I know your dilemma your problem is that you are a slave born free, which is as bad as a freeman born a slave, your nature is to serve, to please and it is the nature of man to receive pleasure, which leave you with an important decisions to make, and there is nothing worse for a slave than to have an important decisions, if it were a different place and time you would not have this decisions, you would simply have been born and serve as your nature allows.  Instead you must choose from a million men all wanting your pleasure.