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Hi there! We are a young attractive couple (I am GoddessAriana) and we are seeking friends, playmates and other like-minded individuals.

 I like to think that we are very down to earth and we seek the same. People who are not full of themselves, those who take themselves far to serious and generally rude and vulgar people, need not contact us.

 We attend Lifestyle Explorers and Fetish Circuit regularly and love to meet new people and experience new things.

 Above all else, we want to have a good time, without drama and with no BS.

 He is NOT "bi" nor does he play with Dom men.

  Any other questions, comments or concerns please feel free to drop us a line.

  ~~Goddess and biscuit buns~~

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12/18/2008 8:14:16 AM
I need you goddess.

I need, long, and desire to be your slave.

I need you and desire to show you that I am yours and only yours, your humble little slave that needs and wants to cater to your every whim and desire. To be your boy toy to do with as you please, to know no other phrases then yes goddess, as you wish goddess, and never say no or question a single request of you my goddess. To dutifully serve you and give you whatever you want immediately and to your absolute satisfaction. To take part in whatever experiment, position, or other task that you might have in mind for me.

I need to show you that *your* absolute pleasure is paramount regardless of my feelings or comfort. You are the end-all and be-all of my existence, my reason for living, you are my purpose in life; for as a slave i’m here for one purpose and this is for serving and worshiping you goddess. Without you goddess I wouldn’t be getting the pleasure of servitude and humility in my life.

I need and will always kneel naked before you, heels under my ass in that way you desire me to be. My ass cheeks spread just that little extra bit reminding you and I that my ass belongs to you always. My knees displayed wide, too, displaying my penis and balls dangling at my thighs. My cock had better be hard and ready to serve goddess because it's disrespectful and an awful crime to be limp in front of my goddess.

My hands need to be clasped behind my back at the base of my spine, or my fingers need to be laced together behind my head. They need to be out of your way regardless of if it’s uncomfortable to me because it’s your comfort not mine that is important. My head needs to be cast down and my shoulders need be arched back, displaying my chest, allowing my nipples to stand sentry there awaiting whatever torture you wish to unleash upon them. I need to not look up at you face, you breasts, your glorious pussy, or magnificent ass unless you give me explicit permission to do so. I am unworthy to gaze upon you or any part of your beauty without your desire or will. I am your slave, and I need show my devotion to you in the manner that pleases you the most. For I need you goddess as you have a need for slaves to worship you.

Every inch of my pathetic body needs to be thoroughly cleaned when I present myself to you. I am a gift to you goddess and need to be displayed and presentable as such. To not do so is a terrible offense and would make my gift unworthy to you my goddess. I need to be thoroughly scrubbed from head to foot, including behind the ears and between the toes. I need to always smell sweet and clean for you goddess. I also need to ensure that i am well groomed and especially tasty for you as well goddess, I long for everything you wish to give me and I give you my body and soul and it must be worthy of your divinity goddess.

I need to always be kneeling before you goddess, everything that was mine is now and always will be yours, and my penis is the most personal gift I can give you goddess and it needs to be yours always and forever. It longs and aches for you goddess as it should, it is a tool used for your pleasure and will be kept in the best condition to be used and ready on command.

I need to be able to worship my goddess in any and every possible way.

When you extend your divine foot, the lowliest part of your goddess-like body, if there is such a thing as lowly on my goddess, i need to immediately bend over kiss it and worship it. I need lave your foot, whether it is in a tennis shoe, a sandal, a boot, or barefoot, with my tongue. I long to worship it, to show that you that I willingly place myself under your heels without hesitation. I need be conquered by my complete devotion to you. I need to do that so you never have to exert yourself unless you you my goddess wish to so.  


When you come home, your birthright as a living incarnation of Mother Earth, the Goddess, needs to be acknowledged the moment you open the door for as a slave my place is at your feet ready to pamper and please you the second you are home.

