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Dr Jekyl and MisterRogers personality. I am a walking contradiction. Well, hobbling contradiction. More on that in a second.
Im a redneck born and bred. I listen to classic rock, and people who tell me they listen to both kinds of music, Country AND Western make me nervous. I dont drink. I dont use. I used to, but I gave them up decades ago because they just werent killing me fast enough. The Army claims Im sniper-rated, but I dont hunt and I dont own any guns at the moment. I support the Second Ammendment, and I believe in the Constitution of the US as written.
NASCAR bores me. So do hunting and fishing shows. I like hockey, not football, and havent watched Major League baseball since the big strike over a decade ago.
I cook, just not on a first date.
I smoke. Deal with it.
Im a longhair, and I refuse to shave my beard. Ill trim it down, but its not coming off. I like wearing golf shirts and jeans, occaisonally, Dockers. I dont play golf. I grew up in western Colorado, and I hate it there. I grew up religious, and I outgrew that too. I spent 20 years in Cleveland the first time, and hated the climate. I lived in Arizona for 15 years and loved it. I went back to Cleveland for a couple years to watch my granddaughter born start growing up and then made my escape back to Arizona where I belong.
Ive got a degree that says Particle Physics on it, another one that says Mathematics. The only career choice I had after I got them was teaching high school. Long story, dont ask. Considering how much I hated high school when I went there, I passed on their generous offer. Besides, back then, my temper wasnt under control. I told my prof that if I had to program COBOL for a living, Id go get a real job. I did. Im a debt collector. This is as real as it gets.
Im happily retired from spending 8 hours a day on a phone getting screamed at and threatened. The last thing I want to do when I get home from work is get on a goddamned telephone. Besides, my voice is usually shot by then. Ive been doing collections for 15 years, 2 heart attacks and a stroke. In that stroke, I lost something like 25 IQ points and a good chunk of short term memory. Im probably still smarter than you. I can remember books Ive read over 40 years ago. Half the time I forget where I put my car keys. The free time is great since retirement, but the cashflow SUCKS. Welcome to post-industrial America.
My biggest sex organ is on top of my shoulders, behind my glasses, and underneath all this hair. My second biggest sex organ is safely tucked away behind my ribcage between my lungs. Im not interested in the size of your tits, Im interested in the size of your heart.
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STILL no fix for the preference problem. This place is going downhill. |
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WTF is up with the 'Search' function NOT saving my preferences? I have preferences for a REASON. |
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W00T. Journaos are back!!! |
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4ZaGbZUDdk |
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Is it just me, or are a lot of profiles these days just reading like revenge porn? Seriously. Who in their right MINDS posts a real name and contact info on a BDSM website????
This methinks is seriously whack. Yeah, I use a screen name and it would SEVERELY piss me off to get 'outted' as a 'pervert' by those who just don't get it. |
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Still trying to figure out what a girl who lists herself as full tilt lesbian would wanna perv my profile. I'm a GUY. |
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It is seriously beginning to SUCK getting old.
I'm starting to think I was born 30 years too early... |
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What, no fan mail??????????????? |
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I love it when a girl puts 'I want to serve a MATURE Dom' and I email her, then she bins it without reading it. What kind of age bracket is she talking about? If she has one, can't she be reasonably specific? |
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Back in Arizona where I belong.
Still haven't collared anybody yet. I'm just about to give up on it.
I still don't get why a girl in a relationship wants 'something more on the side' but demands I be SINGLE. Why should I trust her if she's wanting to do that without telling her partner about it first? |
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What sucks at my age is, send somebody an email and it gets binned. Unread.
About the only emails I get are from bi male submissives wanting me to take them over. SOOOOOOOO not my thing. Why chase boys when there's still plenty of girls around? |
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Whelp, another Valentine's Day spent alone.
I think I know what I want for my birthday this year. A pair of slavegirls, one Asian, one blonde. Bisexual, of course.
Damn, I need to get out more... |
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Had an interesting conversation with a girl from here who wants me to send her $1350 to buy her freedom. Course, she can't call me on the fone, or meet me before the 'buy'.
