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	I WILL BE GIVING THIS SITE ONLY ONE MORE MONTH OF MY LIFE. (I have so many messages in my mail box, and only a couple have really understood this profile. I am tired of seeing the same crowd I have known for years come in here and drool the same lines that had bored me earlier.) *I am not looking for marriage and love. Please. I am looking to be just a slave.* I have been in this site since 2006. I have submitted in all seriousness to two Dominants with whom I could not have 24/7 training. They also did not take me very seriously. They were playing musical chairs and I lost my chance to be the one left last on the only chair left in their game by the end of it all. So, I am mostly self-taught no- limits slave. 2010 was introspective. I looked into myself. A deep soul-searching. I was submerged in self examination. I almost drowned. The past in me took over and churned within me innumerable emotions. I was left drained. Hurt. Pained. I learned the real meaning of abject misery. It was debasing, degrading and left me miserable. I hit the lowest of lows and after hard work on myself, within my head, I emerged happier than I have ever been. I am now elevated to a higher plain I never thought I would be in, ever. So I am happy I went through the year of misery. (Not complaining. smiles Just stating facts.) I hit on the truth of who I really am. Where I am going wrong. And which path to take towards sunshine, happiness and peace as I age. I am now rapturously excited and looking forward to experiencing a great present which I am sure will result in a happier future. Yes. I reiterate, I am happier than I have ever been. Laughter has sprung back into my voice like that of a child's. Pure. Untouched by the evil of the adult world. Yet here I am, an adult. An aging adult. I am soon going to touch 46. At 46 I know I am really a slave, with no limits. And also have no rights to ask for a release. *I am not slave material to anyone who thinks he/she is dominant. Sorry.* I am subservient to the one who is superior to me in all ways. Why should I ever settle for less? I like people who have it in them to acknowledge their faults and face it for what it is. I love intelligence. I cannot be with people who cannot read beyond BDSM psychology, BDSM literature and limit themselves to the chats and porn in the internet world. BDSM is NOT SCIENCE. BDSM is not even a lifestyle, according to me. It is just the way I am. I relate to subservience. I seek a Dominant. The ones who understands what I mean when I say this, will be the ones to whom I shall respond to, in here. Are you a man/woman of science? Only then contact me. For I am offering myself for dangerous sexual games - edge play. It is very important that we know the human body well and also how it functions. I would prefer not to end up dead in your arms. grins Edge play according to me: Tap on me death, Make me dizzy - Make me faint - Let darkness swallow me. Feel me. Touch me. And let me wake up to see your eyes looking deep into mine - Knowing I trusted you with my life. You could have killed me. Still, here I am, so, so alive. I am real. Hence, I am not very easy to get. I know you will test me. I will test you too. I will not meekly crawl to you and bleat: Master! Master! Sorry. Let the game begin. The winner gets me kneeling in front of him/her. If you are the loser, you still stand tall. For you will move on to get another. The loss will be mine, and mine alone for not finding my dream Dominant. An important note: I might be a slave sexually. However, in my daily life, I am an extremely independent, educated and talented woman who can live without you. To the right Dominant I intend to sell myself with no opening to escape being his/her slave until death, for better or for worse. NO MARRIAGE. Just an eternity collar. smiles Kinks: I have only one. Your kinks become my kinks if I am able to connect to you. On my own, I have no kinks. I am a very normal person, who took nearly five years to get in touch with her deviant side to be able to understand what are her kinks. I love to relate to a deviant Dominant's kinks. This is my kink. Very dangerous. As I don't know what it is to be. grins A warning: I am not easy. You will need to be able to control me in any kind of situation. Even if I go raving mad. Looks at you steadily Indulging in dark fantasies is not a joke. If you do not have the strength to face madness with cool, control it and bring the situation back to normal, you do not have the right to be a player in here and call yourself a deviant/kinked Dominant. You could cause serious mental damage. I will submit only after two years of interaction. So, please do not come in here calling me a slut or slave and ordering me to chat with you whenever you have the time or the inclination. I will respond to only polite and extremely educated Dominants. I prefer them to be creative. For exploring dark fantasies is all about being creative too. Honest information: I do not jump from bed to bed. Been a celibate for a year now. I can continue to live like this forever if I do not get the right Dominant. I am not sexually frustrated at all or in a hurry to find anyone. Please read, and reread my profile before approaching me even for a short chat. I really do not have the time or inclination to entertain useless losers who seem to have all the time in the world to hang in here for hours and hours. Are you still reading? Thank you.

2/19/2011 12:09:13 AM

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2/19/2011 9:01:25 AM [Report Entry

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To start with, I am not interested in how someone looks. I am more interested in how someone talks.

I am not even impressed if you give me a long resume of all that you are and do. I wait, watch and listen.

I am not bothered about your money. It will be understood from day one that you will not touch my money and I don't need to touch yours. So how rich or poor you are does not matter to me. I am ok with brainy people who have done nothing much in their career. Not all who are brainy become billionaires.

It takes more than just brains to make money.

Now looks, your resume of achievements and money are out of communication to start with.

Keep this in mind when communicating with me, please.

*smiles*

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