This has been a strange and dangerous place. It would be better if there was a filter here for those who are interested with toying with others.... Now that is not to say that I don't like to "play" with others. I am not interested in the cat and mouse game that seems to prevail on this site. There are many here who are "failures", "flakes" and "flamboyant fools".

Saying something does not make it so unless you are willing to act on your intentions. I can say I am a millionaire, but without the money to prove it, I am nothing but a pretender/liar.

Saying you are "slave" does not make it so unless you are willing to put your life in the hands of another. Saying you are Dominant does not make it so unless you are willing to take the life of another in hand and mold them to what you need, desire, want....

In the past month, there have been 4 who have set date/time to meet and then are "No-shows". This makes you no more a slave than when you thought those first moments of "how fun it could be not to have to take care of me anymore."

A slave, for me, is someone who is ready to take on the daunting task of letting go of their life to focus on the "life of a union". Joining a relationship takes work, dedication, honesty, trust and belief that the other partner(s) is/are going to care for your life as you would; they will treat you like a prize won not a piece of trash; find ways to make you more a part of their life. Do not call yourself slave until you have sat with yourself and truly understood that once owned there is no choice that is yours to make unless Owner gives you that to make. Mindless drones demand too much work, time, effort. There is not a day long enough to program the brain of a person to mindlessly walk through tasks without a thought in their head. Besides, they are unsafe to all. Thoughtlessness will unintentionally or passive-aggressively deteriorate a relationship; the weight is not carried evenly.

So lastly, a note to any and all whether male or female, if you are seeking a Dominant/Owner be certain you have done your work first. Know without a shadow of a doubt, that you are ready to give so freely of your thoughts, time, strength and self. Know before putting the first letter to the word, that you are certain of what you feel and where you see yourself. Then make the leap of faith and follow your path. Because along that path you are bound to find the opposite who has done their work and is ready to Own and make the full commitment to a real-time, life-time relationship. And if you are only in it for the "play" and excitement, be honest about that as well. You also will find your opposite and have some wonderfully successful "play-time". communication must be honest and true to be worth the connection at all.

I am seeking that one or ones, either male or female, that have done the work and are ready to step on that path with a partner(s) who has also done the work and is ready for the "real-time, life-time."

I have thought about my poly household for quite some time and now have reached a point in life where that poly household is no longer a dream but an entity that I desire to put into place. For those uncertain of what that means, think about a "communal living space" where there is one in charge and several multifaceted levels underneath.

Please, No "flamboyant fools" who will "flake" out like an adolescent with ADHD at a carnival. I seek those who have "done the work" and are ready for an open honest discussion about the life they are ready for.

So, I sit and consume my plight

Alone again with it is trite

Tomorrow I smile bright

For in shadow I take flight

Pain and screams,

cries and tears

My chains are empty

My whips take only air

Alone again, I fight

The heart is empty

The cage is bare.

Time to Try

Time to try the mystery

YOur invitation is intoxicating

My thoughts have swirled

Cascaded; slammed together; unfurled

Gripped tightly with strangling fear

I know not to try to stear clear

I fall into your embrace

Heart felt abandon without grace

With a crashing thud, I land

A collar and leash in your hand

My life has come to an impass

To stay trapped in the mundane

Or turn to life in shadows

I have heard my cry

In the silence of night where I lie

My heart quickens its beat

Blood flows with a seering heat

Eager to please I retreat

Snug the end of the leash I meet

Tempt me; I cry

Completed now I try

No more will I lie

only the untried completely dies.

Mystery completed

I try to feel complete

Yet that mysterious call lingers

I know not who I see

standing in the shadows

Beside me there is My mystery

Darkness consumes completely

As life spins on without me

I try to see, to live, to be

Completeness is an unyielding plea

THe whole remains in deep mystery

You are the "There" I yearn to see

As I stand among the many

For you I pray only to be seen

That I may tightly hold  between teeth

A completed unity to banish the mystery

Inspiration comes in many forms. I am looking for one word expressions that express one's view on their expriences in "the lifestyle". Any takers?

