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Bitches be turning their noses up at me for decades |
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in one month I shall withdraw my mambership to collarme. this whole thing has been one big bust. I'm giving it a month so that anyone interested can say good bye |
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I got an email from someone yesterday, she gave me some advice. A point if view I hadn't considered. In light of that I'm going to be revamping my profile somewhat. Perhaps it will generate more interest from local submissives than my current profile does |
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Okay so some people do connct on this site, several have emailed me to tell me so. But that doesn't change the fact that none of the women I've writtin to have shown any interest in me, yes I know there is a big age difference, me being middle aged and all. But I want what I want. I will not "settle" for what I can get. I need to enjoy this kind of play, If I don't enjoy it than why bother....even some of the rather snooty women on line here |
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question...does anyone EVER connect with anyone on this site?I've been coming here for about 2 years and NOTHING |
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Have you ever clicked on the "who's veiwing me" button, saw who was viewing you and went "GAAAAAAAAAAAAH" in a starled voice that made the neighbors think you were being attacked by a rottweiler? That just happened to me |
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I am sooooo tired of women who come on this site who "are only looking for friends" I'm also tired of women who say " no men no men no men" and of women who say "happily collared" |
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most of the women on this site are looking for other women, and they are pretty bitchy about how they express the fact that men are not desired, fine... I get it. but just consider, you just might be missing out on meeting a dominant that can really fulfill your needs and desires. |
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I really wish this site filtered out all the women who are looking for other women, I mean they have a perfect right to do so I just wish there was a seperate place on collarme for them to do that. That way it wouldn't waste me time sifting through all the "no men no men no men" ads that make me feel as wanted as another 8 years of a republican presidentcy. And women who want women wouldn't be deluged with men trying to convince them to try something they don't want. That's what I wish. |
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I want to write a quick remeberance while it is fresh in my brain. Her name was Kelly Smith, she was stunning. A vision of kindness with sympathetic eyes. At least thats how I remember her. It's been 30 plus years since we've seen eack other, I'm looking for her though, perhaps I'll catch a clue to her whereabouts on facebook or myspace... who knows.
It was brought to my attention in a blunt and unflattering way that my vidio intro was weighed in the balance and found wanting, so I've removed it. I put a newer photo on me for all to see. yes that's me. I'm still looking for a young (under 35) woman who lives in the bay area, preferably in the south bay (Between Palo Alto and Morgan Hill) Although I would go as far North as SF or Berkley for a woman I thought was worth the journey. The limitations I've put in this entry may leave some readers to say "who the hell does this guy think he is, he should be happy that ANY woman pays attention to him". Well all I can say is...I want what I want. I like what I like. If I"settle" eventualy I would become resentful and make us both miserable. So there it is. I invite women 35 and under to come and play with me. Plus I've worked damn hard to get in shape, I demand no less from you. |
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if shallow younf things want to reject me, fine, but I deserve more than an abrieviated "no thanks" I mean "no thks"? whats that? I didn't even express real intrest in the person in question I just asked in what part of California she lived. |
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I was gonna write more of my year in review much sooner than this but the holidays got in the way as they are want to do. I was talking about my attempt at weight loss last year. well I did lose quite abit of weight , 40 pounds or so, I still have about 30 to go but I'm still plugging away, I work out three or four times a week. Walking an average of 24 to 30 miles a week. Also I do alot of sit ups. But That was last year. This year I have more goals. I want to learn a forgien toungue. Something to keep my brain active. My body has been more active it seems only right to make sure the same can be said for my brain.
