I keep day dreaming of my being put under with anesthesia and full body tattooed as a kitty with ears done as elf ears, kitty whisker piercings, teeth removed for dental implants and more.

Fetishes 

Into: "but.. but.. i wanna bite the sadist!"

 (giving), "is that a dare or a double dare?"

 (everything to do with it), "its maintenance now or discipline later."

, "resting my head in her lap"

 (everything to do with it), "the look" that tells you in no uncertain terms that you have crossed the line and earned a spanking

 (receiving), "wench" as a term of endearment

 (everything to do with it), *meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow*

, ...but i wanna poke the sadist...

 (giving), 24/7, full service submission

 (giving), a girl always ready to roll (her d20)

 (everything to do with it), a girl who can talk d&d to me

 (everything to do with it), a home with a library and a dungeon

, anticipatory service

 (giving), bathing my owner

 (everything to do with it), be careful what you wish for

 (everything to do with it), be carefull what you ask for! *or not ;)*

 (everything to do with it), behavior modification

 (everything to do with it), being a respectful brat

, being a super duper exhibitionist

 (everything to do with it), being bound and displayed publicly

 (wearing), being chained to the bed in diapers at night

 (wearing), being collared and owned like a pet

(everything to do with it), being diapered and caged

 (receiving), being dominated by someone who has a mental strength that doesn't cower to my intelligence, but conquers it

 (everything to do with it), being fed treats for good behaviour : )

 (everything to do with it), being flogged to the point of purring

 (receiving), being held, petted and cuddled

 (everything to do with it), being manhandled expectedly & unexpectedly

 (everything to do with it), being naked and chained 24/7

 (wearing), being on display as property

 (receiving), being pampered by breakfast in bed

 (giving), being pushed up against a wall in a passionate kiss

 (receiving), being scared and turned on at the same time

 (everything to do with it), being tickled while locked in stocks

 (receiving), being told i'm a good little girl

 (everything to do with it), being told i'm a good/pretty kitty

 (everything to do with it), being told you're loved then shoved in a cage

 (receiving), body service: refers to the attention a submissive gives to their dominant's personal hygiene, i.e. bathing, grooming.

 (giving), cages make me feel safe,weird huh??

 (receiving), calliopekittens meowing with out a filter

 (giving), chained to the bed and used as a fuck toy

 (receiving), collar cuffs and ankle cuffs in public

 (wearing), coloring books, play-doh, and bubbles

 (everything to do with it), communication, service, and protocol

 (everything to do with it), cuddlefucking

(receiving), cuddling friends in bed

 (everything to do with it), cuddling my pet while they are bound

 (receiving), cuddling naked

 (everything to do with it), cuffed,bound and gagged on a leash in public

 (everything to do with it), cuffs and being walked on a leash in public

 (receiving), deep meaningful conversation

 (everything to do with it), disney sing-along beatings

 (receiving), domestic service in exchange for sessions

 (giving), don't you "meow" at me with your cat-itude!

 (everything to do with it), dressing like a pirate wench

(wearing), drinking milk out of a bowl like a kitten

 (receiving), drooling over the next camera lens i want.

 (everything to do with it), feline behaviour

(everything to do with it), finding my freedom bound in your chains

 (receiving), finding real love & truth in service

 (everything to do with it), genuine and deep submission, the heartfelt kind that comes from trust, respect, lust, and mental and emotional connection

 (everything to do with it), getting pleasure from pleasing others

 (everything to do with it), hand-feeding as an act of love and service

 (giving), having my kitty wake me meowing and nuzzling

(everything to do with it), having pride in being a good pet

 (everything to do with it), having real conversations with fet-friends

 (everything to do with it), high protocol

, high protocol because i'm socially challenged

, human to animal slave transformation

 (receiving), i am an evil redhead that needs to be spanked

, i love belle vous photos

, inescapable bondage while diapered

(receiving), innocently meowing my way out of trouble

 (everything to do with it), introducing herself as my owner in public

 (receiving), jem and the holograms

 (everything to do with it), keeping kitten bondagewench on a leash

(receiving), kinky friends becoming real life friends

 (everything to do with it), kissing in the rain

 (everything to do with it), kissing while ballgagged

(everything to do with it), kitten bondagewench speaking in meows

 (everything to do with it), kitten bondagewench's loud meows in play

 (everything to do with it), kitty tail butt plugs

 (wearing), knowing that i have pleased you

, larp girls/gamer geeks

 (everything to do with it), late night "pet" walks.

