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I have decided to abandon this profile in favour of Facebook. I always enjoyed talking to friends and making new friends but found other aspects of this site so annoying, I would always leave. I would always come back after missing my friends.
If I have not passed along my new account information to you, perhaps you lived too far or I felt we weren't a proper match.
I wish you all well.
Ps: don't go "liking" every photo I post or I will have to tease you with my vagina only to then deny you my vagina and that wouldn't be very nice at all.
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Alright I have my FB account and have added photos etc. Hopefully this newest way of communicating will be less troublesom than talking through Yahoo. I may not choose to talk via the FB chat seeing as I did give up on messenger because I was bombarded with too many incoming messages.
I do think I'll prefer communicating through FB....I like that I can keep my profile private and so will be looking forward to posting lots of pictures. Oh and I like that I will be able to leave snarky comments :)
It does make sense seeing as everyone I talk to here has an account.
I'm passing along the information to you now.
I bought some new vinyl and maybe I'll be post a picture. Won't you be disappointed when you find out I meant records and not a catsuit. Hahaha |
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I have taken down my photos so that I can post newer ones but can't seem to do that on my phone.
What a day. Its been a while since I've been in such a sexuallly deviant mood.
I'm sure it is somewhat due to the intense conversations I've been having with some of you today here, but why question it?
Arent you a lucky boi. |
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I have changed my profile to make clear that I am only interested in talking with LOCAL men.
Trial and error has taught me that long distance/online just does not, nor will it ever, work for me.
PS: small talk bores me and I refuse to partake in it. |
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I don't just want a body. I want the emotional. I want to mentally enslave and cage your heart.
I don't just want a body. |
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I had no idea you would have such a cute face! What a cute face you have.....like an adorable little puppy.
I long to kiss that mouth hard, deep, slow, passionately. I crave to kiss that face with My hand...hard....fast....ouch!
It's too bad they can't see what beautiful brown eyes you have as I use your face for a chair. |
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I sure do get quite a few messages from dominant men as well.
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I feel that I need to clarify something here....
When I speak of love, I am not able to be your girlfriend and eventual wife. I understand that many of you are looking for that as well.
I do not ever speak of vanilla love when I mention "love". Nor am I looking to be loved.
This is probably not making sense but I'll try to be more clear as I do fear hurting men in the future.
I am looking for an emotional connection, sure.
I will love you dearly, but only as your Owner.
I am loving you when I torture you. I kiss you each time my crop smacks your ass. My love is felt with each thrust of My cock.
And as you cry, I will know you love me too.
I can't be your girlfriend. |
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Usually when I keep reading the same questions asked by many, I will take the answer to the journal.
"What are you seeking?".
I rarely answered this question and even more rare was me asking that question.
It depends on the dynamic of the relationship. Sure there needs to be fundamental similarities to connect over. I know that for me to take it as real there needs to be a sort of friendship, honesty, trust, wanting to make sure the other is happy, loved, and feels safe. If those critical needs are not met, there will be no respect and I could never love someone I had no respect for.
Once the above has been established, I really enjoy...
A really intense, complex, debased, perverse, indescribable love.
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I receive many messages. It's true. Not gonna lie. Oh man, do I ever.
I admit that I tend to rush through some of them to save myself from drowning in the tsunami of replies.
I never reply to "hey" "how are you?" "you are so fucking hot"
"I'd give anything to be owned by you""" "can I serve you?", etc. *hint* * hint*
I also never reply to someone with a nude profile shot or an undesirable name.
Then I thought...
What if behind that ass pic is the sweetest guy? What if that set of balls are the balls of an open and honest man. What if that is the most loving and devoted cock on CM and the only thing missing is someone telling him to put some fucking pants on!
Point of this journal is that I have decided to open myself up
to some online romance, AKA intrawebs ownership.
I kind of miss the slow sensual dance of getting to know one another. The eruption of wetness seeing certain names in my inbox knowing there will be attached photos of proof of tasks. The thrill of hearing the others voice...hearing the whimpers....the begging.
Here is the difficult part. I need to feel "it" for you.
Also not into casual, but more of an ongoing ownership of your psyche.