When I lick and worship your bare foot, I need to not neglect to suck on and caress your sweet toes. You need to feel my tongue working the tender skin between the joints, and a soft, reverent kiss placed upon your instep and any other spot you desire on your feet. I need and long for you my goddess to feel my warm lips worshipping your ankles, and if your in an especially good mood, the muscles of your calves. Especially if you are wearing heels or any other arduous footwear. You do not wear heels for your own enjoyment, i need to always be aware and remember that! If you are wearing heels, it is for one of two reasons; to make your already shapely and divine legs look even more fantastic, or to just simply grind the heel into whatever part of my pathetic body you happen to be displeased with at that given time. High heels hurt and make your divine feet uncomfortable, and they make your delicious calves so tense with the need to balance, so when and only when you grant me permission to salute your feet and lower legs while your wearing heels, I need to show you how much I truly and deeply appreciate the time and effort you've taken to wear them in the first place.

Your knees are another point of worship; if you grant me permission to rise as high as them in my daily devotions to your divine beauty goddess, i need to not assume that you will let me move on to your heavenly thighs. Your knees can be used against me, if I displease you in any way my goddess, so I need to kiss and worship them reverently.

I need to always offer to do anything that requires any type of kneeling, so that you do not have to bruise or otherwise sully them with any sort of menial labor. Anything that would cause you to have to bend down on your knees should be my job, and my place in the world is on my knees under you goddess. I need to keep my own knees spread at all times. My thighs aren't allowed to touch my cock, except maybe when I’m lying down, or have been given permission to walk.

Your hands also need to be worshipped and adored, for they wield the whips that are for my punishments and rewards. From your hands comes my damnation and salvation. If you need to slap and/or caress me. Sometimes, just sometimes if you like, you will use them to hurt me. To take out your frustrations, when I disobey you beyond all comprehensible reason.

Never more than I can take unless I need or desire to be broken. That is our bond, that you will test and find my limits, and work within them. But if I am interested in expanding those limits, then that is the task to which you need to set my beloved goddess.

I need to fetch your toys, when you are ready to play or punish me. I need to do so quickly and lovingly.

I need to know exactly what tools and toys you can use on me, at any time, according to your whims and desires. I need to know
exactly where you keep your flogger, paddle, and other toys. I need to keep them cleaned, organized and lined up neatly in their special place. The dildos sanitized and squeaky-clean. I need to keep the handcuffs polished, the chains free from rust, and all other restraints in proper working order. I need be responsible to make sure that your favorite vibrators have fresh batteries, and that the tubes and jars of lubricants haven't run out. The collars and cuffs will be kept ready for my disciplining, the weights, clips, and clothespins will be kept dusted and oiled, unless you are in the mood to hear the little springs squeak as you pinch them open, right before applying them to my flesh. My flesh needs be most willing, too. You will not waste your time for long on someone who will not do as you say.

If you are in a good mood, I might be allowed to bring what you want on my feet, carrying them in my hands. If you are not, I need to carry them in my mouth, on all fours like the dog that I am. If you need them brought to you like a dog fetching the paper for his goddess, then I am not allowed to drool on the floor. If you want to suffer that kind of housekeeping aggravation you’ll buy a real dog. I need to not leave any teeth marks on your favorite toys, either. That will get me a much deserved beating; these things are very expensive to replace, and are your favorite toys to play with so I need to treat them as such. I need to keep my knees apart whenever I stop. Just because I am shuffling around like a dog doesn't mean I’m allowed to hide my penis from you

I need to be not allowed to struggle or whine until after I've been bound and or gagged. You need give me a safe word, one that is all my own, because you are a kind goddess, and what we do is mutually consensual, you need to be generous, and allow me a nonverbal safe word, the old Morse Code SOS, in case you've got the ball gag strapped in my mouth too tight for me to get the regular safe word out. But I need not use it unless I feel I’m absolutely in danger, because if I need punishing, you will punish me, and if I need my horizons expanded, you will expand them for me my goddess.

I need to be grateful to you goddess for whatever you do for me because you do it out of love.

Every time you beat or punish me, I need to be grateful, even if you are punishing me for a serious transgression. You do not have to wield your whip against me; You can just simply walk away. It is because you care about me, because you need me to be good, and to know the place the universe has slated for me, that you will discipline me, for my sake. "Yes, Goddess," "Please, Goddess," and "Thank you, Goddess," are the three most important things for me to say. "I love you, Goddess," can be the fourth one, but only if I mean it.

If I commit a crime against you, if I disobey your commands, or deliberately ignore your orders in favor of some other, lesser chore, then you would rather have me admit my transgressions and take my punishments willingly, than lie to you and have you later find out what I have done. If you find out that I lied to you, disobeyed you, made a mockery of my service and worship to you, You have only two choices: to punish me as I have never been punished before, or you can just simply walk out on me, abandon me and leave me alone forever. Worthless, shameful, and unloved.