I want a sbmissive woman. But most of the subs on this site turn their noses waaaayy up at me. I want a young woman. One that I am atracked to, I've comprimised so much in my life to the point where I have never had want I wanted, just settled for what I could get. Well, this is one area where I refuse to compromise. I want what I want period! It's not as if it would only be a one way street I'm doing my level best to improve myself. But I don't really thing\k anyone even reads what I write so I am as a voice crying in the wilderness.....Ah well
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YEAR IN REVIEW THE 2ND PART
now where was I when I left off, Ah yes. I had decided to try to see if a young subimissive in Berkley would be interested in me. I wrote to her and to my surprise she wrote back. I thought that maybe, just maybe, there might be someone who would want to explore her submissive side with me as the Dominant, we did exchange a few emails but she was never all that into me and once again I got my hopes up only to have them crash to the ground. It was around this time I got on a scale...In December of 2007 I wieghed 283lbs...wow...I had passed "overwieght" about 30 lbs ago and was now just plain fat. This could not be allowed to continue. The first thing I did was to give up soda, for almost a year now I've only drank water. The next thing I did was to start to walk. I had friends who told me to my face that I would never stick to it, but I did. And I will tell you more about that the next time I write
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This is the first part of my "year in review" entry, I know it's only November, but it's almost December and I won't finish this tonight so here goes. I was away from Collarme for a long time. Then Last year in December I got a an email from someone saying they wanted to start a co-respondence and see where it led. I thought the photo above the letter was very attractive so I said yeah, I found out later that I was mistaken and the photo belonged to someone else. The woman who wrote to melived in Los Angeles and I'm 300 miles north in Sunnyvale Ca. The woman in the photo lived in Berkley, much closer to me, so I thought I'd see if see might be interested. I explianed to the lady from LA that I didn't want anyone relocating on the off chance that we'd hit it off, just as I wouldn't relocated anyone else. She Got all pissed off at me and told me where to go. I'll let you know about the woman from Berkley in the next exciting installment of...YEAR IN REVIEWWWWWWW |
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Well here it is, my "new look" basicly it's a shaved head and a goatee. But I have lost 45lbs in the interm. I still think it is the height of rudeness for women to delete my letters without even reading them. If someone takes the time to write the least you could do is to read the letter. I'm looking for someone I'm attracted to, and there is nothing wrong with that. I've worked very very hard to get even this far in my weight loss. And who do you think I'm doing it for?...Myself? HA! But I won't be a hypocrite, If I want someone attractive thwn I should do what I can to have as physically a body as I can. That's why I'm running 6.5 bloody miles a bloody day. I want what I want, Read my profile, if you're in the general SF bay area, write me, unlike most of you women, I'll write back. If only to say " No Thank you" |
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It's been awhile since I've been here. I've hit a platau as far as the weight loss is conserned, I weigh about 232... alot less than the 280 I weighed a year ago, but more than I want to weigh. I bought a device called a "bodybug" it's sort of a high tech pedometer. Tells how many calories I've burned up during the day as well as how many steps I've taken and when I was most active during the day. I jogged 6.25 miles on the eliptical today and did 300 situps, and lifted weights. You'd think I'd be further along than I am. Most women I write to still don't write back. Not even a "No thanks". The photo Is out of date now, I've shaved my head and grown a goatee |
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I got on the scale today and weighed on at 241lbs, I don't know what that is in km's maybe someone can tell me. I got a new job, I'm a certified massage therapist. I work in Fremont, Ca. I think that perhaps the reason I'm dominant is becase as a massage therapist I have to be somewhat subservient, mostly to women. with regard to weight loss, I have micro-goals, mini-goals and an over all goal. My micro-goal is to burn up 1,000 calories when I go to the the gym and excersize, my mini-goal is the be at 238lbs by the 4th of july, I'll get back to you all about how I do on that one. And my over all goal is to get down to 210lbs by Christmas, altho I have a friend who told me that if I could get to 200lbs or less by Christmas he'd give me 400 dollars. Well it's worth a shot. Write if you've a mind to. I'll write back around the 4th |
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Just an addendum to my last entry, in all the time I've been comming to this site, Not one woman has ever invited me to chat with them...not one. And the women I've invited to chat with me....? Maybe 2 have accepted my invitation. Maybe being a woman in this soceity isn't easy, but it's not much better for us men in alot of ways. |
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It's been a month since my last rant. So this is an update of sorts for those of you keeping score. I'm still losing weight, I'm down to 253lbs, that's just over 25lbs in four months. It's nothing to sneeze at but I'm not gonna let up on myself until I reach my goal of 210lbs,still it is encouaging to have dropped 12lbs in one month.
On the other hand I still can't seem to get women to write me back. The last couple of times I wrote to a woman the email was deleted without even being read, now come on ladies how can I prove myself if you won't even give me a chance?
