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Hooked up to dialysis machine feeling really tired now think I'm going to sign out of here sleep if anyone is reading this all I want is for everyone to have fun and be safe thank you |
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Sitting Outdoors now in the cold well chili anyway lit a candle for my dog and I still miss him I feel like he may have been the last bit of my Humanity I remember when I used to smile every time when I saw him used to have separation anxiety and I would hold him when I got home from dialysis some would say he's just a dog but he was more than that he was my friend he would listen to me and even though he couldn't speak English he still told me that he loved me so the least I can do is sit here by his grave and talk to him and tell him that he was the best dog because he was he made me enjoy life now I just feel so empty I think that I pretend to be happy because people always tell me I need to go see someone to talk about it but there's not really much to talk about he was my best friend and no amount of money no amount of anything can ever bring him back I've gotten to the point where I can't stand most people I just want to reach out and hit them maybe I just need a little rest. |
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I hope everybody's doing well this weekend I'm still mourning the loss of my poodle but slowly starting to get better about it I just find it amazing how a dog that I did not want or did not even want want to know stole my heart I remember making a promise to him and I told him that I would never ever hurt him and I would never abandon him sometimes I feel like I failed in a little guy but I remember when he was looking out the window that Monday like he knew that it was his time I can only keep hoping that he's in a better place and that he's happy well I hope everybody's weekend goes well and be safe |
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My dear little poodle died last Monday he was my world my baby now he is gone it hurts so much R I P little buddy I love you so much.Damien was his name he was an angel. |
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it is really hard to make friends here |
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YOU KNOW IT SAD WHEN YOU TALK TO YOUR SELF AND YOU SAY SHUT THE HELL UP |
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WOW I JUST REALIZE I HAVE NO FRIENDS HERE HUH....WELL AT LEAST MY POODLE LIKES ME ..NAH HE ONLY LIKES MY LEG..."COME HERE YOU LITTLE BALL OF POOF. |
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