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It has been brought to my attention that I need to update my profile. I am currently living in the DFW area. I am not looking for a Daddy/Dom. I am here to peruse journals and keep up with the few friends that I have made. I do enjoy good conversation with these individuals and wish everyone luck. In every girl's life, there is a force, a presence, a Daddy, a Dominant she lives and breathes to love and honor. A Top is for tonight, a Dom is for however long they're needed, a Master as long as they seek Mastery, but a Daddy is forever
12/11/2012 4:28:32 PM

Borrowed

 

If you want to possess my body, you must first possess my mind

My mind is a place of ordered chaos; planning, scheduling, anticipating, worrying, and orchestrating the 12-ring circus that is our lives. Take possession of my mind, take control of my body and I will submit with all of my heart and soul.
Tell me to strip, and my thoughts start to change focus.
Tell me I’m beautiful, so I can see myself through your eyes instead of my own.
Tell me you’re pleased, so I don’t feel like I’m failing you.
Be prepared, so I don’t worry about what you might have forgotten.
Talk to me while we play, or my mind will stray.
Tell me I’m wet for you, and I sink further into your hands knowing you are aware of my reactions.
Tell me to open my legs, and I relinquish control.
Tell me to look at you, so I feel your presence and make the connection of who controls my physical pleasure.
Tell me you want to do things to me, so I can trust that you know where you are taking me.

Give me pain, because sometimes it is too hard to shut down my own thoughts.
Give me pain, if I have disappointed you so I can try harder.
Give me pain, so you can take me further than I thought possible.
Tell me why I’m being punished, so I know you care enough to help make me better.
Tell me to take pain/pleasure from you, beyond what I perceive are my limits.
Take me to that place where no one exists but you and your desires.
Afterwards, tell me what my submission meant to you.
Remind me that you own me in all ways and why that is important to you.
Reassure me that I’ve done exactly as you wanted, so I don’t feel insecure.
Tell me what you are thinking and feeling, because my own thoughts can deceive me.
Take possession of my mind, and all of me is YOURS.

11/25/2012 2:42:51 PM

Why I need supervision in Wal-Mart

 

The other night I had to go to Wal-Mart to do some Thanksgiving shopping. We went late hoping that some of the crazies would have gone home. It was a madhouse. I had already ditched Steve on a bench and was getting the last of the shopping done when I noticed a group of kids, late teens early 20's. There were 8, maybe 10 of them. They were giggling and laughing and they were also getting lost and frustrated.

"Marco!" one of the guys finally called out.
"Polo?" was the giggled reply. Ok, Marco Polo in Wal-Mart. Hmmm...

About a minute passed.

"Marco!" He said
"Polo!" She said giggling.
"Polo!" I said trying not to laugh.
"What the Fuck?" He said confused.

This went on for several more minutes, each time he called "Marco", several more people would chime in, including one of the night stockers and an Assistant Manager. It was hysterical. I think It was the most fun that I have had in Wal-Mart since...

Three of us had a bouncy ball race in the toy department.

Filled a shopping cart with a tarp, rope, hacksaw, bleach and a shovel.

Secretly put multiple boxes of condoms in the shopping cart of the woman with the obnoxious kids.

Set up a fishing pole and cooler by the fish tanks.

Made a lewd display involving teddy bears, lube and rope.

Put condoms and lube by the cucumbers.

I didn't do this one but I was there...Gary went to try on womens clothes and then modeled them for us. That was funny!

Walked my friend on a leash, she barked at people and tried to lick them. She's strictly vanilla BTW.

I was zip tied to the shopping cart because...well...I don't know why really. It was fun though and LOOOOOOOOONG before I was into anything Kinky.

We also played hopscotch, jumped rope, decorated a Christmas tree and played Alphabet. The first person to put an item in their cart for each letter of the alphabet won. The losers had to go put it all away. We weren't trying to cause more work for people, just amuse ourselves at 3am.

That was all a long time ago. I have lost touch with those 2 people and I miss them. Somehow I don't think the 3 of us would behave any better today. I hope not anyway.

11/14/2012 7:02:56 PM

“Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth.” Exactly how I am feeling right now

11/10/2012 7:17:25 PM

"We accept the love we think we deserve ."

