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So much has changed since i opened this profile. I originally wanted to meet and play with others but now Ive met my other half and am no longer searching.

Other than that, kinky people make excellent platonic friends. Thus, intelligent conversation is very much welcomed.

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2/14/2016 3:15:49 AM
Oh wow, it's been awhile since I've made a journal entry. Happy Valentine's Day to all. also Happy Red Day, and Happy Single's Awareness Day. Lots of stuff has happened in the past year, both vanilla and non vanilla world alike. But 9 weeks until I move to Israel. I'm kinda scared only about living on my own for the first time ever, but so excited for it to happen. Need it to happen.

8/12/2015 2:59:40 AM
Two or so weeks ago, i experienced subspace for the first time ever.. its such an odd but pleasant feeling.

3/16/2015 1:05:11 PM
Je besoin TOUS LES QUEUES.. dans moi, maintenant... :D

3/6/2015 9:09:27 AM
There are many, many profiles here via both/all genders, and most if not all orientations, that have the same generic (in my opinion)  Duminant spiel of words... That they want limitless 24/7 slaves, and this is a lifestyle not just a fetish for them. 

Ok thats great, theres a fet for everything and to each their own.. yet is the same person making all those profiles? or are the users copy/pasting their profile? Where is the individuality??


Happy remainder of Purim and Happy Friday :)

2/23/2015 5:52:03 PM
I've been in a platonic, vanilla mood sort of funk lately. I don't know why.

1/13/2015 7:16:28 AM
So, it has been quite a while since I posted a journal..

Less than three weeks until I leave my home -or house, rather- in Florida to backpack around the United States.

I am nervous, yes, as I will have very little money saved up, but I welcome the challenge of fiscal management and am looking forward to the adventures ahead. 


Happy New Year, everyone :)

*****March 6th update*****

I got 55 miles into the trip/4 days worth, and overused/hurt my leg very badly (to the point I couldnt walk very well) So i came home.

11/18/2014 11:08:46 AM
Even when it's for legit reasons, being stood up is no fun.

11/16/2014 8:05:01 PM
ok so lately people have been asking me what im wearing.. like, um, fucking clothes, hello? lol hahahah.. it hasnt changed in the past five minutes. and im a horny little bitch sometimes, but im still classy when i want to be.

11/11/2014 9:40:25 PM
Heh... I love getting cummed in... Especially as the guy thrusts his cock closer toward my cervix, possibly knocking on it. Cervix deep is girls version of balls deep... Feels sooo amazing.

8/2/2014 1:48:19 PM
Recently I have rediscovered my affinity for ginger guys. -hnnng- :3 Just something about that red hair ^_^ 

6/22/2014 8:13:59 PM
It just dawned on me, again.. that a little over ten years ago, I lost my virginity. Wow.. what a decade it has been.

5/17/2014 11:37:06 AM

So going over my profile and journals has made me realize that I have possibly been too seemingly negative a person on here. I suppose after a certain amount of bad emails and/or interactions, scorn can develop. 

I am overall not very negative a person, in fact quite the opposite. Internet only allows so much of one's personality to be displayed.

My current focus is not on relationships, but rather finishing schooling, finding a job and planning travels.

Have a wonderful day to all :) 


3/11/2014 10:56:11 PM

I love vacations. and travel stuffs.. so much hype! :D


2/2/2014 5:18:10 AM
So..... I had a major oil leak in my car due to the oil pressure switch being old and non effective. But the motor blew out and was misfiring so it was scary to drive and unable to accelerate more than 10-20 mph. I shall miss it but am glad i will have another one hopefully this month.

1/11/2014 8:59:40 PM

Wanderlust has hit me intensely. And honestly, i think i actually have a legitimate travel fetish now. not platonic, but seriously. when i plan vacations and different things about it, i get sooo elated in more than one way.


12/28/2013 10:24:38 AM

Idk for sure, but i think i have found someone. Someone who accepts me for who I am and makes my mind feel all warm and fuzzy, both in kink and nilla aspects. 