You are my goddess, the center of my universe, the bestower of pain and pleasure. Mine. The woman who expects and deserves me to offer her my back, on my hands and knees, as a living seat for her when she is tired. I need to acknowledge that, and show you my love and devotion to you my goddess, as only I can and loving do.

I need you my goddess.


12/16/2008 8:39:56 AM
So much to do, so little time....Biscuit Buns broke his elbow playing football, so he's been out of commission for a bit now. I will be so glad when he is home. Just about 2 months or so left to go ^^

Things on my end have finally calmed down. I still cant believe I will be 30 in a few days. Where does time go?

Happy Holidays everyone!

~~GA~~

11/21/2008 6:50:03 AM
well after i left our chat spot i walked briskly to the room

once i got to the room i was like sweet i'm alone

i raced to get my uniform off and set the computer up

after i got everything siutuated i grabbed my headphones and put your vid in

the cold air in the room got my nipples hard almost immediately

my cock still hard and ready to go from our chat i start the video from where i left off

i'm transported into the room with you
i start to slowly warm my cock by stroking it

i listen to your voice, and just want to cum oh so badly for you
as i start to stroke and listen to your commands i remember what it was like being there with you in that moment from our times before

i work and work on my cock and nipples

i can't beat myself because i know he may come in at any minute
it's been awhile since i've given you my cum so i try to make it last

as your video starts to conclude i get ready to cum

it's almost like an explosive chain going off

then suddenly as i start to fire the door opens

quickly i go into ninja mode and try to hide what's going on

i think i succeeded no questions were asked but got it was hard to control my orgasm and clean up with the appearance of the roomie

but it was such a relief Goddesss

Thank you.

b.b











11/11/2008 9:26:11 AM
<happy sigh> I received the signed slave contract in the mail yesterday. Although it doesnt change things, its still nice to have and to know that we have taken the next step in our journey. 

11/4/2008 7:08:12 PM
We voted for change, did you?

10/30/2008 10:50:08 AM
My ideal scene with you the basic premise of you breaking me completely.
I loved the scene you wrote me and it's one that I enjoy experiancing
with you. Our preparation starts out as the norm, we both shower, while
you're doing that I get everything else ready. I'm blindfolded awaiting
you to begin as I'm spread out on my knees on the bed waiting for your
instuctions. You then ask me if I would like kisses before I begin,
which is our standard thing. Instead of giving me kisses you grab me and
force the gag on me and then start fucking with my head. You then
proceed to drag me off the bed and you start to grind your boot into me.
Your place is at my feet slut, and you will learn your place. From there
you start the mental process of what I call your evil mind games. Since
I won't be able to talk since I'm gagged you can have some fun at my
expense by making me mutter or beg or drool all over the place or
whatever. Then you start with the first round of beatings. You kick,
spit, yell, flog and crop the ever loving hell out of me. You take your
time in between the stages of what you're doing. You then bind me to
some part of you, ankles, waist.. Etc, you remove my gag and I have to
worship whatever part of you while you walk around and figure out what
you're going to do to me next. Another round of beatings ensues, much
like the first time but now I have to say some phrase after each hit.
After going slow for awhile you go nuts, and since I can't keep up my
punishment increases. Then you smother me with your ass and work on my
nipples and cock. Throwing in a lot of hits on my inner thighs, then you
drag me around the house telling me how worthless and unworthy I am.
Then you bend me over and start to give me the spanking of a lifetime.
You continue till my legs are trembling and I can barely stay up. You
move in with your venomous tongue and continue to cut me down. After a
bit of that you proceed with the next beating, you gag me again and
place me thighs spread and chest out. You say something like since you
can't take a spanking boy we'll have to try a new way to do it. You slap
me and spit on me then you unleash the crop and flogger on my chest.
Then you unleash all over me, focusing on the areas you know make it
hard for me to take it. Once I start to sob you ask if I need kisses,
then you give me a peck and go ballistic. You ungag me and start with
more of your venomous statements. Then you start with well since you're
not a good pain slut lets see if you can entertain me boy. You dress me
in panties and some other assorted items and then humiliate me and
degrade me. Then you beat all the items off of me, oh you thought I was
going to stop lol... You make me stand and hold two glasses of water.
You then either rub me out or suck me off, but I can't spill any water
or I'll have hell to pay. You make me spill all the water and then you
proceed with the evil worship phase. Whatever part of you I worship is
the part that gets beat immediately afterwards. From there you come up
with your few other little games that you do. Then comes that final
push, I'm back to being gagged but no longer blindfolded. You look me in
the eye and say something like, I'm going make you break slut, resist
all you wish but in the end you'll be in my ass forever. You don't even
give a warning and you go super goddess on me. Beating, shouting, the
whole nine. I worship, serve, humble myself, and you beat and beat and
beat me. Once you've gotten me broken you make me do a few more
humilating tasks and then you leave me for however long. You prod and
beat me a little more to make sure that I'm really broken and yours.
Then you fuck me mentally and then you say something like, well slave I
have one more set of tasks for you, you beat me till I'm broken again
then I have to sexually service you as you violate every part of my body
with yourself and toys. Broken and raped you then proceed to caress me
and I collapse and ball into your arms knowing I'm safe... until round
2.


