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xnadia

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right now i have found someone. we are trying things and mentoring me or advising me. so now i just look for friends i recently splitted to a bf. i know he wanted to get involved with one of my friends and finally he confessed he was attracted to her but he didn't want to leave me. i didn't accept to share him because several reasons.
after some weeks i noticed that they both were attracted and maybe more.
i splitted to make him react and come back but he didn't.
one week later he came back and told me he wants to have sex with me. but just sex because her gf accepts and encourages him to have sex with me
when he told me i felt humilliated and outraged and i said no.
few hours and days later my mind changed little by little. i know that within next days or weeks or months i will try to have sex with him. despite i might want more than sex or maybe not. i don't know yet. also despite i feel it is extremely humilliating for me but now i don't care about humilliations.
i see now that it was my mistake. not his fault. even not my ex-friend fault. just mine. so i deserve what hapenned
before i try to talk to him i want to learn and to read and to experience and everything i have to do. or maybe while i'm here i will find that i want something else.
my mind is a mess as you can see
so that's why i joined this
if you want to tell me anything please do and i'll apreciate it. nothing you can say will make me feel worse
thank you for reading. some months after we splitted. he and his new gf are gone from my mind. not completely gone but almost. many things happened since then some very good and others very bad. i had discovered many things. i really want to talk to someone experienced. thank you

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slaveriofordom
 
 Age: 29
  New York