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This is really hard, isn't it? Finding that person that can not only share your vanilla likes but is a match to your kinky dark side.

I'm not so new anymore, but I haven't been in this lifestyle as long as most. I've met some great people I can call my friends, had my heart broken and learned to hold my head up and move forward with grace. Life lessons I call them... and I wouldn't trade them for anything. Some things interest me more than others, some not at all, and some I haven't tried yet. I explore with those who trust in me. I am a Sensual Dominant and do like some impact play. I don't engage in degradation or humiliation as it's just not my thing. I enjoy Topping those I engage with and I am selective with my time.
Please say more than just Hi...Hello.....What's up or Hmu. Don't ask if I Wanna have some fun as I don't do random hookups. This will most likely get you blocked.

When I check your profile....and I will.... give me a reason to respond back. Have some photos..they don't even need to be of you, and please write something about yourself, and what you're seeking. I know changing your profile or adding to it is a process that takes some time now, but I really won't respond if it's empty. Invest some time or give me your username on the other site I list at the bottom.


Now the fine print

*If you're looking for discretion, look elsewhere. If you can't be public, we won't be private and I am never...ever...an option.

*I am attracted to tall men so you need to be taller than me and at least 5'11.

*Please don't message me if you're under 35 years old. There are plenty of younger women here for you.

*I am not looking for a live-in submissive or slave.

*I am not interested in a long-distance relationship. You would need to be close enough to come to me when I request. I'm not interested in online penpals. * If you choose to message me, include a photo as I've included mine.


Treat me with respect and honesty and you will find that I'm worth the time and effort.


One of the great things I have found here is no matter how young or old you are, or how long you have been here the learning never ends.


Good luck on Your journey.

Whtmtnlady ~ https://fetlife.com/users/1019519
2/18/2023 11:59:14 AM

Just Like This .....

Where'd you wanna go?

How much you wanna risk?

I'm not looking for somebody

With some superhuman gifts

Some superhero

Some fairytale bliss

Just something I can turn to

Somebody I can kiss

I want something just like this...

5/13/2022 8:40:27 PM

~ Reflecting....

Sometimes at night, I see their faces,

I feel the traces they've left on my soul

Those are the memories that make me a wealthy soul.

5/3/2022 6:21:42 PM

I have climbed highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in his fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
But yes I'm still running
You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Oh my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

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1/27/2017 4:28:47 AM

For All The Girls With Messy Hearts And To The Men Who Have Tasted Mine

 

Let’s be honest here –

I am not the girl men fall in love with.
I am the girl that men want to fuck.
I am a conquest. A prize. A show.

I could count on five hundred fingers
the number of people that have professed,
“I like you. You’re different. You’re an interesting girl.”

Apparently I’m not fascinating enough for you
to want to hold for more than a one-night stand.

Once
as I finished swimming a sea of blankets
and got left stranded on the shore,
I asked myself:

What’s wrong with me?
What am I doing?
Am I not good enough for anybody?

And right before I could drown again,
the sun woke up and said,

“You are.
You are enough.
Forget the men whose hands have groped your hips
in search for answers to questions
you’ve never even heard of.
Do not settle for people who do not appreciate you,
who do not know how lucky they are.
Remember it is a privilege to be loved by you,
or even just
to be touched by you, and
the warmth of another body does not define your worth.

These men –
they think that they can own you
with their drunken stares and roughened arms, but
I have circled the earth
a thousand times
to feed the light flowing inside your skin.
Do not waste it by illuminating those who
can not even be bothered
to learn your last name.”

So that night when
the moon tried once more to pin me down,
I told him:

I am made of sunlight, crashing waves, and fireworks.
You think you can tame me
and cool my flesh?
I am the girl who plays with matches,
and trust me I play it well.
Lord knows I’ve walked through villages leaving
a pile of destruction in my wake.

My heart is a bushfire
and the next time you try to control me,
darling, make no mistake –

I will burst out and ravage you in flames.

I’ll
burn
you
to
the
ground.