10/29/2008 7:31:53 AM
I'll be in Jax this weekend for the Fl/Ga game, so if anyone wants to come out and party with me on Halloween, the more the merrier =^.^=~~Goddess~~

10/23/2008 6:16:00 PM
Going to Guavaween this weekend to point and laugh at all the stupid drunk people and to listen to some rocking music, anyone else going?

 I'll be in Jax next weekend for the Fl/Ga game, so if anyone wants to come out and party with me on Halloween, the more the merrier =^.^=

~~Goddess~~

10/19/2008 8:03:33 AM
After talking with goddess, i needed some much needed release. Between being sick and doped up for the better part of forever this is way overdue. To get things started i write my other assignment on ass worship. My cock is like tempered steel thoughout the writing of the assignment. Im in the mindset to so some serious stroking. I grab my shoelace and bind my balls. I’ve never really been shown how to but i’ve done it a few times and it seems to be correct. I know that i have to endure this part for 30 min, which is almost an eternity but considering i haven’t done anything except go to the bathroom his neglect will be no more. I start thinking about all the things i want to do my goddess. I focus on the ass worship assignment i have just completed. It’s getting me hot and heavy thinking about all the things that she would do to me while under her ass. I stay focused on the feeling unleashing itself in my cock. It’s more then just a simple rush of pleasure, it’s absolute craziness. I want to cum right fucking now but i have to wait.... as i look for the clock that my foot has launched across the room due to my overzealous actions. Cramps are kind of a buzzkill when you have your special alone time but the shoelace is a reminder that i’m not alone and i need to get back to the task at hand. I notice that i’ve already been at it for about 40 min. I unbind my cock and try to figure out what the hell is going on. I’m not drunk, and i’m sure i’m not medicated or stoned.... this is perplexing. I take a breath and a quick drink of water, i know aliens havent abducted me. Did i space out, go to subspace, go to pearsland.... By the look and tempurature of my cock i’d go with i’ve been here but i dunno what’s going on. I’ve never blacked out masurbating before. After about 10 min. of trying to rationalize what happend i continue on. I cum before i know it... it was like boom, done, get your hand off me and stop shaking. I clean up and go have a smoke because i know i’m going to pass out very soon. I have my smoke, i come back to the room and pass out.... as if you think that is all. So as i’m sleepin my sound little sleep i have the flashback to the endeavor and epic tale of me stroking the cock till no tomorrow. As i recall in my dream i keep myself on the edge for what seems like an enterinty. I grind my teeth knowing that i must adhere to my goddesses instructions to the letter. My cock wants to stab me so it can have it’s much needed and much anticipated relaease. It throbs and twitches more and more as i ride the edge, and as my hand moves faster and faster. The head and friction make me remember how nice and warm your pussy is and how i miss that feeling swallowing my cock. The rush and feeling of pleasure and heat are just tearing me apart, I want it to end but also want it to keep going. Then it gets fuzzy and then i get confused. That’s where we were earlier. I’m still not sure what exaclty went on, but whatever it was it was worth it.

10/18/2008 7:51:42 AM
Goddess has been so patient while Ive been sick. This desert plague has kept me from her for the last 2 weeks. I finally started to feel better a few days ago and yesterday I asked permission to cum for my Goddess, Ive missed her so much. I feel so guilty about neglecting her all this time, she deserves so much more. Here is what I thought of while doing my task...will report on my task in the next day or so.

