Dear god, Ralph Waldo Emerson!! Really?? An insufferable 19th Century fantasist whose 'philosophy' is at best contradictory and at worst of no possible value to real life! You'll be telling me that George Bush Junior was a 'great man' next!  

Please... is there at least one sub on here who isn't a game player!! Okay, okay, that's harsh I know several wonderful subs/slaves on here who aren't. But they really are the exception it seems.

Some days there really is nothing quite so sweet as to bless someone's mail with the gift of 'Delete Unread'. It really isn't me... it's you.

Today my feelings can best be expressed by the word 'Grump!' I would like the happy, cheeky, playful me back please... who took him and why?

So its late at night, I see someone up and about on the site so figure it would be great to chat and maybe get to make a new friend... what on earth was I thinking!! Of course any contact must be because I am a rabid sex beast who only wants one thing and one thing only!! Jeese!! A responding mail (to my innocuous jokey contact) that is, at best, passive aggressive verging on the Top!! Get over yourself woman! Why do I only have this problem with female subs of a 'certain age'!? Do they turn the humour tap off when you hit 50? Contrary to popular, ignorant, stereotype there are a fair few people on here that don't want to speak to you because they want to 'shag' you.

Mmmmmmmm! Bruckner No 8. gorgeous!!

I always wonder, when I see the same names constantly appearing on the list of profiles, whether they are in conversation with someone or just regularly hitting the 'Home' button in the vain hope that someone they know, like, or who vaguely interests them will appear!! 

so let me see if I've got this right... you send me money and I do nothing?! Damn this financial Domme stuff sounds like fun!! I wonder if the current government has thought about using this as a way of filling the financial hole (ooops... did you see what I did there tehehe!!)

Was chatting the other day to a sub, seemed to be getting on fine, having a laugh as well as talking seriously. Anyway the chat ended abruptly as she disappeared... minutes later her account has been deleted!!! Crikey I know I am an acquired taste but really?!

I'm done. I'm out of here. A sub asking 'What do you have to offer?' The straw that broke the proverbial back!!

I sound like a grumpy old git... So... talking to subs: If we talk and you decide you don't want to continue talking then at least have the manners to tell me. Don't just read a mail then never get back to me. Where have the manners gone on this site... subs nowadays grumble grumble grumble!!! 

OK!! I can understand that you don't want to put your address in your profile... but putting yourself down for my home town when in reality you live 400 f*****g miles away!!! And you started off by saying that honesty is what you value... after all this time WHY do I still get surprised by this s**t?!

Just got a lovely mail from a seriously classy Domme from the US. lol... always a joy.

"I want someone who instinctively knows who I am, and can see into my soul"

WTF!! How boring is that? For the record I want someone '...complicated, x-rated,  I want someone bad!!' I want to have to think! I want to be kept amused. I want to want to keep on finding out about you, layer after layer!! If you think you know me you ain't trying...lazy thinking equals a lazy partner!

"sorry but i use my head in here not just my heart... i have been that stupid in the past and sorry but your not a woman huni ... and have a very blinkered view too trust me..."

Where to start!!!!???

All this based on a very short paragraph where I tried to encapsulate a painful relationship breakup! I think I am going to have to start asking that prospective subs have at least attended some form of counselling... at least so that they can separate out their own baggage and be able to ask for clarity on something that was said rather than immediately seeing someone else's story as a replaying of their own... Transference people... transference!!!

And the hardest thing is not buying into the counter-transference... and therefore having to walk away rather than say something.... grrr...grumble... grrr!

Oh dear... just seen my first sub asking for a 'Christian Grey character'!! *holds head in hands* (no NOT that head... get your mind out of the gutter!)

ooooo I've been subject to a 'hit-and-block'!!! I sent a mail toa subbie asking her for more information on her submission because aspects of it sounded more like 'topping' or 'Domming' to me; I was polite terms of course, just looking to make conversation. And I got back a defensive snarl and was told that I did not appreciate the subtleties of sexuality blah blah!! And was blocked.!! The cheek of it!! 20 years old, just starting in the lifestyle and not only can she not handle a polite request for more information but she thinks she knows all about 'subtlety'. There are plenty of 20 year old subbies and Dommes out there who do... but she is not one of them!!

