Life is an ever changing whirlwind of chance encounters and unrealized possibilities.  Sometimes you get presented with possibilities that are just too incredible to give up on, no matter how impossible it may seem to hold on, no matter how long you have to wait to realize the dream laid out in front of you.  Sadly this often ends in a broken heart filled with pain and regret.  Sometimes though, even when it doesn't work out, you can let go before it's too late, and instead of losing heart and losing hope it can help to remind you that wonderful beautiful connections are still out there to be made.  That the world is full of incredible and interesting people, sometimes you just have to give them a chance and get to know the real person behind the profile.  I still believe in true love, that it is something we can find, that we have to work to keep it and fight to protect it, its not guaranteed, but it is out there.  Perhaps I will find it again, perhaps I'll just find fun and friends and kinky adventures.  I won't know until I look.

Not a lot of people seem to be able to flow with my stream of consciousness.  I have the tendency to go from serious philosophical intensity to light-hearted silliness to extreme distcintive geekiness with little to no warning.  I enjoy the ebb and flow of a good conversation or a good old fashioned discussion.  Perhaps I will never find a counter balance to my spinning wheel of mercurial energy, then again, perhaps its more fun to spin faster!

The search goes ever onward.