While I WILL follow through with agreements I have made on here, I think, that shall be the end of it. and then i will be poly elsewhere :)

**edit** if you are going to say i made an agreement (and i mean an actual agreement, not just basic potential request/offer) please have some sort of proof that i spoke to you. CM keeps message logs for six months. I am NOT so damn stupid to think i agreed to suck your cock, when there are no logs of me or you ever messaging eachother before. Really?? If you are so desperate for a free blowjob, ask a frat girl for crying out loud.


12/26/2013 9:31:58 AM

Hope everyone had a happy hannukkah, happy christmas, happy yule, and whatever other holidays happened the past 6 weeks. 

Happy Thursday today, and happy new years next wednesday :)


11/17/2013 4:24:18 AM

That feel when.. you have a sore throat/ sore tonsils and it hurts to swallow water or open you mouth more than just to breathe :(


11/15/2013 7:36:58 PM

Collarme you are pissing me off. either change photos when i click to change them, or have a contact us button that you can have the mods troubleshoot wth is going on.


11/13/2013 9:32:14 PM

discomfort has two outcomes. healthy growth, and emotional sprains. 


11/9/2013 8:08:47 PM

Hey all the people on here...

My phone is unable to send messages, just lets me read them. So if you see it marked as read, no, I'm not ignoring you, just unable to respond at that time.
No need to throw a hissy fit, and if you are the type that DOES throw a hissy fit over not being answered in the nanosecond I open your message, then I probably wouldn't want to respond anyway..
Just sayin'.


8/4/2013 5:35:16 PM

Well obviously I haven't written in a while, but it amused me to get a pigheaded message without any prior communication, from what is apparently listed as a male submissive. The message below.

From: allwayspleasing

Dated: 8/4/13 3:36 PM
show your tits



So, I did the most cliché thing I could think of, and sent him this picture. If you cannot see it, or it somehow deletes itself, 

http://www.favonius.com/furzefield/birds/tits.jpg

That is the link.


4/9/2013 10:36:43 AM

Just got back from Jersey. It was sooooo incredibly fun!! I love it, and cannot believe I let myself stay away for so long. I must go back, and soon.


4/5/2013 5:00:51 AM
This trip has had me realize that I'm a sunbird. While snowbirds come down south for the winter, I gtfo of Florida and come up north for the winter (provided i have funds). I love snow, even though i havent seen any yet this week.

4/2/2013 8:28:05 PM

Total Awesome Yayitude!!!! I leave for New York and Jersey tomorrow morning!!! XD


3/24/2013 9:59:24 PM
Omigosh yaaay!! I get to go back to Jersey next week! XD

3/19/2013 10:36:50 AM

Need to simplify.. I have too many books, too many yugioh cards.. too much stuff in general..


3/16/2013 8:17:38 AM

It boggles my mind, how some people on here, and in general, can be so unkind. Didn't they ever learn "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."? I guess not.  Regardless, yesterday I LOOKED at the profile of user Happyhodge, simply because he had Latin words on his profile, and since I took Latin in college, it was interesting. I didn't send him any message first.  This morning, he sent me a message. Here it is..

From:Happyhodge Dated:3/16/13 1:41 AM    please dont look at me fatty Mc uggo bitch

Here is my response...

FrogLadyPenguin on 3/16/13 at 8:44 AM: I'm sorry you are so insecure in your own sense of self that you feel the need to degrade and berate others. Have a great day, Mr. Small Minded Dude. Take care. You've been blocked for your rudeness.

So there you have it, folks. Yet another person who can't "just be nice".


3/13/2013 11:40:59 AM

I'm sooo excited for my trip next month.. I will be doing stuff I have never done before.. Such as saving funds on a vacation.. Budget mode.. and budget mode is nothing new, but instead of renting a car I will be walking and hitchhiking.. and instead of needing to stay in a hotel every night I can couch surf...IMO- This is what life is.. the opportunity to do things outside of your comfort zone, in order to push yourself to grow and become a more well-rounded person. To experience new things and gain a larger perception of the world around you. Hence, crazy or not, I am eager to do this stuff.

