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I can not believe everything that has been going on I have not been to a Munch in 5 months. But I have my reason first I was ill with a bad case of phnemonia and it persisted becasue I kept being incorrectly diagnosed. Im lucky I had two friends die from it this winter. Then my dog had to be put down becasue of cancer. Two months after that my best friend / roommate died. On top of that while trying to cope and move my ABDL, mommy and Bubby dump. However before you thinking I am all doom and gloom there is light in the darkness. I have my own place and I enjoy the space a seclude nature in the country. I have a good friend and staying with me who is into the lifestyle as well. Finally a person I have been crushing on and has always bee on my mind seence I me her has finally asked me out. I am so excited about ths prospect of a LTR with her. We seem to have som many things in common and she is a tru cutie if there ever was one. |
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Yesterday a couple of good friends played with me. They tied me up and flogged me. This was my first time with them and floggers. Although I am not in to pain I liked the weight hitting me. I trusted Pryncess before but Now I feel I can trust her completely. I also feel I can trust Kat now too. I really appreciate what they did for me.
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I talked the Mistress that I am under protection of. Her and my friend apologized for accidently losing me on the way to the bar after the munch and are planing something special for me. She told me how much she cares for me to. All this meant a lot to me.
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I really wish I new how to connect with other people in a genuine manner. I think i try to keep most people at a distance for some reason.
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I went to the local munch last night It was great to see my friends. I was disappointed on several issues though the play party was canceled,and My Mommy was not there again. I am also frustrated I'm not finding any one special to fall in love who reciprocates those feelings. I was also not feeling well last night either thanks to a medication screw up.
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I had another paly date today with many friends and the same babysiter as last. I love evry second of being able ot play as a little. I played too much though I can bearly walk and my knees gave out on the stairs. But what a blast ! the only bad thing was my "mommy's" exsubmissive showed up. I felt a little neglected by her but I dont blame her. I felt like the her ex was trying to monopolize her and keep her away from me. I am nervous about what future play dates and age play events will be like if he keeps showing up He seemed to really disrupted the Illusion of being little for me at times. Thats mainly because I spent a lot of time unsupervised.
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last night I had went to the local munch, and got to regress with Mystress Pryncess. Although I was lonely because I was the only little at the play party I had fun. I am very thankful to Mystress Pryncess for babysitting. I find the regression and the way she looks after me very cathartic.
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today I went to an ageplay much and had a blast. I am very greatful to Mystress Pryness for being my babysitter, and allowing me to experiance being a little girl again. She is very sweet and caring. I can not wait to play again
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Last night I went to my first local play party. What an experience! I had the opportunity to use a staple gun on a mans inner thy. I still squimish about it. I am very thankful that my friends, angeldmort & Mister Michael encouraged me to go. I was presently surprised how polite and well mannered every one was. I felt the environment was a safe and secure way to meet people in the community.
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Last night I met a a very nice couple. Finaly some one real and sane that understand I am a person. It was my first chance to play in some time. They are sweet, kind and smart. I had a wonderful experieance and do look forward to to the opertunity be thier friend and play again.
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It has been a year of personal growth and exploration. I have been working on my degree and making improvements at my company and job. I have been dating but have not met any one to be serious with yet. However I have spent so much time working I have not been dating much. I am hope to met and make new friends from here now that things are starting to balance out for me
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Recently on March 31, I left my Mistress and girlfriend of 18 months. Ill Miss her and will remeber the joyful times we had had together. However I am excited about what the future holds and whom I will meet next. I dont think it is too much to ask to be loved. I hope my next girlfriend will be as loving and as romantic of a person as I am.
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I have been busy the past year and have not written an up date in as many months. Mistress and I keep arguing and I have tried many times over to resolve our relationship issues. I am now at the point where I am trying to decide if we should try therapy or seperate.
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Things between my Mistress and I are going wonderfully well. She is gentle and caring enough to take her time and allow trust to build, as that trust builds I feel safer with her and now believe she will never do me no harm. I trust her completely.
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I have been dating but have had difficulty find some one who I was compatiable with. I might have found that yesterday. She seems sweet and sencier and we have a similar background. I hope it works out. Im back home in louisville and still in college. Seems like that will never end I am considering attempting a PhD in Criminology but have not made up my mind yet. |
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 Thinks for m are going well A passed my classes and begaining a new term soon. My friend that I meet here on colloar me seems to be an ideal fit. I want to persue things further and see what happens. who know if Im lucky maybe shell eventually want to collat me :) |
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I finaly said the hell with texas and moved home to Kentucky. I might move back west to dallas, portaln, or seattle after I finish my degree. School is my number one priority now. I have recently meet a lady who is a switch. we seem to be hitting it of and I am very excited about the posibilities that await |
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Its been a month sence my gf broke up with. I, finally no longer depressed about it and am look for a Mistress. Not being from Texas I think its going to be difficult as Im not involved in and social activities at the time. Hopefuly I can so find some one near my own age.
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Well today was a suprise My gf broke up with to date the other girl I was involved with in our polyamurous relationship. The confusing thing is that The girl who broke up with me today wants me to continue to live with her. Im really hurt and confused. im not sure if Ill stay in Teaxs or go back home to Kentucky... |
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wow its been a while sence my last entry. I live with two women now that I love one is a transexual but Im bisexual so I like it. Although one seems to always be mad at me for some reason. but I moved from Kentuckt to Texas. I dont much like it here but love my girlfriends dearly |
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well I am always learning something new about the liefstyle. recenly I went to a KUFS picnic and had great fun. There I learned Im a strong will submissive, It was explained to as I will submit to my Domme and only my Domme and will resist all others
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I have been fortunate to meet the most wonderful women from this site. She is georgous romantic and charmming. We seem to be clicking well.
plus she like the softer side of the lifestyle as so do I. I hope things work out but I must take my time no need to rush any thing |
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I realize im new to the lifestyle, but i really dont underatand this a bit. It does not seem like anyone wants a relationship all they want is someone to have sex with.
In the confines of a loving relationship I am more than happy to be submmissev and do what Im asked. It jsut seems a lot of people has for gotten that.
I wonder why . ut if thats the way it is I rather have a vinilla relationship and have love and romance , |
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this is my first journal entry on Collarme.com I have been keeping a diary sence I was in high school. I thought this would be a fun outlet.
I was introduced to the Life style by my last girlfriend. She was a switch the way she controled me and made me please her created the most wonderful feeling with in me. I was surprised at my feeling, loved, cherished, and protected.
I want to feel like that again and hope to find a relationship with a dom that can make me feel that way
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