I want you for life, but I am not into micromanaging your life.
Hairy balls and ass need not apply.
Face shots are not required....just an ability to cause an all encompassing desire to take you and make you Mine!
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I just noticed that I missed 2 pages of messages sent to me in November.
Please feel free to message me again. I was not intentially ignoring you and I was actually enjoying getting to slowly get to know many of you.
I would like to continue to get to know you. |
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It's unbelievable the number of messages I receive from men telling me how rich and hot fit they are.
Why do you define yourself by the money you make? I find it to be a good thing that you exercise...it shows you have a certain degree of self-love.
I have never been attracted to a man based on his income or social status. I have been in relationships with perceived admired social status; all of whom earn a ridiculously high income, but I was drawn to their honesty, kindness, and compassion.
The majority ended up hiding bloated egos from me, but once exposed, I left. I left because I love myself too much too love a man anything less than what I deem love worthy.
If you do not show me, and the world, loving kindness, you're just a man with high earnings. I'm not impressed.
I bond, and fall for, a loving, kind, awakened, honest, trusting, compassionate man. I do not care to own a debit card. I have my own.
Now, if he is all of the above and really fucking dirty, depraved, dark, passionate, and intense......he's Mine! |
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I am here to teach you all patience because that is what you will need to exhibit when writing me.
For every 1 message I reply to, 10 messages I receive. |
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Getting licked for hours while he's in chastity....you just can't buy that kind of fun!
Oh wait. I think you can. I think I saw a girl from Ohio on here selling just that sort of thing.
Anyway. Twas a good night indeed. |
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Oh no I forgot to hide my profile again and am looking at pages of messages.
The reason why I keep leaving here is that it all just becomes so damn depressing. A constant ominous dark cloud covers this joint and I am not interested in being awash in the sea of lost souls.
The messages I receive are mostly full of despair and sadness. The journals are chock-a-block full of vicious attacks on the character of others and even the forums are jammed with angry people spewing insults at one another.
Why do I come back? Well there are a few that I enjoy. It's just that the balance usually tilts more in the negative direction.
I did meet my slave here and so I suppose CM can work. Sometimes.
Will I stay long? No. CM will always be a haven for the sad, the angry, the vindictive, and the selfish and though I can feel compassion for those people, I refuse to get caught up in the toxicity of it all.
Think of me like that relative that lives over seas that you get a phone call from on the holidays to say hello, how have you been? So and so got married? How's work? I love you. |
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I hope everyone is experiencing a great year so far.
Before the "are you looking for a sub" letters arrive...
No, I am not. I am still insanely in love and love to me means forever.
I hope you all are also insanely in love thus being tortured by the woman/man that owns your heart....mind....soul....cock. |
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I was told how to close my account and so tried it with my account; it appears to have been successful.
I will be closing this account as well....it is no longer needed.
Thank you for all of the well-wishes.
I hope 2013 brings you what you need. |
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Due to the overwhelming amount of messages, I will only be replying to those received in December.
I still am to reply to messages sent in October. Yikes. |
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I am confused as to why my yahoo alerted me to incoming messages on here despite my closing this account.
I log on and indeed I must still exist according to the pages of messages, admirers and viewers.
Failed suicide attempt?
Perhaps you can fill me in as to why I closed my account yet am still kicking around this joint?
I do enjoy speaking with many of you but have just totally lost all interest in these social sites now that I am no longer single.
I have tread these parts for years actively seeking out someone with whom I could share my life with, but found nothing but men with many fake profiles looking for online masturbation. Fair enough. I admit to also playing a facade whilst yearning for the perfect one.
I'm picky. That's for sure.
He had to be honest, compassionate, kind, selfless, and very wise.
Sounds easy, right?
Wrong.
Nothing but years of horrible, dishonest, selfish, egotistical men wearing masks....men I could never love.
But if you can't beat them, join them.
I succumbed to the online fantasy game feeling empty.
Then I found him!
Honest, sweet, compassionate, very wise!
Together we laugh daily.
There are no facades...no lies....no games....
I no longer wish to partake in meaningless, emotionless, soulless, sexual fantasy now that I have the most beautiful man in the world.