Happy Wednesday!!


3/13/2013 11:35:38 AM

For my birthday.. In 6 days

I would super appreciate it if everyone could donate at least a dollar...Every dollar counts.. Thank you sooo much. <3<3<3

http://www.youcaring.com/other/Travel-and-Relocation-Fund/42311


2/28/2013 7:21:56 AM

GAAAAHH.. I've had sooo much vanilla sex the past few months, I don't like plain vanilla ice cream anymore.


Exit to Eden is an awesome movie.. 


1/19/2013 9:27:23 AM
yaaay!! Train ride today, cruise tomorrow!! XD

1/1/2013 1:20:16 AM
If a Dom/me told a sub/be (that they were considering protecting) to not contact them in the future as it was not necessary, on top of the fore knowledge when the protectees fuck up they're done and S/He didn't converse with them anymore... Why would They ignore your message wishing them a happy birthday, then send a merry christmas message only to not even read your response? It is mind boggling and somewhat frustrating.. Either contact them or don't, but don't keep looking at their profile and send them an occasional message.. As nice as it is, it is inconsistent and sends mixed signals. Happy 2013 :D

1/1/2013 1:01:44 AM
Happy New Year!!!

12/29/2012 12:56:52 PM
Yay! No more Florida for the rest of the year!! XD

12/3/2012 7:49:31 AM

Alas, I went on my very first cruise. It was soooo amazing! Definitely fun and I hope I will get to go again sometime..

 

Happy First week of December! ^_^


11/16/2012 4:54:02 AM

The other day (11/14/12), I got an email from CEverettAnger, who originally seemed slightly helpful but turned out really rude.  Hence I posted our conversation here. Of course I don't know what I am looking for. That's why my profile says "Friends only" hello... :3 Anyway, his messages are bolded black and mine are in pink.. Enjoy. ^_^


You have soooo many DONT'S on your list.. What are you really looking for beneath all these red flags and NOs dear? Sir Colin Anger

 

hiya.. I don't have that many do nots listed.. Just 2. But you have a point there.. No do's... Im not sure yet what im looking for..

 

Well, you should... You should have An idea of what you're willing to do, what you're hoping for, what you're looking for, what you're open to, what you wont do now.  This is your life as A submissive. Explore it, embrace it and dive in dear.  Set your bounds so there is no confusion, for you or anyone else.  Sir Colin Anger

 

Okay.. Did you not see 'switch' on my profile? But thanks for the guidelines I'll consider it when I'm online (not phone) next time. Good day :)

 

So sorry, you're switch and clueless as to what you want and expect.  Congratulations you're failing as both A Dominant and submissive.. Would you like A  trophy or plaque maybe?  *shrug*

 

Exactly, I'm not sure what im looking for. But I do know I require respect- that which you clearly lack. I'm not failing as either because I've yet to try as either. For your rudeness you've been blocked. Have a lovely day :D

   
 
   

11/4/2012 8:06:13 PM

I keep seeing all these profiles for FinDommes, and I am wondering if it is as pleasurable at it is portrayed, for both ends.

 

Also am hoping to better develop my Domme side, so if you are reading this and you are a Dominant, any tips/advice/resources, whatnot?

 

If you are a submissive to a finDomme, what attracted you to that kind of Domme, and why?

 

Lovely day/night to all. :)


11/2/2012 5:46:41 PM
Another pleasant interview today. :) Hopefully I will get a job soon so I can fund my trip to the UK next year.. And pay my bills, of course :3

10/31/2012 12:01:45 PM

I hope I can find people to go trick or treating with tonight. I haven't done so in eons. Twas a very fun time >.< One is never too old for free candy ^_^


10/30/2012 3:58:44 AM
Too much confusion and I don't even know what about yet.

9/19/2012 6:59:46 AM

Awesome sauce!!!! Today is my half birthday!!! Who says children's traditions cannot be re-lived?? XD


8/27/2012 2:02:11 AM
Happy Birthday, Sire. Hope you have a great day :)

8/22/2012 10:48:36 PM

Wow. It seems so long since I have written anything, but its been less than 10 days. I so believe. Probably because I haven't written anything other than small talk in so long.

