pets Master has asked her whether slavery to him means to her. though pet has answered him privately she thinks it is important to share it with people who understand. pets slavery means she has given everything to her Master. that he is ever present even in her mind that she should hold him there as he is in her heart.

She has opened her heart and body to him completely. pet was having trouble with giving up what was in her mind. pet thought she had done that. but the more she thought about it she realized, no she has not. she has not kept him in her mind she has been afraid. to let him all the way in. she has had selfish moments when she just wanted to do what she wanted. though it is a natural feeling pet should own it and then push it aside and do as her Master wants her to do. pet wants to apologize for holding on to her selfishness. to let Master know she will work hard at letting go of that. she wants to do it because she loves you and you deserve it from yours.

 There is a darkness in my soul, that only one man controls. he draws it out with each strike of the whip, the very breath he controls. lost in the darkness only his voice can draw me out. he has slipped beneath my skin. he whispers of even darker seduction. my soul is lost and he is the keeper of it's darkness

I made a mistake and my Master has forgiven me for it. I can't say i will never make a mistake again but the one he forgave me for will never happen again. my heart is in this mans hands, he owns my soul.