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drank my own piss this morning just to remember what it tasted like it has been so long :( |
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spent the entire weekend on my hands and knees walking around naked to get back into condition. the result was pain lol. my knees are getting old but that is the life of a pet i guess :) - pet |
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the other night i did insert the brush into my cunt. it felt like 1000 needles trying to pierce the walls of my cunt. i did not have the courage to fuck it but after a bit i did take it out. i apologize to all - pet |
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been too long since an entry. been depressed lately and that i guess is natural for a worthless pos. many have requested i use the brush and rip up my cunt. they also said it would heal, so maybe tonight i will do it. wtf, might as well make some Doms happy. - pet |
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been too long since an entry. been depressed lately and that i guess is natural for a worthless pos. many have requested i use the brush and rip up my cunt. they also said it would heal, so maybe tonight i will do it. wtf, might as well make some Doms happy. - pet |
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it is not sadistic and it is not even very sub like, but so many of You want an entry so i will just say that i ahve been wearing shorter skirts to work lately without panties as many of You wanted. Well, my boss's boss called me into his office and i thought i was going to get into trouble. instead i just got fucked in the ass :) i guess that means i can continue to wear short skirts hehe - pet |
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i am sorry to report that i have NOT used the brush on my cunt. i am afraid that i will need the help of an Owner or Master to get the courage up to accomplish this. i do believe that my cunt should be used for such exploration and study of its effect, but need to have a safer environment to do this. i am so sorry to those of You that are disappoint in me - pet |
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been a month and i am sorry. One suggested a round toilet brush to fuck myself with and even sent me a video of a slave having her done to her. it was very interesting. i have even gone so far as to buy the brush (want to use a new one). i just havent gotten the courage to do it yet lol. i guesss that is why i need an Owner to make sure things like this get done. i am working on my courage and will let You all know when it happens - pet |
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as i have told some, i did buy a new brush with very strong thin and evidently sharp needles for the suggestion i mentioned earlier. last night, i finally got the courage to do it. wow, every hit of my boobs or cunt left tiny drops of blood. needless to say i only hit myself ten times on each boob and 10 times on the cunt. the droplets of blood did glisten and looked so pretty that the orgasm after was easy to acheive. - thanks for reading, pet |
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another has suggested a thorough beating of my boobs with a bristle brush leaving dots of blood all over them - pet |
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i want to apologize to everyone for not posting new entires. many of you, especially the ones that are closer to me have been upset with my behavior. i vow to do better. many of you have wanted something done to myself to prove pennace. one suggest the cardinal bat with a tapping hammer on the end that sticks out for pain. i promise to do something and write about it. any suggestions are welcome of course - pet |
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WOW what a cardinal victory last night! it took me a while to fine, but i have a mini cardinal baseball bat and yes to celebrate i fucked the hell out of it last night before going to bed. i love a victory orgasm lol. for those of You that are sadistic, yes in my enthusiam, i managed to pound my cervix several times causing shooting pain down over my body. go Cards! - pet |
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hi all. i got home from work early today so i decided to do anoother request with all this free time ha ha. i stopped by walgreens and got a new very stiff bristle brush and brought it home with me. as usual, i removed my clothing as soon as i got home. the instructions were to beat my cunt and tits until i cried naturally and loudly. it did not take too long, maybe 10 minutes vefore the tears were flowing and the cunt and tits scratched and abused to the point of scratch bleeding. i was not able to cum with just the hairbrush so i was able to finish off with the hitachi again (thank you) as the orgasm was powerful. thanks for the idea - pet |
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sorry to disappoint, but this morning was just tit clamps on and hitachi in hand. 5 orgasms later and ready to start praying to the hitachi lol - pet |
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not sure it qualifies, but i am very happy to announce that on the advice of people on here, I brought myself next to orgasms 4 times with my hitachi but did not cum. i was so horny that the air felt like it was going to make me cum lol. anyway, i took the riding crop and started hitting my cunt and clit hard and presto, i had a great orgasm! hope that counts to make me a painslut lol -- pet |
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it is surprising to to me constantly how many actually read my stupid journal. yes, i did put the clothes pins on and fingered my cunt. i was given 30 mintes to cum three times. i think i could have made all three, but i had the ping pong paddle right next to me "calling" for me to hit my boobs with it hehe. i slapped them both hard for about ten mintues before my third orgasm. they were bright red and tender by then. however, it did make my final cum wonderful mmmmmmmmm.
being stupid, i didn't think of tying them all the clothes pins together and pulling them off during the third orgasm. thank you for that suggestion that i will do next time i do something like this.
thanks for reading Sir and Misses -pet |
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some have inquired as to my next session. it will happen today. pet will be putting three wooden clothing pins on each side of her cunt lips and finger fucking herself to three orgams while occassionally smacking my tits with a ping pong paddle. i hope i got that right. let me know if You want anything added Sirs amd Maams - pet |
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ok, i just spent a half an hour trying to "beat" my cunt into cumming. i alternately used a belt, riding crop and shoe. Unfortunately, even though i truly beat hard, i could not cum until i turned on the hitache and then was rewarded with a very intense orgasm. does this mean i am not a painslut? it is something i could do with practice? i don't know:( - pet |
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well, i was asked to stop taking requests, but i am missing it. most recently, i have had the requests of beating my cunt with a belt or crop until i have an orgasm (never acheived this before) and fucking my ass with an ice dildo. i am thinking about these. let me know Your opinions please Sirs and Ma'ams |
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ok ok, i get it lol what does a yeast infection caused by a milk douche have to with fucking myself? evidently nothing according to most of YOU. so, what do YOu want me to do? |
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many have been asking about my yeast infection caused by the mild douche to stop the pain. it is gross to talk about, sorry. however, the monostat is working and i will be back to normal soon. ty all for caring - pet |
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the burning has stopped thanks to douching with milk. ty Miss for the suggestion :) |
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OUCH!!!! just got out of the bathtub sitting in cold water for 20 minutes trying to stop the burning. As suggested, i put tobasco all over my black friend dildo and started fucking it hard and deep. OMG the burning would NOT stop. i kept fucking it until i cummed, but then without the pleasure part to think about it really got hurting. i wiped out it, douched and finally just filled the tub up and sat in it burning. it is STILL burning; WOW
I am not saying it hurts worse than pounding the cervix, but at least with the pounding it stopped when i stopped. this just keeps going and going lol. Hope all YOU sadist out there are happy now :) - pet |
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ok ok i get it, many of YOu want a painful orgasm again. i will do it tonight, promise :) |
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ok, well many asked how i cum last night. i know this is disappointing again, but i was very tired so i just put the hitachi between my legs, crossed my ankles tight and turned it on high. it didn't take long, but it helps me sleep.