Most of the women on this site are in southern California, then there are the ones that only want to meet other women, then the ones who don't want a man over 40... ect. ect. The fact that I keep checking out this site must be evidence of some sort of perpetual optimisim |
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Well,there's news on the weight loss front. I'm down to 265lbs as of today. I weighted myself right after I worked out. My workout consists of walking for one hour at 3.2 miles per hour( I increase the speed by .1 every week) then about 15 minutes of abdominal excersises , then 25 minutes on the stationary bike. I'm still a walrus but at least I'm a smaller walrus...maybe a manitee. I wish I could talk about more than my weight loss, like all the women I've been in conyact with through this site but that would be a big whopping lie. You see, most of the women I contact don't even have the courtisie to write back even to say "no thank you and don't write to me agian" I'd respect,that I really would. So come on ladies if I write...write back |
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It's been a busy week all round...Sunday was plam Sunday....Monday was St Patrick's Day...Thursday was the first day on spring...Today is good Friday and Sunday is Easter. Lots going on all right. I'm still doing my radio show on 91.5fm on sundays mornings from 3am till 7am in case anyones is up and can get it. I've walked 12 miles so far this week And I'll walk 3 more miles tomorrow. I've olny lost about 10 pounds since January though I was hoping to have gone below the 270lbs mark by now but I'm still hovering at around 272lbs...damn. Nothing to do but keep plugging away. I'm in the south bay around san jose california area. anyone is welcome to write me. I'll answer all who do. |
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It's been a couple of weeks now so I think it's time for another journal entry, or rant as the case may be. Over the past couple of weeks more than one woman (nominaly submissive I might add) has made comment about my poor spelling so let me address this. I have dyslexia. The synapes's in my brain don't work right, I mix up letters all the time and can't remember how certain words are spelled. When I was a child, way back when all TV shows were in black and white and you had to get your lazy ass out of the chair the change the channel, Dyslexia didn't exist. Well, it did they just called it by a different name, I was "stupid" or "slow" or "dim-witted". Now they have a name for my brand of stupidity...Dyslexia! Now I'm not asking anyone to feel sorry for me or to say "Oh woe is me" I'm dealing with it as best I can but if you see a word that isn't spelled right... well as the right-wing-bigoted-indian hateing Andrew Jackson once said when an aid pointed out all the mis-spelled words in one of his speeches, "it takes a very poor sort of brain not to think of at least two ways to spell any one word" |
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Checked my wieght the other day, I lost a whopping three pounds. Now I only have 80 pounds to lose instead of 83. If I can keep this up by Chirstmas of 2008 I'll be down to 250 pounds. I'll be down the the size of a small house instead of the large eststate I'm at now |
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Greetings, I joined Collarme about a year ago and didn't do much with it until I got an email from a woman who wanted to meet me. It turns out she lived too far away but I started comming back here and pursued a certain submissive who shall remain nameless. Long story short in the last month I've been spurned, insulted, ingored, neglected, and rejected. I'm throwing in the towel. The only women who have been kind to me have already been collared. However to those few who said they enjoyed reading my journal entries I shall make an appearence every few weeks to edit it.