Oh well, can't complain, I was that arrogant at that age too... thank heavens for that first experience with a Domme... hehehe... at least know I know I am arrogant, and indeed know how to do it properly!    

bored, bored, bored, bored, bored

Hmmm... soooo many Dommes on here offering worn underclothes for money. I wonder if there is a market for Doms as well? So if any of you want some of my used undies do drop me a line...  

Watching University Challenge. I love University Challenge. I have a University challenge specially for subs who think they're are smart. Guess what? Ouchy!! 

Circumstances changed a few weeks ago. Not looking but willing to chat. lol that's a fracking joke... cos how many people on here actually care about conversation!!

"You're so bossy!!"

Hmm methinks the point has been missed. Bless!!

Hmmm! I have the pleasure to 'daddy' a wonderful baby girl. She makes my soul flame, my heart burn, and my other bits and pieces do similar, cliched, stuff.  She however is not a cliche, she is complex, annoying, inspiring and makes me laugh so hard I fear serious long term injury. She also has access to a never ending supply of chocolate so I will soon be a fat daddy lol. Discipline, discipline, discipline... proabaly the sexiest word in the english language!! 

baby girl is poorly. I cannot be there to make her better. I fear it was my fault. Being the responsible adult can be hard.

She bewitches me... her laugh, her smile. Her charm and youth. She is my baby girl, she knows who she is... and I am in love with her. lol... who'd a thunk it!!

A week until I see her again.. and we must be quiet and vanilla... sounds like a perfect opportunity to play with gags... or gagging mwahahahaha

"let me introduce you to my belt".

The look on your face was reward enough... what followed was just pure indulgent bliss. 

And now? Well we have a target to aim for :) "Giraffe, giraffe, girafe"

lol... things to remember:

• shameful neck nibbling at the underground station
• radishing!!
• the sofa
• I've broken you... oh dear!!
• £5 notes
• fingers
• very sore hands.

Things to improve:

• More practice with standing up ;)
• 'not vocalising the internal narrative'
• more time, more time, more time

Notes to self:

• Lego
• funny chinese toys
• Pingu
• Transformers

*smiles* She is special... and I don't mean in a seperate class at school kinda way... and I must be patient and wait for her. But Daddy is not patient, Daddy wants NOW!! lol... oh babe we are going to go to so many places together.

But then again... Bing!! So special and yet so early and fragile. I am excited like a teenager again, I never thought it possible. This time though no teenage mistakes... or maybe fewer lol

Not to be! Shame.  She is special.  Good luck Bing.

I had despaired... last night my intelligence was challenged by a sub because of my comments about that wedding!! Honestly there are people who really cannot exist outside of a literal reality! FFS look up the word 'hyperbole'!! And if you are going to call me on intelligence then at least make sure you know the difference between 'there' and  'their'.

 Fortunately there is someone a bit special who has engaged my attention... hmmm... early days, early days. :)

I am shocked... looking at so many people's journal entries they really buy into the royal wedding crap. Am I the only one who finds the whole event distasteful and insulting. 15 of my friends have lost jobs in the past six months (nurses, teachers, health workers)... many of them may lose their houses. All that money spent on the wedding!! Their jobs gone so the royals can celebrate. I want to be a free citizen, not a subject! 

*deep breath out* I was quietly optimistic when I first joined the site but I am feeling that slowly drip away. A couple of promising possibilities developed... mails were exchanged... things looking good, and then? Suffice to say a lot of frustration and effort could have been avoided if profiles were more accurate about likes/dislikes e.g. length of hair, political opinion, mental instability, lack of sense of humour, complete superficiality!!!!  Oh well! Another day another backside to spank.