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Ive tried this site before but left due to personal reasons. Im back to give it another go, but with changes. I may be looking for a mistress but that does not mean I will submit to you just because you say you are a dominant woman. I will respect you, but I will not submit unconditionally. I am a sub, not a door mat.



Ive been in this lifestyle on and off for a few years, but never really felt like Ive learned much. Ive had play, but I guess Im looking for some guidance.


Taking a look I see? Well I should only be fair and give you something to look at.

Now where are those dick pics? Haha, no. My self-esteem issues arent that bad.

Ive been interacting on and off with the lifestyle for give or take two-three years, mostly due to stuff like school getting in the way during most of the year. That being said, recently Ive been thinking that I need to understand my bearings better within the lifestyle. So I guess that means making a bigger commitment to going to munches and events, which shouldnt be too hard.

If I wasnt awkward in topics I know absolutely nothing about. I can be either very quiet to not shutting up depending on the topic and my level of comfort around people. Thats probably more normal than people take it for anyway

I have about mild experience in all of this, but Im eager to learn and apparently Im good at following directions to please those I may submit to. Or just following directions in general. Unless its directions to a house. No I need a Garmin for that.

Outside of this lifestyle? Im a DD (5e, but I also like the general fantasy of it), Magic The Gathering (Red. Always Red), Pathfinder (Same reasons as DD), and fantasy geek. Dont ask me specific ination on the hobbit or game of thrones, Im not well versed in their lore (I still need to watch GoT...or read the books. Cant read unless I have no where else to go, like in a plane or car). I used to be into video games and MMOs more, but not taking them to college has lessened my interest in them. Ill still play them (When I upgrade to a ps4 (I like either, I know more people with a PlayStation though) I plan on getting into Dark Souls, which is actually a really accurate interpretation to what fantasy monsters would be in real life. Really. Fucking. Hard. And lots of dead adventurers. ).

I also like to write fiction. I have some (decent maybe) erotica posted on some other site (anyone can post there though. So its nothing special) and I work on and off (More off than Id like) on personal works that I hope to send to magazines. Im hoping to be a writer, which is not an easy task to attain or live off of.

Before I say the stuff Im into, let me explain my limits. Yes I have limits, because EVERYONE has limits. Things Ill never do *Scat play *Blood play (and anything that could easily bring out blood. So sorry knives) *Shaving my head off *Public humiliation (Social media sure is a great tool to ruin someones life. Just one picture and a button) *Bestiality (This isnt a fetish Ive seen discussed here, but better safe than sorry) *Forced bi (Not interested. Maybe in the future, but not today) *Drugs (Just no.)*Electric (Not at low voltage, I can bare it if need be). *Cuckolding (If Im in an intense relationship with someone, I dont think Id be able to stay in that relationship if I saw that person having sex with someone else right in front of me. If Im not in an intense or romantic relationship with someone, then I guess. I mean if Im just a submissive and the other person is the Significant other, then that person is more focused I guess?)

Thoughts may change in time, but thats how I stand at the moment. Ill update this every so often. There are probably things Ive forgotten.

Things Im into *Pegginganal play *Verbal Humiliation and Degradation *Sensory deprivation (I love gags. The only toy I really have is a homemade ball gag. Id also love to try hoods, and blindfolds make everything else shoot up in sensation!) *Bondage (Probably not rope. Tried it at party, much too tight (or I weigh too much). I still need to try straps and such) *ification *Pet play (I have no idea what animal I am. Still need to figure that out) *Dehumanization (Actually seems to be a common theme. I guess I like the thought of being less than human, to being an for someone to use for satisfaction. And by satisfaction, I dont mean straight up pleasure) *Domestic servitude (Ive actually been thinking that this might be the best place for me to start exploring more. Whenever things lead to sex, I get so focused on that and it tends to start ruining things. There is more to bdsm than sex, so I should try and explore that). *Being roughed up (I get weak in the knees when someone pulls my head back by my hair. Well...the context matters actually).

If you have a question about my preferences to a certain kink or fetish that doesnt show up, just send me a message. Theres tons of stuff Ive probably forgotten.

Im hoping I can find a guiding hand to help explore my submissive desires, and I hope that hand will be a little lenient at how slow I might be.



Recently been looking into sissification. Nothing extreme really.



Edit Recently Ive been thinking that I need to find a mentor or something. In the past I was looking for a romantic or personal relationship that explored bdsm, but I think that just kept holding me back. So while romantic wouldnt be bad, I think I should focus on a more teacherstudent or dominantsubmissive relationship than anything really deep. I might learn more that way and branch out easier.



So if youre interested in helping me along, feel free to send me a message.







I also have another profile on . Message me if you want to know about it. Willing to start online. But do not send me links to chat sites where you have to put in a credit card. That doesnt really showcase much trust.




I have a Kik. Feel free to message for it.



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2/4/2017 3:33:38 PM
How thick my skull is just surprises me sometimes.  

Anyway, back to being single.  Time to start looking again.

8/27/2016 4:08:17 PM
Well I'm stupid.  Apparently the party was yesterday and not today.

FML.

8/24/2016 10:40:02 AM
That moment where you start getting spam and realiz, "I need to get out more"

Guess that's me right now. I really miss being man handle, hell I even miss the feeling of a cage around my dick. 

Looks like I'm gonna  and socialize this weekend. Wish me luck!

3/1/2016 9:42:48 AM
I just had one of those rare offers on Fetlife from a Domme.  I can't help but find this hilarious because I've only recently been taken.  

So this is the stud life.  XD.  I kid.  I'm too much of a bitch to be a stud.

1/26/2016 1:40:44 PM
What can I do now?

My ex and I had on again and off again moments for the past few months, moments that made me feel awkward.  I didn't really know how to view our relationship and honestly I felt guilty from time to time since I believed I wasn't being fair to her.  But she was also the only person I could express my submissive desires with, the only person who helped me experience them.  

I guess I was slowly becoming more comfortable with her again, despite not being able to see her often.  This wasn't fair to her obviously and she has the rights to date people.  She also says she won't cheat on people she dates, which means we can't really be kinky with each other.

I want her to be happy, but at the same time...I don't know what I want.  Or maybe I do and I don't want to believe it.

Sorry, I guess I'm just ranting my selfish brat life. 

6/19/2015 8:33:58 PM
Ever have a day where you ask, "What am I doing?"  I've been having a week of that.

Recovering from jaw surgery sucks.

2/16/2015 8:22:51 AM
2/16/15 (First post, no idea if the date is automatic)

When it comes to bdsm, there is always this one thing that bothers me.  Whenever I read a profile and see terms, likes, limits, and all that other stuff, I just start imagining it all.  Why would that bother me?  I guess because it tends to be in my thoughts for pretty much the entire day.  I have extreme fantasies filled with humiliation, dehuminization, and just the idea of being owned, that I tend to forget the difference between fantasy and reality when it comes to a bdsm lifestyle.  Obviously I have my limits and common sense plus safety is a big concern when it comes to not just the actions within bdsm, but the relationships themselves (Which is true for all relationships I guess).  I probably need more experience in bdsm, replacing the inaccurate and dangerous fantasies with safe practices and making fun memories.  But I guess time will tell how well that goes.

Edit:  Also, what's up with Admirers?  I sometimes get a random admirer that I've never seen who has never talked to me, and they never respond back when I ask them why.  Weird.

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 Age: 33
 Essex, United Kingdom