3/19/2018 4:42:06 AM: What a weekend...  Last Saturday Mistress came into the city to spend the weekend with me. I had a bad week at work and had to work loads to solve issues and negotiate stuff, but in the end I solved some things and my management decided to give a percentage of a settlement that will be finalised in the coming weeks. So Mistress felt I needed some fun and games and more importantly, retail therapy!!! She came to my apartment she told me I would be allowed to forget most rules (respect and good judgement stayed of course) and just be her girlfriend again like before. She did tell me that she was still the one with final say on things, but for all intends and purposes I was for now sort of free... Except for the chastity belt, that would be staying on. Can't have everything I guess, but I was allowed to relax and not worry about her rules that much.  Most of the Saturday we spent shopping (my spending limit was also lifted, YAY!!) so we both enjoyed ourselves and were spending way more than normal. Had a nice lunch and went for great sushi dinner together. After dinner Mistress and I took a taxi and in the taxi I was ordered to put in blinding contact lenses. Clearly I was back into slave-mode. After we stopped, Mistress ordered someone to take care of our bag and led me into the hotel. She apparently had been there before to check in because she did not have to go by the reception and quickly led me into the lift. During the ride up she and I made out and she tweaked my nipples a bit making them stand at attention. She walked me to the door and pushed my head against the wall, pulled my ass back, spread my legs a bit and pulls my hands behind my back. She told me to stay as she went into the room, leaving me there all exposed in a position that clearly said 'obedient slut waiting for her owner'. After a little while (sense of time is the first to go when I loose my sight and get 'handled') she came back and pulled me into the room.  Mistress told me to remove my dress but leave my heels and stockings. She put me in cuffs and tied me spread eagle to the bed... She played with my nipples and kissed me all over. She then gave me the biggest surprise of the day, when she opened the lock of my chastity belt and helped me out of it... By this time, I was in full heat and begging her to touch me, lick me or do whatever she wanted.. My begging was soon silenced when she gagged me with a ring gag forcing me to stay open, silent and drooling. Mistress moved off the bed and I heard her remove her clothes and move around a bit. She told me to start begging her for her touch and I tried to do best I could, bound and gagged as I was.... and she obliged me and I felt her hands on me.... quickly joined by another pair of hands!!! We were not alone and I was being touched by 2 people.!!!! I freaked out and pulled in vain on my restraints. Mistress came in close and whispered that I should relax and accept what was happened, as I was not in any position to do anything about it anyways. She kissed me deeply as I felt a MAN (stubble) starting to kiss my thighs.  I know some of you would like all the intimate details of the night, but lets just say it was hot as fuck and I was allowed to cum multiple times, I got DP-ed, I was fucked with a strap-on as I sucked this man (spit roasted) and I got to listen as Mistress had her pussy licked and was fucked till she came a few times too (does that make me a cuckqueen of sorts). After we were all spend, Mistress let the man leave before she untied me (at the time I was in a hogtie on the ground) and let me remove my contacts. After ward she locked back up in chastity and we talked and cuddled some more before we drifted of to sleep together.  Sunday I woke Mistress by going down on her and occasionally asking her for info on who the mystery man of last night was, but she never told me anything more than that it was all safe. She also told me he knew me but I did not really know him.... So I guess someone that I know from somewhere got to use me this weekend and I will never know who (unless you are reading this and want to tell me!!!) The Sunday we spend with more shopping and stuff.  All in all a great weekend and I am just so happy Mistress allowed me to cum as much as she and Mr. X did. I am such a lucky slave and am so totally in love with the life Mistress is creating for me. Mistress truly is a gem and the best I can ever have wished for... Thank you so much Mistress, I love you with whole my heart and whole my being. YOUR jennie!

2/13/2018 3:32:57 AM: Hello all, by order of my Mistress i have to post this. As some of you know Mistress meassured me for a Neosteel chastitybelt a while back and ordered one for me. Unfortunately the order was not lost in the mail or anything and it arrived last week. This weekend Mistress put it on me and locked me in it. :-(( I accept Mistress’ wishes for me to wear one but this slave truly hates it. As a ‘getting used period‘ Mistress has decided to keep me in it till next weekend. She has left me a locked box with the key in it that she can remotely open, So I can clean myself at home (cameras will make sure I do not misbehave obviously).And for the people that want to know, I am partly ‘stuffed’ as Mistress added a remote controlled buttplug to my new ‘lifestyle accessory’. 