 (receiving), leading by leash attached to chastity device

 (everything to do with it), learning and testing my limits

 (everything to do with it), learning from your mistakes

(everything to do with it), locked in a leather sensory deprivation hood

(wearing), locked in heavy, inescapable metal bondage

 (wearing), long stiletto nails

 (wearing), make her do what she puts on her fetish list

(receiving), making home movies

 (everything to do with it), massage as an act of service submission

 (giving), meeting fetlife friends in real life

 (everything to do with it), negotiation,safe words,and after care

 (everything to do with it), non-sexual cuddling

 (everything to do with it), non-sexual kittenplay

(everything to do with it), not allowed to speak unless spoken to

 (receiving), obedience training

 (receiving), outdoor bondage

 (everything to do with it), owning my mistakes and learning from them

 (everything to do with it), permanently welded on shackles and chains

 (wearing), petting & playing w/ me like i'm a kitten

 (everything to do with it), poking a sadist with the brat stick

 (everything to do with it), polyfidelity marrage

 (everything to do with it), protocol, etiquette, and manners

 (everything to do with it), providing no-cost housekeeping & maid service

 (giving), public expression of service and affection

 (everything to do with it), randomly meowing for no reason

(everything to do with it), realistic 24/7 tpe

 (everything to do with it), receiving treats for being a good kitten

 (receiving), renaissance faires

 (everything to do with it), riveted on shackles

 (wearing), romantic d/s

 (everything to do with it), romantic picnics in the park

 (everything to do with it), rules, rituals, protocols, & structure

, scratches, bites and bruises: the aftermath of a damn good play session

 (everything to do with it), sealed in pallet wrap

 (receiving), seduce my mind my body will follow

 (everything to do with it), service as an act of love, not entitlement

 (giving), service oriented cartaker submissive

 (giving), service-oriented dominance

 (receiving), service-oriented submission

(giving), sound of chains clinking

 (everything to do with it), speaking in meows

(everything to do with it), speech restriction

, stuffing her panties into her mouth

 (receiving), submission is a gift, dominance is an honor

, subs trying to speak while ballgagged

 (everything to do with it), subtle acts of submission in public

 (everything to do with it), swimming naked in the moonlight

(everything to do with it), tethered to a tree/pole

 (receiving), the word "oops" followed by a devious smile

 (everything to do with it), the words "as you wish"

(giving), thuddy impact play

 (receiving), thuddy, deep impact play as a massage

 (receiving), training my pet to properly serve me

 (receiving), transgender rights

 (everything to do with it), trips to build-a-bear

 (everything to do with it), trust that allows you to let go completely

 (everything to do with it), truth, honesty, trust, love and respect

 (everything to do with it), turning board games in to kink games!!!

 (everything to do with it), turning fantasies into realities

 (receiving), vanillas telling me my collar is gorgeous.

 (receiving), walked on leash in public

 (receiving), walking human pets on a leash in public

 (everything to do with it), watching a movie tied up

 (wearing), wearing a collar in public

 (everything to do with it), wearing ears, tail, collar, & leash in public

 (wearing), wearing my kitty collar, ears and tail

 (everything to do with it), when redheads pout - they're stealing a soul

, without the gutter my mind would be homeless

 (everything to do with it), working diligently to earn my collar

 (everything to do with it).

Curious about: enforced bedtime

 (receiving), 24/7 behaviour modification

(receiving), a night of kinky play followed by boardgames.

