tears.

1/11/2013 8:22:50 AM
So In my hectic frenzy of trying to get ahead on homework not only did I pass out fully dressed in bed underneath my laptop, I also forgot to journal post! DOH! So this post shall be longer to make up for it. This week has been nuts. Like full on crazy pants. I had the crappy appointment of doom on Monday, Tuesday was the first day of school and I had to buy books... So I made myself feel better by buying a leather jacket, shoes, and a tshirt after school. From Wednesday onwards it's been reading article after article and chapter after chapter, as well as writing and submitting my first research essay of the year... IT'S ONLY THE FIRST WEEK, PEOPLE! WTF! There is so much reading I've had to schedule the reading of each article and chapter into my calendar on a daily basis. Like holy shit. In other school news I'm filling out supplementary forms for teachers college today. AND I got the schools approval for a field school study in Japan for two months this summer! I just need to hear back from the other school and I'm set! :D In other OTHER news I have a cold. AGAIN. School is such a petri dish. In all of this, I'm totally enjoying myself. Compared to how I was ten years ago, heck, even 2 years ago, I can see myself making all the right decisions. :) it's a nice change.

1/9/2013 12:54:42 PM
I just split the seat of my pants in class... KARMA Y U HATE?!?

1/7/2013 12:29:08 PM
I hate my endocrinologist's office. It smells weird and the nurses look ominous and I'm scared.

1/6/2013 9:04:30 PM
Ooooook so my ex that cheated on me with my roommate just broke up with my roommate. I'm both delighted and ashamed to admit that I'm feeling a twinge of vindictive victory :/

1/6/2013 4:09:55 PM
I stopped writing. When the lights went out and I turned on, the only language I knew was the images in my head. Indescribable and beautiful and terrible. Of creatures and landscapes no one else but me could imagine or describe in the recesses of my mind. And each piece of scenery was more fantastic than the last, so I dove further and deeper and harder, until the perspiration of my endeavors froze on my skin. ?In the darkest corner of my mind, wind was biting and made a mess of everything. It blew away my facade and I could see clearly for the first time. The realization was so terrifying I could never hope to recover that which was lost. Slowly I came back to fantasy and scenery, but never could see them the same. Never again did I traverse the darkest alleys, the deepest gullies of my imagination, but never have I written with such truth.

1/5/2013 9:20:56 AM
Oh hai sub drop. It's been a while. So nice of you to drop in. Also, I got fed gluten last night and am now the exorcist. Also I definitely learned my lesson. Never again.

1/4/2013 10:02:41 AM
Thanks for the ideas everyone, but I think I figured it out. Your emails kept me focused and on track, so thank you a million times over :)

1/4/2013 9:38:08 AM
Also related to my previous post... This is an open question to anyone, in a situation where a sub has failed her Dom, what do you all think is the appropriate course of action? Aside from profusely apologizing and doing what she can to make sure it doesn't ever happen again, is there anything else she can do to show Him she's truly sorry? If He lived near she would cook and bake some elaborate feast or something, but at the moment that's not a viable option. And I haven't found a website for bdsm related e-cards...

1/4/2013 9:14:15 AM
Well, this is a learning curve for sure. You think you've been in a D/s relationship before, that you've had training before, and lo and behold you learn two things: 1) your past experiences don't mean ANYTHING because every Dom and their expectations are totally different; 2) my exes were lazy and hardly trained me at all. This is hard. I mean it's HARD. Especially after being single for so long, to put someone else first all the time is a paradigm shift. What's worse is that I want to please Him, and I'm failing. I want to do everything right, and I find I'm doing everything wrong. He had been patient and understanding. I have been a flake, have not made myself available to Him. I've tried to continue to live as I used to, hanging with friends whenever I wanted. I can't juggle that much of a social life if I'm also trying to serve Him, because then I'm never home for Him. I could easily quote distance as the reason for my failure, we are far apart after all, but that would be a cheap excuse. I have been selfish. And I'm sabotaging my own place in His life. This girl begs forgiveness, Daddy. She will do better, cross her heart.

