I've never written a journal or a blog or anything, so if you're reading this looking to get off, sorry, not gonna happen.

I'm just trying my hand at writing in this forum. I don't totally get it. I guess it's a good way to talk about things with more anonimity.

I think I'm getting to a place where I'm happy in my life. I'm single. And I remain open-minded to the idea of meeting someone for play or even just to talk. But I don't find a lot of people stimulating or satisfying or even interesting.

I'm not new to being a sub anymore. I know what I can handle and what I won't tolerate. But I think that kind of throws doms for a loop. And I've found that to be the difference between an experienced dom and a big-talking internet troller.

I'm not interested in even being friends with someone who says their a dom but is actually just an angry person looking to take out their self-loathing on people who will take the abuse.

I get irritated by people who are all grumpy in their profiles listing a bunch of shit they don't want. But this feels like an okay forum for that so here goes:

If you list yourself as a "dom" but you're so lacking in self-confidence that you're threatened by an assertive sub, you're just a bully who uses bdsm to pray on weak people that you can abuse.

If you're looking for someone who will devote every waking moment to your happiness but you also require that person to be educated, look like a porn star, financially support themselves, and behave like a 50's house-wife - then you're probably a complete moron and good luck finding that, even though you spend your day sitting at the computer and you're probably unemployed, out of shape, and mentally unstable.

A sub who knows what he/she wants is not a contradiction. For instance, I hope I can one day find a partner who challenges me and gets rough with me but still treats me like a treasure that is adored.

That just means I'm not into degredation. That doesn't make me less of sub because I won't allow myself to be treated like garbage. And I don't think less of people who want to be treated like garbage, or want to treat someone like garbage. People just have their various preferences. And I feel like the fact that I know what I want and what my limits are just makes me better-equipped to make a dom happy.

Ok. I like this journaling thing.