10/3/2012 7:17:28 PM

It is time to do a comparison between two things treasured by men, beer and pussy...

 

A beer is always wet. A pussy needs encouragement. Advantage: Beer.

 

A beer tastes horrible served hot. A pussy tastes better served hot. Advantage: Pussy.

 

Beers have commercials making fun of skunky ones. Pussy does not. advantage: Tie

 

If you get a hair in your teeth consuming pussy, you are not disgusted. Advantage: Pussy

 

24 beers come in a box. A pussy is a box you can come in. Advantage: Pussy

 

Too much head makes you mad at the person giving you a beer. Advantage: Pussy.

 

If a beer is brewed with yeast, it is still edible. Advantage: Beer.

 

If you come home smelling like beer, your wife may get mad. If you come home smelling like pussy, she will definitely get mad. Advantage: Beer.

 

6 beers in a night and you better not drive. 6 pussies in a night and you have done all the driving you need. Advantage: Pussy

 

Buy too much beer and you will get fat. Buy too much pussy and you will get poor. Advantage: Tie

 

It is socially acceptable to have a beer in the stands at a football game. You are a legend if you have a pussy in the stands at a football game. Advantage: Pussy

 

If a cop smells beer on your breath, you are going to get a breathalyzer. If a cop smells pussy on your breath, you are going to get a high five. Advantage: Pussy

 

With beer, bigger is better. Advantage: beer. Wearing a condom does not make a beer any less enjoyable. Advantage: beer.

 

Pussy can make you see God. Beer can make you see the porcelain god. Advantage: Pussy

 

If you think all day about the next pussy you will have, you are normal. If you think all day about your next beer, you are an alcoholic. Advantage: Pussy

 

Peeling labels off of beers is fun. Peeling panties off of pussy is more fun. Advantage: Pussy.

 

If you try to snag a beer at work, you get fired. If you try to snag a pussy at work, you get hit with sexual harassment. Advantage: Tie

 

If you suddenly drop a beer, it may break. If you suddenly drop a pussy, it may hunt you down. Advantage: Beer.

 

If you change to another beer, your old brand will gladly have you back. Advantage: Beer.

 

The best pussy you have ever had is not gone once you have enjoyed it. Advantage: Pussy. The worst pussy you have ever had is not gone once you have enjoyed it. Advantage: Beer.

 

The government taxes beer. Advantage: Pussy.

9/8/2012 5:31:05 AM

What?! I'm FAT?!

(Borrowed and completely agree)

 

You just called me fat.
Really? Wow! You must be a PI, because that is something I've never noticed about myself before! Good detective skills, Sherlock. Remind me to hire you in case I've missed something else apparent.
I looked into the mirror after you called me fat.
What fat?
All I see is me. Sure I am made of fat; I am made of a more than your average person. But why is that so insulting?
If I didn't have any fat I wouldn't have my massive cleavage or well rounded ass.
So my stomach sticks out. So my arms jiggle. So my thighs touch. So my face is round. All these things let me know how alive I am.
Is fat the worst thing I can be? Is skinny the best thing I can be?
I feel so sorry for you.
What kind of life must you live to think that fat is "bad" and skinny is "good"? How ignorant can you be that you don't realize fat is a natural part of life? How broken must you be that you decided to insult an innocent person?
Fat has never hindered me before. I've had a fair amount of lovers and friends. And those that didn't want to fuck me or befriend me because of my size are the kind of people like you.
I am a person. I am more than my fat body.
The sad part is if I had been a few sizes smaller we might have been friends.
To end, I leave with a quote by Maya Angelou, who -while accomplished poet/author - was also fat:
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

9/3/2012 5:24:54 PM

So my company has been bought out and they have offices in Florida, Hawaii, Houston and other places.  It's somewhat tempting to be transferred to the Houston area and move back.  Who knows what the cards hold...

9/3/2012 4:39:19 PM

I'm really enoying school.  I absolutely love my History class.  If I didn't want to be a nurse so badly I would be a History teacher.  English is a lot of fun as well.  I am thinking my professor is a closet freak.  She sure does talk about porn a lot.  It's funny cause I am looking at this lady in a different light now.  Wonder what her fav porn is.  I may have to ask her, if I am bold enough to ask LOL

8/28/2012 5:21:01 PM

More of my off the wall sense of humor, enjoy!