 (everything to do with it), absolute & inescapable internet enslavement

 (receiving), anal hook chained to collar

 (wearing), axsmar 24/7

 (wearing), bedtime spankings followed by bedtime stories

 (receiving), being a cum kitten for the right person(s)

, being kept in a cage when i'm not being used

 (receiving), being left locked, chained to the wall

 (receiving), being microchipped as a human pet

 (receiving), being milked & fucked by machines in public

 (receiving), being pissed on 

(receiving), being read bedtime stories

, being used as an inanimate object

 (receiving), bellydancing in chains

 (wearing), body modification

 (receiving), body modification & animalization

 (receiving), bubble bath as after care

 (everything to do with it), complete body tattoo

(wearing), cutting her clothes off with a knife

 (receiving), disneyland as aftercare

 (receiving), dressed as a sissy on a leash in public

 (receiving), ear pointing

 (receiving), elf ear modification

 (receiving), extreme body modifications

 (receiving), feeling safe in the arms of someone special

(everything to do with it), gorean slave positions

 (everything to do with it), having a pierced & zippered vagina

 (receiving), having my mouth sutured

 (receiving), henna-umiliation

 (everything to do with it), high protocol events

 (everything to do with it), human animal sex slaves

, human to animal body modification

(receiving), humiliating body modifications

 (receiving), inescapable tickle bondage

 (receiving), kept in inescapable bondage by my loving wife

(wearing), kitty whisker piercings

 (receiving), latex dolly hood and plaster cast mannequin

 (wearing), leashed by her after wedding ceremony

(receiving), leashing our collars together in public

 (everything to do with it), marched out of a restaurant, bent over the car, skirt up, panties down, spanked then taken back inside to finish eating dinner.

 (receiving), microchipped and registered as a pet

 (receiving), mutual chastity/keyholding

 (everything to do with it), my inner voice needs a ball gag

(everything to do with it), my wedding ring is my collar

 (everything to do with it), non-removable collar

 (wearing), oversized collagen lips

 (receiving), patience training

 (receiving), permanent ankle cuffs...with bells

 (wearing), permanent body modification

 (receiving), permanent hair removal

 (receiving), permanent human to animal transformation

 (receiving), permanent locking collars

(wearing), pet shock collar obdience training

 (receiving), pizza, movie and bondage date nights

 (everything to do with it), plaster cast bondage

 (wearing), plastic sugery dollification

 (receiving), playing board games, hands tied behind me

 (everything to do with it), ponygirl training

 (everything to do with it), position training

 (receiving), posture training

 (receiving), public first spanking after wedding ceremony

 (receiving), pursuit, take-down & capture

 (everything to do with it), pursuit..take-down..capture..dominate..

 (everything to do with it), putting you on mute

, realistic cat play (m/s dynamic)

 (everything to do with it), recreational casting

 (everything to do with it), riveted on steel masks

(wearing), shock collar training

 (receiving), sm factory

 (wearing), socially unacceptable body modifications

, speech restriction therapy

 (receiving), subs trained to respond to squeaky toys

 (receiving), surgical body modification

 (receiving), that cuddle that says "you belong here"

 (everything to do with it), toothless blowjobs

 (giving), topless dungeons and dragons

(everything to do with it), transformed into cat

 (receiving), turn you into a living fuckdoll

 (receiving), two penises stuck in a chinese finger trap

 (watching), unexpected moments of cuddles & kisses

 (everything to do with it), using sign language instead of vocal chords

 (everything to do with it), valued enough to be collared

, voluntary or not so voluntary tracheotomies

 (receiving), walked on a leash in my bridal gown

 (receiving), white picket fence and stockade in front yard

, you lost the board game, you wear the collar

 (everything to do with it), you will be soldered into your collar!!

, you, me, a bouncy castle and a bottle of oil

 (everything to do with it).

Last night I dreamed that that I was on a date at Disneyland and had a metal cuff on my wrist and a 12 inch leash attached.

Thigh high Tinkerbell skirt with a crinoline under to add poofiness. Mouse ears thigh high socks with cute black leather chunky heeled ankle boots. Cute tinker bell shirt and mouse ear hat that had the name, "Kitten" on it. A cardigan matching my thigh high socks that had extra long sleeves to cover the collar and leash was worn as well.

My date was a gentleman and treated me like a lady while calling me his pet.