Anyway,  I have decided to find a full time job and take the semester, or possibly the whole year off of college.

Latin was fun, but Im excited... Im going to the UK next year and will need funds for such an amazing trip.

I keep reminding myself that Sire's birthday is in a few days even though I am not his, nor is he mine, and I am completely single, stringless, and unattached to anyone more than just friends. It is interesting how the people you think about a lot have a way of checking up on you even indirectly. The universe works in strange chaotic ways. Either way life is still a blast and I wouldn't trade my life for anyone elses. What fun would that be?

Then I wouldn't get the awesome stuff from my own life. Struggling helps the butterfly dry its wings so it can fly. Emotional struggle is necessary to grow emotionally, mentally, spiritually and even physically, considering that everything is energy.

Well enough of the philosophical type mumbo jumbo..Off to bed and then to the next day of jobhunting. Happy August to everyone XD


8/13/2012 10:39:18 PM

HAPPY AWESOME FANTASTIC MAGNIFICENT TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ^...^


7/25/2012 12:51:38 PM

HAHAH!!

Its official! I am now in the red... But its okay...

A job is needed...

Any leads in the hillsborough county area??

Happy awesome Wednesday!! :D


7/15/2012 3:41:59 AM

Goals for today...hmm.

  • well, its my friends birthday, so im going to her party later to night.
  • RESEARCH!! my mom and i might move to serbia someday...of course i always get carried away with awesome plans like such. its JUST a simple idea, not an actual plan yet.
  • clean my fucking house...hopefully
  • read one or two chapters of an awesome book
  • have fun!

yup!! thats all i can think of. happy Ides of July everybody!!!


7/13/2012 6:13:34 PM

First time ever making maple syrup candy..

Its delicious!!! Note to self...next time use rubber not plastic candy molds...


6/28/2012 4:50:45 AM

Yaaay!! off to class in a little bit..then midterm of a different class, then....MIAMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FIRST TIME EVER!.


6/25/2012 9:09:37 PM

ok..it takes A LOT-seriously much more than most people i know- to even slightly weird me out.

where is the flipping common sense? unless previously agreed upon (while clothes are still on), you dont show your junk to someone you meet for the first time- voyeur or not.

even if youre the nicest guy in the world, when you meet someone for first time and you did not mutually agree to play, exposing yourself without being asked is somewhat of an uncouth behavior.

so there goes my rant. im not mad, nor am i freaked out. yes it was a new experience. did i hate it? no. did i like it enough to do the same thing again? probably most likely not.


6/25/2012 8:44:20 PM

today...wow...just.....interesting.


6/24/2012 12:03:15 PM

i love fanfiction stories...especially when i get inspired to write some of them...


6/23/2012 6:09:06 AM

YAAAYYYY!!!! BEST..PARTY...EVERRR!!!!

twas my friends 21st bday yesterday and I along with my very awesome friends, threw a surprise party for her... also i made a brownie cake like thingimajig, whichwas absolutely scrumptious...

awesome party...


6/13/2012 8:34:19 PM

Thank you Sire,   For making me find the strength to do the right thing.  Blue


6/6/2012 4:03:13 PM

Somebody once told me that all submissives are attention whores.

I think it is true, for the most part (especially in my case... a lot) and pretty awesome as well, so long as we try not to be toooooo clingy.


6/4/2012 9:11:55 PM

Music is AMAZING!!! Especially oldies music,,e.g. the Hues Corporation songs..


6/4/2012 6:47:51 AM

I love school, but some days you JUST...Dont. wanna...goooooo...

meh... :S


6/3/2012 2:53:06 PM

Now that I am recovered..for the most part...

my day was AWESOME!!!

how was yours??


6/3/2012 10:18:38 AM

I should have listened....but i didnt.... i couldnt get through the whole thing... just 10 seconds made me gag-- 2 girls 1 cup is awful! O.O   *shutters*

 

 

** fuck. watched most of it...  its physically impossible for me to throw up unless im sick...but that video made me sick..wow...