Nice to see American enterprize is still alive and well. ROFL!!!!! |
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Another day, another pet peeve...
Been noticing a bunch of pages claiming to be 'bisexual', but when you read them, they tell you they're NOT into men in any way shape or form, and want nothing to do with them. While I'm all for personal choice, why not come fully out of the closet and set yourself 'lesbian'?
And for those lesbians who bitch that 'males should NOT look at my pictures!!!!!!!' and then proceed to post 30 zillion nudes, why not adjust your mail filters to screen us convex types out, put up ONE head shot, neck up, for advertising purposes, and send those 30 zillion nudes to the FEMALES that respond to your page? CM doesn't allow you to block your page for specific groups, it's either on or off.
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Got an email from somebody today saying that MisterRogers used to be a Marine Corps sniper back in the day, & always wore long sleeved shirts to cover up his tattoos.
Actually, it's an urban legend. Fred Rogers was an ordained Presbyterian minister, never served a day in the military. He wore his shirt sleeves long to be more formal. He believed in talking TO kids, not AT them.
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Singer decided she was really vanilla through and through, deleted all her 'kink links', wiped her profile, and dropped me like a hot rock. Not much chance in getting her back, even as a vanilla.
Damn, I'm so tired of this...
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Today, singer2552 and I have been together for a year. This time next year should be spectacular.
Miss you bigtime, babygirl...
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Damn, it's been awhile since I've update this thing. Lot has happened...
I'm back to work again. Still haven't gotten my heart fixed. But the stress level is going down.
I did a 'meet' with my babygirl, singer2552, in Vegas last week for my birthday. It went VERY well, and we're now planning on getting her out here permenantly. My family knows of her, and already loves her sight unseen, as she makes me happier than I've been in decades. Her family, on the other tentacle...
So, now we get to do the logistics of getting her out here for good. Should be making for an interesting time...
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Why am I getting emails from young gay men?
I like WOMEN too much to chase boys. Sorry, guys...
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Well, the word is given. My last work day for awhile is the 29th, then I get to starve til the disability kicks in.
Thank ghods it's only for a little while...
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Mention you have a heart condition and watch them run.
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The meds are gettin me a bit loopy, and my friends & co-workers are gettin worried. My sister's wanting me to recover from the bypass at her place in California so she knows I'll behave myself for a change. Prob is, how do I explain this site to her???
Dad's been gone a year now. Miss him bigtime.
I hate my meds. I had something I wanted to write here but I forgot it already. Sucks to get old & decrepit...
D'oh. NOW I remember. Lotta women's profiles say, 'Write more than a 1-liner, but don't cut & paste the same thing to everyone'. I make my emails short; if they're not going to be read or responded to, why write War & Peace? If there's a twinge there, they might write back no matter what...
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Not a good day today. A close call; too much stress at work, and the doc is thinking of pushing me onto disability for awhile. I got told I'm a bypass candidate. So much for the medications keeping me going.
And in other news, I checked and most of the emails I send aren't even getting read. Sucks to be shoved into the bulk mail file...
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I admit it. I've got a real live Dr Jekyl and MisterRogers personality.
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Howcome the 'poly inclined' girls around here want to JOIN a poly group but not START one?
Weird, ain't it?
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Yes, I cook. Just NOT on a first date.
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Spam, spam and more spam. Bout the
only thing I get in my email box lately. Sheesh, I'm surprised I don't
hear Vikings chanting in the background half the time...
And if you get THAT reference, I'd love to talk with you...
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Yes, I smoke. What's your point?
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Flonker's Rule:
If you email somebody, and watch them on the search page come through about every 5 mins for an hour and they don't respond, they're not gonna.
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This weekend will have been my dad's 83rd birthday. We miss you, Dad...
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Nothing quite like relaxing to the Moody Blues. Good for my nerves. This week was hell.
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Looks like the babygirl done gone bye-bye. No advance notice or even a goodbye.
Yeah, 2006 is gonna be my year, alright...
