1/25/2013 4:14:31 PM: Sticks and stones may break my bones - but humiliation sets me off

3/30/2012 5:41:38 AM: Hello everyone,     So, I've been chatting a lot with a Mistress from another community these past few days. She knows I enjoy writing fiction, and when I told her that I was going chaste for a few days and that I was looking for a deadline, she gave me one. I was on my second day of self enforced chastity, and this is rather a hard thing for me to be on.   So that same day I was to write her a at least two pages long story, half erotic, half romantic, before I was allowed to cum again. (For those interested in the story, it's written in German. If you can read that language, drop me a message, and I will send the story).   So I was allowed to cum again on day three, and since this Mistress did not order me a special method to do it, it was all up to my nasty mind. I have a pair of well worn, a bit dusty leather shoes, and they were pretty perfect for what I had in mind. I don't really have a shoe or foot fetish. It's about the act of submission and the delightful way of humiliation this can be, for me.   So I got naked, and started kissing my shoe, my right hand stroking a hard cock, my left hand not supporting my kneeling weight (the shoe was on the floor), but behind my back.   I hadn't planned on licking that boot, but withing seconds my lips parted, in an automatic response, and I did just that. It felt weird, and while I imagined a Mistress in that shoe, I had for a sliver or a second a glimpse of that feeling of submission I'd love to feel one day.

2/20/2012 5:21:28 AM: After reading a wonderful Journal update here on this site, from a Mistress detailling Her torturing Her private, 24/7 TPE property, I felt extremely aroused and subby. I don't think I am a masochist. Humiliation I enjoy, and most, the act of submission. But this Journal entry about savage pain being inflicted on that slave, did more than make me horny. I wanted to try this, but lacking a partner, I took a wooden ruler and smacked my thighs and ass with it. I tried being harsh, but I soon gave up. Not for the pain, but because doing it myself was ... uninteresting. It hurt a bit, but there was no feeling of helplessness. Not even someone watching.     If anyone has a proposal as to how this could change, please share it with me in a message.