2/20/2017

http://bdsmtest.org/result.?id=3934469

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
99% Rope bunny
98% Degradee
98% Pet
98% Submissive
97% Brat
97% Primal (Prey)
94% Experimentalist
93% Girl/Boy
88% Non-monogamist
83% Exhibitionist
79% Ageplayer
76% Masochist
74% Slave
72% Voyeur
44% Daddy/Mommy
43% Sadist
39% Switch
32% Degrader
31% Rigger
17% Owner
16% Dominant
14% Brat tamer
14% Primal (Hunter)
13% Master/Mistress
8% Vanilla

Meow meow and a most wondrous day to all those who read this,

Do you need a massage?

Do you need errands run?

Do you need an empathetic ear?

So you need a shoulder to cry on?

Do you have calls that need to be made?

Do you need a pet that yearns to be pleasing?

Do you need a pet that is willing to be trained?

Do you want to come home to a home cooked candle lit dinner?

This is where my submission comes in the strongest.

It's who I am at my core.

I'm not meant for the vanilla life.

I have my own needs as well.

I need to serve.

I need to please.

I need to pamper.

I need to be loved.

I need to be guided.

I need to be needed.

I need to be accepted.

I need to be cherished.

I need to have structure.

I need to be Dominated.

I need to work towards being Owned.

I may be rough around the edges however with the right Dominant I can truly blossom into the pet I know I can be.

With total honesty in communicating our needs, wants and desires we gain trust. In that trust we earn each others respect. From that respect our Owner/pet dynamic will flourish.

I humbly thank you for your time.

Sincerely,

Kitten Bondagewench

Last night I dreamed of being delocalized / debarked and got my permanent make up and arms fully tattooed like the kitty pic I crave.

A week later I get my teeth removed.

With my teeth being removed my legs are getting tattooed.

A week later we tattoo my chest and back over 2 or 3 days.

Then my tummy, neck and face over 2 or 3 days.

I then get my whisker piercings and a couple weeks later my upper and lower lip were slit before sewing them shut leaving them a straw hole

They healed together to create a snug seal for a cock

I was leashed up and taken to the movies where I was cuddled and kissed often in the theatre.

I woke up as my Owner said my nipples are pierced next.

2/3/2017 - Last night's dream

When dreaming they usually consist of two things.

1. My becoming a real kinky kitty girl
2. My dream renaissance faire wedding/collaring I dream of.

This was my dream last night.

I was kitty girl napped and woke up 3 or 4 months later fully modified as a kitty girl with full body tattoos girl and conditioned to only eat and drink from bowls on the ground, no furniture use without permission, more obedient but not broken as I still had my Irish feistiness, be playful and my thought processes were slowed down a bit.

I had full memories and metal abilities. My thoughts were like they were going through cotton candy. Some things got lost and others just a slower time to process.

I was only able to meow and branded on my chest, "property of" and don't remember the name.

A heavy collar was around my neck with a pet ID tag, Avid chip tag and a large bell.

Ears pointed and teeth were removed and new ones with cat like canines put in.

My fingers removed and paw pads tattooed on my palms.

Kitty whisker done as piercings looked great and my septum ring had a light weight chain attached as my leash.

• Out as Transsexual 1/14/2013
• Full time as a woman 1/20/2013
• Active in the local BDSM community 1/29/2013
• Hormones since 5/23/2013
• Legal name change on 11/13/2013
• Legally female as of 9/19/2014
• Accepted my path as a Pagan witch 11/25/2015
• Received gender confirmation surgery and my breast augmentation 12/13/2016

My former trainer is my first male crush. Being he had a girl already and knowing I was crushing him we all decided my first time with a male should be with my former Trainer.

So when I had my former Trainer’s dick in my hands I felt lost. I didn’t know what to do. I poked at it. bent it slightly and got a couple inches away examining it and then asked, “Excuse me Sir but what do I do with it”

My former Trainer said, “really Kitten. Really? You don’t know what to do with it?

I replied, Sorry Sir I am a lesbian”

He moved my head to his chest and didn’t push further. We cuddled and I felt so safe and cherished.

We never dated however he was kind  and respectful and I learned a lot from him.

Even though we are on our separate paths and part of me will always be his Calliope.

Calliope is the name of my kitty side that my former Trainer gave me.