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Gettin told I'm an old pervert is expected from a 18-20 year old. Gettin told I'm too old by a 44 year old is a bit much...
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I can't believe I've been here almost a year.
Thought I was going to get some face time with my babygirl over Xmas, but she got freeked out and drove on by. Got like 2 IMs from her since, and I'm thinking she's running away from me. Merry fucking Christmas.
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I STILL don't get the concept of 'sharing'. |
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Well, time for an update.
I've cut my work down to like 65 hrs a week, starting to rest a bit more, even thinkin bout quittin one of my jobs. The one that doesn't pay shit, of course...
Miss my babygirl madly. |
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I get mail...
Somebody emailed me this in response to the previous journal entry:
Probably because they get off on berating other people, or maybe because they enjoy showing themselves off, maybe because their Masters have instructed them to post pictures. I haven't seen nude pictures posted on profiles here.
On reply, I was blocked. Go figger. All I can say is, Karen, you haven't looked HARD enough for nude pics.
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I've been noticing something strange...
Lotta girls here are putting 'owned, SO not looking' in their profiles, which is all well and good, then they post a good half dozen nude pics and make scathing remarks about anybody who has the balls to email them. If you're not looking, why the bait? |
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I'm beginning to hate cars.
I drive an old POS '85 Dodge Lancer, 175K miles on it, and it's still going. Hell, it's paid for. Last week I blew the timing belt out of it. $250 later, it's back on the road. Damned thing still dies on me in the last couple miles to home on hot (105+) days. Definitely a cold weather car...
Still waiting on my babygirl. And I've gotten some emails here saying 'Hold on tight'. Thanxx, I needed that.
Another buddy of mine died last week. Heart attack right after an angiogram, died before they could put him on the copter for Phoenix. What I hate about getting old is, the playground starts clearing out. And I've been the 'sole survivor' before. It's no fun. |
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Time stumbles on...
My babygirl has asked me for a bit of breathing space, so of course, I gave it to her. She's going through a rough time right now, unsure of herself and her worth, and nothing I can say can snap her out of it. Our plans to meet got all fucked up as well. So, from here, the only way to keep her in my life is to let her loose a bit, let her check her options before fully committing. It beats her leaving in 10 years if she decides she missed out on something.
She's worth taking the risk for. Just wish she'd realise that...
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Well...
One of the things I like best about living deep in the desert is the fact that it's mostly QUIET. I lived in & around Cleveland, Ohio for like 25 years, and every year, starting about 2 or 3 weeks before the 4th, it was like living in a war zone. Firecrackers going off everywhere, 24/7. Made it hard to get any sleep, and definitely got on my nerves.
Living out here, 500 miles due west of the 20th Century, I haven't heard any fireworks the whole summer. Come to think of it, I didn't hear any last year either. Ah, silence...
For a minute there, I thought my babygirl was going to be coming out here the weekend of the 22nd. Looks like we won't meet til around Labor Day now. Just goes to show what happens when I think. She's moving back to California, will be about a 4 hour speedburn down the freeway from me, so I should be able to see a lot of her. And that thought makes me smile. She's good for my old frazzled nerves... |
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Sometimes methinks people take themselves too goddamned seriously.
Life's too damned short for that... |
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My family is getting stoopid on me (intentionally misspelled, people, don't go spelling nazi on me!!).
Dad's been in the ground less than a week and already the recriminations are flying about. Yeah, I was one of 2 'blood kids', the rest were step-kids, and yeah, I got treaded like *I* was a bastard at the coronation, but what's in store for 'the other side of the family' goes against everything my dad taught me.
Makes me sick to my stomach. Damn, am I glad I'm outta the line of fire...
My fave niece in the whole wide world wants me to move to Washington state and work for her. I'm thinking about it...
And still I gotta wait for my babygirl to get out here. |
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My dad died a week ago. I just got back from the funeral last nite. Lots of jumbled emotions, but mainly, I miss him already. |
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And sometimes, I just get LUCKY...
Got the results of my blood work back today. Cloresterol is 132 (anything under 200 is spot on!!), lipids are EXCELLENT, so what looked like a blockage might just be stress.
