My Master has ended my sex chores and we are going to Spa Excess as a finishing treat. I loved my last visit there!

My Master and I have been talking about my future. We've decided that what I need is humiliation & hard use. There are many ways we could do this, and Master is thinking about what to try next. We've had 2 playing sessions which used crossdressing & videotaping to humiliate me. We are planning a gangbang to use this again, along with pain (lubeless anal, ball crushing and slapping, face slapping, punching and kicking, hair pulling) and gross use (piss drinking, ass licking, spit swallowing).

Master is currently considering if I should be given breasts. This would be the first step in a full process we hope, but money may limit it.

Just earned some more computer time!
I've been spending a lot of time in chains, Master decided to keep me chained much longer then I had before, and kept adding a constraint every few hours or so. I felt some panic at the constraint and at one point lost my cool and thrashed about quite a lot. But Master rubbed me and calmed me, and I've been getting better at being totally chained without getting the shakes.

Yesterday was different. No sex-chores, only chained until noon, then let out of the house with a mission. A change of pace.

My Master gave me 24 condoms and told me to use them all up today with strangers. I went to an adult mini-theater with 24hour gay porno playing, at the very back of all the boothes (the theater is just north of young and dundas) and started playing with myself. Mostly, I waited until someone else was in the theater, suggested I suck his cock, then went into the bathroom with him. I was shaking all over all day, the thrill of cocksucking strangers is strong.

But there is one thing that I did that I've never done before, and I had shivers down my spine doing it.

This was very hard to do, I had to force myself by telling myself over and over that it's the sort of thing my Master would want me to do. 
So, at one point (10pm or so) the theater was starting to get quite full (5-6 guys I think, which is a lot for that theater, even though there are about 40 seats). I was shaking all over and my hands were shivering so much I had a hard time making my fingers grab my shirt. I stood up and took off all my clothes, including my shoes, and put them in a pile on my theater seat. I could feel their eyes on me.
No said anything, but everybody was watching. I got the tube of lube out of my pants pocket, and squirted quite a lot on my fingers. And then in front of all those strangers I lubed up my asshole. I walked to the end of the row of seats, where it was darkest, put the condoms on the back of a seat. I bent over the seat of the row in front of me and just waited.
Right then, I didn't care if no one came over, just the thrill of stripping and then lubing up my ass in silence in front of all those strange horny men. I nearly fainted I was so nervious.

But one did come over and he fucked me. After he finished, I just waited. Three other men used me over the next two hours or so. Most just watched silently or left when they saw me.
But my favorite part was the waiting. Waiting, bent over a theater seat, my face buried in the sweaty smelling padding of the chair, my ass in the air. Tweaking my own nipples while I waited. My mouth tasting of condom, lube, adult theater chair padding and my asshole (mostly because of this one guy, who kept switching between my ass and my mouth).

Theaters are so much better then boothes or bathrooms. The thrill of having people walk in on me! I nearly came when I heard the door open and close while I was being fucked.

I love being a slave. It is not my place to worry about STDs or what is proper or safe. That is my Master's job. I looked at my old profile on collarme from before meeting Master and it lists my two submissive experiences. Both are nothing compared with what I did today, what I do everyday.

I'd like to be clear. This is not a fantasy, I did this. There were plenty of bad parts. I went to 3 theaters before I found one that didn't smell (I mean really stink) and that one still just smelled of vinger and cleaning fluid. I have to be very serious that this is what I want to do. I've found deep happiness doing this, or I would not be giving up my life and body to do this.
So far I've avoided the obviously homeless HIV guys who smell like a dumpster. Mostly by picking and choosing where I go. Still, these were not fasion models, these were the people who were hanging out after work looking for a blowjob. Blowing a 50-something chinese man with a paunch and a bald patch is humilating. I'm not attracted to him, but that's not the point. The point is that he enjoys how his penis feels when it's in my mouth or asshole.
So far, I've not been arrested or caught an STD. I take weekly STD tests (yay, free health care) but part of giving up and becoming a slave is that Master will take care of me. It's not my choice, I don't choose the risks, He does.

Master and I have talked about the future. At some point my life will have to calm down, become more structured. But condoms, used properly and along with a few other methods (such as choosing where and who to have sex with) reduce the chances of STDs. So for now, He orders me to do things that are very strong submissive experiences. This will make me a more experienced slave.
Master is still deciding my future. If I'd be better suited to serve a single person, then He intends to mold me for that (total crossdressing, breast implants, stronger patience and ability to wait for my owner's whim, more permant changes towards my role, from gelding to voice box damage, tattoos). Generally turning me into someone who can't go outdoors because of the extensiveness of the changes to him/her/it. The other path we've talked about is that I might be better suited to serving strangers. Maybe I could whore myself at some point? We've also talked about living on a farm (far from prying eyes), servicing 5-8 regulars (no more, no less) in a sort of door-to-door fashion, and being a boywife.

Master has not decided yet, because I've not given Him enough information yet. So until then, He says He will keep sending me out on "journeys of the soul", which is an exact qoute. I trust my Master, He is so wise.

Funny email I got today: My wife emailed today (We've been seperated for 8 months). She wanted to see how I was doing. I replied: "I am a wimpy submissive cocksucking sex slave and very happy."