By Sade Andria Zabala
http://sadeandriazabala.com/

1/23/2017 1:02:25 PM
On Being a Daddy's Girl

"She's Daddy's Girl"....or "Your Daddy's Girl aren't you?"...........these are phrases most girls grow up hearing. I had heard others say it to their daughters, or have someone say it to them. I won't say I never had this said to me, I just don't recall. My father passed away when I was young and though I had adults and 'father figures' in my life....no one was my Daddy...and I was no longer Daddy's girl. My own daughter loves her father...she is a 'Daddy's girl'...and I'm glad that she will have those memories...both of them will as long as life allows.

Up until I entered this lifestyle, I had no knowledge of others using this term. Yes..I had heard or read about other peoples kinks, age role play and what not, but I believe that this is different. Being a submissive/slave to your Dom/Master has its expectations on both parts. You expect your D/M to take care of your, to cherish and protect you...to teach and guide you on the path that you both have chosen, the ideals you both agree upon.

Thats the foundation for a healthy D/s relationship...common values. There are times...when both parties need something different....something of an understanding that goes a bit deeper. There are times when this girl needs to slip away from her duties for a moment and come to her Master, to curl up into his arms and have him chase the monsters out from under the bed.

This girl...Daddy's girl is always strong, but at times she's vulnerable and needs his help, his nurturing, his protection and his love. He needs her too...his babygirl......he chases away the demons. and he holds her tight and dries her eyes.... kisses her fears away and lets her know she will always be safe with him...her Daddy. And she..his babygirl will be there to hold him tight and let him know he's safe too.

So when a girl says she misses her Daddy and she needs him........don't hesitate...... because she honestly needs you.

~b
11/21/2016 5:33:43 AM
"Love like you've never been hurt"

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts.

You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back
9/12/2016 3:37:53 PM
I hit the trifecta today... and you guys say you have it tough Lol.


KINGOFSLAVES790


   Age 36
Dated 9/12/16

I am looking for a rich slave. Are you one? I will require complete financial control. Your income should not be less than $4,000 per month . If you are serious, honest and searching for a long term relationship, contact me at SEARCH_FOR_LOVE7909@YAHOO. Please, no games or play. You will need to give me full control of your life which means: p.c.'s, cam with permission to record your movies. I will own anything you own. I will know your real name, and address. I will do blackmail as well . This will be online, but we will meet every 1 or 2 years for 2 weeks vacation. You will send money to me every month. This is a secret relationship; not public . I will keep your privacy safe. You will need to sign a slave ownership contract with me. Can you do this or not?

SirSacrilege


  Age 20
Dated 9/12/16
Though we're distant, I take Sub/Dom dynamics very seriously. Due to the fact that I have a high-paying job, relocating wouldn not be a problem, provided that you and I click. I have experience as a Dom, and will have high expectations for you as my Sub. Come up short and you'll be punished like the whore you are.

DomHost


  Age 47
Dated 9/12/16
Man you got some fat-ass knkels. You run upwards of 250 pounds. Fair? Chance down BLACK GUYS! They love you circus fat white girls because not only do you pay for all the food but you always make a sandwich for them too after sex. And you are always responsible for changing the cat liter for your twelve cats so your trailer doesnt stink and fill the above ground pool so they can relax. That's what all you in New Hampshire are like. Right. Toothless with great tattoos I give you that much
5/8/2016 7:21:47 PM
I can't listen to this enough.... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Bk7RVw3I8eg
4/4/2016 5:22:48 PM
Kisses....


I was driving to work today thinking about him. Thinking about how long it's been since I've been in his presence...since we've have spent time together, and I thought maybe he's a bit nervous because I know I would be. I imagined sitting next him, trying to make him feel comfortable, putting him at ease. 
 
I began talking about my job and all the drama that is unfolding there, I talked about my living arrangements and how that is going... I talked about my new car and the life lesson I learned and although I know I was speaking, my ears were just hearing babble.. Gawd... I just want to kiss Him! 
 