Oh but before i did that, for the first time in quite a while, i went out the back naked on all fours and peed on the grass. it felt like old times :) |
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just a normal finger masturbation while reading cm messages tonight. nothing too special :( but i did enjoy it |
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i have been told that if i work on stretching my cunt out that somehow that will make me become a squirter. i don't know how that can be, but we all know about my brain cells lol. has anyone done this and had it work? suggestons on how to stretch it out? - pet |
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evidently You put the condom insdie the papertowel holder and not over the top of it duh. maybe i should just put the condom over my head and forget it. and i have learned it is best to use a magnum condom. so i guess i will have to get the right supplies to try this. those who are hoping that i can really hurt my cervix more with the ice dildo because it will freeze the pain, will have to wait a little longer :( sorry - pet |
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ok i am an idiot i guess, the condom over the papertowel center didn't work out well. i think i would be better off just using the condom like a water balloon and then freezing it. anyone thing that would work? - pet
i am happy to say that i was able to cum today. nipple clamps on all the way tight, my green ass plug in and my trusty hitachi gave me three, yes three wonderful orgasms one after the other. ty hitachi :) - pet |
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wow have had a interesting request. many of YOu out there are very creative and much smarter than i am lol (not hard i know). in the freezer, i have a paper towel center (hollow cardboard) with a condom over it (only had the resevoir tip kind). it was filled with water and put in the freezer. let you all know how it turns out lol |
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update: during my shower this morning i noticed a slight amount of blood coming out of my cunt. my only thought was it was implant bleeding from that big black dildo! I hope i am not preggers lol - pet |
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ok, last night was very intense at the request of a Dom. it was really more of what i have written about already (seems Dom/Domme like it). Only this time it was two handed thrusts harder than i thought i could do to myself (yes i am proud) ramming the tip of dildo over and over into my cervix. the pain was crzy bad and so it too me longer than usual to cum (meaning more pounds to the cervix). i had to put ice cubes in after for 15 minutes while i sat on a towel just so i could fall asleep. I waited until this morning to write about because i wanted to se how i felt. I could hardly walk when i got out of bed! I am feeling more mobile now and will b able to make it to work today. On a side note because one particular Dom is concerned, i did set my alarm every one for 3 hours to wake me up to make sure i did not go into shock (ty for caring). I am fine in that way, guess i can take a pounding. pet |
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ok, as per a request from a wonderful Dom, i just got to cum again! yeah me lol. this time i was sitting my computer and told to fuck my cunt with the black dildo while sitting in the window and not moving (ty for leaving my top on). i had to pull my hair with one had as i fucked myself with the 10" hard. i was not told to hit my cervix to cause extra pain so i did not this time. i love my cunt lol it was another good orgasm. ty Sir |
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ok i will try to put into words better this time. i had a request to abuse myself while gagged and in high heels. putting on my highest hees and stuffing my mouth with dirty socks (sorry don't have a ball gag currently) was the easy part. oh, heels are only 5" sorry. i hit my head on the headboard as i laid there fucking my cunt with the big black dildo so it would hit my cervix over and over. i ended up with a headache and a wonderful orgasm. i hope that filled Your request - pet |
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i have had mixed comments about my last entry. some laugh and say it really does show how stupid i am. to them i say that i have never pretended to be smart and i can only be what i am and i am not going to get any smarter probably the opposite.
others liked it and were just being nice and i do appreciate that as well.
i think the most honest ones, gave me more constructive criticism as to what i was doing. one of the suggested i use a riding crop on my cunt and puff it up before raping it so that it would feel more well abused when done. so this morning i did whip on it hard for 15 minutes causing welts etc before i attacked it with the dildo hitting the cervix over and over. to be honest, it was a great cum and must say that the suggestion improved the experience but of course did not make it a true rape. anyway ty for the comments and suggestions :) - pet |
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Sept 13: this morning i tried to comply to several request for a more of a rape masterbation session. i took a 10" black dildo and fucked my cunt as hard as i could pounding it in and hitting my cervix many time. i did have tears in my eyes, but yes i still cum. also i was asked to stick a finger deep into my ass and sniff and lick it clean. i did that before i started the cunt rape and after i cum. sorry i am not a bette writer |
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i am not sure anyone woiuld read a journal done by me. what do You think?
9/8/2011 ok here goes. some of You thought You would like to hear the thoughts of a stupid pet such as myself. don't blame me for what You get please. i try to masterbate daily when i wake in the morning. so this morning, as i was fingering myself, i thought how much i wish there was one of You (my true Owner) could have been there to watch me, whip me, whatever He/She wished to excite Him/Her. i will say that i had a good cum this morning :) |
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