For me a collar of Ownership is as serious of a commitment as wedding ring. The right to wear it is meant to be earned. The Dominant earns the right to collar the sub and the sub earns the right to be collared. it is never to be taken lightly.

It is not something that cannot be taken off because of a fight or removed by the Dominant to punish the sub.

Honesty, trust, communication and respect need to paramount.

When I am collared with the collar of Ownership I know I am cherished property. I am to be taken care of, guided, and trained to bring out my best as I blossom into a stronger woman and pet.

In that strength I am able to better serve my Owner. I can see to my Owners needs, wants and desires better add I know my voice will be listened to however confidant that my Owners final say is for my betterment.

It is the greatest thing I can ever earn and one day I will have a Dominant worthy of being my Owner as I am equally worthy of being my Owner’s pet.

I played at Club Wick on on a Friday night which was 7/8/2016 and I had fun. I realized as a Domme how sadist I can be.

I did CBT on two guys and was giggling and smiling and having fun.

However the drop it me hard.

Saturday to Tuesday I was so drained. Lethargic is an understatement. I lost my grounding and felt so blah.

I never experienced Domme drop before and it took so much out of me.

I have been a needy sub and to my former Trainer and Dominants I am very sorry.

I had no idea how much being a Dominant in a scene takes out of you until now.

It takes a special mind set to be a Dominant and that is not me.

I thank you for your time and energy.

I will not take these things for granted again.

I am taking a step back from being Domme for a while.

I just realized that i have been a Domme more than a sub in the scenes I had for the last 12 months. No wonder I am stressing so much.

I need scenes for me!

I’m tired of giving scenes to other subs that go without when I need therapy play.

I am tired of giving other subs their needed play.

At times i hate being a human pet that also is a service Domme so others do not have to go without.

I give and go without!

This kitten needs to find her inner submissive again as it’s what truly makes me happy kitty.

• One therapy flogging in over a decade.
• Two tickle torture scenes in over a decade
•  No mummification scenes in over a decade.
• One kitty play scene in over 8 years.
• Last time I was on a leash was 11/16/2014 at a renaissance faire Nottingham Festival in Simi Valley, California.

This kitten needs to be selfish and get her scenes.

I was wondering of the medical means of shutting a mouth closed forever.
Is it possible to remove some of the inner and part of the lip where the lips touch in a slight pucker and suture them together so they heal together? Just a hole for a straw?

I have done so much in 3 years

Since January 2013:

• Came out as Trans
• Came out as kinky
• Came out as poly
• Finalized my divorce
• Joined the local BDSM community
• Got my legal name change
• Got my gender marker change
• Got my vertical sleeve gastrectomy
• Went to my first renaissance faire as Caitlin
• Went to my first comic convention as Caitlin
• Accepted my spirituality as a Pagan Witch
• December 15th of 2016 I have my breast implants
• December 15th of 2016 I have my gender confirmation surgery

4/13/2016 - My almost first male encounter

My former trainer is my first male crush. Being he had a girl already and knowing I was crushing him we all decided my first time with a male should be with my former Trainer. I learned that being in a man's arms can be an amazing comfort and and the smell of a man can be very intoxicating. 

So when I had my former Trainer’s dick in my hands I felt lost. I didn’t know what to do. I poked at it. bent it slightly and got a couple inches away examining it and then asked, “Excuse me Sir but what do I do with it”

My former Trainer said, “really Kitten. Really? You don’t know what to do with it?

I replied, Sorry Sir I am a lesbian”

He moved my head to his chest and didn’t push further. We cuddled and I felt so safe and cherished.

We never dated however he was kind  and respectful and I learned a lot from him.

Even though we are on our separate paths part of me will always be his Calliope.

Calliope is the name of my kitty side that my former Trainer gave me.

Why don't people read profiles on OKCupid, fetlife and other sites? I hate one liners and dick pics. I rarely message someone and when I do I reference something in the profile and have a conversation starter with a shared interest or something they mentioned that was interesting.

I might message one person. Every couple months. I'm picky and don't want to waste other people's time.

I'm getting way to many that do not even try to use grammar or spelling.

I am not one for short term dating.
I am not one for hookups.
I am not a fetish for you.
I do not care to see you naked right now.
I do not like serving short terms as I seek my forever Collar.