I know I am getting sappy. Bah
Don't ever settle for unkind, uncaring, and heartless. Oh it sure makes for great fantasy though.
Btw: nobody said anything about not being merciless...I still love merciless :)
Hope you understand :) |
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I didn't really want to leave a generic journal entry in which I left holiday greetings for all because I truly did have intention on answering messages to do so I'm a more personal manner.
Sigh
I pledge defeat; I am receiving message after message from men....all of whom I adore, but simply can not maintain conversation with in a timely fashion.
I apologize if this seems insincere with it appearing in the journal and all, but I do hope you all have a great holiday with 2013 full of copious amounts of beatings :)
If you don't hear from me for a few months, please be understanding that I am not actively looking and only come on every so often to just say hello to you all.
Happy Holidays!!!!
Hope you get gang raped :) |
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No other place than CM can I say "I'm going to use you for awhile."
No other place would I be received with "yes please!".
Not that I've tried it anywhere else. |
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Happy holidays everyone and make 2013 your best year ever! |
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Oh no I forgot to hide my profile and am now looking at PAGES of messages just from last night.
I just want to remind everyone that I am in a monogamous relationship and it will not be ending....true love to me is eternity.
I appreciate and thank you all for the kind words :) |
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I hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season thus far.
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I just glanced at my agenda until the new year and noticed that I don't really have that much time in which I will not be really alone at a computer and so it would be easier to contact me on yahoo rather than me logging on with my phone.
If you wish to speak with me the next couple of months, please contact me via yahoo.
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I will try to get back on in the next week.
I hope everyone had a fun Halloween.
Have a great weekend! |
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I have my phone beside me at work as I work on reports and though I am trying to get caught up on messages, I am still answering how my Thanksgiving was.
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So many men write me of their frustrations with their search, claiming defeat....don't give up!
I searched myself for 5 years. I have spent those years actively searching for a witty, humble, loving, egoless,funny guy but just couldn't find him. I myself gave up numerous times feeling as though he didn't exist.
Look, we've all settled for less just to feel less lonely and it can get depressing even, but don't ever give up...when you find that specialbond, and you will, it will all be worth it.
Dealing with all the losers will have you realizing just how amazing and rare
"the one" is when you find them.
One very important life lesson I took from years with the wrong people is that if you have to change who you are, play a role, lie, and game play...you need to reevaluate your life...what is missing? Why are you settling? Is it not better to be lonely than embark on a path paved in lies and fantasy?
You know you have the right person when you are yourself true and true...no lies...no games...no roles....just you!
Hope this helps :) |
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Messages are coming at a fast pace as well as back-to-back chat requests and so I would like to offer more information.
Physical attractiveness is not the be all end all...you can be a very attractive person, but I will have little respect for you if you also happen to be spiteful, mean-spirited, malicious and distrustful. If there is no respect, I will never meet you/continue with you.
If you are a 60 year old man whom happens to be kind and compassionate, wise and couteous, then you will be far more beautiful to me than the former.
I am also not interested in casual flings, but something more substantial and within a loving relationship with a very creative, strict and sadistic woman.
Hope this helps some! |
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Yes, I am open to getting to know sincere, kind, and genuine men that do travel on occasion to Toronto. |
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So....I have decided to introduce him to some forced-bi
(first time) and so would be interested in getting to know some men in the Toronto area also interested in forced-bi.
We are a very loving and caring, SANE, couple and expect you to be also :) |
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I have decided to close my account permanently....I have found a very rare love and plan to never let him free. I've never met anyone like him in my life and so am saying goodbye to CM and never looking back.
This is the one!!!!!! Yey me!!! |
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I hope everyone has a great Halloween.
I won't be answering any messages today as I am looking at a ridiculous amount. Sorry.
I hope all is well. Things are still going great with me...opening myself up to meeting new subs/slaves was a very wise decision for me....I have met the most fabulous men and am really happy as are they.
Enjoy yourself! Don't eat too much candy! |
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I just wanted to let everyone know that my relationships are still going strong and so I no longer have a desire to log on to CM.