5/30/2012 3:33:49 PM

hi again...Happy Wednesday!

JFYI, I am more submissive than dominant, and currently am on here for (wtf/ever....)

just friends right now..

I got divorced in march..I'm 21 years old, do not have any kids. Definitely, I'm enjoying single life.  My computer is ancient. Hence NO chat...here, on yahoo, nor anywhere else will it work. I don't often play online...I don't see a point to it. Friends are always welcome..

 Take care, y'all.


5/30/2012 2:58:41 PM

Hi everybody!!

Hope you all are having an absolutely splendid day...^_^

Unemployment isn't really as bad as people make it out to be..Of course life is what you make it, and if you have an overall positive outlook, awesome things will more likely happen to you and vice versa. but im considering modeling... since im highly overweight, thinking bbw modeling until i get healthier, then trying out for cosplay deviants.

either way, life is awesome!!!

okey dokey pokey... off to make dinner...or in latin...  Cupio cenam parare. (I want to prepare dinner)


5/14/2012 6:52:34 PM

Summer school course load...

  • Latin I
  • Latin II
  • Social Psychology

 Wondering if I should take time off or not. Turns out burnout happens quicker the second time around...


5/3/2012 2:02:19 PM

Final exams finished: CHECK!!!!

 

HAPPY SUMMER!!!


5/3/2012 1:59:27 PM

How can i switch the new journal entry background color? its driving me nuts and i don't even have any!!


5/1/2012 9:59:57 AM

Thank you MA89 for explaining a reasoning behind my last journal entry. It makes a lot more sense. You rock!

 

Happy Tuesday to everyone!!


4/30/2012 6:02:58 PM

Call me vanilla, but there are some things I just cannot wrap my head around. I fully understand and accept there are fetishes of every shape size color thought and beyond. and that's okay.what i cannot, and highly doubt i will ever understand, is when a slave is willing to give his or her own life, or allow someone to dismember/disfigure them in some way. It boggles my mind. I am on the edge of understanding slavery.. As mostly submissive, I can understand, not wanting to make decisions at all- they're difficult to make,annoying, and time consuming. I still enjoy the choice. but i can comprehend when people who don't want any decisions decide not to make any.

 But WHY?!?! Why would you allow someone to kill you??! I understand protecting those who are valuable to you. Dodging in front of a bullet, dispelling a knife from an attacker yes. But if you are alive and well...whats with the assisted suicide? don't you have ANY or at least more self worth than that?? Again, call me vanilla if you wish but at least explain it first...


4/30/2012 5:33:16 PM

Hmmm...I'm thinking I'm gonna try to become a gamer girl. Nerdy chics are awesome!!


4/30/2012 5:31:23 PM

Is it such a bad thing to have a tentacle monster fetish??!?!?!!? So what if I like to get tied up and forced around!!


4/30/2012 11:14:14 AM

Yay!! One final exam down, two to go..!!!


4/29/2012 5:05:47 AM

Hi everyone. Just got back from a business seminar and it was AWESOME!! Life is amazing for me right now ^_^


4/18/2012 9:13:08 PM

realizing that im a nympho, again, brought my mind to the sweet childhood memory of the movie Oklahoma, and thus to the song sung by Ado Annie "Im just a girl who caint say no..."Check out the url below...or if you dont feel like listening to a song, the lyrics are below that.

 http://youtu.be/VprmD6oXpFQ

I'm just a girl who cain't say no, I'm in a turrible fix
I always say "come on, le's go" Jist when I orta say nix!
When a person tries to kiss a girl, I know she orta give his face a smack.
But as soon as someone kisses me,I somehow, sorta, wanta kiss him back!
I'm jist a fool when lights are low I cain't be prissy and quaint
I ain't the type that can faint How can I be what I ain't?