1/3/2013 9:06:41 PM
And then I got mugged. They even stole my ice cream. WHO STEALS ICE CREAM?! Anyway, I'm ok, just ready for a night of conversation and tasks from Him :)

1/3/2013 9:59:14 AM
I was recently (meaning a couple weeks ago) told that a true sub is always obedient and never questions the one they serve... Which would probably be true if I were in fact that persons sub/slave whatever. However the context of this conversation was all wrong. The person messaged me for the first time demanding nude pictures. I say go fuck yourself. This whole post is basically a spin off from yesterday's post. The first words you say to me should not be an order. They should be some kind of greeting, like hey what's up I like your profile how are you. Not a difficult concept, really, but one that I think many forget. Being dominant does not excuse you from having good manners. It doesn't mean that you can just assume I'm a pushover or anything. What being a Dom means is that IF you get along with a sub and IF she likes you back and IF there's some kind of connection you want to explore, then you will take the lead in that exploration. Should you both find yourselves happy, then you become, to me, a D/s couple. That being said, were I a dominant person, I would want my sub to be a strong person. Not someone who's gonna battle me for power, but someone who will not just lay over on her back for any alpha male that walks by. Someone, while they need shaping and molding and TLC and training, who is their own person, can function without a Dom there all the time. Because if I could get someone like that to submit to me, it would be more rewarding. If you're a pushover, then anyone can get you. But if youre a strong person, then you can ensure that the right Dom for you will come to get you. I just think that would be more satisfying for both people. But then what do I know, I'm only a sub, right?

1/2/2013 7:20:03 PM
For your information, just because I'm a sub, just because I'm a girl or whatever the fuck bullshit is going through your head, I'm a person and deserve to be granted common, base courtesy. Emailing me erotica without discussing sweet fuck all to me, is rude. Did you bother to find out how available I am? Nope. You didn't. Cuz I'm not. Im under consideration by someone. So get a clue, and do your homework. Kthxbai.

1/1/2013 7:12:41 AM
Oh my god. 1) I'm hungover as all hell. 2) I left my keys at my friends place, roommate had to let me in, had to sleep on the couch because my bedroom door was also locked. 3) I should have wrestled in high school. If my memory serves me right I was doing a fine job last night scrappin'

1/1/2013 1:43:43 AM
So this super-derp left her keys at her friends place... So had to wake up a roommate to let her drunk ass in so she could sleep on the couch :(

12/31/2012 7:51:36 PM
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE! One hr til 2013! Shout out to Daddy!

12/31/2012 8:14:12 AM
So what's so special about new years anyway? Sure it's a good excuse to party, but I mean... Nothing really happens, right? If you miss it, it's not a big deal. It's not like you only get to see this one awesome cosmic thing precisely at midnight that leaves you wondering in awe and rapture at the magnitude and unknown of the universe. Nope, midnight is when you kiss your sweetie and then you get extra drunk. Maybe it's like valentines day, better spent with someone special. My someone special is far away, so even though I don't feel like partying, I'm obligated to. Yay societal constraints!

12/30/2012 6:17:12 AM
The movie Les Miserables was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen (this should have been done yesterday >_< so I shall type TWO entries today!). I saw it in theatre when I was 16, and it blew my mind then. But let me tell you, the movie is amazing. If Anne Hathaway doesn't win an Oscar then the people who decide that stuff should be put in the stocks. It was so emotional, so REAL.... I cried almost the whole movie long. Amanda Seyfried also blew my mind, she hit some high notes only dogs could hear. The movie was empowering though, and now I feel like somehow my life is small and doesnt matter compared to what those characters went through.

12/28/2012 10:25:03 PM
I'm watching Breaking Dawn right now. Don't judge me. There's something about the eternal love thing that's disgusting in how romantic it is. My brain feels fried. I don't think I've had a single good nights sleep in over a week.

12/28/2012 12:16:26 AM
So today's excursion to the cottage was cancelled since my cousins got too drunk to drive... /sigh I cleaned like a motherfucker today. The bathroom, kitchen, and my room are now spotless. The unfortunate part is I had to tape a sign up in the kitchen asking roommates and their guests to throw out their garbage and do their dishes. Who leaves a greasy paper KFC bag sitting on a burner?!?!!! Wtf. Tomorrow I go to Hamilton. Tonight I watch Breaking Dawn (I know its terrible, that's why I like it!)

12/26/2012 10:03:40 PM
Oh my goodness, I love the holidays and my family but holy shit am I glad to be back at my own place. One more day of my older sister nagging me about what I wear and eat and say and I might have been convicted of a crime. Also, it should be universally illegal to get a fever over Christmas. What the hell, immune system. Epic fail. I think... I may have found a Daddy... Someone who really understands what I need and want and who I am. ?I have my fingers crossed that distance won't be an issue forever... Hooray for disjointed journal entries!

12/21/2012 9:16:41 PM
Drunkenly falling down a flight of stairs = ultimate class.

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