I will not be closing down my profile, however, I do mot expect to be visiting it any time soon. |
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I will make time next week to log on and reply to more messages. |
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Just because I reject your offer of servitude and worship does not mean that you are not an awesome catch...it simply means that I just can't afford the time for any more D/s relationships. |
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Ugh forgot to hide my profile on the weekend and so logged on again to a gazillion messages.
Hopefully this will lessen the influx of letters...
-No, I am not looking for any new slaves....I have all that I want at this time and I doubt they will be going anyplace seeing as they can't stop telling me how happy/lucky they feel. Even the waiting list is really freaking long.
-No, I do not do online domination.
-How am I? I am fine. I am always fine.
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If you didn't receive a reply yet, it is because I logged on to 8 pages of messages... I'll reply to more on Monday.
Have a great weekend.
Hope you get raped. |
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I was sent pictures of a shrine made in my honor in which I initially felt was kind of fucked up....
But now....
I find it really hot, but that's me - if it's fucked up, chances are I'm going to end up more drawn to the idea. |
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Words given to me such as "beautiful", "hot", "sexy" and "gorgeous". go in one ear and out the other..
I was just told by someone that I have began to get closer with that I am both" compassionate and humble"....
I felt quite flattered and a certain joy that caused me to smile large and wide.
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I won't be logging on as often as I was now that my stable is full, but will come on from time to time.
Have a great week! |
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I suppose I should consider myself fortunate that I do not experience the negative impact that CM has provided many of the people that blog in the journals.
I have had nothing but very positive experiences with very real and amazing men. Oh sure I will receive the occasional less than positive letter, but they have no affect on me at all.
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My Yahoo has become as busy as my inbox on CM so I might as well continue talking on here.
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Have a great thanksgiving!
See you in a few days. |
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Nice guys finish first. Well, if I let them finish at all ;) |
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Ummm no need to write to tell me how you want to be mine....you want to serve me....have me dominate you....etc....etc.
If you are writing me, the above is just assumed.
Many of these messages sound the same and I'm hoping to lessen the influx of messages begging to be mine.
Also, I do not do online domination. |
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I will be hiding my profile so that I don't log on to 5 pages of messages |
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I just wanted everyone to know that I won't neon CM until next week some time.
Have a great weekend... I look forward to hearing what's new. |
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I am making progress with getting through messages by having my phone beside me as I work at a computer. With each break with work,I reply to a message. The thing is that my incoming messages match me with each message send out. |
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I do not know what teamviewer is nor do I care to learn. |
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I am going to redirect many of you to another account so that I can get a handle on with whom I am looking forward to getting to know better and those that write to say things like "hi", "how are u?", and "you're hot".
I do enjoy all of the messages in which you discuss all of your fantasies, fetishes, etc., and I really like doing those things, it's just that I need some sort of attraction first so those type of letters wont garner much attention from me.
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Ugh I forgot to hide my profile while away for the weekend and am now looking at pages of messages. |
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I just wanted to wish everyone a great weekend.
I won't be able to get to CM until next week.
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Still getting swamped with messages so it will take some time to get a reply from me.
I do appreciate all of the kind and respectful messages...there are just so many of them. |
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Though I will continue to come on CM to meet new people, please continue to get in touch with me via yahoo so that you will get a much quicker reply.
It's difficult to get to know men on here when you speak to so many people....I hate to give a short message, yet sometimes resort to that in order to get a reply sent within a couple of days.
What can I say? Many men write me; all of whom deserve a chance to get to know one another. Alright, not ALL of the men writing get a reply, but you know what I mean :) |
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It will be more convenient to talk to me on yahoo the next few days so please contact me there. |
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Expect to wait for a reply....I talk with MANY people and so do receive quite a few pages of messages. |
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Some messages sound like a total sales pitch...trying to sell me you.
I am also not down with applications...I did try a contract to see if I could get into it, but did not...not one bit.
It all seems so fake.
I sure do get many messages from wall street banker types. Ha!
If you really knew me, you would know I ain't buying if that's what you're selling.
Ask me one day of my view on wall street and the crash of the economy....ask me my opinion on occupy wall street.
Ask me about all of that and then ask me out.