1/4/2018 2:38:15 AM: During the holidays I spent a lot of time with my Mistress. She took time out of her life to be with me, train me and allowed me to serve her. And I am very grateful that she did. After the holidays I had to get back to work and the first day was really rough on me. I needed my Mistress and her guiding hand but she was otherwise engaged. I let her know that I needed her and wanted to serve her and loved her, etc more than more that day in emails and texts. In fact in about 20 to 25, well... 36 messages to be precise about it. I did so knowing she was busy. Mistress likes that I wanted to serve her, but was less pleased with me repeatedly letting her know this. That night she told me she found me a bit needy today and that I would be punished for intruding on her day as much as I did. She did not punish me that night and told me it would come soon.    The next day was a better day for me. I managed to focus a bit more on work and learned some more about what I was feeling (most likely a delayed form of sub-drop). Early afternoon I was called into a conference room for an ad hoc meeting with the CEO. Not a big deal, happens from time to time when needs an update or something. I get to the conference room and enter it only to be greater by not just the CEO but also my Mistress. All alarms instantly go off for obvious reasons and I feel my professional attitude change to a fully submissive one. I close the door and I automatically remain there standing still, looking down and slowly putting my hands behind my back and shuffling my feet apart, till I am in a position I know Mistress likes for me to wait in. Mistress comes up to me tells me that I was being an annoying needy little cunt yesterday and that I was about to be punished right now and right here... She grabs a hand of my hair and pulls me to the table. She pushes me forward over it and I am order to spread my legs as she pulls up my skirt. I am told to not close my eyes and that my boss will be checking if I don’t. With that he comes over and takes a seat right in front of me on the opposite side of the conference table. Mistress then starts spanking me... slowly building up intensity till she is warmed up and she just lays into me. Spanking me hard and fast as she repeatedly tells me I am not allowed to be a needy cunt and demand her time... Tears well up in my eyes as she punished me and I keep looking forward to my boss who is just sitting there watching me being being punished right there in his place of business. After what feels like an hour Mistress stops and orders me kneel upright in a corner with my hands on my head and my bare butt exposed. I crawl to the nearest corner and do as I am told (not easy as my leg muscles were like jelly at that moment). I remain kneeling as I hear my boss and Mistress talk about how I just went into a submissive mode when I got in and how I kept looking at him and some other stuff... After a few minutes Mistress calls me to her and I crawl over (legs did not really want to support me yet). She hold my head up and she smiles and tell me I was a good girl today and how proud she is that I took an appropriate position automatically and stuff... I just cry and look at her, just happy she is here and putting back in my proper place. I can’t even be bothered by the reality of this happening in the middle of the day at work with my boss watching us. I am just there for her and that’s all that matters at that moment. She also tells me she was very upset with me about my behavior the day before and she felt that I robber my boss of a days worth of work. As olsen said I needed to imprint it a bit further into my mind that I am not the one that gets to demand attention. She orders me to not bill the previous days work to the boss and to write lines... 250 times by hand and 250 typed by hand to send to her by midnight. Following section is a partial cut and pasted from the digital version...      1. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 2. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 3. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 4. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 5. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 6. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time7. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 8. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 9. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 10. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 11. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 12. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 13. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 14. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 15. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 16. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 17. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 18. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 19. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time 20. I should not be a needy little cunt and bug Mistress all the time   I told her I was sorry while kissing her shoes and feet and begged to forgive this stupid slave. She did and send me back to my desk to continue my work for the rest of the day. When I got home I started working hard on the lines and did not even dream about copy-pasting the digital lines.    Mistress, I am so sorry for being a little cunt and trying to demand your time and attention. I hope you are satisfied with my lines and I did not inconvenience you too much by having to come down to my work to punish me. If I did I will happily accept any punishment you deem suitable. I am also very sorry for wasting the time of my boss. He also deserves better and I will not bill him for this whole week. I have also posted this to my journal so everyone can read about my stupid behavioiur. I hope this will please you too Mistress. I love you and I will do better in the future.                       