I cain't say no!
What you goin' to do when a feller gits flirty, and starts to talk purty?
What you goin' to do?
S'posin' 'at he says 'at yer lips're like cherries, er roses, er berries?
What you goin' to do? S'posin' 'at he says 'at you're sweeter 'n cream,
And he's gotta have cream er die? What you goin' to do when he talks that way,
Spit in his eye?
I'm just a girl who cain't say no, Kissin's my favorite food
with or without the mistletoe  i'm in a holiday mood.
other girls are coy and hard to catch but other girls aint havin any fun
every time i lose a wrestling match i have a funny feeling that i won
although i can feel the undertone  i never make a complaint
till its to late for restraint then when i wanno i caint
i caint say no


4/18/2012 9:05:43 PM

yay!!! i got my endorsement!!!

 

 


4/15/2012 2:32:57 PM

My face is flushed pink, my hair is messed up into sweaty, stringy clumps, my legs are shaky, my feet are sore from pushing down. My hands and wrists/forearms are soooo sore from squeezing it actually hurts more to open my hand than to clench it shut.

And I am so exhausted from the multiple "learning exercises" I went through/had today.

But.. I did it!!!! I passed my motorcycle skills test today and am now allowed to obtain the endorsement! Yayyy!!!


4/14/2012 4:05:53 PM

So, I have wanted to get my motorcycle endorsement on my license for a long time. Well Im finally in a class and I got a 100% on my written test !!

I never knew my hand could be so sore... Yes. even more than that...

Plus its opposite to a stickshift. in a car, the clutch is a pedal and you shift with your hand. On a bike you shift with your foot and the clutch is in front of the handlebar..

I was always scared to drive a stickshift after I tried and kept stalling out. Ya know.. I think I might learn now...


4/9/2012 8:57:06 PM

yay!!! i found food grade h2o2 at the health food store!!!copy/paste link if you care to...

http://educate-yourself.org/cancer/benefitsofhydrogenperozide17jul03.shtml


4/8/2012 5:36:35 PM

i wish i was more focused. everything is made with a decision. scratch that i dont need focusing (well i do, but) what i really need is patience. i have recently come down with QuickFixIt-itis and am trying to calm myself to realize everything worthwhile takes time. Especially school, and finding the right job...


4/6/2012 8:43:32 PM

Happy Passover everybody!!!


4/6/2012 1:15:32 PM

Ok,  so a lot of fucked up stuff has been occuring lately, but that's okay. Music is the bubble bath that soothes the soul. I have found comfort in listening to oldies music and yesterday a situation presented itself where a few lines of roll to me kept playing through my head. I know the whole song but this is only what has been running on repeat... 


Look around your world pretty baby Is it everything you hoped it'd be The wrong guy The wrong situation...
And look into your heart Pretty Baby Is it aching with some aimless need
Is there something wrong and you can't put your finger on it..
And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair...

yup. oh yea, because i disobeyed my protector and he released me. The song above, I have always liked it, just last night it actually kicked me in the face with how it corresponds to my life.


3/27/2012 8:06:28 PM

omg. i finally told my buddy my deepest darkest secret. i thought he was going to start flippin' bitches and running amok with anger, but he actually freaked out in a pretty calm way...which is sooo much better than i had anticipated.

my sister might get her baby back tomorrow!! i hope she does. this baby is the only thing that makes her want to become a better person, hence she deserves her kid, also to prove she will be a fantastic mommy.


3/26/2012 6:50:52 PM

wtf happened to my picture?? i had a picture up and i have no idea why its not there anymore...

i had  a endometrial biopsy today and oh my effing goddess, i wished i was a masochist... that fucker hurt worse than cramps and tattoos combined!

i hate dealing with people. i wish i could find a decent paying non customer service job.


3/24/2012 6:13:07 PM

Yay!!! job apps done...

 

fuckin A....

If cleanliness is next to godliness, then Satan lives in my bedroom...