I’d start worshipping your ass by giving it a massage and thorough cleaning with my tongue. Not to neglect any inch of your maginficance. The warm feel of your ass in mouth and the heat emminating from my mouth soothing your ass as i begin my worship ritual. After i start to make you happy and you start to adjust to a more comfortable or commanding position I’d slowly move on to kissing your cheeks all over as i caress them with my tongue. Not neglecting even the most difficult areas to reach with my tongue. Once you have determined that your ass is cleaned and preped to your satisfaction I’d dive face deep into your crack so that your ass completly encloses my face. I’d begin kissing and licking slowly up and down as fast or as slow as you command, all the while alternating between your crack and your cheeks. I’d lick your ass from top to bottom and side to side never neglecting those tricky spots and slowly moving towards your moist pussy. I’d use my hands if given permission to massage your cheeks as I kiss and lick away at whatever is in tongues reach or whereever your commands or forceful gestures point me. Going deeper and deeper into your ass with my face it would be hard for me to breathe, but knowing that you’re enjoyoing my mouth over your maginificant ass makes it all the worth while. As it devours me as i fight to breathe and please my goddess I’d lick and kiss it till you were squirming and your pussy is ready for me to work on it as well with my warm and willing mouth. As you lie there face down or as you sit perched upon my face and suffocate me while i worship you under the strictist tuteledge to ensure your gratification. I’d repeat any parts or instuctions over and over till my jaw locks or i can barely move my mouth and tongue. Then i would get oil or lotion and massage your ass with my hands till you were satisfied or until my mouth is functioning again. I adore your ass, it smoothness, it’s soft feel, it’s commanding power as it can suffocate me and make me feel at home under your dominance. I adore it when you sit on my face or i’m buried face deep in it. If i could worship it for hours here i would, there are so many things that i iwill do for it and you when i get home. I do hope that you enjoyed the brief encounter, if you would like me to delve further or do a better job i will do that for you goddess. I would of course rather show you then type but circumstances considering i’ll do whatever i can for you. I can’t wait to be smothered by your ass again, it has been neglected in my absence but i will make you shake when i get the opportunity to service it again.

bb

10/1/2008 12:26:19 PM
As i enter my room full of excitement and anticipation. The talk with goddess got me soo hot and ready to pillage. Alas though i must masturbate. Not that i don’t enjoy that but i miss the feel of my goddess. i admire the new pics that goddess has sent me and start to think about what she would do if she was in the room with me. I must be somewhat carefull however because i can’t lock my door and things would be a little difficult to explain if i was discovered. i focus on her eyes and start to feel as if she is there with me. My cock is throbbing and twitching already, what a good sign of things come. I imagine that she wants me to start worshiping her, i start stroking slowly. I feel a warm glow come over me, i imagine that i’m eating her pussy. Imagining the taste, and feel the warm juices covering my face. I imagine her pinching my nipples and pulling my hair.  I want her to fuck my face, and i want to be in her pussy so bad. I then start stroking harder, i imagine that i’m face deep in her ass, being smothered and making it difficult for me to breathe. I want her to take me. I then focus on the pic in front of me. I want to cum for her so i can make her happy. I imagine you staring at me with your soaking wet panties ordering me to cum all over you. I think of all the times that we’ve shared, i remember mt st biscuit buns and how awesome that expericance was. I stare at your pussy wanting to leap through the computer screen and just take you. I want to smash you so bad, i want to be your bitch, i want us to both walk funny when it’s all over. I start hammering away on my cock. I think about you wanting me to let go and give you my cum. i want you to feel my pulsating cock inside your pussy. I just want to keep going and going. finally i’m starting to get that intense i’m gonna cum feel. I keep thinking about all the things i want to lick, kiss and worship on you when i get home. I imagine eating your pussy for hours, enduring the mass tortures and trails a head of me. I want to be in you and i want you all over me. finally i cum, it’s mind blowing, my face goes numb and i just keep twitching, i realize that your not there. I feel saddened by that, i wanted it to be real. i stare at your picture and wish i was in your arms. I kiss your picture and clean up. Soon it will be the real deal, but i’m glad that i get to release to my beautiful goddess, lover, and life mate.