12/31/2017 4:12:38 AM: Yesterday was a special day. Mistress and I are attending a New Years eve party in the city today and Mistress did not feel like driving too much. So she told me she would be staying at my apartment for 2 nights. I cleaned my house, put my nicest sheets on the bed, shaved and everything else you might expect to do when your owner comes to you. As soon as she let me know she was looking for a parking space, I got naked and kneeled in position by the door waiting for her. After about 15 minutes I heard her heels comes closer and then the her key in the lock... I kept looking down as I felt my heartbeat quicken a beat. My mind raced, did I not forget anything... The door opened and there she was, my owner. She passed me as she stepped in and let her fingers slide through my hair. I hear her toss her coat on the table and walking around the place. I don't move and do not say a word, no speaking unless spoken to. She calls me to her as she sits down on the sofa and tell me to relax and run her feet. The mood relaxes a bit as I rub her feet and we chat a bit about all sort of simple things. I fetch her a drink and around 6, she gets up and walks into my bedroom, leaving me in the living. I hear her snap her fingers and I quickly move to join her in the bedroom, I drop to my knees and bow forward at her feet. On the bed I have put out a few items she ordered me to get.10 feet of steel chain, pliers, spare steel links, screw-in eyelets, 3 small padlocks and some other bits and pieces. She asks me if I have everything she ordered and I confirm I did. She says 'up' and I raise to an upright kneeling position (training really works!) and she slimes down at me and pats my head 'good girl'  I cannot help but blush and smiles as I hear her praise. She tells me to wrap one end of the chain around the leg of the bed and to fix it with one of the locks. As I do, I see from the corner of my eye that Mistress pulls out a familiar box and puts it on the bed. I know this box, this is the box that has the collar in it. The real one... the elegant one... the one I cannot touch. My heart skips a beat and I quickly secure the chain and let Mistress know I am done. She smiles and tells me to put on my black and white dress, stay ups, no panties (bra is not even an option as it is so tight) and put in the remote controlled vibe she got me. I quickly get dressed and put the vibe in me. Hhhmmmm shoes.... Mistress likes heels, so I take a pair of black stiletto heels and put them on. As I bend forward to put them on I feel the vibe kick in.... and I nearly fall over. Mistress is standing in the door opening, she chuckles as I regain my balance. I smile at her and as she turns the vibe back down I put on the other heel. I move to stand before her and present myself for inspection. She runs her hands over me and appears pleased. I hear her snap her fingers and point down followed by a making a circle with her thumb and ring finger. I move into a high kneeling position and draw my hair to one side, hold it up and hang my head forwards. My heart is fluttering as I she Mistress open that box and take out the collar. She comes to me and places it around my neck and locks it in place. She tells me to stand and to follow her. We go in the bathroom and she hands me one of those small contact lens containers. I look at her puzzled and she orders me to put them in. I nod and proceed to take out my own lenses and I open the new set. Weird... they are painted to look like green eyes. I dismiss it and I figure these are costume lenses to give the wearer a different eye colour. I put the first one in and I can't believe it... I instantly go nearly blind in that eye. I turn to Mistress and she quickly orders me to put in the other one too. I take a deep breath as I feel my mind slowly go foggy. I put in the second one and I am all but blind. I see some light but not much more. I feel Mistress grabbing my wrists and pulling my hands behind my back. She leans in and explains she knows I have issues with wearing a collar in public