 

YOUR GETTING OLDER WHEN:

you mix poly grip in the kY

your wheel chair has more speeds than your vibrator
sticks and stones break your bones ,whips and chains excite you but you cannot rember why

getting frisky is trying to get the cat
getting some action means your laxitivite is kicking in

you find your husband looking at a mag of perky titties ,you sigh before you clobber him with one or both of yours

your play room has ramps and grab bars now
your canes are now for walking
depends and diapers are no longer kinky
blow jobs have been replaced with gummy jobs
rope has been replaced with velcro

your safe word is written on you some were , so you will remember it
you remember when the air was clean and sex was dirty

8/27/2012 6:05:11 PM

I survived my first night of class!  English Comp II and US History (assignment already), oh joy! LOL

8/21/2012 3:48:19 PM

Who's really in charge (Joke)

The newlywed couple check into the honeymoon suite at the hotel. He is a big, burly he-man type, and she is a petite little thing.
He takes off his trousers and tosses them over to his bride. "Here, honey. Put these on."
"What?' she says.
"Just put 'em on."
She struggles a bit and finally stands there, bot of her legs in one trouser leg.
"I can't wear these," she says.
"Just you remember that," he says with a smile. "I wear the pants in this family, and that's the way it's gonna be around here!"
"Oh, yeah?' she replies. She takes off her slacks and tosses them to her hubby. "Here. You try these on."
"What?" he says.
"Just do it."
Well, try as he might, he can't even get the trousers half-way up one leg.
"I can't get into your pants," he says.
"Well, just you remember that." she says. "Until your attitude changes, that's the way things are gonna be around here!"

8/16/2012 7:03:45 PM

Found this on another site and absolute love it

 

MY 128 slave rules...

1. Do not look at Master when he is tripping.

2. Do not look at Master when he is trying to use the car key to unlock the house.

3. Do not look at Master when he is staring at the remote, trying to figure out which button to push.

4. In general, avert your gaze when Master is fucking up.

5. If directions are needed, Master will demand them, do not proffer them without being asked.

6. Do not worry about whether or not now is a good time to suck Master's cock. If you are not in public, it is.

7. Master is not "cute". So stop saying that.

8. Let Master finish his point before you laugh..... dammit.... No!.... Seriously!

9. No. Stop. No laughing at Master!

10. Dammit. Cut it out.

11. Fine.

12. Do not attempt to placate Master when he is sulking.

13. Learn to love snoring.

14. Belching.

15. Farting.

16. You might think it's funny to overplay the slave thing and exaggerate your devotion by kneeling when you bring dinner.

17. Master thinks that's fucking hot, so keep that shit up.

18. Keep in mind, if you find a girl you really like, Master is not averse to new friends..... seriously.

19. Master likes your skimpy Disney PJ's... so... you know... run with that.

20. You know what, making lists like this is tiring.

21. How about you just fill out your own rules while Master takes a nap.

22. That sounds like a plan.

23. ______________________________

24. ______________________________

25. ______________________________

26. ______________________________

27. ______________________________

28. ______________________________

29. ______________________________

30. ______________________________

31. How's that list coming?

32. ______________________________

33. ______________________________

34. ______________________________

35. ______________________________

36. ______________________________

37. ______________________________

38. ______________________________

39. ______________________________

40. ______________________________

41. ______________________________

42. ______________________________

43. ______________________________

44. Bring me some coffee?

45. ______________________________

46. ______________________________

47. ______________________________

48. ______________________________

49. ______________________________

50. ______________________________

....

128. Thanks babe... great coffee.

 

Dont know why this amuses me but it does LOL

8/9/2012 5:41:00 PM

Things are surprisingly looking up.  Nursing school starts August 27.  I don't think I have been this excited in a long time

8/5/2012 6:20:31 PM

LOL @ TrueBlood, "Bite me vampire Barbie"  LOL Love it!

7/31/2012 4:32:09 PM

Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

7/26/2012 5:53:50 PM

I SLAVED ALL DAY

 

http://www.youtube.com/embed/vTpfmRY9-vI

7/25/2012 4:54:47 PM

BDSM Warning! please read

 

Jonathan strode into the bedroom , wearing His leather Postal Worker's uniform. He sneered at the bound and gagged figure on the bed, as He reached into His latex mail bag. Jane - a 29 year old schoolgirl, looked up at her Master, her eyes a mixture of fear and desire. She gasped as He brought a knife with a 9 ~ inch blade out of the bag.