9/26/2008 7:06:55 AM
Goddess has given me a task to accomplish. This self punishment is to show her that even though she isn’t here that i can still take pain for her. I have to bind my cock and bring myself to the edge till i cannot take it anymore. I also have to beat my thighs and for added intensity torture my nipples. Since i failed the last time to provide a report i also have to beat my back with my belt.
I come into my room charged, hot, and sweaty. It’s from the conversation with goddess and the shitty heat here. My heart is pounding and i want to smash my goddess more then anything at the moment. I tear my uniform off and get my area ready for this task.I grab a cold bottle of water out of the fridge and get the pictures on my desktop. I bind my cock and snap a few photos.
I imagine goddess in front of me teasing me with her ass and dripping wet pussy. It seems so real i can almost feel it. My cock begins to twitch a little, my balls start to tingle and feel heavy. I imagine her laughing at me, yelling at me, teasing me. Ordering me to bring her, that cock that she now owns. I stroke feverishly, my breathing become more shallow.
I start in on my nipples. I imagine that i’m blindfolded and that since i’m not worthy to fuck goddess at the moment my nipples will endure some torture to prove my devotion. Then my thighs get a few whacks reminding me to keep my legs open and that my cock belongs to goddess.
I feel that it’s getting close,  I stop and start to relax, I stare at my beautiful goddess on the screen and take a big tug on my nipples. I bite my lip to keep the noise down. I imagine what she would do next. I start teasing my cock with the water bottle, flicking and slapping it. I start to stroke feverishly again. I take some quick breaks to give my thighs and nipples attention.
I’m about to cum and can’t take anymore, It’s been 45min and i need a release. I unbind my cock and imagine that goddess is commanding me to let go and cum for her. I stroke harder and faster, I picture her yelling and slapping me, she counts down and i’m late, i imagine the fire in her eyes and the beating that ensues. I finally explode, thank you goddess i say out of breath, i take a drink of water and continue with my task.
Now that i’ve completed part one of this again, i must beat my back to show that my failures or carelessness will not be allowed ever. The first strike on my back makes me jump, it stung but it was hella loud. i continue to beat myself imagining that goddess is giving me a lecture on the importance of rembering things. Not to be careless and why i must do this because of my failure to follow directions. As i’m doing this my belt also starts to hit my ass. In seeing that goddess wants me to take this for her i continue till my ass and back are stinging and feel warm.
I felt soo bad that i had failed goddess. I can only hope that this makes up for it and my vow that it will not happen again ever. I do thank you goddess for everything and hope that i many continue to please and serve you.

9/26/2008 7:05:56 AM
I can say that i haven’t been bad goddess. I have failed on an assignment but we talked about that and i’ve already been punished. I really don’t know how i serve you but i tried to make a list like you asked me to. I know that i’m a bad slave aleady for not knowing how i serve you and make you happy. I know that in order to improve my service and devtion to you i need to know how i serve and make you happy. I should know the things that make you happy and do more things that make you feel special and let you know how much i truly do care about you well being. I’m so ashamed that i don’t have the knowledge to give you simple things and i think for that i should be l punished. i follow the rules and chat with you often, which i think is a great start. I feel that our communication is better but i’m still lacking in the creativity department. I want to serve you better, because in my heart i’m doing my best and you deserve so much more then i’m giving you now. It’s just a feeling that i’m having. I will always do everything i can to serve you and keep you happy. I have no excuse for my shortcomings but change is always the preferred method of improvement and i will strive to do much better next time, armed with whatever knowledge goddess wishes to provide.

9/26/2008 7:05:29 AM
Things between goddess and i have become a lot more strict. I’m glad that i’m doing well at the moment and that i continue to grow. I’ve been given assignmentts and rules to occupy some of my free time. I am grateful that goddess has taken the time to come up with assignmens for me. At least i get to serve her in some capacity. I always wish that i could do more, and feel that i can but i’ll let goddess decide that. I have so long until i can see her in person again but i will hopefully have passed some of her training. I really want to be collared and have to present that to her in person. I know that i may not be ready since i lack training but given time i will be. I think that we’ve grown closer together and that the bond of our relationship has become that much stronger. There aren’t many moments throughout the day that i’m not thinking about her. She’s always the last thing see before i go to sleep and one of the first things i think about when i get up. I just hope that i can continue to keep her happy and that time will show my devtion to her. There are soo many things that i want to do for goddess, and in time i will. I find myself wanting her more and more. I long to be her slave, i’m so happy that she’s letting me prepare for that. I’m honored that i’ll be given a chance to earn that status. I love her so much and want everything to be perfect. She deserves the best, I only hope that i can do that for her.