 

 


3/24/2012 5:26:01 PM

I know!!! at least i think i do...  maybe (one of) the test(s) is to see how well i stick to doing the right thing...

since lack of contact with him, i feel ever more increasingly vanilla and not involved in the lifestyle at all...

so maybe his absence from my conscious part of my life, although i am sure he has more than enough ways of keeping an eye on me..., is a test to see if i stay a good girl or not.

but enough about my swirling thought processes... i have been incredibly confused about my life lately and had no idea what i wanted to have, do, or become. well i am glad to say i finally have a chief aim/ main goal and that is to get myself out of the terrible soul-stealing mind-numbing place i call work and find a new job!!  heeheehee cant wait for my life to change for the better. :D

well off to fill out job application #1     happy saturday ^-^


3/22/2012 1:42:10 PM

Not only am I on chastity restriction, I am on punishment too! Sire knows I like asking questions (how else am I supposed to learn?) and I can't do so for a full fucking week! Along with other verbal restrictions. All over a simple misunderstanding...

I wonder if this is a test? Everything is a test. I just have to figure out what type of test this is and in what way I am being tested.

Happy weekend to everyone. ^_^


3/19/2012 4:35:25 PM

I love it how my birthday is smack dab in the middle of St. Patrick's Day and Ostara ^_^


3/19/2012 12:36:11 AM

Happy fucking birthday to me :D yummy cake, and now its a milestone.


3/18/2012 1:09:00 PM

So, apparently I am under protection by Sire. Yay! Only bad thing is I am on chastity restriction for the time being. Which sucks because I am a total nympho. Oh well, it is for the best....


3/15/2012 1:21:57 PM

Hahahah!!! Turns out my vanilla fuck-buddy is not-so-vanilla after all! I love it!


3/14/2012 12:19:35 PM

Here he comes again swooping me inside the preliminary portion of the non vanilla world.

 I had tried once so hard to get over his allure, because it upset me to be without, and now that I finally have, and am proud of me owning myself, and solely being a bedroom sub, if at all. He re-arrives.

 But once again he begins to steal my soul. I have conflicting feelings about this.

 "But try to understand..Try to understand. Try, try, try to understand..He's a magic man."

 I am not sure if I want to be under his ownership or control, whether it be only partial or merely implied. Vanilla activities are so incredibly fun!! Especially on spring break.

 He does not care, Why should he? My wants do not concern him. Needs are one thing but wants are a luxury.

 I hope that he will understand. I know everything always works out perfectly how it is supposed to be, if you have the right attitude, but the here and now is soooo fucking frustrating sometimes!!!!

 

 


3/1/2012 9:28:23 PM

       After much internal confusion i have decided for the time being to remain a lifestyle vanilla and just live sherbert (not vanilla) in the bedroom.

       There is much going on in my life right now, particularly school and trying to find another job, which would not allow me much time to serve and that would not be fair to my Dom or me for thinking I could do so.

      Vanilla is most often boring but since that is how I grew up, it is the most common constant in my life and will stay that way until I finish school and have time to experiment more.

       I am not against Lifestyle, nor am I pushing it away forever- in fact I would love a Dom in the bedroom and occasional role play. **NOT YOU WHO ARE READING THIS. NICE TRY** 

      I am NOT a "cyber hoe". I do not get kicks off of talking to multiple Doms at the same time or one after another after another. But if you are polite, I will answer your message. However unless we have talked on multiple occasions, don't invite me to chat-i will decline unless I know you a bit first.

     While I have greatly enjoyed the information given to me by *legitimate* members and/or loners of the bdsm community, and would like to say thank you to those who have helped me learn more, I know enough now to know how to answer messages that are less than polite.

     Also, NOBODY owns me until I give them that power-- hence I own myself, will wear my own collar when I please, and am my own bitch--not yours!

    Hope you all have a splendidly magnificent day ^_^


2/27/2012 1:01:25 PM

As I stand in front of the door to the ice cream shoppe with the vast array of sherberts and sorbets, i never thought how much the idea of going inside would make me miss plain good ol' vanilla ice cream. Its nervewracking. Full of novelty yet it promotes a mix of desire for adventure and a need to retreat to the 3 flavor ice cream shop i grew up and worked in.

I have never lived beyond Sherbertarium and the idea of who my neighbors will be and what the job there will be like is, well, making me nervous.


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