I am a woman first.
Be respectful or do not bother me.

My submission lays my being a human pet.

• Drawing the bath for my Dominant
• Assist in bathing my Dominant.
• Making sure my Dominant’s lunch is ready
• Doing laundry, dishes and housekeeping
• Gas is in the car
• Running the errands
• Making the needed calls
• Making sure the bills are paid
• Have a candle lit dinner on the table waiting for my Dominant to get home
• Greeting the one I serve when my Dominant gets home on my knees holding a glass of my Dominant’s favorite drink

People often forget 24/7 D/s dynamics are more than bondage, being ordered around and sex. It’s about

• Friendship
• Lending a shoulder when your Dominant is stressed or crying
• Offering your ears when your Dominant needs to voice the stresses she faces
• Someone to hold when she started to crack.
• Someone to cuddle with

In my submission I am a nurturer, a caregiver, a companion. And when my voice, thoughts and feeling are seriously considered I will gladly give up final say.

Remember, as a submissive we are their rock just as much as the Dominant is ours.

-Being a Witch-

My Mom was a Franciscan Nun and is now a Eucharistic minister and my Dad is an usher at church. I was raised Roman Catholic. The Abrahamic religions never felt right. I always was drawn to nature. Grounded by the earth.

Being very spiritual and lost I went back to what felt right. On the mourning moon of 2015  I lit a candle, asking the Goddess to open doors before me as I am ready to walk through. I have felt a deeper connection since.

I am reading what I can, learning and open to whatever doors open before me.

I’ve been getting a better hold of my energy as I am like a reverse energy vampire. Think of an out of control battery that shoots out energy to everyone around me and it tend to drain them because they cannot handle my out of control energy.

I wish to be able to channel that energy to help others.

So far I have a better control over my energy projecting to others.

I am a caregiver by nature. I have always had the draw to help others and when I can add the craft into helping others I know I can do good.

I am wanting to learn to be an herbalist,  a healer as well of protection charms is where I feel the draw. I am drawn to aspects of the Hedgewitch path however the God and Goddess will open doors as the time is right and I will walk through knowing I am growing in a direction I need to go.

Where ever I up I do not know. I do know  this will be a wondrous journey of self discovery.

For me BDSM comes down to 4 things.

BDSM is about Honesty.
-Being honest in what we are into.
-Being honest in what we want out of BDSM.
-Being honest in what we wish to try.
-Being honest with our past.
-Being honest enough to swallow our pride if we screwed up.

BDSM is about Communication.
-Communicate our needs, wants and desires.
-Communicate our limits.
-Communicate our intentions.
-Communicate when we are wanting something different.

BDSM is about Trust.
-Trust your partner with your life and well being.
-Trust that we will not joke about or really out each other.
-Trust that we are honest with each other at all times.
-Trust that our partner will not abuse our relationship for their
own motivations.

BDSM is about Respect.
-Respect that our limits are there for a reason.
-Respect that we all have some baggage.
-Respect that there are things that may come up.
-Respect that others may not have the same views.
-Respect other lifestyles and kinks if they are not our own.

It’s not about sex, pain, or even whips and chains. While bondage is fun and sex is enjoyable without those four core things I cannot be happy being with anyone in the kink or real world.

24/7 for me is not sex and bondage. It's about being a friend, running errands, making calls, making sure things are organized so when the Dominant gets home the Dominant can relax. It'
s about being a friend. a confidant and an ear or shoulder when needed.

My geek resume

VenturaAnime Club 1996-1999.
AnimeFansub VHS Distributor 1996-2002.
Amatuer Voice Actor on the old aitenshi.nu forums from 1998-2001.
Cosplayer from 1999-2004.
Member of the Renaissance Faire reenactment group Pirates and Privateers in (2007 – 2008).
Member of the Renaissance Faire reenactment group, “La Orden de Santiago” from (2008 – 2009).
Sponsored into the Renaissance faire reenactment group, “Port of the Black Sail” (2013 – current).
Former Member of COSP ML & Cosplay.com