9/23/2008 11:51:24 AM
Goddess and i have done a lot of talking the past few days about my wanting to serve her.

I was upset when she questioned me about my basic behavior of excitement then the exact opposite. I really do want to serve her and show her that i can be her slave. I’m anxious to get home and prove to her in person that i’m truly dedicated to this and to her.

We’ve started working on a contract, assignments and rules. I’m excited that i’m learning a lot and hopefully i will be able to become good enough to wear a collar. I still wish i knew i more about how to serve better or understand exactly how i serve goddess. I’m glad that my writing assignments are going well.

 I feel confused about how good of a slave/servant i really am. I feel i can do more but am unsure of how i can. I want eveything i do for goddess to be perfect. I’m upset that my first assignment wasn’t quite where i thought it was. I do hope that i get to see the contract soon, i really want to be owned and controlled by her.

We have such a dynamic relationship now, i only want to grow and learn more and more. I’m glad that goddess has been patient with me to this point. It sucks that i can’t do more things here, i feel like there should be a way to do more. I know that this process is going to be long and i will have some failures, that part makes me worry that i won’t be good enough for goddess.

There are so many things i want to do when i get home but waiting is hard. I really want to impress goddess, and prove to her that i am ready to serve her. I hope time will show that i’m sincere in this. I think about goddess everyday and i always look forward to our chats. Soon i’ll be able to find a way to do more to serve her. Until then i’ll keep writing and maybe i’ll have a great idea...


9/23/2008 11:50:13 AM
After leaving my conversation with goddess i had much anticipation about my new pics, and my task of getting some much needed release.

My cock was already throbbing and twitching from the nights events. I feverishly unpack and plug in the computer. I get out of my pt gear and begin prepartions.

I open my new hot photos from goddess and start arranging them on my desktop. I remember what it felt like to be in her presence and the pics help me to remember what that feeling is.

I think about wanting to please her while i start stroking my cock. I kiss her ass pic because i want to be there tasting her, feeling her flesh on my mouth. I think about being under her heel as she laughs and tells me that she wants me to cum.

 I start stroking faster and faster, wanting her more and more as i look over her pictures and imagine i'm there with her. I think about how good her pussy feels and her body when it presses against mine.

 I'm starting to get close but i don't want to cum yet, i have to make it last. I think about how i get to serve when i get home and how i'll get kisses and hugs from her, and how lucky i am.

then i imagine she's counting down telling me to let go. My cock is getting out of control and i go faster and faster. I kiss her ass pic one more time and then i erupt.

I have visions of all the things she's done to me and all the things i want to do for her and to her. I feel relaxed, i need a drink. I sip some water and thank her for her beauty. I kiss all her pics and clean myself up. I take a shower and remind myself of how lucky i am to have a goddess like her.

 I only wish i could be with her in person but soon i will be. Until then i must serve and show her how truly devoted i am to her. I must now go to sleep and have dreams of goddess so i can wake up to get through the day and talk with my lover and goddess. My most prized love.


9/23/2008 11:48:07 AM
Today goddess and i started talking about going further in our d/s relationship. For the longest time i’ve been looking for a domme to serve and am so glad that i found her. I’m nervous about the whole thing and i have my worries but don’t really know what i’m worried about. The possibilty of the unknown has a tendency to frighten people i guess.

I feel ill prepared for this to some degree.

 I dont have a lot of knowledge when it comes to the lifestyle and she is like the encycolpedia of it. I’m glad that she understands that and is patient when i don’t know something. I always feel slightly let down when she wants me to explian something and i don’t know what it is. I have scene ideas and other stuff going through my head but conveying them in conversation is difficult. At one point i’ll get further into that.

 I’m excited that our conversations have gone well so far. It just goes to show how much we really are destined to be together. I love her so much on both sides of our relationship. The good thing is i have time to get my head right for both parts for when i get home. Getting the opportunity to serve goddess would be awesome. I’m hopeful that this will become a reality.