He was listening intently on my every word, commenting and advising me.. even laughing at times. I do love to hear him laugh. I would look into his eyes as we spoke, but would find my eyes looking away when I felt my cheeks become flush. Something I never knew I did until he told me once... that only made me blush more. 
 
I spoke of my children and how they were doing and felt his index finger trace the side of my face. The feeling of his skin on mine made my heart jump.  I told him of my social friends as his finger moved slowly down my neck and once again this man made my skin burn. My palms began to sweat and I wiped them on my skirt. The good girl in my head told me to behave while the bad girl whispered in my ear "kiss him!". I looked in his dark eyes and could see the smirk on his lips...I just want to taste them but I fought with more chatter about my life. 
 
I began to fidget, cross and uncross my feet, change my position next to him slightly and it occurred to me that as I was the one who was going to make him at ease... I was never more nervous...and he was thoroughly enjoying it.
 
My words were no longer flowing, I had become empty and awkward. I asked about his work, his health, his hobbies. I breathed a sigh of relief when he began to tell me the things that had consumed his life for a year. I listened and thought how bittersweet that so many months had passed us by but here we are now. He then reached over and cupped my chin and pulled me close into him. Our lips touched, they tasted one another and then......they danced.
11/18/2015 12:39:37 PM
Thank you to those who find my quips about my daughter entertaining.  Its just for that purpose...the entertaining moments of being a parent

For those that ask if I am teaching her the purpose of what she was made for... I will not answer. I won't help you get your cock hard that way...that's what MY photos are for.

Parenthood is hard enough in the vanilla world, and if my mind is barely grasping hold of this one that is ever changing, how can I expect hers to grasp it.

A few months ago she lost her debit card. Her dad was helping her look for it and thought he would check her wallet. I get a frantic text from him that he found a condom in her wallet. My unappreciated response...."At least she has one". His precious babygirl with a condom ??..... his world crashed. 

Curiosity really does kill the cat. A few days later he checks her wallet again... another frantic text that it was gone. Another wise ass remark from me ( reason for no longer married) "Okay, I'll buy her some more"  I do think he had a moment of heart failure.

So I get her alone and ask her about this, telling her what her father found. She was rather pissed and rightfully so, but what was amusing was that she didn't care if I looked, but not him. Now to me... ANY adult would have been off limits, but I thought that was cool.

I asked her if she needed more and got a horrified 'NO!".

Her:"I didn't use it...(friend) took it"
Me: "Does she need some?"
Her: "No she put it on her head"
Me: "Excuse me? she did what?"
Her: "We were goofing around and she put it on her head"
Me: smirking  " Well......didn't her hair get all gross and slimy?"
Her: With a confusing look on her face "Why would that happen?"

So see.... we're still battling the vanilla world.... one day at a time. ;-)

4/16/2015 6:41:19 AM
One step forward...two steps back.

The other day I was out shopping and I found a really nice wooden spoon that was on clearance. It was nice and smooth, not too heavy but not too flimsy either so of course this is going in my toy bag.

I brought it home and had it on my bed as I had not yet put it away. My daughter comes in and asks why I have a wooden spoon on my bed. I tell her because it was on clearance so I bought it, mind you she has now seen the movie and read the second book.

The next night I came home from work and she's making dinner.........with my spoon.
3/18/2015 6:51:13 AM
Okay...I did it.  Bad mom or good mom, not quite sure which one just yet. I gave her the second installment of the book. She was quite pleased and laughed.  We shall see.........
2/26/2015 9:33:36 AM

5o Shades of Innocence

 

My 16 yr old daughter just asked me if I had seen 50 Shades yet.. because she has.......Sweet Jesus...here we go.

Me: So what was it about?
Her: I can't tell you... it has that 'stuff' in it
Me: What stuff?
Her: You know... that alphabet stuff...
Me: What alphabet stuff?
Her: You know...
Me: You mean BDSM?
Her: Yes.. but there wasn't much.
Me: What did they do?
Her: I can't tell you, you should see the movie.
Me: Did you read the book?
Her: There's a book?
Me: Yes.. 3 of them.
Her: Well.. I can't wait until the next one.. it ended in a cliff hanger
Me: Mmhmm...people like that.....suspension.
Her: looks at me like wtf shrugs and walks away.

