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I am a pet, a kitten more specifically, and I am a submissive. I am a natural born submissive. This means I am submissive in personality and actions. I am passive. I'm the little one that you want to take home to your partner to hug and cuddle with. At this point, I'm not too opposed to that. This being said, I'm not always perfection and cuteness. Generally, I have trouble speaking my mind because I have this ridiculous habit of considering everyone else's feelings before my own. This is how I view it; If it doesn't sound like something I would like said to me, I won't say it to anyone else. I'll say the same sentence over and over in my head until I find a way to say it pleasantly. At this point in my life, it's pretty difficult to get me to speak my mind. In the past, I would never state my opinion. I'm a little more opinionated now and I'm working hard on growing that trait inside of myself. I tend to freak out internally on seemingly random situations. It's not quite random to me. It's usually situations where I can't find an exit or I can't find a way to say what needs to be said efficiently. I tend to look minutes, hours, days, and sometimes years past what I should and I've seen things that some see as realistically impossible. My largest flaw is I trust entirely too easily. It's a flaw I'm still learning to get used to. I fall in love even harder. I may not always be able to do it, but I can put my foot (paw?) down and defend myself with a feline sass that may or, may not be unique to us kittens. I can hold my head up proudly for whatever I believe is right. My cat-like qualities is naturally apart of my personality. I also have a little bit of a sadist inside somewhere. She likes to hurt.

Why am I looking into the kink dynamic:
Since my involvement within the community, I have grown so much as a person. Initially, I was looking into 24/7 Total Power Exchange, or a Master/slave dynamic. For a person to surrender my mind, spirit and body to someone is the ultimate expression of love and trust. I've been told I'm too much of a wild card, and I shouldn’t be restricted to the slave role (as I’ve been told by others). I understand this point, but I also feel that the right Master would never restrict such beauty, but instead they would nurture and allow it to grow to be a beautiful reflection of them. Someone once told me "A good slave will reflect the amazing Master she serves."
With evolution, however, I have also geared towards the Owner/pet dynamic. This dynamic has zero restrictions on my actual personality, and I make such a cute kitty! I'm a unique person to handle and it would probably take a special person for me to truly flourish.
Rope truly makes me happy; being bound and tied makes me happy. Suspension makes me beyond happy. The chaos in my mind is silenced. Since I tend to think so far ahead, rope brings me back into the moment. I might be what one would call a "Rope Bunny" although I believe "Rope Kitty" would suit me better. This should definitely be an option in the role selection area.
I have little experience with Impact play, electro stimulation, needle play, hypnotism, and wax play. I plan to expand on each of these soon.

My Relationships:
My relationship status: I am currently not seeing anyone. This doesn't mean I'm looking because I am not. I take great consideration before I even consider a relationship, partnership, or otherwise.
The personalities for my vanilla life:
The *submissive* side of me: She is the simple, loving, caring, and understanding one. She will please the person she cares about to the best of her ability. She is a wonderful listener, although she sucks at giving advice, and is willing to go above and beyond her duty for whomever she cares for. She will make sure they know she cares for them as a person and a submissive. Her love has no limits; it continues to surprise even herself. She is loyal to a fault.
The *feline* side of me: She is carefree, instinctive, happy about everything and curious. Freedom has no leash. She enjoys to be unleashed in the mountains. She is also the unwinding personality after a hard day of work. She loves digging her little curious paws into absolutely everything! If it’s a hobby that looks like fun and if someone else has that interest, she will follow. If she had a great work day, she is the relaxant. It’s her time to forget everything bad that happened and just be. She also has been told she has the massaging paws of life. Just a good rub down with the energy she exerts creates a relaxing atmosphere.
So, now that you've read all the way down here... Any questions? Feel free to message me!

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12/21/2014 8:13:33 PM
To my Future ones,
Wow, it's been over 6 months. I've had interest shown and I've shown interest. At this point in time I'm passively seeking. I'm not going to direct my energy towards seeking a Dominant but if a good one makes itself known, I'm willing to pursue a friendship until AFTER I'm done with college. Afterwards I'll look into serious interests. I respect every serious offer and will decline every ludicrous offer. I'm a curious mind and therefore I will be intrigued at the opportunities that make themselves known to me. I appreciate all serious offers and will be working on a questionnaire for all prominent Dominants. :] If you have any questions you feel should be on the questionnaire feel free to inform me as well.

My curious mind awaits,
~*~Ixtar ~*~

6/5/2014 7:08:43 AM
It seems that someone has set their sights on me. :) wonderful ! Lovely, caring, compassionate couple I will consider your generous offer :)

4/8/2014 1:31:38 PM

I find it interesting that even though there are things clearly stated on my profile, there is always that one person that chooses not to read. I'd get the message of wanting to dominate me or wanting to enslave me or make me their slut. I'm neither of those things and messaging it to me in such informal ways ensure the wonderful decline I'd give them.

 

So please, feel free to message me. Do not, however, be surprised when I send you "[insert decline here], thank you though

 

Ixtar"


4/4/2014 4:11:04 PM

I feel a little empty. Now, I no longer have the play partner. I no longer have that connection that I got with being tied up. I no longer have peace of mind when the rope slide across my skin. I no longer enjoy the feeling of ecstasy when I have to focus on my breathing. I feel a little empty.  It was something I made special in my mind, but it is no longer special.


4/3/2014 10:50:31 AM
I'm a little sad that the people I talk to that are states away are kind, nice, attractive and seemingly honest. Even the ones that's hours away within the state have some qualities I can respect., but they're too far for me to engage physically in a blooming friendship. It's rather discouraging really.

3/16/2014 11:29:48 AM
Trust, as I see it, is this fragile puzzle. Pieces of it are given out. Of course, someone can get one piece and not the other. For example, I trust this person won't put me in the back of the truck and kill me. I don't, however, trust this person to meet my family for other reasons. It's one piece of the puzzle and not the other. I made the mistake of handing out the entire puzzle, now that puzzle has been thrown to the ground, drowned in gasoline, set on fire, buried in the ground and covered in concrete. Forcing someone's hand is the quickest way to destroy any trust. Now The trustee is broken more, and the trusted gives absolutely NO fucks. I'll make sure not to let it happen again. 

3/13/2014 7:35:14 AM
I know it's not real, but sometimes I just want to live in the moment To see the smile, hear the laugh, speak mindless chatter But I know it's not real. I know it's not real, But let me believe it is this one time That moment of aftercare, that checkup, that compassion, But I know it's not real. I know it's not real, But give me this fantasy, The life I have to offer In servitude, as the bottom, the slave Yet I know it's not real. I know it's not real, But I still stay up late, Dreaming of what I heard you say, what I saw you do, how I saw you act, But I know it's not real. I know it's not real, But you still try to care, Try to listen, try to help, try to support, But it's not real. I know it's not real, I don't even try to pretend, Separate my mind, my heart, my genuine emotions, Because it's not real. I know it's not real, But just let me dream Dream of that future, that life, that wife Though I know it's not real. I know it's not real, Even though I'm willing You know my limits, my control, my mentality But I know it's not real I know it's not real, Just leave me be. I realize I'm foolish, I'm blinded, I'm childish Because I know it's not real And it never will be

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goddess4you
 
 Age: 28
  Indiana