 

"I saw something on the Internet which I want us to try," He said sternly,

"Are you willing?"

 

Jane nodded eagerly and mumbled, "yeff Mather".

 

Jonathan smiled as He bent close and cut her free of her bonds.  "Strip", He ordered as He began to remove His own clothes.

 

Jane quickly complied, wondering what new delights her beloved Master had in store for her.

 

"Lay back on the bed", He commanded.

 

Jane did so. Jonathan then laid on top of her.

 

"Tonight my dear", He whispered while reaching for the light switch.. "We are going ........... Vanilla!"

 

"NOOOOOOoooooooooo", cried Jane as the room plunged into darkness.

 

The above tale is true. Jonathan eventually left Jane to move in with a vanilla woman. They now have a 24/7 vanilla lifestyle, regularly enjoying home improvements, Tupperware parties and only having sex 3 times a year.

 

Jane was more fortunate and now attends Vanillas Anonymous, with help and guidance she is slowly recovering. Only last week she was able to stand up and say,

"I have the right to more than one sexual position!"

 

Vanilla is dangerous and should not be practiced at home. If anyone offers you vanilla sex, just say No.

 

This has been a BDSM safety awareness announcement.

 

Stolen from a VERR reliable source! 

7/12/2012 5:48:43 PM

AND THEN THE BEATINGS STARTED

 

 After retiring, my Master went to the Social Security office to apply for Social Security. The woman behind the counter asked for His driver's license to verify His age. He looked in His pockets and realized He left His wallet home. He told her He was sorry, but He would have to go home and get it.

 

The woman said, 'Unbutton your shirt'. So He opened His shirt revealing His curly silver hair.  She said, 'That silver hair on your chest is proof enough for me' and she processed His Social Security application. When He got home, He excitedly told me about His experience at the Social Security office. I said, 'you should have opened your pants. You might have got disability, too.'

 

... And then the beating started.

 

 

 

My slave and I were sitting at a table at my high school reunion, and I kept staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as she sat alone at a nearby table. My slave asked, 'Do you know her?' 'Yes,' I sighed, 'She's my old slave I understand she took to drinking right after we split up many years ago. I hear she hasn't been sober since.' 'My God!' says my slave, 'who would think a person could go on celebrating that
long?'

 

 

.. And then the beating started. 

7/4/2012 9:41:35 AM

UGGGHHH I am trying to change my pictures and more and this crazy site won't let me.  I delete the picture and it show I have no pictures when I view my profile.  Then I add the picture I want, it show the old picture. 

 

Someone help!!!!

6/27/2012 7:32:45 PM

These last couple of days, I don't know if I am coming or going.  I am putting in a lot of effort but it just does not seem to be reciprocated.  I just don't know what to do some times.  My feelings are very deep but are they returned?  I guess I will never know.  Time to channel that inner peace once again.  Good things come to those who wait.  But some times, making a person wait, can push them further away

6/24/2012 4:11:06 PM

I finally did it!  I broke down and joined Twitter.  Not sure if it is a good thing or not LOL.  Find me on Twitter, InnerSolace

6/16/2012 10:36:56 PM

Today is June 17th and I deleted my old profile.  Persephone is no longer, time for my InnerSolace, I am ready for my peace.

6/6/2012 5:29:38 PM

In my quest for knowledge and understanding I am learning how to ask permission.  It's quite interesting, to say the least.  It is something that I am not accustomed to.  I am far from perfect and I make mistakes.  The problem is, I can be a little forgetful.  But hey, spanking is always fun LOL.