Me...just about rolling on the floor.

11/12/2014 2:56:26 PM
Sometimes...
I lie awake at night, staring at the ceiling.
Thoughts of you dance through my head,
I wonder what your feeling.

Sometimes...
I need a shoulder, a strong chest or an ear,
to listen to me ramble on or dry away my tears.

Sometimes...
I need two open arms to hold me oh so tight,
to comfort me and tell me everything will be allright.

Sometimes...
I need to feel the sharp sting on my skin,
to help me wash away the things that I've been keeping in.

Sometimes...
I need to hear those words that tell me I am fine.
"Good Girl" ...it fills my heart with pride and makes your dark eyes shine.

Sometimes...
I often wonder if you lie in your bed too,
and think of me as often as I have thought of you.

~b
7/8/2014 1:08:44 AM
Mine.........

With a whisper in my ear the heat of his breath as my flesh tingles,

the sound of his voice..'Mine'

The caress of his hand the warmth his skin the seduction of my body,
the sound of his voice..'Mine' 

The visions he creates the stirring inside wave after wave,
the sound of his voice..'Mine' 

Watching him sleep tranquil and calm i whisper in his ear,
the sound of my voice..'mine'
11/10/2013 6:11:08 AM

Why would a woman wish to be a man's submissive slave?...

Such an easy question with not such an easy answer. For the extreme ones... it's black and white, for others there are many shades of grey. I am a shade of grey....or two....or three.

A very common shade of grey happens everyday.. everywhere.. its called marriage. The wife keeps the house in order, cooks, cleans and takes care of herself for her husband, takes care of the kids and keeps her husband happy....a submissive shade of grey.


So what is it for some of us that we need more? Its the man we need... and that is simple enough. This man is not a tyrant, or an abuser, not brutal but he is not passive either. This man is strong, confidant, educated, always in control and knows what he desires , wants and needs... very alpha and Dominant. This man will educate you with things you do not know.. and help you, push you to enhance the things you do know. He will give guidance, structure, discipline, caring, nurturing and yes... even love.

This man praises you for the things you do right, the things you do for him, the things you do for others.... that the thoughts of dissapointing him crush you more than any kind of punishment he could deliver. This man wishes to be the envy of every other man and you to be the envy of every other woman. He will be proud of you... and show you off. You will be whatever he desires you to be... his lady.. his babygirl, his slut or his whore and most likely all of them at the same time......but always his, his property, his slave....there is no question who you belong to.

I will agree that this is not for everybody..being a slave... therefore shades of grey... but for some of us... its what we desire, need and just simply crave. The feeling of his hand in my hair as he pulls and bites my neck, growling in my ear what a good slut I am, the twisting of my nipples, the stretching of my cunt as he inserts his fingers, the feeling of his hard cock pressed against me... this is just the icicing on the cake.

My mornings begin as he sweetens his coffee with my breast milk... and enjoys his breakfast I have prepared while I kneel under the table and suck his cock or anything else he has requested me to do. My body is no longer mine... it belongs to him. .....and I gave it feely. Yes.. he will use me... and he will abuse me.... but never more than I can handle. He will cherish and adore me.

He will decorate my body with welts and bruises becaue it is his body to do with as he pleases. He is proud of his property... he didn't take it, but it was given to him frreely. He will taste my tears.. my tears of pain, my tears of joy and my tears of love. In his ownership of me he has allowed me to be free. He is my world... to serve.. to take care of... not only physically but emotionally. I wear his collar and his leash... I am his pet...he strokes my hair, fucks my cunt, rapes my ass, ravages my mouth but takes me to bed and makes love to me..... my soul is free.

11/1/2013 10:47:34 AM

 Thank you to all that messaged and enjoyed my writing of this piece. Just some honest writing about something I love.

Confessions of a Cocksucker.