We’ve talked about a ton of stuff in the past few days and hopefully it all works out. I’ve had some time to read all the things she gave me which has helped a little but i still feel uncertain about what i’m getting into. I know i have the desire and want but i hope that my guide will understand what things i’ll need information wise to help this process along.

I know that i’ve had a strong desire to serve for a long time. At first i thought it was a phase because of the kink but now i’m realizing that it’s not a phase. I do want to do well as her servant. I’m excited that we’re going to have a contract and i get to serve in some capacity while i’m here.

 We do make quite an excellenct great pair, and our relationship is so fantastic. It sucks that i can’t be home to take care of her as much as i’d like to but i can’t dwell to much on that. Our daily talks and my time for personal refection have done good things for my psyche. I’m starting to see what i want in a relationship and am getting past my last few walls.

I can’t wait to get home and do what is that i should do and that she deserves. Being owned and commanded by someone has been something i’ve desired for quite awhile from what i can recall. Granted i don’t get the same kick being in the airforce that was just a career choice.

The giving up control with goddess is different in so many ways. I find it hard to put what i want to say into cohesive phrases but the phrase there’s just something about her doesnt even come close to explaining the power she has over me.

 I feel obligated to serve goddess because i love her and we have this amazing connection that i don’t want to lose. There is this glow that i get being around her presence. It’s a safe comfortable place that i feel i can do almost anything. I hope that i can prove worthy enough and do well enough to serve her.

She likes it when i rub her feet. I think i do a pretty good job, not as good as the asian feet people but they have tiny hands and mystical skills. I want to do the little things for goddess, this way she can do what she does and not have to do anything unnessasary.

 Be the best damn foot rubbing, drink getting, comfort giving servant that i can be. I wish there were a million things i wish i could think of to find ways to serve goddess, but they all are sexual, and i’d like to think of more then just that because she means so much to me.

I hope some day she knows that. My biggest goal when i get home and start serving in person is to show her how much i do care and love her. I felt soo bad last night when she left before i could do my awesome goodbye. Hopefully she isn’t too mad with me. I should have asked that question earlier, I need to reprioritze my brain or shortcircuit my thought process. The randomness tends to not work out so well. Hopefully she won’t punish me to harshly for that.

I think i’ve been relatively good, goddess mentioned the laundry i left for her when i left. She said she’s going to punish me harshly for that when i get back. I haven’t had any real temptation about anything since i’ve been here. i haven’t put goddess first in my thoughts and that shouldn’t be so, i know she knows that so i hope she won’t be harsh with me. I hope when the training gets some feedback i’ll know more about what i’m lacking as a sub. I know my knowledge is limited but goddess is helping that along. Hopefully with time i’ll be able to elaborate on what i lack as a sub and hopefully keep my mind staight so i don’t get punished. I give it time something is bound to come up.

9/9/2008 6:05:48 AM
SSGT Buns left today for his deployment.  Its going to suck and I already hate it, but hopefully, he will be home safe and sound before I know it.

I'll be at FC this coming weekend, so feel free to say hello and give me a hug, moral support is always welcome.

xoxoxoxox

8/13/2008 10:33:18 AM
Goddess had her surgery and is slowly recooping. This has been such a hard time for her. Please keep all the prayers and well wishes coming.

 biscuit buns

7/18/2008 1:24:55 AM
Mr Biscuit and I went to the midnight showing of The Dark Night and well...

 IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!

7/13/2008 7:02:23 AM
WOW!!! Last nights Fetish Circuit was by far one of the hottest nights we've ever been to. I really dont know what was hotter, watching all the incredible scenes at FC or the amazing one we had when we got home. We didnt get to sleep until nearly 4am!

 Have a great week everyone!

 ~~Goddess and biscuit buns~~

7/12/2008 4:47:30 AM
Fetish Circuit tonight! Can't wait to party and play with all our friends. Come join us for a very special night! =^_^=

 ~~Goddess and biscuit buns~~

7/7/2008 10:00:17 AM
Sir Steffans was of course, awesome!  We cant wait for this weekend, we are way overdue for Fetish Circuit.

 Come and play with us or at the very least, stop by and say "Hi"!

 Xoxoxoxox

 ~~Goddess and biscuit buns~~

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SubbieAlina
 
 Age: 25
 Ontario, Canada