4/24/2017 4:50:50 AM: For some reason girls tend to like to say things they absolutely don't mean, or deny absolute truths about themselves. For years I've wondered if submission is nothing more than the application of fears to one's own psyche, breaking those boundaries that girls artificially set for no other reason then to make things more complex. I think this was Sarah two that I'll be discussing but I honestly can't remember for sure. Anyway Sarah had a propensity of saying exactly what she wanted in reverse. Almost to the crazy complicated point of driving me insane when we're out in civilized society. This is a girl that would literally say she was hungry when she wasn't and then she would deny hunger to near point of passing out from low blood sugar. This Sarah had come off as being slightly kinky but I honestly wasn't sure and were actually doing a more vanilla date type of activities at the time. While we were having sex it just wasn't very fulfilling for me, and if it hadn't been for the fact I just had gotten home I probably would've quickly bored of her. We had gone out to the mall because she wanted to shop for something and I honestly can't remember what the reason was for this trip. Normally she would invite me back to see whatever outfit she had on which was about the only straightforward thing she would do on a normal basis. This time she kept telling me that I couldn't come back but she wanted me around for some reason. Flash forward about three stores between the hours of 0900 and 1030 on a weekday afternoon. Me sitting there bored out of my mind not even seeing the body I would normally admire. I have very little patience for shopping in the first place and this was just getting damn right annoying. We were either in JCPenney or some large store like Belk with ample changing rooms and very little staff at this time a day. She finally had gone back into one of the changing rooms for a little too damn long and I was getting fed up. I decide to walk back there and see what she was doing. Asking her what was going on she told me nothing and told me to wait which at this point pissed me off. I told her if she wasn't coming out I was coming in there which she profusely said no to. At the time I was a pretty good at lockpicking and always carried my escape picks with me. I quickly started working on the door which she knew exactly as I had opened her front door twice when she locked herself out. I'm pretty sure she had decided this was going to be some kind of game for her to play against me. I remember unlocking the door and started to turn the knob and push the door when she said no again and put her body weight against me pushing and slamming the door in my face. I kicked her directly in the shin and shoved the door hard threw her back against the wall behind the door. Normally I'm not to rough in public and when it comes to vanilla style girls I don't do anything like this due to the shit climate of society. I guess that day I just had enough. I remember grabbing her by the fucking throat, and kicking my foot back shutting the door behind us. I stuffed my lock picks in my pocket and she started slapping me which I did right back to her much harder. I growled into her ear that I was fucking tired of waiting for something that had not given me any fucking pleasure and was merely wasting my fucking time. I could've been off doing anything else but standing around not seeing anything and not even giving my opinion. She stood there nearly naked only in her panties and I realized at that point I really didn't give a fuck about this relationship. I slapped her across the face and spun her around and shoveing her down towards the wooden bench with her close and purse on it. I grabed some of the clothes and shoved them in her mouth and then literally stepped on her head pinning her to the bench as I began to slap the shit out of her pussy. She kept very still and didn't make so much as a noise. When I stopped I noticed her panties were soaking wet and I grabbed her by her hair and yanked her face to mine. I told her I was done with her fucking childish bull shit and she better either finish shopping in the next 10 minutes or she could walk her fucking happy ass home. I also told her that she better fucking make this god damn trip worth it. I remember walking away and standing outside and not really thinking about any of the consequences luckily no one is around to hear any of this. She quickly rushed around and purchased some close and then we went to the food court to eat where I was not in a great mood. She tried to act all concerned and pleasing but I was just not having any of her shit and knew this was now a ploy. After we left she got into the car and gave me some of the best road head I've ever had. At the time is pretty pissed so when she started go for my pants I slapped her fucking hands away more interested in abusing her then actually having sex. Although a few a few moments she decided to say that she was trying to make up for her mistakes so I decided to let her do that and see where it would lead. We ended up driving for a while and I went down some back dirt roads until I found a secluded area. I got out cock flopping around like a Flagstaff walked around and yanked her by her hair out of the vehicle. I shoved her over the hood and proceeded to have my way with her and came in her for the very first time unprotected. She must've orgasm two or three times during this. I told her it was her fucking problem that my cum was running down her fucking thighs and none of it better get on my seats by the time I got her home.

