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Well another Kinkfest is upon us. I am so very excited to attend. This year, like all the other years, there are a lot of classes I look forward to going to. I am doing things different for next year, however. I am going to start my search for a sub/slave to go with me very early. They will be my slave friday, for lack of a better diion. I doubt I will find one but hey, maybe I will get lucky.
I am going to be stricter on my dealings with people here. I expect photos. I will give a person a task to do and I expect proof that they do it. I am SO VERY tired of flakes here. The one thing, bar none, I will expect someone to do is write a journal. They will buy a new journal and start writing in it every day. Every 3 days they will send me photos of what they have written. If someone can't or won't do something so simple they have no place in my life. I want real time. Online is fun but it can NOT take place of real life. |
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I was playing around and took the BDSM test. Here are the results, even though I don't agree with some of them.
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Rigger
100% Master/Mistress
99% Sadist
98% Voyeur
95% Dominant
90% Non-monogamist
89% Owner
75% Brat tamer
72% Degrader
68% Experimentalist
41% Exhibitionist
40% Primal (Hunter)
40% Masochist
38% Switch
29% Submissive
23% Rope bunny
20% Brat
19% Vanilla
15% Primal (Prey)
13% Daddy/Mommy
10% Pet
5% Slave
0% Boy/Girl
0% Degradee
0% Ageplayer
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Tonight was a very bad night. My sub collapsed trying to get up out of bed. He also had a fever of 101.8, was sweating up a storm and had a very high pulse rate. Since he hates going to the hospital I gave him 2 choices. I told him I could call 911 or take him to the ER. We where lucky and the ER was almost empty when we got there. They got him right in. They gave him 3, yes THREE, huge bags filled with iv fluid. I was surprised to find out that all his symptoms where related to a UTI. I never thought that muscle weakness, fever, and a host of other symptoms can be related to something as simple as a UTI if you are over 50 y.o. They gave hime fluids and i.v. antibiotics and sent him home.
He has been very good about drinking water, but since he had the infection he wasn't drinking enough water. I am SO very glad we caught it before he fell in the yard or in his shop when he was alone.
Onto other matters. I was talking to someone I thought was a good choice for a slave, CS has proven me wrong again, I sure hate the flakes here. Why is it so hard to find an intellegent, honest slave? I get flooded with emails, but very very very few seem to be the real thing. I have two interviews in the new few weeks, but those I found someplace else. Real life experence is the best way to play.
I can't wait till another Kinkfest 2022. It is a sold out event again this year. I am going to make a huge efffort to go to the play parties after all the classes. I am so happy all of us kinky people can get back togeather again.
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A bit more about me. I am quiet until I get comfortable with a person. I now use a scooter to get around. I have bad knees and like to exercise in the pool 2-3 times a week. |
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I was playing around with a makeup artist program and put on number 6 is what I finally got. How do you think it looks? I know I look a lot different than I usually look. I'm going to dye my hair a copper color but I don't know how much red I'm going to put in the brown. Tell me what you think. Its not popular with my sub. He think I look better natural and with all that crap on my face. |
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I think I need to clear some things up. I am what most would consider poor. I live in a small house that could use a coat of paint. In this small house there are 3 people and 2 huge dogs 9and even though we try there is dog hair on the floor. I am a BBW and use a walker to get around outside. I also put my own pants on one leg at a time. I am NOT looking for someone to sweep me away to modern suburban life. In this small house there is something that people dream about. We have a wonderful poly family. Everyone loves each other. I am taken care of like a queen. I do my share of the chores (gasp), mostly because I insist. It is the little things that make me happy. I don't sit around in leather with a whip in my hand. So if this bothers you then don't email me. Mistress Angela |
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I am back. I am looking for a slave for kinkfest. It would be nice to have a slave for errands and such. I have already booked the hotel for 4 people. I have played with a new sub. Oh man was that fun. I hope to play with him again. |
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well another Kinkfest has come and gone. Like most years I really enjoyed it. I really enjoyed the new site. The dungeon was huge. Most of the classes where fun. If I don't respond to your chat request my tablet doesn't support it. |
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Well I thought I would post again since I decided to get back on this site. Nothing much has changed. I am still a sadistic Mistress and I am still looking for a puppy or a slave, though not really hard. They must be honest, willing to take pain and be bound and teased hard. Honesty and willing to play in real life a must. |
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Well I have not been on for a while. I am looking for something special. I am going on a trip from 4/10 to 4/25/10. I am looking for a service slave to take with Me. They will need to be able to share the driving, share a small space with Me and my 2 other subs, and be willing to serve Me and my uncollared female sub. I really doubt I will find someone this close but it is worth a try. They also must be able/willing to share expenses to and from the cruise ship. What that means exactly is you will pay for your own food and will have no voice to where, when and what you eat. For more detail shoot Me an email.
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Well it seems like I don't update very often. I reread what I had said and what I am looking for is still the same. I am looking for a puppy or a slave. Gender doesn't matter but they MUST be willing, even eager to taste pain. Above all they must know how to treat me.
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I can't belive how long it has been since I last posted. A lot has happened. I now have a full time male collared sub. I also have a female sub, whom is not collared. My life is almost perfect. I am looking, but not very hard, for a puppy. I want someone who is willing to sit at my feet. The qualities they must have are: willing to serve only me, unless I tell them otherwise, willing to take pain, within the limits of SSC, give up control.