  (do not remember years).
Competitive Fighting game tournaments 1996-2002 and King of Fighters series and Capcom VS SNK 2.
Former Videogame system owner of the following systems:
Atari – 2600,7800, jaguar, jaguar cd, lynx
Nintendo – Virtual Boy, NES (US and Japanese), SNES, N64, Gamecube, Wii, Gameboy, Gameboy color, Gameboy backlit, Gameboy Advance, DS, 3DS
Sega – Master system, Genesis (US and Japanese), Sega CD, 32X, Saturn (US and Japanese), Dreamcast (US and Japanese), Nomad, Game gear
Sony – Playstation (US and Japanese), PS2, PS3, PSP w/ hacked firmware for classic game emulation.
NEC – Turbo Grafx-16, TG-16 CD add on, Turbo Duo
Microsoft – X-Box and X-Box 360
SNK – NeoGeo AES, Neo Geo CD, Neo Geo Pocket Color,
Misc – N-Gage
Played,D&D, AD&D 2nd, GURPS, RIFTS, Battletech, Mechwarrior, Robotech pen and paper games.
Played Magic the Gathering from revised to 5th edition.
Played Buffy the Vampire Slayer CCG.
Played Wyvern CCG.
Played Hyborian Gates CCG.
First SLR at 8 years old with 8 lenses.
First time in a dark room 12 years old.
Camera History is From Olympus OM-1 to the Nikon D200 to the Olympus E-500 to the Olympus E-1 to Canon 1D mkII to Olympus e510 to Nikon D3 to Olympus E-3 to the Olympus EP-3 to Pentax K-30 to Olympus OM-D EM-5.
IOC Club Rep for the Theatre Arts Club at Oxnard College.
IOC Club Rep for the Vidiots of Oxnard College (Video production club).

Being a needy sub myself I though I would start to work on a list of tasks for other needy and new submissive.

Maybe the Dominant does not have a lot of time to be with the sub due to a heavy work schedule or distance.

If you are a Dominant/ Trainer or other dominant type maybe this list will be able to help with ideas for keeping other needy subs busy.

– Learn so many signs for sign language or words in a foreign language per week.
– Learn certain slave positions per week.
– Learn to cook certain dishes the Dominant likes or attend cooking classes.
– Work on penmanship.
– An exersize routine.
– Design a weekly meal plan.
– Learn belly dance
– Learn Yoga
– Learn a craft skill like leather making, paper mache, jewelry making, wood working.
– Writing assignments such as most traumatic memory, favorite memory, hopes, fears, dreams, write some scenes that the sub would like to act out.

I am a human pet and a kitty girl

Human pet (n.)
Homo sapiens domesticus-hetaera
1. A human kept as a pet who retains their human identity.
2. A person kept for companionship; often kept for loyal and playful characteristics, for their attractive appearance, and for sex. Human pets provide their owners with added benefits like stress relief, social interaction, and exercise.
3. A human that is kept as a companion and cared for affectionately.
4. A human kept as property, as a sexual object; cherished property.

Kitty Girl (n.)
1. A kitty Girl Also called a cat girl is often referred to as a character or person in animation or games who takes on cat like features and characteristics. Kitty girls usually have cat ears and a tail and may or may not have other cat like attributes such as whiskers, claws or fang like teeth.
2. A kitty girl usually exudes cuteness, energy, an emotional unbalance that can be happy to sad to jealous on the drop of a dime.
3. Real world kitty girls are usually in cat ears and a tail, attracted to laser pointers, shiny things, rest their head on your lap with meows and purrs.

— Why i am a kitty girl —
-I want to chase lights going around the room.
-I like bells.
-When scratched behind my ear I will purr.
-I am known to meow when stretching, relaxed, or scratched behind my ear.
-A friend has a cat and when I was visiting he was standing behind me and took a cat toy of feathers on a string attached to a stick and dangled it in front of me. I instinctively started batting at it and fell out of the chair.
-I like eating and drinking from bowls.
-I like laying down and putting my head in the lap of the one I serve.
-I love wearing cat ears.
-My legal name chosen because of my ancestry yet still is cat like
-I have the nickname of Kitten for almost 20 years.
Those are reasons why I am a kitty girl! =^.^=

— I am a pet, a kitty and submissive —
The pet side wants to be the best companion, friend and confidant I can be. Be there as a friend when needed and serve where I can to help my Dominant through the hard times.

