1/17/2018 4:28:38 AM: Time to stop my journey is here. It has been a great learning experience but i'm no longer physically able to continue this taxing lifestyle.As such, i'm going to let this account go into limbo.It was nice knowing all of you and exchanging ideas with you guys/gals.Adios.

10/25/2017 7:54:09 AM: I've just read this and i think that is very very beautifully put together and everyone should appreciate it.The Disparity of Humiliation Humiliation is a statement about how willing I am to debase myself for him. It’s about the contrast with who I otherwise am. I don’t get wet when he calls me a worthless cumslut because I believe I am lacking value, I get wet when he calls me a worthless cumslut because he’s pointing out to me how low I am willing to go for him. He knows I’m an accomplished woman, worthy of being treasured, and that it’s only for him that I will lower myself to ‘’worthless’’ cumslut in order to please. When drool drips down my chin, when I spread my ass open to his gaze, and when I perform acts for him I can barely speak, they are statements about the lengths I will go to for his pleasure. These moments recognize the disparity between the me that belongs to the rest of the world, and the me that belongs to him

9/29/2017 10:02:25 AM: How can you say no to someone who says things like this? 'Are you one of those disgusting, depraved, and demented next level self hating humiliation junkie whores who is constantly searching for a way to truly demoralize, debase, and dehumanize themselves? A rancid, wretched, and worthless pathetic excuse for a cunt whose only pleasure in life comes from being exposed to all the horrors this world has to offer. Do you spend your nights and days offering yourself up to every perverted and perverse big bad mean man you can find hoping that he will be the one to do something truly horrific and horrible to you that will shatter what will self esteem and self respect you might have left within you? Is it your “happy” thought to one day not even be able to look at yourself in the mirror because your own reflection is so ugly, repellent, and repulsive that the sight of it makes you sick to your stomach? If any of those apply to you then this is for you.'

8/14/2017 12:56:14 PM: So, hi again. Well isn't this awkward. I'd hoped to leave this life behind after marriage but sadly my marriage is what got left behind. Anyways, that being the nature of such things let's continue with our usual series of recollections from the days gone by.My marriage, was a disaster for me and for them. it ended in april when the papers were finally filed. At the time i was at peak levels of desperation from the lack of regular supply of cock. Two of you did help out and i'm really thankful to you both, but that too was a one time thing. Thus i turned to using the reliable services of firms providing help to desperate women like myself. From there i met the man who finally managed to get me back to controllable levels of lust.(Henceforth referred to as the guy.)One day while we were doing it he noticed my engagment ring and gave me a questioning glance. I shot back asking him if it turned him on knowing that i have a husband? The man who was on the verge of exhaustion revived like a phoenix! Later on one day while the divorce proceedings were on, he called up my now ex-husband telling him of my current situation and then said 'This is your husband, he wants to say something to you!' I replied back with 'us namard se bol pehle ladki thokna seekhle(Translation: first ask him to learn how to properly fuck a woman!)'I then proceeded to ask my guy to cum on my mangalsutra and i'll lick it all off for him(forcing my hubby to hear all this on the phone in real time.)On another occasion, the guy randomly said 'Smile you cunt, your husband will be watching this later'....he said this while recording the moneyshot on his phone.The day i was finally free of my ex, i asked the guy to fuck me into a senseless doll...accepting the challenge he did his best and when i was beginning to get tired he spat on my face and pulled my hair, then with a roaring voice he said' get your fucking head up. You wanted me to do this to you, I can feel your cunt getting more wet right now.Now look at the fucking camera, all my friends are watching' Seeing how i was excited at this provocation he invited me to join the pleasure provider girls group(PPGG) however he warned me that giving an interview to being a ppg will be by my holes and mouth being impaled on the biggest pulsating pole that they could find at the time. Eventually my examiner was significantly larger than the guy who introduced me, but i passed the entrance test. ;)One time I refused to provide the lewd girlfriend experience to a filthy man who consequently reprimanded our 'leader' thus when i came back to report, i was slapped by the ppg group leader(a woman):-Your attitude will be adjusted little girl. You’re a whore now. The attitude adjustment comprised of electric shocks from a car battery along with the usual beatings and whippings and being a stress relief toy for anyone(boy or girl) for a week.After the week ended, she again came to me and said Cock grants us relevance. Thank every last one of them that drains their balls into your insignificant, expendable holes. Know your place next time. (i left it as soon as the month ended and refused to take up my share...which helped ease my exit)

7/15/2017 10:32:21 AM: She spent 20 years of her life wanting to be come a doctor, and instead finds that the best way she can help these people is as a clean, uninfected fuckdoll when they need one :)