I enjoy sucking cock, I enjoy everything about it, but I was not always that way. I remembered back to my first sexual experience. I had 'drunk sex' ..the kind you know something happened but wasn't quite sure what. That was with a college kid and we went back to his dorm....he had the top bunk. I doubt very much that I sucked his cock then but then again... I hardly remember that night.

 It wasn't until a year later I had my first real boyfriend and found out in the back seat on a deserted dirt road that sex hurt but I was more relieved that the drunk sex didn't count. He didn't care for oral sex very much and that was fine with me....I wasn't very good at it anyway. 

 A  few years later when I spread my wings and would find myself in the front seat of a car with my head in someones lap all I would think is "shit, my eyeliner and mascara are going to run and I didn't bring it with me" and "if you don't stop pushing my head down I'm going to vomit on your crotch and you won't be able to go back in for last call".
 
The incident that has stayed with me for years is when I was crossing the room and I broke my toe on the coffee table. The man I was with that night didn't care, but ordered me to suck his cock. I thought "you selfish prick.. I'm in pain and you want me to put that thing in my mouth?" I've thought about that so many times over the years and never knew why it was such a turn on for me....now the pieces begin to fit. 
Over the last 26 years in my marriage I can count the times I have given my ex a blow job on one hand. Sex was non existent and I sure as hell wasn't going to suck his cock....quid pro quo.
 
Fast forward to the present...I have had the occasional 'just for the thrill' encounter, but I do prefer to have had met someone a few times and get to know them a bit either in chats and/or in public. Once I have made that decision that I am going to suck his cock I begin to get very aroused. 
 
Sucking cock is more than just going through the motions to get to an end result for me. It's very physical and mental, the feeling of a hard cock in my mouth,or coaxing a soft cock to become hard, the velvet skin on my tongue, but more so the combination of being on my knees and so submissive yet having such a control over him. I love to watch his face as he grins and contorts, as his body squirms and writhes. I love to hear him tell me I am a good girl,  a good cock sucker and I am driving him crazy.... I love that feeling of empowerment.
 
I read an article not too long ago about how an orgasm isn't the be all, end all and I agree. If he cums great, if not.. that's great too. I enjoy what I do and I make sure he knows it as well. All that matters to me is that I am giving him pleasure and will do so for as long as he wishes......that's who i am and that's what makes me a good cock sucker. 
 
 
 
 
9/20/2013 2:20:56 PM
Tell me that You want me..........
 
Lips to lips, teeth and tongue
Breath to breath and lingering
A sigh so soft and touch so sweet
A flush of color when eyes meet,
Tell me that You want me.......
 
Palms to palms and fingers laced
Breathing moves to quickened pace
My hand slides up and down your thigh
Your lips escape a gentle sigh
Tell me that You want me.......
 
Skin to skin with beating hearts
Fingers roam with graced art
Mouth to mouth, tongues taste and tease
Eyes that beg "Sir may i please?"
Tell me that You want me..........
 
On the floor, hands on your hips
You place your hard cock on my lips.
Slowly, gently , wet and warming
Taunting , tasting, sucking, yearning
Tell me that You want me........
 
Fingrs probe and slowly enter
Teasing, pleasing growing wetter
Climbing higher almost free
Don't you dare girl, you didn't ask Me
Tell me that You want me........
 
 
Cock and cunt about to meet
Passion, lust and things so sweet
Feeling you so deep inside
A single tear escapes my eye
Tell me that You need me........
 
You lay you body next to mine
Contented soul and eyes that shine
Lips to lips, and hands that roam
Rest well my Sir, Your heart is home.
Let me tell You that i want You.......
 
 
~b~
3/30/2013 7:12:08 AM

Self Worth........

I think allot of us have given ourselves a lesser value and we end up getting taken for granted. Yeah... it's smokin' hot in the bedroom, but not so much when we need our Dom/Master's attention because we feel insecure, afraid, lonely or when the monsters come out from under the bed.

 

So we need to be choosy and ask hard questions.... Ownership comes with responsibility. Is this person actually able to take care of me? Is he going to make good decisions and does he understand what are good decisions.......and........audition.  

