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After reading Lepold von sacher-masoch's book I've finally been able to see all the irony of today, and how little has changed in terms of the courting process of humans as far as gender is concerned

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1/21/2012 4:17:11 AM
Not that anyone was interested, but I'm now taken. Vanilla, but she's someone. Besides, after reading Venus in Furs, I've come to question if any of this is really that important anymore...

10/23/2011 1:47:33 AM

It has been a long time since I have last been on.

I am working out now. I never really considered myself fat, but part of serving properly is being eye candy. I doubt I could call myself that unless the person interested in me was REALLY into nerds.

 

It has been a long time since SJH left me. Her lies were my closure and her broken promises enough for me to never go back. I will still think about her, but, I stayed with her after she cheated twice and "broke up" four times. Clearly she wasn't that into me.

 

What it does show, is that I am a faithful puppy. Even after she vanished without a single trace I searched for her and stayed chaste for a whole year. Some might call it devotion. Some might say I am sick in the head. I'm going to split the middle and say I was crazy for her.

  

     I have been breaking my masturbational sleeves lately. Not on purpose. They are just breaking. Tearing apart. I believe this is less of me being well endowed as it is me using them improperly. Novelties never come with instructions, but I have been using water-based lubricants just as prescribed online on forums. I am also washing them regularly. I am still a little surprised that I'm breaking one once a month. Is anyone out there experienced in their use and able to assist in this regard?

 

    I described the problem to a sales associate who owns the sex paraphanelia shop by saying that I needed a looser one. He explained that the one I was using is a cheaper plastic-or-whatever-they-are-made-of and gave me a different one. It did last longer, but still broke. This habit is getting to be expensive and I am actually using them less and less often.

Thats right. I am losing sex drive because of money.

 

Tommorow I have to go to work. It is a volunteer position where I exhibit knowledge on a variety of subjects, along with a bit of husbandtry in the realm of undersea animals. Yeah, I volunteer at an aquarium. It is becoming less and less about animals and more and more about environmentalism. Do not get me wrong, I am concerned. However, I do not see the point: To those who are environmentalist by nature it is preaching to the quire. To those who are neutral it is an opportunity for them to practice nodding their head and pretending to care. And to those who do not care, it is an insult.

 

       Classes are going smoothly enough. I got another brilliantly stupid test score. I got all the difficult questions correct and the easy ones I missed. The teacher is a little irritated. I wish I could bring the passion I have during class and lab home so I could do my homework effectively and study. It has become such an incredibly painful drag.


2/16/2011 5:08:22 AM

Ah the joys of life.

Found a girl interesting enough for me to call her my girlfriend.

Sadly, our relationship was never founded on this lifestyle, and each day with her I feel us growing distant for this very reason. She hardley ever speaks how she used to, about how she wanted to kidnap me and take me away to a faraway land where we would enjoy one another's body in seemingly endless bliss...

 

It's become dull, despite all attempts to invigorate provoking thought...

 

I was diagnosed with clinical depression, put on meds, and then against doctor's orders decided to cease the medication due to weight gain related to the meds. After a week of psychadelic withdrawl syndromes I've begun to lose weight to an appropriate level. I don't think well of myself, but from all sources it's "Not fat, just belly."

Politeness should be outlawed in such inquiries.

 

I've come to accept, slowly, that Sarah is gone. A six year relationship that ends in sudden loss like that isn't good for the mind. But I'm still as lighthearted and playful as before.

 

 


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lynnsmith
 
 Age: 22
 San diego, California