What strange paths we do walk down, eh? I have been pining for someone to talk to, anyone who might share my situation, but I don't want an actual conversation... not yet. More of a place to work out what's happening and what I need to do about it. And along comes this place *smiles*

   Once bitten twice shy, they say. So what if you've been bitten multiple times? LOL I just don't feel like this is ever gonna happen for me. I have tried so hard, but I'm also a very opinionated and intelligent woman, I know I may have made mistakes, but all I get are the guys who want to play online. I feel like I'm experienced enough to pick out the users, NOW. I wasn't always. How did I misread this one?

   Did he ever really want me? Why did I waste most of four years talking to him? It wasn't like I was on webcam endlessly, we actually talked, about our lives, our friends, our days. Is it really possible that I got played for that long? He would never come clean about who he really was or where, though he used to try to tell me he'd already told me, or it was on his Yahoo profile (it wasn't). I guess I'm just an idiot.

   At this point, I'm done with men, (and women, don't even ask), I'm done with trying to find a strong man who can know me, love me AND control me, I'm done.

   So, what's next? Good question, hard answers. I guess alone is the best I can do for now, I have my almost-life at work, I have my nearly grown dependent and I have my cat. Maybe being the crazy cat lady down the street won't be so bad after all. Hmmm...