 

Yes... audition. Tell him why he needs you, what you can do for him. But learn not to take the constant rejection so hard as those men don't want to own us....... they just want to use the best parts and throw us away.

 

Someday if we are lucky.... if i am lucky... i will find the right set of feet to kneel at. A Master who's wise and  strong and has a delicious mixture of kindness and cruelty.  And when that day comes, he will have a better time with me..... what fun is it playing with an already broken toy?  

 

And when he sees that look of defiance in my eyes and they glaze over with lust as he strips away my strength...... one lash at a time........he knows exactly what i am worth.....and so do i.

3/20/2013 5:28:06 PM
Please Mother Nature.....'RED'....enough snow already....sigh
3/5/2013 1:23:18 PM

Close your eyes and surrender to your
darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life
you knew before!
Close your eyes,
let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live
as you've never lived before ...

Softly, deftly,
music shall surround you ...
Feel it, hear it,
closing in around you ...
Open up your mind,
let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which
you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of the music of the night ...

Let your mind start a journey
through a strange new world!
Leave all thoughts
of the world you knew before!
Let your soul take you where you
long to be !
Only then can you belong to me ...

Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin,
let your darker side give in
to the power of the music that I write -
the power of the music of the night ...

You alone can make my song take flight -
help me make the music of the night . . .

 

 

~Andrew Lloyd Webber, Phantom Of The Opera

 

 

 

2/15/2013 4:47:23 AM
He holds her in the palm of His hand.
 
His touch brings her pleasure, His touch brings her pain
His look can bring fear, her tears falling like rain
 
His breath makes her tingle as it graces her flesh
His eyes make her shiver, His words.. they caress.

His hand holds the leather, the wood and the rope
His lips make her whimper with desire and hope
 
His arms hold her tight as she cries in the night
Dispelling the demons and soothing the fright
 
His hand strokes her softly as He rocks her to sleep
Awake if need be to care for His keep
 
His touch will be gentle, His touch one of love
His words are of praise as she flies high above
 
Stretching her wings to give it her all
His hand out to catch her if ever she falls
 
He's her Master, her Daddy , her Love and much more
She's His slave, she's His love, babygirl and His whore
12/29/2012 7:58:11 AM
Yes indeeed...............
 
BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
GIRL: Will he offer me his mouth?
BOY: Yes
GIRL: Will he offer me his teeth?
BOY: Yes
GIRL: Will he offer me his jaws?
BOY: Yes
GIRL: Will he offer me his hunger?
BOY: Yes
GIRL: Again, will he offer me his hunger?
BOY: Yes!
GIRL: And will he starve without me?
BOY: Yes!
GIRL: And does he love me?
BOY: Yes
GIRL: Yes
BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
GIRL: Yes
BOY: I bet you to say that to all the boys.
 
~Jim Steinman~
12/27/2012 11:04:28 AM

i want You to understand.....that

i understand that at times You like to play and have fun. That You enjoy hair pulling, and face slapping, and bruising and abusing and biting.

i also understand You need.. crave so much more and it's not a choice, for either of us... it's who W/we are.

i understand that i won't kneel for You, or crawl to You and offer my wrists for You to bind because its fun or only when it suits me.

i understand that You will take what You want, when You want, and i will do as i'm told as i know there will be consequences if i don't.

i understand that i will hurt, or be uncomfortable and i will suffer for You because You want it and You know what it means that i do..... to prove to You that i need and desire to be with You... to have Your attention and keep it.

i understand what it means to offer myself to You, and that You will take. i will ache because i am meant to, because it delights You, because You want it.

i understand my place and it makes You at ease in Yours. i know what You need.

i understand that i will surrender to what i am, to what i need. There will be no excuses.

i understand that i will feel pain, humiliation and abuse, however, i will also feel feel safe, protected, fufilled and loved.

i understand this is very real... and it won't be easy, but do You Sir understand that though You may desire me...............do You understand that You need me.

