This week was very trying for me but it ended great. Aunty informed me we would be running errands together one day this week. So I was triple diapered at 6am and not allowed to use a bathroom or the diaper the whole day. well at 5pm when I arrived at AUNTY'S I was pretty wet. AUNTY took one side of my diaper loose and told me to assume the position. I was also instructed to bring AUNTY 4 cucumbers with me. It was AUNTY'S birthday so I brought her a gift also. I also purchased 2 boxes of FLEET liquid glycerine suppositories, BIG MISTAKE. AUNTY did not tell me to buy these. Back to assuming the position, AUNTY snapped on a pair of rubber gloves and did a very invasivel inspection followed by the injection of 4 of the suppositories and than I was told to diaper back up. AUNTY gave me a pair of plastic pants to wear. I next put on my sweat pants and AUNTY remarked they were to loose as my diaper bulge did not show. My final instruction was not to embaress AUNTY because we would be in public for only a short time because she only had 2 items to get at the store. Once in the store only about a 15 minute ride the cramps and pressure became very bad and after AUNTY had purchased 4 bags of groceries we were in the parking lot and I was told to run to get the car. I continued to walk , BIG MISTAKE #2, Not following instructions, After loading the car with groceries we traveled back home and I lost control and filled my diaper, AUNTY was furious! I received a very bad spanking after cleaning up and was sent on my way, AUNTY tells me she likes going shopping with me but next time she wants thicker diapers and pants that fit like tights. Reflection on all this , I have faced my demons and accepted my fate, and can't wait to do it again, Thank You AUNTY!

Halloween  AUNTY made me feel so so GOOD. first she gave me a spanking and than a full examination. Next she administered a small dose of glycerine supppository followed by a double diaper and some noisy plastic pants under my cloths and we headed to run some errands, I was in heaven as I love the humiliation of being in public diapered. I was somewhat good and lasted about 45 mins before I filled my diaper and we headed home for a clean up followed by a good spanking and than AUNTY took time to stretch my hole. I was in heaven the whole time just wished my diaper bulge was bigger and more noticable. But hey I loved it all the same THANK YOU AUNTY!

On Monday the 23 I was given the honor of spending a delightful afternoon with AUNTY. Of course I was diapered and feeling great. Upon arrival I was inspected for wetness and messy. just a wee bit wet was all. Aunty than stretched my hole a bit and gave me a few smacks followed by a large dose of glycerine suppository (liquid not the little bullets) and we were off to a few stores, I was busting at the seams and in only a few short minutes I could not hold back. Aunty was kind enough not to fully humiliate me and allowed me to sit in the car while she shopped. Back home I received a spanking for not asking permission to mess and than was given a nice shower. A short time later AUNTY decided to work my holes over and did using fingers and a large cucumber. I still feel stretched out today from the abuse. Is it abuse if you love it? Thank You AUNTY for a wonderful time. 

Well it has been quite a while since I updated my journal. Two weeks ago I had the pleasure of spending the better part of a day with AUNTY. I arrived in a diaper which had been duct taped on. I had been wearing since 8am that morning and it was not 130pm. Aunty had also instructed me to take fiber and bathroom privledges were off limits except to pee. When I arrived I was wet and AUNTY was a bit angry. Aunty inserted 8 fleet liquid glycerine suppositories and told me to pull up my pants we were going out to run errands. I only lasted 5 minutes before filling my diaper. AUNTY said she did not care and told me get into the car and off we went. Well a lesson was taught. In fantasy world I wanted this exposure but in reality I could not go into public like this, I felt it was wrong of me to subject the unknowing public. Now if I was just thickly diapered with a bulge ( this would not offend the public like the odor of a messy diaper) I think I could have done it and suffored the humiliation but to offend them is wrong. Thank You AUNTY for a wonderful day and hope more are to come.

This past week I had the pleasure of seeing AUNTY. She was in a no nonscence mood and was quite angry with me because I had written a list of things that were nasty and had been filling my head. I was diapered the whole day and when I arrived wet. Aunty gave me and inspection that left my hole sore for 3 days and than administered a couple of glycerine suppositories and instructed me to diaper back up. After filling my diaper AUNTY fed me some baby food that was mixed with some of the contents from my diaper to teach me a lesson.

1/23/2013 Wednesday

     Today I had the pleasure of meeting with AUNTY. I had specific instructions to learn 3 new baby rhymes. I only had 1 and messed up on it that cost me 6 spankins with a paddle for the mistake and an additional 12 for not knowing the others, OUCH. I was also instructed to wear just a diaper under my jean and I also wore a pair of plastic pants, that mistake cost me another 6 spankins so I had a total of 24 spankins which left me crying and hurting. Next AUNTY worked on my sissy hole which she is preparing for her birthday, first she worked fingers in till 4 were inside and than she twisted and turned until they were loose than she used a very large cucumber on me and after a good 5 minutes of abusing my hole with it she inserted it in my mouth and continued the assault with her fingers. She next shoved it back in my hole and pulled my diaper up and made me sit down on it, thankfully she only had me sit on the bed giving me a little comfort. Aunty was happy with my preformance and allowed my to make # 3 in my diaper while worshiping her beautiful behind. Thank YOU AUNTY for a wonderful day.