The kitty side is playful, testing and pushing boundaries and inquisitive. My inner kitty wants to chase things, catch things and purr in the lap of the one who cares for me while being petted. The kitty side loves playing in public, bells, collars and leashes.

The submissive in me needs to please. pamper and know that I have someone worthy of the gift I can give. I need to know my service will never be taken advantage of and that I am safe with my Dominant.

All sides sides need to know I am wanted, needed, desired, guided with a caring yet firm hand. To be trained and set on the right path to one day be worthy enough to be Owned and shown to the world that I am Owned.

— What being on a leash means to me —
-That the one caring for me is always a leash away if I need him or her.
-That I trust one to control how I am perceived and where I can go.
-It keeps me focused when there are distractions that may lead me to wander
-That someone loves me enough to keep me within a leash length where I am always in reach.
-That I can walked publicly without fear of harm as my Handler will care for me.
-That when cuddling while leashed it is a link to my heart and emotional well being.
-That when I get scared my Handler/Protector/D-type/Other is close to comfort me.

Kink and Vanilla bucketlists

BDSM Bucket list

• Riveted into steel with a permanent steel collar and shackles with a permanent chain leash for 3D6 weeks (roll three six sided dice and that is the weeks I will be kept like that).
• My chest tattoo that I envision. My entire chest piece would be great. BDSM triskle in the middle. A batwing coming out from one side to the shoulder and a feathered Angel wing out the other side up the other shoulder
• A renaissance faire collaring
• Become a pet play presenter at least 10 events.
• Hypnosis to go full meows only on command.
• Be trained as a pony girl for show and pulling my future Dominant and other people around in public.
• Be trained and partake in a high protocol tea party.
• Be on a leash and seen as a sub and in service to a Dominant for a whole anime/sci-fi/horror/comic convention weekend.
• Have a loving poly family based on the D/s dynamic

• Elf ear modification.
• A renaissance faire wedding
• A pair of Fairy wings from Fancy Fairy Wings & Things http://www.fancyfairy.com
  
  
• Cross country Train trip with a kinky and geeky friend (position open) while stopping a couple days at various places for sight seeing along the way.
• Visit Ireland, Wales, Scotland and England for at least a week each.
• A 6 month road trip with a awesome kinky and geeky friend (position open) visiting various renaissance faires and BDSM communities across the country while seeing major land marks and the fun road side attractions.
• See my Mom’s Ancestral, Castle Reuland Castle in Burg-Reuland, Belgium.
• Direct, shoot, act in and edit a 1 hour skit comedy show that is a mix of who’s line is it anyways or Saturday Night live.

My dream date

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There would be a ring at my door and I would answer if. My date would be there holding personally made duct tape flowers or oregami flowers (real flowers die and to me real flowers show that the date or our love will die and wilt away), a collar and leash me up and escort me to my dates car and assist me in getting the door for me.

Small talk would include how we slept, how life is going and proceed to geek talk.

We would go to a Zoo or an aquarium and we would be going dutch. At the zoo we would walk around talking about animals and getting weird silly pics and the my date would say that he or she has lunch for us.

My date would find a place for me to sit while getting lunch and would come back with a picnic basket.

We would be enjoying sandwiches, some chips and dip and martinelli’s sparkling cider in plastic cups.

After the picnic I would thank him or her for the wonderful lunch and we would leave the zoo stopping by the gift shop to buy each other a small memento. Not showing each other what we got.

After that I would be handcuffed and we would raid a comic store for a couple hours and then go to a hole in the wall restaurant or get chili cheese dogs or some amazing huge nachos for us to share. Since I would be handcuffed I would be fed the nachos or chili cheese dogs.

Then we would go to the beach eating ice cream sharing a blanket watching the sun set.

After that I would be dropped off at my house, escorted to the front door the collar and hand cuffs come off and we would give each other the gift we got the other person from the zoo. We would say thank you for a great day and I would get a a small kiss on my cheek or forehead.

There would be no cell phones or tablets on this date. No internet. Just enjoying each other.