I thought I should expound on myself more.  Yes I've said in my profile that I'm strict but caring.  I will be your best friend one minute, and then have you whimpering and shaking at my feet the next.  I've been told I have a bit of a sadistic streak in me, and that may be true.  I do love reactions and whatever it takes to get the reactions I love, then that is probably what I will do.  I will not set out to intentionally hurt my submissive, after all he trusted me with his well being.  I will give you a safe word if you want it.  I may hurt you to a point, but I will care for you afterwards.  If you are looking to be tied up or caged when not in use, then please look else where.  I have a real life, not a fantasy one, so you have to be realistic.  I will enjoy doing vanilla things with my submissive, but he will always know his place with me regardless of where we are at or who we are around.  If you live in another state or over 50 miles from me, that's fine, don't let that stop you from talking to me, but if you eventually ask for my ownership and are not willing to relocate to me, then please look elsewhere.

I've given a lot of thought to this.  I thoroughly enjoy breast play.  Bringing my sub to tears and then have him suckle at my breasts is a turn on for me.  Or to have him suckle on a daily basis is a turn on as well.  I have a sadistic streak in me, but I'm also loving and nurturing as well.  The bond that could be formed by this is deep and I would love to have it.

You know I really shouldn't be surprise anymore about how people are in general, especially in this lifestyle.  But for someone to lie straight to your face is like a slap in the face.  I just don't understand why it is so hard for people to tell the truth.

Tell Me what scares you the most? Is it being in a dark closet for hours without seeing Me? Whatever your fear is, I will use it for My pleasure and you will thank Me for it.

Just to clarify things, things did not work out with the submissive I was talking to.  It came as no surprise to Me.  Maybe one day I'll actually find someone that is honest and would really want a LT FLR with total power exchange.

Well I might have found the submissive for Me.  I have taken sub1boy4use under consideration and so far everything is going good.  If things continue to go well, I will be collaring him soon.  So far he has pleased me.  We will see what the future holds.

I sit here and wonder why I keep looking for this type of lifestyle.  I know there is a lot of fakes, players, and money grubbers on both sides of the fence.  I just don't understand why it is hard for someone to just admit that all they want to do is play, nothing more or nothing less.  Why go through the whole bs about a "serious" sub/slave when you're truely not?  I'm all in for the "play" side of this type of relationship but "play" is not all that I am looking for.  And it just dumbfounds me that no one really wants to get to know the other person.  How in the world are you supposed to form any kind of relationship with anyone if you don't get to know the person outside of the BDSM? 

Just read something off another profile that said "Distance should not be an issue if our interests are the same."  I would agree with that.  It is hard to find anyone that is serious about this lifestyle so if you do find someone that truely wants to live in a long term female led relationship, then the distance that are between you can be over come.

My chat request does not work in here so do not take offense if I decline your chat request.

Really, I give up on all this bullshit that people like to play.  Damn if all you're wanting is to fucking play around for an hour or whatever, just fucking say so.  Don't freaking lie to Me while you're sitting there fucking jacking off like a fucking loser. 

Its been a little while since I've posted anything. I have broaden My search but still have yet to find an honest true submissive.  I know its hard on both sides of the fence to find honest people that really want to live the lifestyle but this is getting ridiculous. Honesty and sincereity escapes people now a days and it is getting very frustrating. I'm about to give up and say fuck it all. This shit isn't worth it.

Ok so I thought I had found what I was looking for but no.  Must be very hard for people to tell the truth.  So if you are married, do not waste My time. I'm not interested in getting involved with married men.  If you can not devote your time to Me, then don't waste My time at all.  If you think its ok to message Me every other day or whenever you feel like it, I'm not interested.  I know that you may have things to do or whatever but if you can not let Me know that you are busy and you will message Me as soon as you are free, then don't bother.  I believe a true D/s relationship starts with good communication and if you can not even do that, then there is nothing.  The main thing I ask for is honesty! If you're just wanting to jack off then say so.  Be "man" enough to say hey look I'm just wanting to play and nothing more.  Don't feed Me a bunch of bullshit for nothing.

Ok so I can a nasty text message this morning from a guy that called himself a submissive but I knew instantly from having only one conversation with him that he wasn't.  He only wanted to talk when he wanted something or when he had the time and made way to many demands for a submissive.  And I didn't respond back to him because I was simply not interested or attracted to him.  I understand that we all have lives and demands of our lives that has to come first.  But if you can not take the time to simply send a quick text/IM saying something to the effect that you're busy but would love to chat later in the day then that tells Me that one you're not really interested in the lifestyle and two you're only wanting to play. 

Read My profile and journal entries before contacting Me.  I think I have described enough what I'm looking for and what experience I do and do not have.  I may be inexperienced but I absolutely know what I want and what type of relationship I am seeking with a submissive.  What kind of a submissive calls a woman a bitch and acts childish with name calling because he doesn't get his way? 

Ok, like I said in a previous journal entry, I am new to this with limited experience.  But I know what I want and want to see/experience.  I am all about reactions.  The more of a reaction, both bodyily and verbially, I can get out of a submissive, the more turned on and pleased I am.  I'd love nothing more than to hear you scream and beg and love nothing more than to see your body tremble, shake, jerk, and convulse uncontrollably.

Well its been awhile since I've been on here and just recently started looking again.  I know there are alot of fakes on here that are on both sides of the fence so to speak.  I am truly looking for a LTFLR with a submissive.  I will admit that I have limited experience, as My ex was not into the lifestyle, but I do know what I want and want to experience.  I have alot to offer a submissive, mentally and physically, if I can find one that wants to explore with Me.  On a side note, I do not want, nor will I ask, a submissive for his money.  I'm a grown woman and can take care of Myself.

It shouldn't surprise Me at all the fakes that are on this sight.  If you're just looking to play, then why not state that.  Why say you are serious about the lifestyle and then prove yourself to be a liar?  That's stupidity on your part. 

If you are not a true submissive and do not want to live the lifestyle, do not bother emailing Me.  I have no time or patience for fakes and wanna bes that just want to jack off and play.