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Im a 32 year old female looking for a Domestic Disciplinarian, Daddy Dom, or something between the two. I am not looking for an online realtionship. I have to have time in person with the Man in my life. I am looking for a deep connection, something that will be REAL and lasting. Not interested in hook ups or casual sex, no NSA or FWB, please. I am VERY mich into being spanked. I need someone i can have a high level of both trust and fear for. It plays an active role in several areas of my life. The endorphins, the release, keeping me grounded, behaviour modification, and though its only a small part of what i get from it, i would be lying if i denied the sesual aspect.

One of the most attractive things in a man is to see that he is family oriented. A man who wants to lead, provide for, nurture, teach, discipline, spend time with, and show love for his family is so sexy and a turn on. In lots of ways, i am quite old fashioned, but also a bit of a free spirit. I am often refered to as a brat by even those without any knowledge of the lifestyle. And sometimes, i tend to be a SAM. Those two things have often gotten me into trouble, but for me, its all in fun. I like to laugh, and play, and enjoy the company of my fiends and family. I love making people laugh. My bratty side mostly consists of being mischievous, cheeky, coy, and a bit of a tease, and sometimes i tend to dabble in paractical jokes. The intent is to make people laugh and smile, and ocasionally to gain a little bit of attention in the of a funishment. On the other hand, i can be quite sensitive, and moody at times. That is my need for the release and endorphins. When i get that need met, it helps me to stay sweet and have a more clear head and perspective. I would much rather ask for that release when needed than to end up in real trouble for my attitude. Thats not to say that my mouth isnt sometimes an enemy to my backside.

Also, i have been hurt, both childhood traumas and adult traumas. Please do not be offended if my trust for you takes a while to grow and develop. Likewise if i test your trust, i need someone who can understand that, and not let his ego get in the way of taking me under his wing, and making me feel safe and secure, and loved. I have been known to push people away at times. I crave for someome (somoene safe of course) to gently call me out on that, and hold me and make me know that i am cherrished and that he wont let me push him away. I dont just enjoy submitting as a way to please my Man, i need and crave for my submission to meet the approval of someone and to be the apple of his eye. I gush when im told im a good girl or when someone says they are proud of me. The doting is something i very much want to earn from my Sir. I would love someome who is both very firm and harsh when needed, but also very gentle and tender. Someone who disciplines affectionately and respectfully, while still delivering a very sound spanking and talking to. I am ok with some other s of punishment, as long as its not a limit or triggering to my trauma issues. Sexual punishemnts, uncluding anal punishment are a hard limit for me though.

I am kinda a country girl. I love to go to the lake, swimming, fishing, camping, cookouts, soending time with fiends and family, road trips. I can tend to be a little too adventous and carefree for my own good, or other times i WAY overanylse things, and think myself into a hole. Sometimes im quiet, and need to be alome to recharge, relax, and reflect. There may be times when one word answers are all that i seem to have to offer, and other times when you cant seem to shut me up. I can be very bubbly, outgoing, and outspoken, and at other times, im too passive, or shy, and get gloomy.On that note, i have fought a major battle with self injury and suicidal thoughts and attempts, due to my ptsd. Im very proud to say i have not made a suicide attempt in almost 4 years, and not self injured in over a year. It took a lot of work, the trauma issues have been so hard at times to work through, but its so freeing to know that most times, i am ok. There are minor glitches here and there that i still have to work through, but its very nice to be able to see the good that came out of some of the darkest times of my life. I am a very resiliant person, so lifes curvballs may throw me off track sometimes, but there is always something to be found to keep me going, and its not in my nature to let the pain and hardships of this life destroy me. This is where me being hard headed and a bit rebellious comes in handy, cause i have enough fight in me that i will use the very thing that someone tried to do to hurt me as a way to learn, grow, and be better and happier. Sometimes i need a bit of a nudge in that direction or for someome to remind me of that fighting spirit i have.

I am quite a full figured girl, and am working on getting that to a more healthy level. I am not the slim trim girl that so many seek, on the same token, i do not wish to settle for maintaining an unhealthy weight to fulfill someones fat girl fantacy. I have a bit of a bum ankle from a couple of achielies thendon repair surgeries that im still healing from. I can walk and stand and do most activities without a problem, but at times have pain and weakness in that ankle.

I tend to be a bit of an introvert sexually until i have bonded with someone in other ways. Those who have allowed me to open up sexually at my own pace, with very little prodding and pressure have been pleasantly surprised at me in that area. I wish to reserve my sexual submission for someone who has shown leadership qualities, in other ways, and who i feel cherishes me as a whole person first.

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8/21/2017 4:52:38 PM
Not feeling myself at all. I'm in a mode where I'm feeling extremely guarded and distant. Partly because it feel safe, but really I do wish I could be more open and flowing in conversation, just kinda feel shut down by things at the moment.

8/20/2017 2:00:35 AM
Thank you so much for the daily profile visits, your obsession with me speaks volumes louder than your ugly words to me.

6/26/2017 12:37:35 AM
What do you call someone who doesnt like you yet keeps checking you out? A fan.

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lostenigma
 
 Age: 33
 Odessa, Texas