because of what people might say and how they may look at me. She tells me this will help me overcome at least part of those issues. I nod slowly and let out a small whimper as she leads me out the bathroom. I have NEVER felt this vulnerable even in the comfort of my own home. Someone taking away your vision is just such a mind altering thing. I cannot even explain it. I feel Mistress turning up the vibe and letting me go... She tells me she is going to get the car and I hear the door close. I am left standing there, blinded, unstable stilettos and a vibe buzzing my clit and g-spot with no way to see if my dress is still low enough or if I am showing 'leakage'. After about 10 minutes the door opens but nothing is said. Because of the heels I assume it is Mistress. She takes my arm and slowly pulls me along and we get to the stairs (darn, I love my home but it on the second story so in this situation I am completely helpless). She helps me find my footing and I slowly make it down the stairs and to the street. She helps me into the car and I am so sure my neighbours have gotten an eye full as I was helped into her Range Rover. She puts the seatbelt on me and closes the door. As she gets in I softly beg permission to speak but she tells me to hush. I take deep breaths as I feel my mind get cloudier and cloudier... After about 20 minutes (purely guessing) we arrive somewhere and I feel my door opening while Mistress is still in the car. I freak and turn my head to Mistress (no use to look if you cannot see, but try telling that to a brain that is used to having sight as an available sense). I hear someone say 'please take my hand Miss'. I am so freaking out as I hear mistress' voice speak up and tell whoever is there 'I'll help her out of the car myself, she is blind and a bit of a handful'. My mind is all over the place... you just cannot imagine. I'm a mess... Than I hear Mistress and feel her taking my legs and hands and helping me out of the car. I stand there unsteadily as I hear her say 'Oowww look at you... I knew that dress would be a bad idea. Pull it down you silly girl. I don't understand why you insisted on wearing it'. I blush a crimson red I have never reached before and quickly pull down my dress unaware on what they may or may not have seen but fearing the worst. I feel Mistress taking my arm and leading me into a busy place. The smell was amazing and I hear someone welcome us to Zuma and ask about a reservation. Mistress and the other person talk a bit before I feel her pull me along by the arm. We stop and I feel a chair being pushed behind my legs and I am told to sit. I sit down and get pushed to a table. Mistress orders a few drinks and then turns to me. She informs me she and I are about to have dinner here and she will be feeding me. People will be watching me and they will just see a beautiful blind girl that is being fed her meal. They will see me with my collar around my neck and the lock in the back. I will not be able to see anyone looking or even staring at me. I will not know what I will be eating, what the next bite will be, hot or cold, spicy or sweet, no way to prepare for a taste or texture in my mouth. I will have no control over anything that goes into my mouth or who puts it there. I will be totally dependant on her, my owner, for everything for the rest of the evening! And with that she pushes up the vibe to a higher setting making my mind melt as the feelings and my total dependency on her, clash and sink in.... she controls me in everything... even my ability to see is dependant on her. I am so hers.... so totally hers.!   The rest of the evening was filled with great food and a few drinks. I have no idea who looked at me, how I looked or what was on display and frankly I could not care.... Mistress kept me on edge the whole time with her words, the teasing and the running vibe, but I was with my Mistress and she wanted me this way and that is all that matters.I love you Mistress with my whole heart.... you own me, completely and totally, I hope I can make you proud of me.