4/23/2017 1:46:00 PM: I do love spending a lot of time finding out what girls are scared of. I’m not really sure why have this fascination but I do and it always leads to some crazy things. This is several years ago and I was online talking to a girl who was into being con-sensually raped. We discussed her interests her personal life and a lot of other things I think she’d gotten to the point that she believed that I was just another player in the grand scheme of things. Which frankly with some girls I want them to feel this way but just depends. Finally I decided it was time to meet her and vetted enough of her photos to prove to me she wasn’t some 8000 pound dependapotomus. We discussed one of her fantasies about being raped out in public and I knew her run route because she was very open about that very quickly in our discussions. Unfortunately her route was a little bit too public for my tastes and I really didn’t want to be interrupted or explain what the hell was going on. I found an alternative place and checked it out for a few days before deciding I would tell her where to go. I kind of gave her this nonchalant run over here comments and talked the place up even though it wasn’t much different than where she was running. Unfortunately she said she was going to run that day and I couldn’t get out there but ultimately this suited my needs anyways. She ran the trail and said how wonderful it was and explained a few things after some gentle questioning to make sure she’d actually gone there. I also knew her running schedule pretty well from texting with her. Two days later I was all set and at the time I had a quite of an extensive bondage kit at this point so I threw it in one of my black bags and headed out there well before her typical time running. I figured I wouldn’t use much but one never knows when creativity will strike. I remember bringing Cliff bars and ample amount of water so I was good to go while waiting for this dumb bitch to come. Honestly I’m not sure how long I was out there for it must’ve been at least two or three hours. This really wasn’t too much of an issue for me and I just relaxed and enjoyed the wildlife. I had also packed in a small bag along with my larger bag and made sure to please up all my trash and protect some precious cargo, because I really didn’t want to leave anything in case this crazy bitch decided to claim rape afterwards. I’m not much for a signed contract and I had all our conversations but still you never know these days who’s fucking going to lose their shit. She came around the corner at a decent jog and I almost wasn’t fast enough to jump out but I tackled her driving her to the ground across from me. I had pre-checked the ground for anything dangerous like hidden stumps which was good because she did go down like a sack of potatoes. She was relatively confused and this gave me enough time to get the handcuffs on but once I got those on she starts struggling and screaming. I grabbed her by the neck and mouth yanked her around as she kicked and pulled a rag out of my pocket and shoved it in her mouth. Then I wrapped my hand in her hair and grabbed the back of her shirt and start dragging her off in the bushes off the trail a ways. She tried to spit the rag out a few times and I had to persuade her by a punch in the gut to leave it in place. I finally grabbed one of the arms and drug her fasts where I was going because the whole hair pulling thing really wasn’t working with the shirt. As much as I like to induce pain I’m not really into short haired girls and I knew she liked hair pulling but that wasn’t my main focus. Once I got got her back to the location I’d chosen I pulled out a panel gag and locked it around her head basically silencing her. I had to step down on her wrist to keep her from moving around too much which had to be painful as hell and drew a little bit of blood from the cuffs. After that I set about tying both of her legs apart between two trees and then putting a collar around her neck and tying that off to a third tree. She had turned into a nice little open fuck triangle. I spent about a half an hour beating on her tits, which made her extremely wet. I had pulled her shirt up over her head for this little event and her running shorts were soaked through. I took a knife out and cut her shorts off of course she wasn’t wearing any panties like she said she normally doesn’t. She said that was for easy access but I don’t really think she thought I was going to cut her shorts off because she looked pretty pissed at that point. Considering she was a little pissed I decide slap her pussy for a while until she went back to crying. I finally got my pants off and started rubbing my cock making it very hard as I watched her squirm all the while I randomly hit portions of her body. I knew this next little event she wanted badly but I also wanted her to be in absolute terror and up to this point it was just a little bit of foreplay. Her tits had little striped bloody bruises and gashes and her exposed little crotch wasn’t doing much better. AI rummaged in my bag and pulled out one of those large plastic candy tubes. You know the ones that hold M&Ms or holiday candy. The see-through ones which had a little treat in there for her but not what she was expecting. She really didn’t see what I was doing and couldn’t really see what was in the tubes at the time. I got down between her legs and put a condom on and started rubbing my cock up and down her sore pussy. I put the tubes between her legs up against her thighs so she could feel them but not quite see what they were. I picked up the tubes and I laid both of them on her chest as I leaned forward onto my elbows and positioned myself to