8/31/2017 6:39:23 AM: some say gee why have you never been married  why no kids at 43? well simple I have mostly been in long tpe relationships i do as told or I used to I have been single way to long but now am just very very picky and loath casual sex i need more I want to be treasured adored and owned. simple try saying that on eharmony it does not go over well sigh.

8/31/2017 6:35:52 AM: IF YOUR MARRIED DONOT  CONTACT ME! I want a guy who is MINE all MINE! not somebody else's neglected husband.

8/31/2017 6:19:13 AM: so I  learn as as i go in in life.. perhaps i am  a sappy romantic i wear my heart on my well pussy perhaps it is cause my first dom loved me before he ever was my dom i do not know why I am this way but i need to have a dom who truly wants me and treasures me. A dom who is steady and safe and does not change the game or even turn this into a game in the middle of things. Be clear  i am here for real looking hoping for my other half .. i know i have not been in a tpe in awhile and maybe am out of practice but simple common human gentleman behavior should not be forgotten just because i am a sub. I was raised with class and decency am a good person have an ok life yeah  no I am not as happy as i  could be that does not mean I deserve to be lied to . Everything I say I do mean and if I ever say 'I will never hurt you' that includes  listening, and  paying attention to you. A sub needs your attention, and come on if a guy any guy  is not calling,not texting changes his profile completely head to toe to read as though he is seeking something else  well it does not take a rocket scientist to figure you do not want me. If I crave you trust me i will be like a puppy dog begging for all of you it is so hard to find why make it harder ...

8/1/2017 5:41:43 AM: for all that read my journals thank you for your insights .. I am not complaining just airing out my soul as there are not many places in this world crazy as it is I feel I can be my true self here ... at least on this site there is a small chance I am among my people....

8/1/2017 4:40:46 AM: As a human i am many things never a bullshiter, I work hard to be a good person. As a sub who trusts and wants so much to find her ONE, I try even harder to be a good and open minded loving person. Only ever try to be my best self in the vain hope I will find my one and that the wait will have been worth it... Far from perfect and more lost today than yesterday...