I am very good with a single tail and cane. I am fair at rope bondage and I would like to get better, so I need someone to practice on (especially cbt). |
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Wet spot is over :( It was 7 days of pure bliss. I did NOT want to come back lol. I got to play with many other people. Two subs stand out most in my mind. One was the fire haired sub. OMG he was so sweet. His body fairly jumped off the table when my hands touched his soft spots. You could hear his scream far away, yet he always thanked me and asked for more.
The second....will always have a place in my heart. He was very well trained, sensitive, smart and made me long for a sub like him! You might ask what made him special. He knew how to address me. He always thanked me after I touched him in any way. He is a switch and I was honnored as he dose not switch very often. The look in his eyes when I caused him pain was something I will NEVER forget. He was so much fun to just look at as even that caused him to shudder.
Words can not tell how much fun I had and the quality of these subs, I am so glad I had a chance to play with them. |
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I had an interview with a wannabe slave and it made me think. The very few that actually get up the courage to meet me usually flee. I KNOW I put that I am sadistic in my profile. I AM harsh. I expect a LOT from a sub and even more from a slave. What do they expect? A sweet soft willing woman who wants to do what they want? Maybe they are not reading my weight. I AM a BBW. BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN.
Here is the kicker... I tell everyone honesty is the most important thing to me. DO NOT say you will do something if you won't!!!
I have a lot to offer as a Mistress. I take very good care of my toys. I like the ones I have and want to keep them so I can play with them often. I understand that the "real" world is a big factor in life. I can work around that. Most importantly I hold myself to a high standard. Honesty is demanded and given.
So to end this rant. IF you email me expect
1 to HAVE to have an interview!
2 to be treated as you have said you want to be treated. IF you say you are a slave then I will treat you as a slave!
3 R/T only. I wont do cyber! |
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Kinkfest has come and gone. It was exciting, but ended way too soon. The days where filled with interesting lectures and the nights with wicked pleasures. I got to use my singletails and worked not only my sub but a few others as well. The memory that stands out the most was when I looked up after my sub finnished screaming from his latest kiss and heard many others screaming as well. It was a magical moment.
I am interviewing for the position of slave and thinking about accepting a female if I can find one that fits my wants. Males are also being accepted, but they are hard to find. At least the good ones that I want.
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I have not updated my journal in a long time. Much has happened. A few good and a few bad things. The saddest thing that happened was I lost my singletail. I was SO heartbroken over that. However that did bring a good thing. My dear sub went out and got me a PAIR of David Morgans. They are a matched set. I am now doing singletails with two hands at once. I am very good at it also. In a couple weeks Kinkfeast will be hear and I can have 3 days of pure pleasure. I have promiced my sub a taste of the whips each day. I told him I didn't feel like I had a good enough command of the whips so I HAD to practice ;) I want to make sure I am good. That will take....a few years of constant practice before I think I am halfway good then a few more years to get 3/4 good then a few more after that to get mostly good. So I have a LOT of years of practice ahead of me. LOL that is just a bit of my sadistic side comming out. My dear sub was surprised that after only 2 hours of getting matching singletails I was using them on him and not misplacing a single stroke. I have used the singletail in both hands but never two at one (of the same size) time. This was a very very wonderful experence. I found out again how much I loved the whip. I got to go to wet spot and have 4 days of camping and all you could stuff into those days of fun, food, and bdsm. There where many many people to play with and a wonderful pool. One of the most memorable was working with a top who very seldoms bottoms. She asked me for a sadistic massage.... It was an offer I would never think of refusing. I worked her over for 3 hours. OMG it was SO much fun. She screamed, jumped, and wiggled. I have to admit she took almost everything I could dish out. She was so so wonderful. My admiration went up for her (and it was already high). I was so happy when she and her sub came down to see me. It is funny as he is a big big boy and enjoys pain but was afraid of me. LOL I did get to play with him but I had my eye on her.... she again let me play with her. Another 3 hours on the table. Another very special time.
This year looks to be as exciting as last. I am going to be very busy, but I know I will have so much excitement. |
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I was in rapture this weekend. I found a brave sub to scream for me. I gave this boy a pressure point lesson, something very few are brave enough to do. Each time my fingers touched his bound and helpless body, he screamed. I did warm him up and before I finished he was covered in sweat, horse and utterly exhausted. I have not yet found a sub who can keep up with my touch. It can cause pleasure or pain. I have many skills, but must admit the single tail is my favorite toy. However most know how harsh that can be. Few know the wonder that I can do with just my touch. I enjoy binding my sub when I do it so he can not wiggle away, as most do, even when their mind is trying to tell their body to stay still. In this entry you notice I say scream not sing. That is deliberate as they scream at the top of their lungs. The pain can be anywhere from mild to so sever (if they are standing) their knees will buckle or they will buck hard in their bounds. |
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Another weekend has passed. They all go so quickly. I enjoyed this one so very much. I got to flog and singletail an exquisit sub. I loved hearing him sing when the single tail kissed his back and ass. It was stimulating to look at the marks that I put on his body. He was rewarded, he got to give me a long massage and sing for me. I do so love massages. The weekend was packed and my only problem with it was we didn't have enough time for all I wanted to do.....oh well there is always next weekend :) |
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I went to a party and had a blast. I enjoyed flogging and caneing the sub that put himself at my disposal. I enjoy being very sadistic and it was so much fun to have a totally helpless sub at my feet. |
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