I've been spending time in chat here on C.M. "Meeting" nice folks there and I enjoy telling Master all about it at night. "Are they treating you well?" he asks me. "Yes Master. Everyone is very nice and no one disrespects me." Then he questions me, "Are you being respectful?" I have to think a bit more on that before I answer, "I believe I am Master. No one has complained about me and I haven't had to apologize to make anything better."
I love that he thinks about how I am treated or how I represent him with a thing as trivial as a chat room. I suppose it is an extension of who he is, he is the same no matter if it is online or in person or on a phone.
I'm so damn lucky. *smiles*
UPDATE (sept 2011):
Ya know, I stopped going into the chat room not long after this post. Believe it or not I talked on topic about safety in play and playing with new folks. I used my own life experience in this. Unfortunately it was a BAD experience. I never mentioned any names or state/locations or any other identifying information. I only mentioned how I had made a poor choice and the physical damage that was a result of that choice. I typed/talked about the "master" in so far as what he did that caused the damage and other things now that, looking back, were flags I should have paid attention to (but didn't).
SURPRISE
I got attacked (verbally of course lol) by a dom...who took exception to me "bad mouthing" someone on this site. What a pain.. ugh. Unfortunately at the time I got really upset (surprised me because usually I keep in perspective the amount of "give ah crap" I allow myself to feel about folks). I also had another sub/slave take exception to me talking about "bad experiences." That surprised the crap out of me. "I don't like hearing about bad stuff," she says in the room. If I hadn't been so upset over the verbal attacks that had turned distinctly personal in nature I would have had the clarity of mind to respond to her opinion.
Why the hell, as a new (and totally online as yet) sub/slave wouldn't you want to know the bad that CAN happen. The injuries that can result from certain bondage when done WRONG? Why wouldn't you want to take into account the truth about this lifestyle?
Truth:
The majority of folks on/in the lifestyle present themselves as people full of experience, maturity and sanity (LOL).
Further Truth:
The majority of the above folks are either A. Lying outright or B. think more highly of their skills, maturity and sanity than they should.
It's up to us (all of us) to take a real hard look at ourselves and each other and evaluate what we think the level of those 3 things actually are and proceed through our and others lives with that truth before us. PREACHY PREACHY yea yea.. I know. Probably a run on sentence .. or two... in this little sermon as well.
I'm not uber experienced. There are areas in my mind that struggle with being a slave. I know it's what I am but I'm still trying to make it second nature. I WANT it to happen when I'm not thinking about it. I want my FIRST choice to be the choice that I think a slave should make. Work in progress. My master is awesome but he's not perfect and he'll be the first to tell you that. But compare him to ... everyone I've ever met in person and I'll choose him and his level of maturity, skill and sanity and place it at the top of the pile.
meh... I won't go on. lol If you've read this entire thing.. wow.. just.. wow. lol If you want to talk further, feel free to send a message. If you're rude though.. I won't respond. Differing opinions do NOT mean you're rude. lol
Have a good'in y'all