12/23/2017 5:24:01 AM: Unbelievable, someone saved a copy of my journal in their email and send it to me. Thank you so much S. :-)PART 1Mistress told me she would be picking me up on Saturday and gave me no indication of the plans she had. I love it that she takes the time to come into the city for me and not just orders me to come to her (something I would happily do of course). since I had no idea about what she had planned, I felt it was best for Mistress to decide on my clothing. I showered, did my hair, my makeup (Lightly as she likes it) and laid out a few different sets of clothing for her to choose from. I waited till she was there in the nude. When she got to my apartment I assumed the position she wants me in (on my knees, legs spread, hands on the small of my back, eyes down and my head turned slightly to the left). Mistress got in and said I looked good like that, I could not help but smile and blush a bit, I love getting praise from her. :-) I asked permission to speak and explained to her why I was not dressed yet. She left me kneeling by the door and went to select some clothes for me to wear. I had out four sets all with skirts or dresses and nice (highly option) lingerie and heel. Mistress normally takes me to places looking like this so I was sure she would find something she would like me to wear. Suddenly she shouted for me to heel to her in my bedroom. I got up and ran to her and my new position. She told me to put on the second set. My LBD (Little black dress), a pair of heels and a simple thong. I quickly got dressed and presented myself to Mistress for inspection. She approved and told me to put on a coat and walk with her to her car. We start driving and I carefully ask what we will be doing today but I just get a smile in return. After a short drive, we arrive at a location in Kensington. As we stop Mistress tell me to turn to her and hold my hair and she places the lovely silver collar on my (love it when I am allow to have it on.. Makes me all warm and fuzzy) and she then tells me to get out and follow her. We walk to a very nice house and Mistress rings the bell. The door open and a Lady opens to door and invites Mistress in while looking at me with a clear contempt (she gave me the chills.). As we step into the living the lady and Mistress chat a bit and totally ignore me. I hear some kids playing in the back room and carefully scan the room, clearly a wealthy family by the looks of it. I start wondering why Mistress has not introduced me or anything and as I listen to them talk, I suddenly hear the other lady say, ‘what about her... is she one of those?’ All my alarm bells go of... She knows... I also get a lot more self-conscious about the collar around my neck... Mistress nods to the Lady, turns to me, zips my coat open and pulls me forward towards the stand in the middle of them by my collar. She suddenly orders me to kneel... My heart skips a beat and I freeze for second before dropping to my knees. She explains to the other Lady I am not completely trained yet but very obedient and good with kids and pets like me. They laugh and I am very uncomfortable... Mistress order me to take of my coat and to stand. I do... She tells me to get into the inspection position... I follow my orders and she follows them up with a few more other positions... Then turns back to the Lady and says ‘see, perfectly obedient already... She is very easy to work with and eats a decent pussy now’. I feel my cheeks flush crimson as I stand there listening how they discuss me. The lady than turns to me and tells me to join the kids in the other room and to where to find the instructions... I am puzzled and look at Mistress. She smiles and casually yells me I’ll be minding the kids and dogs till they come back from x-mass shopping. With that I am dismissed to go read the instructions the Lady left for me. I read them and I let them know I understood the rules. After which Mistress asked the Lady if she was good to go and they turned away from me and left. Leaving me with the kids (3,5 and 6) and the 2 dogs... In a strange house, with kids that we’re acting like they drank 3 red bull’s each just before I got there...). To be honest I was less than happy about this... but Mistress was already gone. So grudgingly I started minding the kids and stuff... after 8 (!!!) hours Mistress and the Lady returned and I was pretty much dead on my feet and was close to tears. The Lady asked if her kids we alright and if I had messed anything up. I politely gave her a report and she just listened and then ignored me as Mistress came towards me and clipped leash onto my collar. They exchanged some more small talk and Mistress hugged her and started walking pulling me along by the leash, through the door and into the street. Her car was fortunately double parked close by and when she told me to get in, I quickly got in. Mistress also got in and we drove away. After a few minutes of silence, I kind of cracked... and I started sobbing a bit. Mistress asked me why I was sobbing and I told her about the kids and the fact the I did not like it that she just outed me to this strange Lady, how unworthy she made me feel, how she just made me watch someone else’s kids and that I wanted to be with her and please her and..... Mistress suddenly hit the brakes and reaches over to me. One hand pulling on my hair and forcing my head against the headrest and with the other she gave me a series of hard slaps on my cheek. All the while berating me about my role in life and the fact that I am in her service and not there to only do fun stuff with her... That I needed to understand I was a mere thing to be used as she saw fit and that it is up to her to decide on how I am to please her.... I was stunned, shocked and crying... She opened the glovebox and took out a blindfold, steel police style handcuffs and a ball gag. She forced the gag in place and secured it. Then she ordered me out of the passenger seat and into back (and no I do not mean the backseat, but the boot). I was to get in, put the blindfold on and lock my wrists together behind my back. If I did not do it within 30 sec she would come out and ‘help’ me. I have never seen her like this or heard her like this. So, with the gag still in place and in my hands the blindfold and cuffs, I quickly got out of my seat, opened the boot and crawled quickly into the travel cage.... (very glad it was already dark out!), I quickly closed the boot and put on the blindfold and locked my hands together behind my back as Mistress started driving again....