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Wow I just logged on to 4 pages of messages.
I would skim the names and jump right to my favourites, but I see quite a few of those too! |
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Some of you are really beautiful writers that can definitely draw me in. Some of you are so good I swear you were put here with the sole purpose of enriching the lives of women and making our day a little better.
You have the power to make me smile with your words and so can only imagine the smile you will cause with your action.
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I receive many messages from really young guys and though that may be appealing for men to receive messages from 20 year old girls, it doesn't really work for me.
I can't get what I want from a 19 or 20 year old.
I'm sorry but my days of staying up late and doing shots are over unless it's a wedding, birthday celebration or holiday gathering. I no longer partake "just because".
I appreciate the offers to "hit up some bars", but I'm more of a dine with friends while sipping wine type of gal. |
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I am currently watching a top eighty of the eighties music video program which both awesomely nostalgic and ridiculously funny.
Some of these videos look as though it was made by Ed Wood. |
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Never thought I'd say this, but I sure am looking forward to returning to work tomorrow. |
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Often I see people complain in the journals about
receiving messages with misspelled words and terrible grammar.
That sort of thing doesn't really bother me as long as the message comes from someone showing respect and manners.
What if the person writing the message has dyslexia? Should they be ignored?
I have a yoga friend with dyslexia and it can be difficult at times to understand her tweets and texts, but she is a kind and considerate person. I did have to laugh though when she spelled "pennies" "penis".
What if English is someone's second language?
Its the ones with proper spelling telling me I have a great ass or that I'm hot that I ignore. |
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Sigh
I am not interested in doing fetish modeling.
I am not interested in doing a pay cam site.
I am not interested in doing fetish movies.
I repeat... I am here to find men for L/T D/s relationships built on trust, friendship, honesty, sincerity, lust, and desire.
I am not looking for men to casually use which I find very unfulfilling.
I will not settle for anything I deem toxic and harmful and will only surround myself with loving and stable relationships.
Oh, and I also like them really fucking dirty, but that is just the I ing on the cake so to speak.
You can't pimp me out. I'm not interested. |
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Alright I am feeling well enough to slowly inject myself into public places and so will be leaving the house now.
It was fine to be on CM when isolated in bed with nobody around to witness me on here, but now being back around people, I just don't want to be caught, so please feel free to contact me on messenger.
I will give out my name to some more of you. |
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Wow I had to hide my profile so to get caught up on answering messages..I was beginning to drown there.
I keep getting asked, and so....
I am sick in bed with West Nile Virus and so that I don't have to talk about it any more ( my vanilla world is filled with people asking about it)....
I am fine.
The first few days were quite rough, and though I'm an atheist, I am sure there was some praying happening to make that damn vomitting stop.
Btw: the only time I seem to not be an atheist is when I am vomitting with stomach flu.
Anyway...I have been in bed the past few days with an iPhone and all of you, but I am fine. I can tell I will be able to sit outside today.
Thank you all for asking. |
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Hopefully I feel well enough to leave this bed tomorrow.
I am going stir crazy. |
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Updating my likes/dislikes on my profile has me realizing the growth that has taken place within me these past 3 years.
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What does one do when faced with soooo many options?
One sits back and enjoys getting to know MANY of you.
I could do without the back-to-back chat requests, but hey.
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Waaaay too many are throwing around their money in hopes to get my attention. Cars, money, condos...these things do not have you standing out from the rest nor is it what gets my attention.
What gets my attention? I wont say because I want to know it's genuine and not just something you give me in hopes that I choose you.
Materialism and capitalism are two things that I view with disdain.
Just so you know... |
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Wow I keep getting asked for pro-sessions, or if I have a website, a Niteflirt, pay cam, and movies...
No, I am lifestyle only. I am serious.
I am seriously looking for connections.
Why is this so difficult to believe?
Haha
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To answer many of the emails I am getting...
No, I do not do pro-sessions.
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Very interesting how my profile, with pictures, is getting messages faster than I can read, admirer after admirer, and non-stop people looking at my profile.
Whereas my profile with no pictures still gets all of those things, but not nearly at the rate this profile does.
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