This past Wednesday, 09 Jan, was a great day. I met with Mistress (AUNTY M) for a fun filled day. I was dressed in tight sweat pants and a t shirt heavly diapered with a soaker pad and plastic pants. Upon arrival a diaper check was preformed which got me a spanking for wetting w/o permission. Next AUNTY set some new rules and I have to learn 3 new nursery rhymes, will refer to her  as Ma'am and never make eye contact. I also earned additional spanking for not remembering her up comming B-Day and for past transgressions. Aunty than preformed a hole check of my poor rear entrance that left me very sore and four finger were used and on 3 seperate occasions AUNTY withdrew her finger only to shove them in my mouth to wet them, the only lube used. Now I sit here still feeling the effects 4 days later. WHAT AN AWESOME AUNTY

      PS AUNTY has instructed me what she wants for a B-DAY gift and it involves a very aggressive well hung male and myself. OH MY!

November 14, 2012

     Today was an excellent day, Aunty instructed me to wear a diaper and plastic pants under my normal street cloths today while at work. She also instructed me to duct tape it on to prevent leaks and excess sagging as i would wear for over 8 hrs. Once by her house she inspected me and was a bit disappointed that I had wet without permission and a spanking followed. Aunty than took time to work over my hole getting all the way to 4.5 fingers in and seated very deep. She said I took it very well and as a special treat I was allowed to worship her perfect behind for some time. I was in heaven the whole day.

AUNTY has said we might go for a special ride in the car on Wednesday the 7th November to lunch and maybe for special popcorn. Thats gonna be so fun.  HHMM i just thought of something if AUNTY instructs me to triple diaper again. Everywhere we go everyone will know as you can' hide that diaper bulge. UH OH!

October 31, 2012. Today I went to see AUNTY is was a day to just sit and chat as AUNTY was cleaning her home. I helped AUNTY with some chores and than we sat and had a long chat, it was so nice and my bottom which was still sore and bruised from the week before needed the time out. Thank you AUNTY for a great day.

OCTOBER 24,2012

It has been a long time since I last wrote in my journal. AUNTY was not happy. Today was to be a special day, AUNTY took time out of her hectic schedule to spend some time with me, THANK YOU AUNTY. I was instructed to double diaper on the 23 October @ 8am using red duct tape to hold everything on and send AUNTY pictures. These diapers would not come off till given permission by AUNTY. And on the morning of the 24 a third diaper was added for extra bulk and protection along with plastic panties. Well let me tell you I was one soaking wet baby and I could not walk but waddled from all the bulk not to mention my pants could not hide the bulge. Aunty sent me on a shopping trip and to pick up liquid suppositories in this condition. I was so so excited. In my little mind I thought it was best to tape the legs of my diapers along with adding a soaker pad. BIG MISTAKE, and this infurated AUNTY because she had other plans and this was a sign of me not following instructions. So I received a spanking with a switch that left me with bruises and welts for 6 days. BUT I must thank AUNTY for the lesson I learned. I had such a wonderful two days.

Aunty has instructed me to write about my feeligs and mentality ( a big word for me). So I have put some thought into this and come up with what I think best fits me. I come to realize I am addicted to diapers. Not only does the wearing of them bring me a sence of security,enjoyment and just a feel good feeling but they provide me with what seems to fuel everything that is me and that is a sence of humiliation. Just the thought that someone else might know or does know I am wearing is such a thrill to me. Now don't get me wronge I would never want to force the general public to know but if someone sees a little bit of my diaper sticking out when I am at wall mart shopping well so what. and that brings me to how I become when wearing, I fall into a trance so to speak, not one that engulfs me but just a feel good place, But when with AUNTY I become engulfed in it and slip into "SUB SPACE" it is at this point I want to let go and have AUNTY make all decisions it is now I want to drink from my bottle, suck my paci,be totally destroyed and humiliated and AUNTY knows just how to bring out the best in me and degrade me to the point I am engulfed. One more thing, recently I spent time just laying in my diaper and watching a movie with AUNTY and I admit that is a really nice place to be<blushing>

This week AUNTY had me come over and she had 2 other sissies there, we all played together and as a reward for good behavior AUNTY allowed us all to make stickies. It felt so so good.

This little one has been so lucky, she has been taken under AUNTY'S MADAR wing and currently being trained by HER. I feel so lucky to be HER little one.

I just celebrated a B - day and AUNTY gave me a spanking for it. My poor bottom hurt for 3 days. AUNTY has also said I need to become a better little one as I am getting older.

OUCH! What a big mistake I made. I threw a tantrum and removed AUNTY'S name from my profile, because I was mad. Well AUNTY invited me over and she gave me a spanking like no other my bottom is purple and I can hardly sit it hurts so bad and she said this is just the first of many punishments I will receive for my infractions. AUNTY has administered my second punishment, or as she has put it, A correction, first she used a pinwheel on my little pee pee that had been soaking in alcohol, but is what happened next that was the most painful experience I have ever experienced, after getting my little pee pee all warm and hard she sprayed amonia on it talk about burning, it was so intense than AUNTY grabbed what she said was lotion to stop the pain but instead coated my pee pee with icy hot and siad "since I like to masterbate so much and cum" AUNTY gave me 5 minutes to do so, I hurt so bad I could not even cum and she just laughed at me. A lessom well learned for cumming and touching without permission.