Mind you, I'm not whinning, I have plenty to do. A massage practice to build, a languidge to teach myself, and weight to lose. I'm sure tht will take up alot of time. So if You'll excuse me I have money to earn, a languidge to learn, and calories to burn. Have any kind of life you want |
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Thank you to those who have read my entries and saw fit to respond. It's nice to know someone is actualy reading what I write. I'm on the air tomorrow ar rather Sunday morning from 3am(yikes thats early) till 7am on KKUP radio 91.5fm thats in the SF bay area but only from Palo Alto to about Monterey but if you're up and can hear me why not give a listen and maybe give a call |
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Does anyone eles here not like the way the collarme chatrooms work? I sure don't, seems to me we should be able to know more about the person we're talking to. Of course alot of the information would probably be lies.. but still, things could be done abit better in my opinion. |
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Hello to all who care to read this
An interesting thing happened at my work today. Let me preface this by saying I'm open about being a Dom to anyone asks, one person at work asked, I told the truth. Now everyone knows. Including a Muslim female who takes a very dim view of this lifestyle. She says to me lunch today "you know, In Islam men treat women with respect, not like in this BDSM you like so much".... very long pause on my part as I'm thinking "you have GOT to be kidding me". But she was in ernest. All I could do was shake my head. There is none so blind as they that will not see. Lets talk about it |
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It's been a couple of day's sence my last entry so here it is. I've been walking for at least an hour and I've cut anything that contains high fructous cornsyrup out of my diet. Hopefully that might make some difference in both my health and appreance. But let's face facts here in "'Merka" apperance is far more importaint than health. If there was a drug that kept you thin and youthful in apperance but garaunteed that you'd be dead by, let's say 45, what do you bet people would be breaking down the door to get ahold of it. Let's talk about it. |
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well I did get some reponce to my journal entries, nice to know someone is taking the time to read them. I also have a radio show, if your in the south bay, San Jose area to Monterey area ,tune in to KKUP 91.5 FM on most Sunday mornings between 3am and 7am..(not the 3rd sunday, Im off that weekend) thats right I said AM early early morning and you might get a real surprise as to the content of my radio show |
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being a man is not such an easy thing in the 21st century. Well ,being a man was never an easy thing really, I should have said simply being male is a challenge. Just look at the ads from submissive women, most of them state up front that they are already collared, most of the rest tell me they aren't looking for men at all. If they are looking for men then men have to be in shape ( look at my photo you can see I'm not) One begins to get a sence of hoplessness in finding a sub. I've known for a while now that men are a glut on the market so to speak. The fact that I keep trying must say something about an inner optomisim. Comments to my journal are always welcome, kets me know if anyones out there |
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By the way, I'm a massage therapist, and a an good one too. I have a client who flies in from Hong Kong for one of my 1 and a half hour massages. It's something to think about when considering what I have to offer |
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Question, when does persitance become obsession? i'm know where near that but it has been on my mind of late. I've been considering writing back to a woman who has already said "no thank you" to me. It's been a couple of days now I think I've observed the proprioties but I'm not sure. I realize that many people feel that a dominant should always be decisive and never second guess himself, but I say "to hell with that bullcrap" I want to chat with this lady, but I don't want to antagonize her by coming on too strong. That can happen even in BDSM, I know when I was a beginer I did just that and lost the opporuinity of getting to know a wonderful submissive. anyway I know I'm going to write to her again but if anyone sees this entry and wants to give advice I'm willing to listen |
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I keep writing to ladies and they keep ignoring me. Except for one woman who at least had the good manners to write back at least to say "no thanks" and bless ya for that darlin'.And I know there are women who had been viewing my profile becase it's being recorded as to who been viewing me.
The thing to realize it this. Yes , I'm into BDSM if I wasn't I wouldn't be here and neither would you for that matter. But BDSM is not the be all and end all of my life. I have the hopes the loves the desires of anyone eles. I'm interested in the theater, photograghy, the enviroment, somewhat politicly active, very politicly incorrect. I want to learn more in my life. Learn a foreigen tougue. and yes even spritual matters interest me. In short I am a fully cognesent carbon based like form and frankly I'm a damn good dominant. I could guide any sweet lil submissive along the BDSM path with safety and trust. More at another time |
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what do I have to do to get ladies to answer when I invite them to chat? Its just Chatting, you know, talking about this and that. Honestly If you don't wanna meet with me I'm not gonna pressure you into doing it. I believe in reciprocation. negotiation. respecting limits. BDSM is about growth, or it sould be anyway. I've NEVER had a woman take me up on an invite to chat with me. Doesn't do alot for the self confidence I can tell you
So ladies, if you could do me a favor accept my invite just to say "thanks anyway" answer my messeges just to say "no thank you" don't just leave me hanging and ingore me
thank you for your time
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how to begin... assuming anyone reads this, howdy! I can only assume that I'm talking to myself as very very few people have even looked at my profile and I've been a member forabout three weeks now. I don't mean to be all pissy and moany about this but it's like I'm invisable overhere. Howsabout a nice young subby gettin' intouch and saying "hi"? I'm basicly a good man get to know me and you'll find that out |
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