 

12/6/2012 7:07:02 AM
Last Night
 
Last night the wind listened as i spoke to the moon.
Veiled arms wrap around me, hush my pet......... soon.
 
The breeze kisses my neck so enticing and cold
It teases my flesh...desires controlled.
 
Out of the darkness Your shadow appears
You beckon the demons and call on my fears.
 
"Come with Me little girl", "Take My hand, hold it tight"
walking beside You exploring the night.
 
Your lips brush my ear as You growl Your commands
"Strip for Me now girl", "Give Me your hands"
 
Tied to the tree, the moon's glow burning bright
Your eyes pierce my soul and lay claim to the fright.
 
You mouth covers mine, You take my last breath
With You inside me, i won't fear this death.
 
Our bodies, they sink to the darkness below
not a place for the faint, but the wicked to go.
 
The spirits, they dance with the shrieks and the screams
'Nothing to fear pet.. these are your dreams"
 
my visions are carnal, brimming with lust.
With a wave of Your hand they are all turned to dust.
 
"I'll bring you here girl, this place that you seek
but there's no turning back, it is not for the weak."
 
"Here you will be Mine and I will be yours"
i surrender to You, to the one i adore.
 
Last night the wind listened as i spoke to the moon.....
 
~b~
11/28/2012 3:14:54 PM
“Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you. When someone loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.'

'Does it hurt?' asked the Rabbit.

'Sometimes,' said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. 'When you are Real you don't mind being hurt.'

'Does it happen all at once, like being wound up,' he asked, 'or bit by bit?'

'It doesn't happen all at once,' said the Skin Horse. 'You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand. Once you are Real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.”
~Margery Williams~ The Velveteen Rabbit
 
..................i just want to become Real.
 
 
11/26/2012 10:42:47 AM

Borrowed from another site:

How to Get Laid on CollarMe

For Men
 
1. Make sure you put "Master" in your messages, even if you're really submissive.
 
2. Put up at least three pictures of your penis, including at least one jerk off shot and one "money shot". Even more special, post a picture of your ass with something in it.
 
3. Never, ever, use spell check.
 
4. Go to any local group you find, after searching in your area, and post a note saying you are looking for some fun with someone into oral and anal. Be sure to say BBW's are okay, because fat chicks, as everyone knows, are more desperate, so you're willing to fuck a fat chick, it will increase your chances of getting laid.
 
5. Refer to women as "bitches", "whores" or "sluts", even if you don't know them or anything about their dynamic. Us kinky chicks really love that.
 
6. Refuse to give your real name, phone number or any information of an identifying nature to your potential play partners. My god, they could actually find you afterwards!
 
7. Send the same exact message to every person you write. Copy and paste will save you a lot of work over time. It's not really what you write that matters anyway, it's the size of your penis.
 
8. Tell everyone that invites you to a munch or education event that you really see no need to go out in public with your kink. OMG, someone you know might see you eating lunch with other people, or, even worse, you might actually learn something.
 
9. Call all dominant women "Mistress" and all submissive women "slave".
 
10. Ask if you can come right over to their house with your camera. Or, better yet, ask to borrow her camera. (Aren't we all fetish photographers in a way?)
 
11. Once you have a "fish" on the line, ask if you can go to their house, because your mom took the day off from work so they can't come to yours.
 
For Women
 
1. Make a CollarMe profile.



11/8/2012 3:55:10 AM

One day, while going to the store, I passed by a nursing home. On the front lawn were six old ladies lying naked on the grass, Millie Nelda, Elma, Lacey, Sippy and Rosie.

I thought this was a bit unusual, but continued on my way to the store. On my return trip, I passed the same nursing home with the same six old ladies lying naked on the lawn.

This time my curiosity got the best of me, and I went inside to talk to the Nursing Home Administrator.

'Do you know there are six ladies lying naked on your front lawn?'

Yes,' she said. 'They're retired prostitutes, and they're having a yard sale.

 
10/9/2012 5:22:11 PM
Comes The Dawn ~Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads on today,
Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.

ashelatthebeach
 
 Age: 26
 Youngstown, Ohio