Welcome viewers

It has been awhile

Yet here sits the dial

I have not gone

Yet ponder long

To words of song

Each verse

when rehearsed

reminds me of shadows

bending and bowing

waving and arching

yearning to reach yellows

Taste my tears that you pulled from hiding

Swallow my pleas given unbridled

Tough me with your want

Sear your brand in each command

Silver cirlce surrounds a silent tunnel

Devoid of want yet full of need

my eyes large with plea

i slip swiftly towards the waiting vastness

I ask only to be in shadow

Wanting only to know control

Longing always for denial

I need you to hold my place

in a world that seeks to shatter my space.

Standing in light I hold your place

Turning to shadow My heart does race

Hands encircled both leather and lash

Upon My canvas both desires crash

Painting a world accepting of lines

For two to meld complimentary lives.

Serendipitous Emotional Reality

Worlds live behind our hidden meaning

Filling silence with nonsensical dreaming

Joining we crash,

Melded together in lashes

Wounds we repair

With bonds built in care

Rashness inflicts unequipped pairs

Too lost in selfish

Unable to share

Those timeless wishes

Now I sit alone in Shadows

Wonders and fears ever creasing my brows

Goddess Save the Slave

Stave to bind securley signed

Liberated to consume all devined

Acquiring skills to become alligned

Vanishing self to Her entwined

Engraved to be forever enshrined

Exultation given with lavish emotion

Votarient venerates to proffer with adulation

Lurching, plunging deep inot subservient position

Slave exhaults in Goddess' infliction

I have found but peace

among the collar and leash.

It is my passions released

to see the laces crease,

to have a whipping breeze

Rush from hand to thee.

An empassioned plea

For my heart to heed

We pace and dance for each other's need

to find balance in between

Give and take we strive to weave

An equal life is unconceived.

To the journal board I go.

Mentoring vs Coaching: 

Since stating that I seek mentorship, I have done self soul searching to decide what it is that I am looking for. I came across this idea Mentoring vs Coaching.  As I read more about mentoring, I realized that is not the path I choose. I do not look for someone from afar to emmulate. I have had many in my studies to whom I have enjoyed a mentor relationship. College professors, Leaders in the field and Salvador Dali.

I have come to a time in my life where views from afar, although good views, often are without the intimate stimulation of complete learning. Therefore I step to coaching. A life coach in many ways for many that I have lived with, worked with and been friends with, I look now to be coached in areas that I want to expand, push my boundaries, acquire skills and educate myself. A life coach to others in the lifestyle and in relationships would also be a welcomed divergent path. As I grow, others grow. As I learn others learn.

I have spoken to many here on collarme and have found that the act of coaching, mentoring and genuine personal interactions are craved by many. So to those searching, let's find a way. Let's reach to each other and better our world.

I enter again.

The days have passed full of conversations, verbal banters and arousing scene discussions. I have spoken to many and have enjoyed our conversations.

I yearn to connnect with like minded individuals. Life travels along and time slips away. Sometimes it feels like time stands still and we are spinning our wheels in the muck, other times it feels like time flies on the tails of a hurricane.  My time here has been fruitful.

I turn now to a different learning. I am interested in finding a like minded individual whom has a willingness to mentor. I am a firm believer that a day should not go by that you have not learned and one must always seek to find areas where they can better him/herself strengthing what they know about themselves and fulfilling the building of new skills.

A welcoming soul looking to learn.

I am in search of a sub with a sincere desire to serve in many areas of life. I have learned that without the sincerity to serve, the relationship becomes a continuous role play where the subs needs to gain pleasure through pain is very tiring. There are days that I just want my sub to keep his mouth shut and serve me from the moment I get home from work to the moment I fall asleep.

Then there are days that I want my sub to hold an intelligent conversation about a movie we saw, a idea from a novel. I want to hear a story that takes me from the crazy day and leads us on an adventure.

On other days, I want the sub for one purpose only and then I want him to disappear, take everything of him with him and wait eagerly for me to demand he return to his serving.