Goodness; just did another addition to my profile.
As I go I learn.
Not sure what I'm learning in this new chapter though?
Wow, finally got a long over-due upgrade on my profile.
Please read on, including the 2 journal entries.
Thank you
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Right now I'm just checking this out. Never heard of it before today. So, hi.� :)
As I go, I learn.
I am shocked at # of messages I receive.
I would need another 100 hours in my week, just to read them all.
And probably another 200 hours to respond to each one.
Please do not take offence should I not respond. Nothing personal.
Presently only communicating with one bad person. Thank you.
As I go, I learn.
I hope my above profile clearly states 4 things:
1 - I have a very busy "real life", as compared to this "cyber life"
2 - for someone to never expect a response from me just because you sent me one.
If this is a problem for you to understand, then please read the above sentence again.
3 - I'm presently only seriously communicating with one man,that will surely be the one.
If you have to ask, then you all ready know its not u.
And if your short name does not start with the Alpha letter 'A', then u really know its NOT you.
4 - what I'm really doing on here lately is looking for another submissive woman to hopefully be friends with. i want to ask questions and now learn things through the mind of a woman, rather than a know-it-all man.
So, if you have any sub women friends, please pass my name on to them and hopefully a new friendship will be born.
Thanks in advance to all real doms out there. :)
As I go, I learn.
My curiosities have been leading me down 2 new paths for some time now.
1 - being a Milk Maid (could help me in my work with very young children?)
2 - hypnosis (it could help me overcome my personal barriers?)
A little more on my Milk Maid intentions:
Most of my female friends/ co-workers think I'm nuts for wanting to milk
(so I don't talk to them about it anymore)
On positive side one friend, and my teenage daughter encourages me.
Quite 2nd to above, don't quite know how to work this in but also realize I have;
- daddy issues (my daddy use to spank me red)
- spanking desires (for some crazy reason spankings make me shamefully aroused)
- humiliation needs (daddy use to call me very shameful names)
- forced exhibition fantasies
- forced passed around to friends fantasies (in my culture that might happen sometimes)
Definitely not a slave, but definitely submissive in heart and soul beliefs.
Definitely NOT what I hear called a pain slut (spankings not withstanding)
Over time I've seen some very disgusting stuff on here, why do I awake next day thinking about it, thinking I need that, desiring it, fantasizing about it?
I think much of the above is sick but can no longer deny I fantasize it.
A friend told me my profile was just an excuse for a bitch who really needs a good old fashioned spanking.
A spanking that shouldn't stop until I to agree with everything a man says.
"LIVE FOR IT"
- Humiliation
- Hypnotism
- Buddhism
"LOVE IT"
- Spanking
- Body Worship
- Breast Play
"LIKE IT"
- Obedience Training
- Playing Doctor/ medical play
- Body Worship
*Talk about life throwing curves you could never see coming*
I find myself attached to a one-time straight dominant man,
who's come full circle and has intense desires to be dominated, trained by a man.
I'd love to watch that!
* I just had a new point brought to my attention:
I'm certainly not here to offend anyone.
I've made my profile as detailed as I felt necessary or needed, IE, my interests etc
To the point; should someone ask me a question I've already answered in my profile, please do not expect me to take the time to answer your question.
This is not me being rude, it is just me trying to be as efficient with my time as I know how.
Further up in my profile I did mention that this is my cyber life, not my much busier real life, but I now agree that this was not maybe clear enough.
And to all or any that I may have offended, my apologies for that.
Thank you.
dog fucker