6/4/2012 7:03:26 PM

Yesterday was a very informative day for me.  It is amazing what you can find out if you talk to the right person or people.  I have been dealing with fakes, liars, wannabe's, etc.  I am now learning how to avoid these people at all costs and I have only been active in this lifestyle for 3 years now.  Here is my story:

 

 

 

Dom #1

 

I met this particular Dom on a vanilla dating website.  I was able to read between the lines and notice that he is a Dom.  An online relationship started then progressed to phone then meeting.  He said all the right things, we had a lot in common.  I completed every task that he asked of me, I met all his requirements.  He praised me often and it made me feel so good.  I was his baby girl or so he said.   He even introduced me to anal sex and I actually had an amazing orgasm.  I was very surprised, I did not know I would enjoy it so much.  The relationship we had was based on sex.  There was no teaching, no learning, no protocols, nothing.   I even moved from one part of the metro-plex to another to be closer to him per his request.  After living in this new location for a month he dumped.  I was no longer under consideration by him.  I was livid!  I did everything right, he praised often, I was at a loss for what I did wrong.  So at that time I put the lifestyle to the side and focused on me.

 

 

 

Dom #2

 

 I rejoined CollarMe after a good 6 months and started talking to a Dom in Louisiana.  Great online relationship, however, that was all it was.  We would talk about sex all the time, we would talk about meeting.  NOTHING ever happened!  It was just an online relationship.  Then one day we were communicating then the next he was gone.  Communication was completely ceased.  Again, left with my mouth open.  After about 2 months he contacts me again, apologizing, making excuses and that he loved me and I was his baby girl.  Guess what?  It happened again.  At that point, I threw in the towel yet again.  Haven't heard from him since.  Didn't learn a damn thing lol

 

 

 

Dom #3

 

At that point I had pretty much good back to the vanilla lifestyle.  I found and joined it and met someone local.  He was amazing!  He outlined what his expectations were, we discussed limits, established limits and more.  We met one night for coffee and it took off from there.  He put me under his protection and we would see each other at least twice a week.  Now this was just before Thanksgiving and of course with the holidays our time together was limited.  We both have children and other obligations.  When he would come over we would laugh and talk and share things then retire to the bedroom.  He taught me one thing, that is for sure.  My body loves to be spanked.  He had me stand up one night and he took my riding crop and started spanking my bottom with it.  Next he took his fingers and started to finger fuck me.  It was so incredible that I squirted every where and would just continue to cum.  Amazing!  He did teach me a lot about my body that I did not know about.  However, attention from him slacked off and then communication diminished.  I asked him if I had done something wrong and he said no.  He told me that he was seeing someone in Florida that he met online on and that they were now in a relationship.  He then proceeded to cut all ties with me.  She did not want him to have any other relationships other than her.  I wonder, who is the Dom?  Anyways, alone again.

 

 

 

Dom #4

 

Not sure if I am ready to talk about him but I fell head over heels for him.  He lives in South Texas and we made plenty of plans to meet.  Unfortunately it did not happen.  I think that is all I can say about him right now.  I will admit that I do still have feelings for this man but I know that it would never work no matter how hard I tried.  I pride myself in making my Dom a priority in everything but not before my children or my job.  In my opinion I was an after thought to him.  I can honestly say that I do still think aobut him and it will take time to get over that but I have to move forward and find my inner peace and solace.

 

 

 

Well folks, what have I learned about all this?  I have learned that there are so many out there that are not truthful, that they will just use you for sex, they will try to use you for financial gain.  Now about financial gain, I learned that lesson from Dom #1, He wanted contributions to him and his household.  I am a single Mother (happily divorced) but really?  Any ways...I have learned a lot from these past experiences but those experiences have not taken the "fight" out of me.  I am still going to forge ahead and it will happen for me, one day.  One day that wonderful patient Daddy Dom command my attention and I will give him my all.  Who knows, I could already be talking to him.

 

 

 

Thanks for reading and blessings to all.

 

 

 

InnerSolace1

6/4/2012 6:48:08 PM

So today finally finds me at peace for a change.  I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason.  I have met quite a few fakes and liars on this site but I have yet to give up.  Perseverance pays off! 

 

 

 

This is now and will always be my mantra:

 

 

 

1.  True patience is its own reward.

 

 

 

2.  A flower is made more beautiful by its thorns.

 

 

 

3.  Selfish is the heart that thinks first of itself.

 

 

 

4.  There is no greater pleasure than providing absolute solace.

 


 

I will provide all of this and more to my future Daddy with grace, poise, love and respect.  Thank YOU for accepting me for who I truly am, YOUR baby girl

hell0kittydom
 
 Age: 19
 Sai Teewo, Mississippi