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kneelswell
| Pan Female, 25, Chicago, Illinois
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Hurt me! Seriously.
Heres the deal, i am looking to see what i can really take. i am trying to find out what the final limit of pain humiliation and things like that i am really able to deal with if i am forced to and have no real choice. i only want to try this for a few months because i eventually want to have kids but i want to be able to say for real that i did what few of anyone else ever did and that i took everything that was done to me.
important !!!! i am not looking for lifetime, i am looking for 3-12 months tops ok? ok.
Maybe, maybe,some meet and beats until i find a longer experience.
Quick 2021 update on meet and beats I have a job to keep until i find the 3 to 12 months i seek so NO severe facial damage and nothing i cant function after... i mean that, i cant be laid up for a week hiding until i can walk.
if you can do this then get back with me.
some things i have learned about from my friend here that i want to try
objectification
hypnosis
caging
relyfe programming - with severe mind changemind fucking
exposure - not to point of frostbite or death
elite pain like beating
capture escape sinareos-with severe punishment
i do not want to make movies or anythig for the internet sales. if you want to take pics for you when im there thats ok but i am not trying to make this my life forever and having pics float around the net is not the way to the future for me - other pics of me available when we talk. Would prefer not to Skype because i cant stop you from recording, will voicepic verify and can travel at my own
things i will not do NO kids and No knifes and i AM NOT trying to get a criminal record everything else we can work out between us.
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3/11/2018 11:00:02 AM: New limit, meet & beats must be within driving distance of Chicago and last no more than 3 days. Hard hard limit. Written while I'm sitting in a bus station a gazillion miles from home after being stood up yesterday morning after traveling 16 hours on Greyhound to get here and having taken a full week off work.
9/21/2017 11:56:44 AM: Hi, these, people keep asking, so yes, 'race play' is okay...even wanted, degrade me for being mixed, it's not PC but it's part of what i seek here. I just want someone to hurt me, inside and out. Thats all. Yes, calling me by the N word is okay... I'm not here to be treated kindly, or even humanly...
9/9/2017 10:40:58 PM: Yes, I was on CS back when it was Collarme.com for about 5 weeks. I met and fell in love with a guy here. Less Dom than just jerk. It's over and I do not want to talk about it. I know it's blunt but I'm not here for that kind of therapy. I will say this much, I was in a very soft TPE with him for 5 years and it fell apart, he couldn't fix it because he was just too inconsistent from day to day, I was always wondering which of us was supposed to be the girl, you know?
Definitions, because people keep asking what I mean:
Short term, really means short term, under a year, because I do want babies one day. No, I am not ruling out that I could find someone to have them with here, or that I may fall in love with slavery or captivity, that's possible, but it's not what I'm here for.
Elitepain.com: Beating video site. Not apparently there anymore, but their stuff is all over the net, especially on Motherless. Yes, i have been beaten like that 6 times in my life, yes i want to be several more, yes, i have 2, just 2, light scars on my body from those beatings, everything else eventually healed. My skin heals realllllly well, hard limit: enough time between beatings/floggings to heal.
No kids: This means I will not have sex with anyone under 18, I dont care if it's legal in your state or not, 18 is a hard limit.
Relyfe programming: Mind control hypnosis you can find it all over this site. I like the mind wipe and identity changing. I like the slave MP3s, and the pain addiction files. I don't want, will not listen to, gender-bender files. I like being a girl, was born one, and plan to stay one (see the 'I want babies one day' note above. Some girl on here Xaxisgirl knows a about it and xaxisonline.com has an article, xaxisbooks.com has downloads.
No prostitution: Serious hard limit, if imprisoned I can't stop you from sharing me but do not charge for it...I really truly seriously do not want a felony to mess up my later adult life, okay? Okay. And you don't need one either.
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