And in other news, a sweet girl here has decided I'm gonna be her daddydom. We're looking at a real life meetup within a couple weeks, see if we click. And if so, we'll go from there...
Skill is a Good Thing, but I'll take luck any day of the week. And I'm one lucky conehead... |
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I survived my birthday. w00t.
Found out why I've been so sick lately, too. I actually broke down and saw a doctor. Seems I'm getting some blockage in my heart arteries. Not good. It means I gotta lay off the Wendy's & quit smoking, & live on medication the rest of my life. Wouldncha know it, I got fucked over on my medical insurance at work, so if worse comes to worse and I gotta get a bypass, it comes outta my pocket. Oh, joy, $45k out the door.
Gotta love modern medicine, just not the price...
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Things just keep gettin weirder the closer it gets to my birthday. I'm lookin at the Big 5-0 this year, and it ain't lookin' pretty.
What to write that won't sounds like whining???
I've got a dozen people on my 'Favorites' list. Or should I call it my 'Heartbreak list'? I've got emails out to all on that list, so far, no replies. Want to start getting a REAL complex? See somebody on the search list & on your Favorites list that was there a second ago, and now their profile is GONE. Even more unnerving when you KNOW they must have seen your email...
Why is it most profiles of submissive women on this site are looking ONLY for WOMEN?
Why is it that a lot of girls here don't put any interests OR profile on their page?
Am I too old, too crippled, too WEIRD? Or do I just need to go to sleep until after my birthday is over?
One thing for sure, though, in my NEXT incarnation, I'm coming back as the most drop dead gorgeous lipstick lesbian Domme the world has ever SEEN.
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Been sicker than a dog the last few days. There's a bad flu virus going around and I caught it both barrels right in the face. I'm feeling better now, but for a minute, I was beginning to think it was just about over. Probably had something to do with not being able to breathe good enough to sleep for two days...
But I've been hangin out in the chats (shout-out to my new friends Wynter & ^lildevil^{Wyntr}, persephone, beautyandbrains, & the gang and yes YOU DO KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!). Very educational. I'm learning a lot from these great people. I've been around the Life for over 20 years, and I still consider myself a beginner. I think the day I THINK I know it all is probably the day they'll be packing dirt in my face. And my new friends reinforce something I've believed in since I discovered I'm a dominant: It's all about RESPECT.
It's not enough that I drool over a girl, or fall madly in love with her, it's MORE important I respect her. Respect is something that grows, and it has a lot of subtle little levels in it. I have to respect her as a Person, because she completes me. Otherwise, it's just another jackdream.
It's almost 1 AM here, and I gotta get up at 6:30 for work. More on this later...
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Well, I got the java runtime package up and working. It's like they say, all else fails, READ THE DIRECTIONS. Just needed to scam up the RPM from Sun (I use Fedora Core 3 here), install, & make a soft link to the java plugin in my Firefox directory. Piece of cake, once you know the trick...
It's been raining here on & off for almost TWO MONTHS. I'm getting SICK of the rain. I moved to the desert to get AWAY from the rain. This weather is bringing me down bigtime. My back aches, I can hardly sleep, and the lack of sunshine depresses the hell outta me. WHERE'S MY GLOBAL WARMING??? I PAID FOR GLOBAL WARMING!!! I WANT MY GLOBAL WARMING!!!!!!
I SO can't wait til summer...
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Man, do I feel like a clone!!!
I put my profile on my account, just like I shoulda, then waited a couple days. Decided I needed to add some stuff to my interests, so I wiped the account cause I couldn't figure out how to add to my likes.
So I run my email grabber, and guess what. Notification that my profile was accepted. After I wiped the account, of course. Damn, talk about severe suckage...
Still having problems installing a java runtime so I can hit the chats. Sometimes I SEVERELY hate computers. Course, they hate me BACK, so I guess it balances out... FWIW, I'm a Linux guy, though I use Windows at work. At least if something gets screwed up on this thing, it's *my* fault, not a virus or something. C'est le guerre...
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