slide into her while she was looking up towards the sky sobbing. I pressed my cock against her pussy and then held one of the tubes clearly above her eyes so she could have a look into it. Have you ever realized when you’re looking for something you always see around you will never find what you’re looking for when you want it. This is especially true for any kind of spider sure you can find the little Fuckers in your house anytime you don’t want them around but if you try to catch a few thy are nowhere in sight. I had actually started collecting generic house spiders for little while because I didn’t want anything obviously dangerous or poisonous for this event. It had taken me about a week to really acquire enough spiders to be useful and they’d start building webs a little bit in the tubes. Luckily in the South you can basically get bugs by the pound outside so that been pretty well fed. Well you can guess what happened when she saw what was in the tube. She started realizing what it was and her eyes went wide which made me slam straight into her and the screaming and bucking commenced like you wouldn’t believe. I really hadn’t said much other than a few choice naughty words that every girl seems to get wet to. She had clamped down on me so hard I thought it was a vice grip of death. I didn’t have to do much because she was doing all the rocking and humping as I slowly started to release her new pets onto her chest. She freaked and squealed as if she was being murdered and I poured them onto her body specifically her tits. These were little harmless guys but I’d slid my knees underneath her legs as she bucked hard so I grabbed onto her thighs and let her ride me until I nearly split the condom. Didn’t take long for the spiders to haul ass but she really didn’t stop moving for a long time. I think that was probably the most exhausting 15 minutes of her existence. Like normal I didn’t get an organism from any of this although it wasn’t from a lack of trying on either one of our parts. When it comes to condoms I can pretty much not orgasm for days. I got off of her and dug through the bag again and pulled out a burlap sack. She just lay there crying panting in breathing with snot running down her face and over my nice gag. I wiped her face up and actually cleaned out her nose some paper towels. I slid the bag under her head and she wasn’t quite sure what the hell was going on but she was too exhausted to fight. I got back down between your legs and reentered her which she just made a bear moan over her head lulling in her eyes glazed over. If I remember correctly she actually orgasmed at some point during the whole ordeal with the spiders if I recall correctly. I started kneading on her clit a bit which induced a little bit of moaning from her. I played with her for a while and started fucking her while I licked and bit her nipples. Eventually I got her to orgasm for me but it was a very light orgasm and I don’t think she had much energy to either fake it or even have one. I picked up the tube I had left in reserve as she lay there dazed and confused. I made sure the burlap sack was pulled down further and over her eyes then I uncapped the top and shoved it along the side of her head pulling the drawstrings on the sack and closing her head in with the spiders. Again I went through the whole jerking and bucking on my cock that felt so good. She screamed bucked and rolled her head back and forth trying to smash what was inside of the sack with her. It was pure glory as she lost her shit again. Eventually I pulled out of her while she was bucking around and pulled off the condom and started masturbating. When I was about to climax I undid the bag with one hand and yanked it off her head and then came on her hair and face. I did check her hair and face for spiders afterwards and said they were all gone. I then started packing everything up undid her legs and the cuffs around her wrists. She just lay there and I left the leather collar unlocked but fastened around her neck still tied the tree. Walking off I said I would see her again sometime. She contacted me about 48 hours later and said she had a amazing time and absolutely hated me for the spiders which she had accidentally let loose that spiders made her panicky but she wasn’t allergic to them or anything. This is why you talk to your prey before doing anything. Unfortunately I didn’t get another chance with her because of a engagement another location not involving sex.

12/22/2016 3:56:10 AM: Spent some time up in Atlanta with friends, had a great time, but when we started home wasn't so fun.   Wear your seat belt because I found one person who walked away, and the other head first in passenger seat floorboard. Both cars had the airbags deploy, but that doesn't mean you will stay safe.Two things to remember when you get on scene of a wreck call emergency service. People video taped, and I yelled for someone to call 911, the only people who did were myself, and later a nurse that stopped and assisted until Fire arrived. The other thing is if you aren't able to help because you have no medical skills, secure the scene get visible, and use your lights on your gear to light up the incident. Keep no responders back, and sometimes not touching a victim and calling is better then using bandage and tourniquets. 2 and I basically protected 1 as best we could by slowing as much traffic down as we could. Go slow past accidents, don't stare and video tape because the second accident happened because of that while we were there, and get out of the way. Luckily that one was a fender bender.

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5/29/2014 1:49:43 AM: I will be occupied with someone for now.